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Kagome gasped as she woke up, her heart pounding. Her pulse racing, sweat was running down her face. Tears ran down her cheeks. She tried not to wake the boy that was sleeping at her back. Kagome turned in Inu-yasha's arms to snuggle against his chest. She pushed her head under his chin and listened to the deep even beating of his heart. Kagome whimpered softly and wrapped her arms around his chest. She nestled her head in to the warmth, that was coming from his chest. Kagome grabbed one of his hands. She fisted her hand in to his silky silver locks. The dream was to much for her. To fresh in her mind.
Kagome signed, she knew holding Inu-yasha like this would make an award situating on the morrow. But she had to be sheer that Inu-yasha wouldn't leave her. To protect him from himself, and others. She wanted to be strong, but with out him, Kagome knew she would feel dead. No one could take him from her. It would be like some one deciding that she couldn't live any more, and then ripping out her heart. Kagome thought insanely about how she could survive a lot longer with out her heart then Inu-yasha. Kagome sighed once more before allowing her self to fall back in to sleep, comforted, the deep musky male sent that was Inu-yasha. Little did she know a pair of old gold eye's were watching every move she made.
Sun shined throw the hospital window. The room was silent, except for the rustling of the white curtains of the hospital room. White ears flickered back and forth, as if seeking for a disturbances. Slowly, golden drowsy eye's opened. Inu-yasha felt a wait on his chest. Kagome was smuggled on to his chest, her head right over his heart. Her mouth was slightly open. Her silken raven hair was spread across his chest. One of he hands was on his left ear, while then other one was grasping his left hand tightly. One of Kagome's legs were in between his. Inu-yasha blushed right up to his roots.
It didn't help when Inu-yasha looked over to see his parents at the table playing cards, looking over at them. Kagome stirred slightly, but snuggled in to his chest more and pulled the covers over her face. Trying in vain to block the sun. At that time a nurse entered pushing a cart with food trays. She went over and handed his parents their trays first, than headed to the bed.
Inu-yasha turned a deeper shade of red as the nurse smiled and gave him a wink, as she set his and Kagome's trays on the side table.
" This one that's blue, is for you. And the purple if for your little girl friend. The difference is that one has human vitamins and the other one is for half- demons. I heard the little sweet heart, throw up all that was in her stomach and she will suffer nightmares for sheer. The poor dear. It was one hell of a day for her. But she took it like a trouper." The nurse smiled softly down at the sleeping form of Kagome.
" H- how was she yester day?" Inu-yasha asked the nurse.
" She looked so broken, I was the one that told her to call your parents. The poor dear had to be strong. Telling something like that to a loved one is always hard. Most people couldn't have done it. That just shows people just how strong her heart is." The nurse said as she left.
Inu-yasha's heart felt like it was being ripped from his chest. What had he done to Kagome. Gods, he hoped she would forgive him, for he knew he'd never forgive himself for hurting her. Never in a thousand years would he forget that her had caused her pain The woman he had chosen as his mate. The woman he loved more than life. How did he look in her eye's now? Could he bare to see the hate she must feel for him. A small part of him asked, if she hated him so mush why was she snuggled on his chest?
Inu-yasha shook his head, he couldn't go in to self- pity. It was not his main concern. Kagome's health, was top priority, would always be top priority. To him, the sun would never shine if he got up, any day and didn't see Kagome that day. Inu-yasha sat up slowly laying Kagome's head gently in his lap. He shook her, until she blinked her glazed eye's. Inu-yasha's heart jumped in to his throat at the beautiful vision that lay in his lap. He felt his heart give of almost painful throbs reminding him how mush in love with her he truly was. Every thing seemed to disappeared before his eyes but Kagome.
Kagome blinked up at Inu-yasha, slowly she got up to a sitting position. Only to find out she was sitting between his legs. Kagome instantly went red. She jumped up and off the bed. As soon as she touched the floor, she got woozy and dizzy. She staggered and feel to her knees.
" Kagome!" she could hear her name being called by three people, but she couldn't answer as she feel in to darkness.
Inu-yasha staggered from the hospital bed and picked Kagome of the floor. Ignoring the pain that the action caused in his arms, he sat on the edge of his bed with Kagome in his lap. Inu-yasha couldn't bring himself to let her go, not after seeing her clasps to the floor. Inu-yasha's shaking hand ran throw her inky locks. Inu-yashio and Lilly ran over to the couple on the bed.
Inu-yashio checked her pulse, and eye's. He, signed. Inu-yasha looked up at his father with worried eye's.
" Inu-yasha, she's fine. She's just got a case of malnutrition. She hasn't eaten, and from what we've heard she's gotten ride of what ever in her stomach. Once she wakes up again, make sheer she eats something right away son. Me and your mother are going to go to Kagome's home and explain to her mom what happened. Than we will go home for a few hours." Inu-yashio said as he kissed Inu-yasha's for head then Kagome's. Lilly fallowed his example. They headed for the door, but Inu-yashio stopped. " We will take at noon, Inu-yasha. The doctors said you can go then. We will take then. Good bye my son." Inu-yashio and Lilly left.
Inu-yasha signed. He was in trouble and he knew his mother would start crying again. He shook his head and looked down at Kagome's sleeping face. How he wished he could Kiss her. But she would be afraid, after what that bastered Kouga had done to her. If he ever got his hands Kouga, he would be a wanted man, err, half- demon. Inu-yasha sighed again, he felt the rage and sorrow deep with in his heart again. Inu-yasha continued his strokes on her hair.
Inu-yasha watched as Kagome's eye lids fluttered and she stirred. Kagome looked up at him with her wide blue eye's. she looked so vulnerable, that Inu-yasha felt his protective feelings kick in to high gear. Inu-yasha grabbed the food tray and pulled it closer to him. He grabbed the toast that was on the tray and brought in to Kagome's lips. He pushed the toast against her lips. When she didn't open her mouth, Inu-yasha got frustrated.
" Come on Kagome you need to eat some thing. Or you'll pass out again. Now look your hands are beginning to shake. Come on you can trust me, I could never hurt you, you know that." Inu-yasha told Kagome. She blinked up at him hazily. Inu-yasha could tell she had gone more the five days with little food. Inu-yasha freaked out when he noticed he could feel her ribs though her shirt. Inu-yasha became desperate.
" Kagome when was the last time you eat a proper meal?" Inu-yasha asked franticly. Kagome looked away, but not before Inu-yasha saw the shame in her sad eye's. Inu-yasha shook her. " Kagome answer me now! When was the last time you eat more then an animal cracker size?" Inu-yasha asked her more despite by each second then went by.
" Two and a half weeks…." Kagome finally whispered softly. Inu-yasha slammed the piece of toast back on the tray. Anger and pain ran throw him. How could this happen to this beautiful black hair angel? How could it? Inu-yasha slowly grabbed the bottom of her shirt and lifter it until it was just below her breasts. Inu-yasha gasped in denial. She looked like a skeleton. He could easily see every one of her ribs. Dark shadows had formed under each rib. Inu-yasha's heart stopped working and he couldn't breath. Even his demon side howled his denial as his human side screamed.
" why…." was all he could make himself say, and even that came out as more of a sound of anguish then words. Kagome would not meet his eye's.
"I….. I'm u- ugly Inu-yasha a…and I'm fat… I can't understand why you can even hand out with me, o- or look at me…" Kagome whispered. Inu-yasha could only stare at his beautiful angel. How could she say she was ugly and fat? NO! NO! NO! Inu-yasha pulled her closer to his chest, as he pulled down her shirt. He placed his head on top of her and let his tears fall in to her hair. He felt so ashamed of him self. He should have know she was doing this to herself, but all he could think about was how he hurt. He had tried to die when Kagome needed him the most. How could he become a good mate if he couldn't take care of Kagome now?
" I'm sorry its all my fault, Kagome. I should have caught the sighs sooner. I should have been there for you when you needed me the most. Gods, how I hate myself. I tried to leave this world behind me, when you so desperately needed me. I will never forgive my self, now! NEVER! Not for as long as I live. I will keep my promise and never hurt myself again, I vow. I will make sheer you eat something every two to three hours. Until I get you back to the wait standard for your age! And even then I will make sheer you eat 3 square meals a day! You must way only 65 pounds now! God's if you get any lighter there will be nothing left of you." Inu-yasha whimpered. Kagome tried to push at his chest, but was to weak, to even push.
" It's not your fault Inu-yasha." Kagome tried to tell him, but he ignored her completely and grabbed both their trays and picked the piece of toast up again and pushed it against her lips, with more force this time. When Kagome again didn't open her mouth Inu-yasha, snarled.
" Kagome you will eat some thing. Even if I have to shove it down your throat." Inu-yasha told her.
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