Inu-yasha felt the agonizing pain in his heart as he woke. It was not the sun or warmth that he felt first, but the heart shattering pain. It was fallowed by the soul numbing emptiness. It was like no other emptiness he had ever encountered before. There wasn't just a hole in his chest, there was a hole in his soul. It was like he could never be happy again.
As the mental and emotional agonizing pain took it's toll on him, he became all to aware of his physical pain. Though it didn't hurt as much as his other pain, it did add intensity to his already soul crushing pain. Inu-yasha didn't know what hurt worse. His heart or his soul? Then it got to the point that Inu-yasha didn't care, because they were both dead. How could he go on with out his soul? With out his heart? Inu-yasha sighed brokenly when he realized that he couldn't hide from the world any more.
Inu-yasha tried to open his eye's but he couldn't move! He was lost in the darkness in his mind. Realization hit him hard, he was dead to the world some how. He was left in the darkness with no hope. Only his soul shattering pain to keep him company. Inu-yasha didn't know if he was dead or not. He didn't care. Long ago in his early childhood, not that he would admit it to anyone, but he had been afraid of the dark. The fire's of hell wouldn't have scared him more then the dark. So this was to be his own personal hell?
Inu-yasha sighed and was lost in the blackness. He hoped he wasn't dead, because if he wasn't he had a chance of getting out of this hell hole and going to hell. Inu-yasha wanted to cry in his heart brake as he realized that he would never see Kagome again. He was going to hell because he was impure, but his Kagome was going to heaven with the other angels. Her invisible wings would been shown in heaven. All the angels would be beautiful, but Kagome would be the most lovely. To Inu-yasha none would be as pure hearted or as lovely as his Kagome. In this blackness he felt free to call Kagome his. For she was his savor, his guardian angel.
She was going home because he was a lost caused. Inu-yasha felt stupid for thinking she was human. No human was as kind to a half- demon as she was. But no matter where he ended up, be it in hell or earth. Inu-yasha would always cherish the memory of Kagome. If for some reason he ended up on earth, he made a promise to Kagome. If he was on earth he would live his life. He would go to church and live a life for Kagome. Inu-yasha hoped he could get to heaven to see his angel. He would give to charity when ever he could. Inu-yasha would live a life that Kagome would be proud of. He would make her happy. For that was what his heart yearned for. To make her smile….
Sorry it's so short, but the anti- depressants that I'm on make me sleepy… Thanks for the support and keep re-viewing!