Sad Love: 31

Blank Tapes

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Kagome couldn't stop staring. He was so beautiful, and then she noticed that at his navel a thin line of silky silver hair ran down to the his stomach to stop at his jeans. Kagome gulped again and her eyes shot up to his face. The blush on her cheeks deepened. She looked down at the black swimming trunks in his hand. How was she going to get them on him when he wouldn't let her out of his sight? Her eyes were as wide as dinner plates as she thought about this. How in the hell was she going to get him…. Him naked to put on the trunks? She had to get him NAKED!

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Kagome gulped as she looked from the bare chest Inu-yasha to the black swimming trunks she held in her hands. Her heart was pounding so hard, if felt like it was trying to beat its self out of her chest. She walked slowly forward and tried handed the swimming trunks an unresponsive Inu-yasha.

He just stared at her with dark gold eyes, that seem to have lost their shine. This scared Kagome the most. The fact that his eyes were no longer the bright honey gold that they normally were. They were a sickly brownish gold color. Kagome stood there for a moment, with her arm extended toward him, his swim trunks clenched in her shaking fist. He made no move what so ever to take them from her.

Kagome bit her lip and an idea popped in to her head. If he had on boxers then they could be used at his swim trunks! But…. She would still have to take of his….er… pants.. A hot blush spread over her face. Would he take of his own pants? He took of his shirt all by himself… so maybe he would take of his pants. Well, it is worth a shot she thought.

" Inu-yasha will you… .ah. cough Take of your pants?" Kagome asked in a small voice. She felt as if she would have a heart attack! Her heart was beating so fast. But all her hope that Inu-yasha would undress himself was so killed, when all he did was stare down at her with his sickly colored eyes.

Kagome took a deep breath and dropped the useless swim trunks to the tile floor of the bath room. To take her mind of the task she knew she would have to do in a few moments, she went over and started running hot water in to the tub. When she got the tempter where she wanted it, she put the stopper in and let the tub fill its self.

She looked in to the water, and tried to calm herself. She peaked at Inu-yasha from over her shoulder and found him again staring at her. It was a bit unnerving. When she couldn't put it of any longer she went over to stand in front of him.

Even though she had told Inu-yashio that she was going to try to win Inu-yasha's heart, this didn't feel like the way to do it. Nope, definitely not the way to go about winning his heart, Kagome thought blushing an even darker shade of red. Kagome stood there staring at Inu-yasha's wash board abs for a long while. Slowly, tremulously she reached out her hand and touched the top of his jeans. Her heart almost gave out when she felt the silky silver hair at his navel brush her finger tips. Her heart beat in her ears and she heard her breath. Slowly she unbuttoned the top of his jeans. She made the mistake of looking up in to Inu-yasha's face. Her heart stuttered. He was looking down at her, and her eyes meet his blank ones. It was like looking in to the eyes of a dead man. They were empty of all emotion and feeling. It was like his soul was gone, long gone from this empty shell that once use to be the man she loved.

Kagome closed her eyes as she grabbed his zipper and yanked it down. She let go and slipped her thumbs in to the sides of his pants and slid them down his legs and then stood up. Thank the gods he had on boxers!!! (sorry lady's) They were red and made of silk. Kagome took a deep breath and laughed nervously. She stood there and stared at the deep ridges she could see just above the waist band of his boxers. They out lined his abdomen and disappeared in to his boxers just like the tinny trail of silky while hair. She gulped and took his hand that was handing by his side. Kagome pulled a little and he fallowed her to the big tub, now full. She shut of the water and pulled Inu-yasha up so that he stood by the side of the tub.

With some cosign, he sat on the edge of the tub. Kagome got him to slide in to the tub and with a slight press of her hand on his chest, got him to lay down in the water. His back was resting on the end of the porcelain tub. She moved his hair so that it was handing over the back of the tub in a long silver curtain that touched the floor. Inu-yasha turned his head and seem to look right through her. Kagome touched his face with gentle fingers. There was no sign that he even felt that light touch. Her heart sank. Why was he like this? Where did his soul go?

Seeing that she could do nothing for him at the moment, Kagome went exploring. She had just got here when Inu-yasha came in and she hadn't had the chance to look around. She found the living room with a black leather coach and a wide screen television. She walked on and found a nice sized kitchen. Its colors were read and white. Kagome smiled at that. Inu-yasha's favorite color was red and his house seemed to reflect that. She headed up the stairs and found a blue door. She opened it and gasped. This must be the room Inu-yasha had set up to be hers!

It was blue with clouds painted on the walls, and on the ceiling was a mural of stars. The carpet was light blue. The room had a white dresser and bed in the corner. The bed was a canopy bed. It had blue and black covers and a few pillows on it. The one window in the room had curtains of white that moves gracefully in the breeze. The room to her breath away. He must have spent hours working on the detail of the ceiling. And the room was blue her favorite color. Kagome's heart fluttered in her chest. Could this mean that Inu-yasha liked her? Liked her more then just a friend? Would some one go to this much trouble for just a friend? Kagome didn't know, but she would find out.

Kagome left that room and headed to the last door. It was read and obviously Inu-yasha's room. She reached out to open the door and froze. Was it right to go in to his room? Would he hate her for snooping? Kagome rested her hand on the door handle and slowly turned the knob. She had to see his room and she couldn't explain the force behind the compulsion. When she opened the door the first then she noticed was the ball of fluff running at her.

Kagome let out a little squeak as the ball of fluff hurtled in to her chest. She looked down in the eyes of a big white husky. She got licked in the face for her trouble. Kagome sputtered and laughed. The dog barked and licked her again. She petted him.

" You must be Mist. Inu-yasha told me all about you in the hospital." Kagome told the dog. She smiled down at the happy dog. His tail was moving at a frantic rate. Inu-yasha must have penned him up in his room to keep him out from under foot when she was going to move in. Kagome looked around Inu-yasha's room. It had red walls and redder carpet. His guitar was in the corner and he had a small black dresser in the other corner. His bed had a black confuter and red silk under sheets. Kagome blushed as she pictured him laying there. He would be laying on the red silk, and his silver hair would be around him like a silver halo. Inu-yasha's muscular chest would be bare to her hungry eyes. One of his hands would be on his puppy dog eye, slowly stroking it. His other hand would be on his abdomen, his leg would be bend so that she couldn't see him. And his other leg would be strait. Kagome could make out the thin trail of silver hair that formed a line leading down his abdomen to his grown. Inu-yasha's head would be turned to her, his deep honey gold eyes would be dark with love and arousal.

Kagome could almost here his voice. It would be deep with emotion. He would call out to her. Ask her to love him, to be with him always. And then he would begin to purr. It would make his chest vibrate and his muscles would ripple with it. His eyes would burn and smolder as he looks at her. Kagome walked in to his room and went toward his bed, almost blindly.

"Kagome…" He would whisper in his deep voice. Kagome felt her knees turn to rubber. His voice always did that to her. Even when it was changing in to that deep rumble when he was a teen, and his voice constantly broke. She had found his voice sweet and charming then, not she found it sexy and heart stopping. And he would say:

"Kagome… What are you doing in my room?" yes, he would….. ?! Kagome's heart dropped to her feet as she spun around and found a wet Inu-yasha standing in the door way petting Mist. Kagome stared at him. His eyes were back to their normal golden color. But they also contained his soul deep sadness as well. To see him back to normal, made Kagome's heart fly. She ran at him and through her arms around his still wet neck. She got a peek at Inu-yasha's surprised face, then she berried her head in his damp chest.

" Kagome… what wrong?" A startled Inu-yasha asked. His heart leaped in to his throat as he brought his scared arms up and wrapped them around Kagome's shacking body. A blush creped up his faces as he looked at the bed and realized he was shirtless. Here he was holding Kagome in his room, against his very naked chest… It was like a dream, but then he remembered taking advantage of her at the hospital and then running. He had done to the park and cut himself. Inu-yasha didn't remember getting home, and then he woke up in his tub with Kagome's sent all over him and his house.

" Inu-yasha I couldn't reach you. It was like you were gone. Your body was still here, but what made you, you was gone. And.. You were covered in blood. It… scared me, Inu-yasha." Kagome whispered against his chest, and felt the way he shivered as her warm breath touched his damp flash. Inu-yasha's breath stopped. She had seen!

He shoved her away from him and turned away. She had seen his disgrace…. Kagome, his angel had seen how far he had fallen. How could he look her in the eyes now? He walked down the hall and down the stairs. Mist at his heels. Kagome ran after him in shock. What had happened to him? Why was he shutting her out? Was it because he had never liked her more then just a friend?

" Inu-yasha! Inu-yasha wait! Please tell me what's wrong." She pleaded with him, when he made no move to stop, or show any sign that he had heard her, her heart sank. " Please don't do this to me. Please don't leave me again." Kagome whispered with her head down. Inu-yasha stopped at looked at her. He couldn't see her eyes, but he could smell her tears. He hated himself for making her cry again. Every tear she shed because of him, was another tear in his already broken soul. He reached out a hand and cupped her cheek in his hand. He lifted up her face so that he could look her in the eye. Her blue eyes shimmered with tears. He had to make her understand, that he wasn't leaving her. That he was only protecting her.

" Kagome… Cant you understand that I am protecting you. I didn't keep my promise all those years ago. I still cut myself. I still feel empty. I might have grown up but I can not out run my own demons (no pun indented). Kagome…" He whispered. Looking deep in to her shocked eyes, he came to a decision. He leaned in to her and whispered in to her ear. " There is a table sitting on the table in the living room. Watch what's on the table, then if you still want to be my friend, come find me. If… not then I will understand. You have been the best friend a guy can have Kagome, I hope you realize that." He told her softly. With that said he turned and left. Leaving a stunned Kagome in his wake.

Kagome watched him go, unable to more. Watch a tape? What was on it? She gulped and headed down the rest of the stairs and in to the empty living room. As he said it would be, there lay the tape resting on the table. There was nothing on it to indicate what was recorded on it. Her heart started to beat like mad again. She reached out a hesitant hand and picked up the tape. She didn't know why, but she didn't want to watch the tape. She walked slowly toward the television and the VCR. Kagome turned on the television and put it on channel three. Then she slid the tape in to the VCR. All the while her heart beat wildly in her chest. Then she pressed play…

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