Keiko Ookami- hi, I hate waiting for chapters as well. I will try to keep up- dating once or even two times now that school's over. Well today's the last day form me its like 4:57am in the morning now…..
EmChi- I'd love to talk to you, but the stupid computer wont let me. As to your questions. Yes I do feel the cuts I make. I focus my self on the cuts, because I always am hallo and empty. If I'm not empty I feel like some one is poking me in the chest with a hot poker. I always feel like there's a hole in my chest.
InuandKagforever- hi, I know how that goes as well, but not that much, when I went to counseling for all my problems I wouldn't tell the damn bitch any think, and yes I'm a girl.
And to every one, sorry for spelling and grammar. I told every one it beginning I suck, ok, please do not comment on it again, I will try my hardest to spell correctly.
" Kagome you will eat something, Even if I have to shove it down your throat." Inu-yasha told her. He pushed the piece of toast against her lips yet again. Kagome looked into Inu-yasha's sad eye's. She knew then that she would not stand a chance when he had that look in his eye's. The look of determination and of self loath. Kagome sighed and opened her mouth and took a bit. Inu-yasha still wouldn't let her get up from his lap.
Inu-yasha held Kagome to his chest, he could feel her ribs against his stomach. He piled, then scolded him self for being weak. For being weak when Kagome obviously needed him to be strong and stand fem. He could have prevented this if he hadn't been so wrapped up in his own problems. As he watch Kagome take small bits of the toast, he grabbed a fork with his other hand, from one of the trays and stabbed a sausage with it. As soon as Kagome finished the toast, Inu-yasha started her on the sausage.
Inu-yasha watched on as Kagome ate little bits of food. Inu-yasha shook his head. He promised that from this day forward he would check Kagome's wait and he would never be blind to what Kagome was going through. Never again he vowed, would he let her hurt herself like this ever again. He was afraid to let Kagome down from his lap. If he let her down she would crumple to the floor again.
His felt his demon and human stir. They were in just as much pain as he was. His demon side was crying blood red tears, will his human side was weeping normal salty tears in his heart. So much sorrow, so much pain. Inu-yasha signed as he made Kagome eat the food even of his tray.
Kagome felt stuffed as Inu-yasha stopped stuffing food in to her face. After not eating for two and a half weeks, she felt really tiered and lend back in the warmth of Inu-yasha's chest. Inu-yasha seemed to since, her need to sleep, because soon he was leaning back. Soon Kagome found her self on his chest, laying down. Kagome tried in vain to leave his arms and get of his chest. Inu-yasha growled, the sound vibrated is chest violently. Kagome was trapped harder against his chest, as his arms tightened around her and pulled her more firmly against him.
Inu-yasha moved one of his hands up to cup her head, he pressed it more firmly to his chest. He started to purr. Inu-yasha had done this on may occasions to calm Kagome down, and to send her sleep. Kagome could never stand against the " purr", not the gentle vibrations of his chest, or the soft sound coming from deep with in his chest. She let her lids fall over her tiered eyes. Kagome sighed softly and melted in to Inu-yasha. And she was swiftly lost in dream land.
Inu-yasha couldn't sleep, he had to think. His mind was in a tangled mess. He singed, how could things go to hell so fast. Inu-yasha had thought he was the only messed up one, but he was wrong. How could his beautiful angel be so fucked up. Gods above, why hadn't he noticed? Was he that stupid. Inu-yasha knew noon was coming and that he would have to face his parents. He would not let Kagome come with him. He knew she would ask, but he would not let her. She was already stressed enough. Inu-yasha looked down at his bandaged arms. Even though he was half demon, the cuts would become scares.
They would just be another reason he could never be good enough for Kagome. Not just the emotional reason behind every scare, but the scare's themselves. Kagome deserved some one that wouldn't carry marks of his failed with him every were he went. No, she deserved better then a man that would be scared all his life. But he would keep his promise, he would look after her.
Inu-yasha sighed and looked out the window. The sun shine filtered throw the drapes. Kagome sighed and snuggled as close to him as possible. Her movements drew Inu-yasha's attention. He once again looked down at her. Kagome's head rested above his heart again. It set Inu-yasha's blood on fire. That was how mates showed complete trust to their mate. They would lay their head over their heart, and allow their mate to touch them how ever they pleased. Inu-yasha's heart picked up its beat instantly.
In demon mating, there were only a few ways to show trust. And even less places, where to show trust. The places were the neck, over the heart, sexual places, and appendages. Inu-yasha really didn't let any one else touch his ears, not even his mother. It just felt wrong to have any one else touch them. He blushed, Kagome loved to play with his ears. He would never admit that when she had touched them he had gotten aroused. He had dreamt of her liking and sucking on his ears, kissing their tips.
Inu-yasha remembered his dreams when he woke. In graphic detail. Kagome would hate him if she new how he dreamt of feeling her soft round breast. He had seen them once a long time ago, when they had gone swimming at a public pool. She had almost lost her bikini top. It had up around her neck. Inu-yasha had seen her creamy white breasts. Kagome's pecks were a soft creamy pink color. They were hard little peaks, hardened by the cool water. After that day they hunted his every cream and entered his thoughts frequently.
Inu-yasha felt so mush like a pervert. He was lucky that day he was in the water. He had become as hard as stone. He had also started to pant. His dreams were filled with exiting meetings, and then casual meetings, that turn steamy. Their mating would be slow and tortures. Then turn hot and wild. He would be dominate, but his little innocent Kagome would push him on to his bask and guide him home. She would ride him, and Kagome would play with his ears. Kagome would whisper 'I love you' in to his ears over and over, as she thrusted her hips against his. She would scream his name, as she came. Kagome would ask him to give her a child.
Some of his dreams were milder. Inu-yasha would dream of proposing to Kagome. She would smiled a smile that was just for him. Kagome would run in to his arms. She would kiss him, and let him slide the ligaments ring on her finger. Kagome would let him take her in his arms and spin her around. All the will she would look down at him with love filled eye's.
Then their was his favorite tip of dream. The day they got married. Kagome would church isle looking like a Goddess in simple white gown with a Boca of red roses. His universe would center around her. As hers would around him. Kagome would walk gracefully up to him. They would say their vows in front of any one, yet no one. Their eye's would not waver. Kagome would have tears silently coming down her cheeks, as would he. She would slip on his wedding band and he hers. They would kiss, an dance, not caring who saw. Then they we would go through the mating ritual. Kagome would be his for all eternity, for their souls would be bonded.
Some times he had nightmares. Death would hunt his every step. One day he would come home to find Kagome dead. She would be laying on the cold floor. Deep red blood surrounded her, like a deep lake of death. Inu-yasha would lean down and gather her lifeless body in to his arms. Some time's she would be still alive. Her eye's open and filled with tears. Kagome would be drowning in her own blood. He would run to her side. Kagome would try to whisper things to him, things he couldn't under stand. He would hush her. Inu-yasha knew she was dieing. He told her he loved her over and over. When he felt her life slip away, he would through his head back, and then he would scream. Scream his pain and rage up to the heavens.
He would wake up screaming, and in a cold sweat. Tears would be flowing down his cheeks. His father would run in and also his mother. Inu-yashio would talk to him and calm him down. Inu-yasha would try to get to the phone, he had to call and make sheer Kagome was alive and safe. But his father wouldn't let him. He would sit on Inu-yasha's bed and pulled his son's head on to his lap and wiped the cold sweat and tears from his son's face.
" I know how you feel son. Its alright its only natural for you to be afraid some thing will happen to her. Calm down and try to go back to sleep." Inu-yashio would say, while Lilly could only look on with out understanding. She watched as her mate stroked their son's head to calm him down, avoiding his ears.
Those nights his mother would go back to bed, while Inu-yashio would stay with Inu-yasha. He wouldn't sleep at all after dreams like that. Inu-yasha would fear going back to sleep, so afraid that he would have to watch Kagome die again. His father would stay up with him the rest of the night. He would talk to Inu-yasha trying to get him to relax. Those times happened every once in a while. Inu-yasha dreaded those time's with a passion.
Inu-yasha sighed and gathered Kagome's legs in to his arms. Trying not to wake her she shifted in to a sitting position. He made sheer that Kagome wouldn't wake up. Inu-yasha's stood up and walked out of the hospital. He took a leaping jump and ran across the roof tops. Inu-yasha would take Kagome home first and then head home to face his parents.
As Inu-yasha came with in sight of Kagome's house he dreaded the fact her would have to leave her alone. But he had to. Inu-yasha used the window and walked over to Kagome's red bed. Using his free hand he pulled back the covers, and then gently laid the sleeping Kagome down. Inu-yasha softy laid down her head on to her pillow. He pulled up the red covers, up to her chin. Inu-yasha leaned down and kissed her on her for head.
" sleep well, Kagome. I will see you soon." Inu-yasha whispered. And then he left to face his parents.
Well that's another chapter hope you liked it, not much talking, err, not at all really. Well I got to go and get out of here. Its like 9:35pm. I got home really late, and my mom kicked me off this morning…..Well please re- view. I'm out of here.