As Inu-yasha walked away, he herd Kagome shout at him.
" Don't you dare believe them Inu-yasha! Not a word! You will always have Your mom and dad, my mom. And you know I will always stand by you! Were all hear for you!" Kagome told him.
Inu-yasha had to smile. That was Kagome for you. Always trying to help every one. His smile turned sad. Kagome would never love a half-breed like him. He truly didn't deserve a friend like Kagome. Or any friend for that matter, lest of all Kagome. God's how he wished he just could have kissed her once. Her soft innocent lips always seemed to beckoning him, teasing him of what he could never have. There was more then one sleepless night that he had thought about what their wedding would have been like.
Over the years as he became a man, he had many wet dreams about Kagome, never any one else. He would wake up panting and hopelessly aroused, and ashamed of what he had done. He felt like he had violated her.
As Inu-yasha turned of the road to go in to the forest, the wind picked up. Inu-yasha couldn't stop the tears falling down his face at the thought he had just had. He would never get to see her beautiful face again. Never to hear her laugh, never to be with her again. To never be at her side again. Inu-yasha had wanted to be at her side when she found a man to love her for her. Even at the thought of some one else having her love and being able to love her, mad him see red, but as soon as the hate and anger fond him it left him. Left him sad beyond come pair.
Inu-yasha had wanted to be there for her when she got married to her loved one. To just hold her hand as she brought her beautiful pups in to life, they would be the mostwonderful little pups in the whole wide world. Because they were made from Kagome. And no matter what he would have treated the pups as his own. Even thou his demon side screamed almost in agony at the thought of Kagome fat with another males pup. Having intercourse with another male. He couldn't bring himself to call it love making.For Inu-yasha knew that he would never have children. Kagome would always been in his heart, always be his mate. Dog demons were faithful to the death and even beyond. To Inu-yasha only two women were alive, his mother and Kagome.
Inu-yasha was sick of being made fun of. He could not bare the thought of how he brought down his mother and Father. Kagome. That's why he planned it all out. Inu-yasha had gathered every thing he needed. Things he needed to end his life. End it.
Inu-yasha dug in to the pocket of his trench coat, and pulled out the list. It was a neatly folded piece of paper that had blood and tear stains on it. Blood from when he had cut him self over and over, just to watch the cut heal its self in seconds. No matter how deep he cut it healed. Witch made Inu-yasha think about how to keep the cuts open. He had come up with wiring them open with bob- ware.
Inu-yasha's list.
3 yards of bob- wire
One dagger.
12 feet of heavy rope just in case
As Inu-yasha walked in to the secret clearing of his, he looked up at the full moon. No one knew of his secret place except for Kagome, and she wouldn't find him in time. Inu-yasha took out the stuff he had hide. And set up for what would happen next. Inu-yasha rolled up the sleeve's of his trench coat. He wanted to be berried in his trench coat. Inu-yasha took his dagger and using all his strength he cut his left arm until the blade grinding against his bone, he dragged the blade in tight circles around his arms from the top of his bicep to his wrist. Blood flood freely down his arm so mush so that you couldn't see past the flowto the flash that lay beneath the hideous scarlt redriver.
Inu-yasha quickly grounded a yard and a half of bob- wirein to his disfigured arm to keep open his wounds on his left arm. Than fallowed the same thing on his right arm, only having an little trouble. He was getting drowsy and his bloody left hand kept slipping on the hilt of the dagger.
Inu-yasha lye down on the floor and just stared up at the darkening sky. Feeling calm, as blood pooled around him. It formed a huge puddle under him. Inu-yasha could taste blood rushing into his mouth. It over flood, and burst from his lips as he gasped for breath. The dark blood ran down his chin and neck in small rivers to join in to the ever growing puddle under him. Slowly Inu-yasha felt more drowsy. His eye lids felt like lead.
Inu-yasha stared up at the moon. " Kagome….. You will never…..know how….your best friend-----….. Loved you…….How he….loved….you……….for years…." Inu-yasha cough and wheezed on blood, as he told the ever silent moon. Some people say you see your like before you die, some say you see the things you' veforgotten, Inu-yasha didn't care. He was content as a picture of Kagome's smiling face came in to his mind. He closed his eye's and let his head fall side ways in to the scarlet red puddle.
Sigh, Inu-yasha sound so like me, I put a little of
My self in to Inu-yasha. Its sad when you do
Write a list…I should know…