Temari
I woke up to the sound of birds, chirping behind my window. The sun was lighting my room's floor gingerly, filling it with gentle illumination. It looked warm, but it wasn't, and I shrugged beneath the covers. The autumn was kicking in and I knew we had only few days left until the rainy season.
I forced myself to depart my warm soft bed and ran into the hot shower, where I wasted another 30 minutes simply standing beneath the hot stream. For some reason I felt so content and happy. I still had a lot of time until meeting with Shikamaru – we agreed he'd come to my place at 12 – so I went to do some shopping and decided to bake a chocolate cake. I loved chocolate and today I definitely felt like treating myself with something I love.
With some music playing in the background I prepared some papers I was planning to talk through with him and finished tidying my apartment. It was already 12:10 and Shikamaru was late, which was odd, but I made myself another cup of coffee and cut the cake into small pieces. It tasted like chocolate heaven and I ate a few more, trying to restrain myself from eating it whole right now.
Half past 12 I left my room and headed to Shikamaru's apartment. I was smiling to myself as I was almost sure I'll find him sleeping. He must've come back from Academy and went back to sleep again. I stood in front of his door and listened – couldn't really hear anything, so I didn't bother knocking and opened the door – they were unlocked. I was about to say "Hey" upon opening the door, but my mouth stayed open yet remained silent. My eyes widened and I felt a deep sting right in my heart because of what I saw.
Shikamaru stood there, his back to me, hugging Ino closely, while she was silently sobbing with tears flowing down her cheeks. She lifted her red eyes to me and I managed to mumble "sorry" and closed the door right away.
My cheeks were burning, my heart was trying to turn around itself in my chest and the air seemed to be trying to escape my lungs without a plan to come back there. I slowly descended down to my flat, contemplating what did I just see, and more importantly – why I suddenly felt such anger towards Ino? Then it struck me and I couldn't believe it – I was jealous. I was jealous for the first time of my life. Jealous for the boy who's not even mine. But what was happening there anyway? Are they getting back together? Is she leaving Choji for Shikamaru? Maybe they were together all along, but hid it from everyone? That doesn't make sense. Or does it? I felt too nervous to think clearly and I realized right now even the most stupid idea could make sense to me.
I fell into the chair, my hands and legs shaking, and tried to calm down and talk myself out of this stress I shouldn't be feeling, god damn it. I didn't do too well so I kept staring at one dot on the wall for, it seems, an eternity. Suck it up Temari, what in the world has gotten into you? Where's the result of your emotional training now?