No he was no different from that hurting teen that had tried to take his own life seven years ago. He was looking at her the same way he did that made her feel so small. With those lost eyes he could make a grown man feel two inches tall. With those eyes he had captured her heart all those years ago….

No Kagome thought he hadn't changed, and yet he had come to some conclusion and some how Kagome didn't think she was going to like what ever it was he decided…

Now…. Chapter 26.

Kagome sat on the bed while Inu-yasha hovered over her like a mother hen. While she found this romantic in the beginning it was starting to get on her nerves. He made a clucking noise of disapproval as she pushed the food tray away from her. Kagome's eye twitched as he made the sound again, this time louder.

"Kagome how are you going to get better if you don't eat?" Inu-yasha demanded as he pushed her tray back towards her. He also reached behind her to fluff the pillows.

Kagome knew she shouldn't be so argumentative about his show of kindness but damn he was like a mother with a sick child! 'Kagome you should eat…' Fill in the blank. For the last hour sense he had come in to her room he had been non stop. If she had to eat another bit she was going to be sick. She debated how to tell him this.

"Inu-yasha please I'm fine. I've eaten enough. Its really kind of you, but to be honest your worse then a mother hen. Its like you think if you turn your back on me for one minute I will be gone before you turn back to me. I'm fine really I am." Kagome told him softly, unable to look in to his hurt golden depts.

Inu-yasha took a step back from the bed. Pain seared his insides, burning his heart. He knew he shouldn't feel this hurt over something so little. But he couldn't stop the rush of agony that threatened to take him to his knees. Kagome always had this power over him. He thought sadly. She would always be the only one that could make him feel worth something… anything. She had shown him how to love, with out selfishness. But as he thought that he had to stop. He was being selfish. Deep in his heart he wanted her to love him. This had to be a sin! No one so pure as Kagome would love a freak like him… No one could and no one ever would. He was alone. Inu-yasha had always been alone.

He promised himself that he would always be there for her. She would never be alone. Never! Angels like Kagome deserved so much more then the half a man as he was. Inu-yasha couldn't bring himself to call himself a half a man. He was so much less. Inu-yasha knew he would never be able to tell his angel that she had saved a condemned man. Always condemned, always damned. He would burn in the darkest of hell, while Kagome flue with the angels high above this God forsaken earth.

"Inu-yasha?"

Kagome's voice snapped him out of his thoughts. Inu-yasha stared down at the raven haired beauty. Her eyes held concern and she looked at him. It was more then he could bare. Inu-yasha turned on his heal, his silver locks fanning out behind him as he left with out a backward glance.

Inu-yasha walked out of the hospital but was reluctance to go to far. Incase Kagome had need of him. He signed deeply as the pain seemed to increases now that he was no longer in his angels presents. His long forgotten heart gave a jerk as he remembered the concern that had been in Kagome's eyes. What if she did love--- NO! He could not think that she would ever care for him! No one could love him. He was to broken, he was to torn. He was to forsaken by all that should have been his. To think that Kagome, beautiful, pure, angelic Kagome would even care for him, let alone love a monster like him was beyond foolish thinking.

Inu-yasha walked over to a small store and walked threw the shelves aimlessly. He looked down at his faded blue jeans with some despair. His soft red t-shirt while comfortable, left much to be desired. Inu-yasha sighed in despair as he noticed that his worn leather jacket was in a state so bad that it looked like it belonged to a homeless person. Damn, he thought sadly, no wonder Kagome didn't want his attention. He looked like a bum.

With the sad state of his cloths in mind he wandered toward the men's clothing department. He had a lot of money saved and could afford to get himself some better clothing. A sudden thought accrued to him, colon. Would Kagome like it if he wore colon? What about a suit? Inu-yasha searched the racks for something he thought Kagome would like. For all he knew she might like guys that wore leather and had noise piercing. He wrinkled his noise at that thought. And as sudden as he thought that it was gone. Kagome wouldn't like guys like that, she would want a more mature guy. A guy that had grown up and was responsible.

Inu-yasha found a nice pair of jeans. They were a lighter blue and were made of a soft denim. They were a little baggy and he liked them that way. Inu-yasha had also found a belt to go with them. The belt was a pain black with a silver belt buckle on it. Inu-yasha compensated the pain blue jeans with a nice button down top under witch he had a red muscle tank top. Witched showed of his wash board abs if he left his dress up shirt unbuttoned. Inu-yasha debated on a black or white dress up shirt. He didn't know so he got both.

After he got his pants and shirt figured out, he now had to pick out some socks and boxers. Inu-yasha blushed slightly as he went to the under ware section that held socks as well. Of course it had to be in full view of everyone in the store. He quickly picked out few boxers of various colors. In all he had a 3. Their colors were red, navy blue, and black. Satisfied with his choice, he threw all his cloths in to an empty shopping cart he found. Inu-yasha grabbed show socks and headed to the jacket section.

Inu-yasha lazily pushed the cart threw the isles of jackets. He didn't pay attention to the sports coats, and head strait for the leather ones. Inu-yasha had a fondness for them, they were extremely comfortable, and when broken in right looked damn good. Well if you knew what to look for anyway. The store had a lot of selection, and Inu-yasha picked out an expensive black one, that was lined with black silk in the inside. With that done he pushed his cart over to the show section and found a pair of black boats he liked.

"Hey sexy."

Inu-yasha jumped when a sluttrie voice called out from behind him. He turned and looked every other way hoping against hope that it wasn't him that lady behind him was talking to. But alas it was. Inu-yasha turned to look at her. She had to be older then his mother! She was wearing a shirt that threatened to spill out her sagging bosom. Its color a mind boggling red as were her lips. The lip stick also stained her teeth or what was left of them. Inu-yasha's eyes twitched at the hags appearance. She was also wearing a fake red leather skirt that didn't cover what it needed to. Inu-yasha didn't know what to say…

" Uh….." What all he could manage. The old hag smiled and he almost cringed.

" Hey baby why don't you come over here and let me play with you? Your so hansom I'd do you for free." She said or at lest that's what he made out of her slurred words. He wrinkled his noise, she smelled like a barn.

Inu-yasha pulled of his hat that he had been wearing and played with it nervously. He had no clue how to say no and make this slut understand that no was NO! For he had the feeling that she wasn't about to take no for an answer. But his problem was solved almost instantly. For the old crony screamed and pointed a crooked finger at him.

" You're a fifthly half- breed! Get a way from me!" and as the old slut rushed past him, she made sure to spit in his face. Inu-yasha just stood there for a minute. Pain rushed at him again. It shattered what was left of his broken heart so that as he headed on ward after whipping his face, he left thousands of invisible shards of a broken heart behind him.

Inu-yasha looked down in to the cart and examined the clothes he picked out. Each one was picked because he thought Kagome would like them. Why, he asked himself, was he torturing himself with the idea of wooing Kagome? He should have come to grips with it by now. Some one like him, 'Filthy' he thought savagely. Yes that slut had it right. He was filthy and he would always be that way. Some one like him didn't deserve to lick the dirt from Kagome's shoe let alone be her husband… or the father to her children. Deep golden eyes shown bright as tears threaten to engulf him. But he would not cry. He might be weak and pathetic, but he would be a man that Kagome could depend on. He promised that.

Inu-yasha sighed as he finally found every thing. He was heading toward the check out lane when he passed the bathroom supply shelves. He stopped and debated with himself. Finally gave in to temptation and headed back and want in to look at the colon they had. With he's strong noise he was almost brought to his knees with all the smells that lingered here. He coughed violently before he grew use it a little. He hurriedly searched for one that didn't make him regret eating breakfast.

Finally he came across one he could stand. It was in a fancy bottle and smelled kind of like the calm night are. It was hard to describe it, but he thought it smelled good. It was called "Night". So knowing he found the only one he could stand and that he liked he put it in his cart.

He stopped as a picture of Kagome came to his mind. Inu-yasha thought about something that would make her happy. Something she could cuddle, he thought with a sad smile. Yes that was Kagome. She would want something soft and silky to the tough. So with that in mind he headed to the toy department.

As he wondered through the stuffed animals he checked them for softness and how they felt to the touch. He finally fond one he approved of and grabbed it and did a better inspection of the toy. It was a teddy bear, it was white and had blue eyes. Inu-yasha thought it looked cute enough. Its big round ears were stuffed with pink silk. So he decided that it was ok and that it had passed the test. He set it in to his cart and went looking for something else Kagome might want.

Inu-yasha figured that he would have to come shopping again soon. Kagome was going to say with his when she got out of the hospital, but that wouldn't be for another week. But he would still have to go shopping with her to get her what she would need to be comfortable at his home. That meant new cloths and toiletries. But he didn't mind at all. Because he had more then enough money saved. And he got a very high paying job, that was to build plains and rockets, but at the moment he was jest doing plains for one that he would help build in about two months so he had the time free to help Kagome settle in to his place.

Inu-yasha gulped at the thought of her living in his house… Under the same roof at night. At the picture that came to his mind of Kagome sleeping in his bed.. And at that second he knew he would not get one peaceful night sleep for a vary long time to come…

He sighed as he paid for his things and headed back to the hospital. He needed to plain a room for Kagome. A place she could call her own. Inu-yasha would have to draw up plains for her room, and he couldn't leave that walls bare. This would take some thinking. But not at this second he thought and he entered the hospital. He headed straight for a bath room and changed in to his new pants and his red shirt. Inu-yasha also put on his boats and new leather jacket. He then headed up with his old cloths in the shopping bag and Kagome's gift in his arms.

At that moment even thought it was foolish to dream, he felt like a husband about to surprise his wife with some small token of his love. His shattered heart gave a quiver at that thought. Oh, how he would have loved that. If only he could have been anyone other then himself. If only he could tell Kagome of his love… If only she could love him back. But no that was beyond foolishness in to stupidity. An angel like Kagome could befriend a hideous monster like him, but to love one such as he was… It would have been the sweetest heaven, but he was condemned to the darkest, cruelest hell. He would not condemn his angel, by telling her of his love. She wouldn't, couldn't love him back. She dissevered someone so much better then the reject that he was. He couldn't let her angelic hands near his shattered heart. For she would pull them back raw red with blood and tears. He didn't dare let her try to piece his shattered heart back together. Inu-yasha's filthy half-breed heart would soil those lovely hands. He looked at his scared wrist that he could barely see above the cuff of his jacket, but it reminded him on how hopeless he really was. Kagome didn't deserve to have some one like him messing up her bright future.

Inu-yasha shook his head to ride of his thoughts. He stopped out side Kagome's door. Silently he steeled what was left of his heart against the beauty in side the door. But he knew that it was futile. Nothing could shut down his love or it seemed his broken and beaten heart. But for Kagome he would try not to keep his heart out on his sleeve.

He stopped as he heard a muffled noise coming from with in the room. Inu-yasha walked in and stopped dead. What! His mind and heart echoed that word in agony.

So heres another chapter for you guys. Sory that nothing really happens. Thanks for the reveiws. They really are nice to read. I started on this chapter after a reveiw. So it does pay of to veiw. Thanks again to those who reviewed. Please review again!