Chapter 17

Telling Sarah and Brian

Kyle's POV

As I am swirling Jessi around, Sarah and Brian are looking at us from the door. Is hard to put Jessi down as I am very happy and I would like this moment to last forever. But our children need us.

Brian says, Mommy why were you screaming? Jessi stands Brian on the bed and looks at him in the eye, she says, don't worry sweetheart, when I woke up I was a bit confused, but I am well now. Brian put's his little hands on Jessi's checks and say's, okay mommy I just got scared. Jessi hugs Brian and says, I am sorry Brian I did not mean to scare you.

Once Sarah is sure that there is nothing wrong with Jessi she pulls on my arm and tells me, Kyle can you swirl me around as you were doing with mommy it looks like fun. I look at Sarah take her in my arms and start swirling her. Sarah starts laughing, and I laugh with her, her laughter is contagious. Then I sit on the bed and she jumps out of my arms.

Jessi takes my hand, and the four of us go to finish eating breakfast. I make a fresh cup of coffee for Jessi and she kisses my cheek while saying, thank you handsome. I respond you welcome gorgeous. Then Sarah says let's make sand castles. Jessi responds, we can make sand castles for the next hour, but after Kyle and I need to talk to you. Brian tells Jessi, but mommy I don't want to talk about fairy tales, that's for girls. What? Jessi says. Then Sarah looks at her brother and tells him I want to talk about fairy tales, are we mommy?

Jessi laughs and tells the children, mmm…we are really not going to be talking about fairy tales. Sarah looks disappointed and complains, but I heard you talking with Kyle and you said something about fairy tales. Sarah just looks so disappointed, I tell her, Sarah what if we talk about fairy tales tonight before bed. She looks at me and tells me, promise? I respond I promise. She smiles and says, okay, let's go and make sand Castles.

As the four of us make sand castles, I realize is the first time that we are working on something together as a family. I am hopeful we'll get to do many more things together, after all Jessi and I are going to get married, and now I am sure she loves me just as much as I love her.

The hour passes really fast, and Jessi stands up and tells us, time to go in to the cabin and talk. My heart starts accelerating to be honest I am scared. I love my children so much, and they are very important to me. Their reaction is important to me. I just pray that it will not be that hard on them. I want the best for them like any other father.

I stand up, and Jessi puts and arm around me and tells me, Kyle it's going to be all right we are doing this together. I look at her beautiful eyes that are green this morning and tell her, thank you Jessi I can do anything if I am with you. Jessi corrects me Kyle we can do anything if we are together. I smile at her she is right.

Jessi's POV

As I wake up, I wonder if Kyle is really with me or if it is a dream. But it is not a dream. Kyle is really here with me and wants us to get married. I have an engagement ring on my finger to prove it. I think I am going to have to look at my ring often to convince myself that is really happening.

Kyle and the children are growing close fast, that makes me very happy. I do feel a bit guilty. I wish I would have given Kyle a chance to be a father from the beginning. I cannot change the past, but I can help Kyle to jump in to his new role, I'll be with him every step of the way. I must say that he seems to be a natural.

As we eat breakfast and then make sand castles I am surprised at how easy it is for the four us to do things together. For as long as Roger has been in our life it has never been this easy to do things with him. I'll have to talk to him on Monday. I am not looking forward to it I'll try to push it to the back of my mind until then. I have other important things to do this weekend.

As I announce that it is time to go in to the cabin to talk, I realize how nervous Kyle is. I try to reassure him by telling him that we are in this together. To be quite honest I am feeling anxious myself. The children are just so young, is hard to decide how much they need to know at this point. We will have to decide as we go depending on their reaction and questions.

We enter the cabin and I have Sarah put on shorts on top of her bathing suit, I do the same, Brian puts a T-shirt on and I see Kyle does the same. I say, why don't you go and sit at the living room, I am going to get us some juice and snacks. Kyle and the kids, go to the living room. I find them sitting on pillows around the coffee table. Kyle has a pillow waiting for me.

I let everyone get a glass of juice and some snacks. Before I can say a word Sarah says, what are we talking about?, yes what are we talking about? Brian says. I start, we are talking about families. Oh! They say looking at me like I have lost my mind. I continue why you don't tell me about the families of some of your friends. Sarah tells me you strange mommy, but okay I have 2 best friends Lindsey and Vicky. Lindsey lives with her mommy and daddy and she has a big brother that is annoying. Vicky lives with her daddy, her stepmother and her baby sister. Her mommy lives far away and Vicky visits with her in the summer.

What about you Brian? I question. Briand starts, I have many friends but my best friend is Dominic, he lives with his mommy and he does not have a daddy just like Sarah and me.

I continue, mmm…well the thing is that you do have a daddy. We do? Asks a surprised Brian. Sarah starts laughing and says, you are silly mommy, if we had a daddy he would have to be especial like us and oh!, I was going to say that there is no one else like us, you are like us right Kyle? Kyle looks at her and responds, I sure am Sarah. Brian asks Kyle, are you our daddy Kyle?

Kyle takes a couple of breaths and tells them, yes I am Brian. I am the daddy of you and Sarah, and I think you are the best children in the world. I am very lucky to be your daddy. Then a few tears escape Kyle's eyes. Sarah walks to him and gives him a hug, she asks, why are you crying?

Kyle hugs her and says, because I am afraid that you might not like me. Sarah kisses his cheek and gives him her, you are silly look. Then Brian walks to Kyle and tells him, you are as silly as mommy, haven't you noticed that Sarah and I like you? Kyle smiles at Brian and hugs him, he says, you are right, I am being silly, of course I've noticed you like me.

Then Brian tells Kyle, you know Sarah and I could not understand why you love us as much as mommy does. Now it makes sense. Kyle smiles and tells them, I do love you a lot, and I am sorry I have not been around until now.

Sarah tells him, was that because you were busy helping people to live in peace? That is what you said at Switzerland. Kyle responds, that is part of it. Brian ask and what is the other part? Kyle looks at me, I realize he does not know how to answer that question without getting me involved he is really trying to take the bulk of the responsibility and is trying to avoid the children thinking that I had anything to do with it. But of course I did, I now believe that I have as much responsibility as Kyle, maybe more in causing Kyle to be absent from Brian's and Sarah's life.

It looks like Kyle is going to say something, but I am faster, children the other part is that Kyle your daddy did not know about you, because I did not tell him.

Sarah asks me, why didn't you tell him mommy?

I answer, your daddy and I had a fight before you were born, and we did not see each other until we went to Switzerland.

Brian asks, but you are happy now right?

Kyle tells the children, I love your mommy very much and I am always happy when I am with her. I kiss Kyle's temple and tell the kids, I also love your daddy very much. I am always happy around him. Your daddy and I love each other and you so much that we have decided to get married. That means we will always be together even if we fight.

Sarah looks at Kyle with a serious look and asks him, do you want Brian and me to call you daddy?

Kyle responds, I would love it, but only if you want, you really can call me anything you want. Sarah tells him, I want to call you daddy I've always wanted a daddy. Brian says, I rather call you dad, but yes I agree with Sarah, I've always wanted a dad.

Tears are running down my cheeks, I am happy that things are going so well. I wonder why I never realized how much Sarah and Brian need a father in their lives. Maybe it was for the best otherwise I might have married Roger just to give them a father.

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