Temari
When Shikamaru left, I felt like banging my head into the wall for being so stupid and selfish, for getting so envious after what I saw upstairs. Of course, I've seen it all wrong and Shikamaru came to explain without me even asking about it. And he has never told his to anyone before. I felt overwhelmed, realizing what it could mean. It sure meant a lot to me, and it made me feel strangely warm inside. I felt the need to care. I knew now how it feels like to have a real friend who trusts you with his secrets. To feel like you could talk about anything in the world and it wouldn't be weird or awkward. I felt the urge to hug him, when he was leaving. This time it had nothing to do with seduction, I simply felt I wanted to have him in my arms and feel him close.
I went to sleep early and woke up early next day. I have invited Konoha girls to my apartment tonight to hang around and watch a movie or two, so I set out to buy some products and prepare some snacks and refreshments for the evening. I asked Sakura to invite everyone since I didn't know where the other girls live and she gladly agreed. So late afternoon my guests started arriving, firstly Hinata, who helped me set up the table and lit up some candles she brought. Ino came next, with two heavy bags in her hands. I felt a little conflicted inside, knowing what she did to Shikamaru I couldn't pretend I don't care, but on the other hand it was none of my business and shouldn't be affecting me in anyway. She was a little annoying sometimes, but otherwise she was fun and now when the guys told me she matured a lot, I guess I have to give her a chance. She lifted up the bags with clinking bottles of alcohol, smiling slyly, and I let out a laugh. That was to be expected of her. Sakura came in next with an apple cake, and Ten Ten brough some board games. Most of them included drinking alcohol for sure.
We ended up eating everything and chatting about stuff, mostly boys. I was glad these girls were pretty chatty so there was no need for me to talk to fill the silence – I could just relax and drift into the sea of gossip and giggles carelessly. I didn't want to talk about Shikamaru with anyone as for now, especially when Ino is just beside me. She and other girls mostly focused on Ten Ten and her secret relationship with Neji, even though she denied everything. We went on playing some drinking game where someone says "I have never ever did … " – and every person, the teller included, has to drink a shot if she or he has actually done that thing. As we were getting more drunk, the questions started getting more erotic, first being about kissing a boy, then a girl. Ino and Sakura drank simultaneously to that and the rest of us were quite surprised but these two didn't seem to feel ashamed a tiny bit. However the following questions revealed that they haven't done anything more than that. Someone asked a question about sleeping with a boy, clearly aiming to get everyone drunk, and this is where I got all attention to me, unfortunately. Yes, I was still a virgin – and apparently it was a shocking thing to them. I was 22 years old, three years older than them, so they were very surprised. I felt like I was under investigation and explained them a reasonable part of the story – everybody is overwhelmed and intimidated that I'm Gaara's sister back in my village, so it's difficult to get into close relationships. Then Ino had a "brilliant" idea she felt the need to express:
- You should totally lose your virginity here in Konoha! People don't know you here that well so that wouldn't be a problem, you know? We can totally hook you up with someone.
Having said that, she averted her eyes towards the ceiling and started thinking something intensively, while the rest of us simply laughed. Sakura didn't quite agree that I should do it with whoever, but agreed that this semester might be a good idea to find some romance. I personally felt sick of these kind of things being discussed as a first world problem and kept rolling my eyes. I was too drunk to get angry and after the longest time the subject finally changed, to my relief, towards Sakura being single, but not a virgin anymore. She kept her lips shut and never told us who was it.
I had to admit even if that evening was a little bit annoying at times, I had a great laugh. I realized I wasn't too bad getting along with women even though I had never had a bunch of girlfriends. I enjoyed their company and they seemed glad to see me after two years. As we were saying our goodnights, Ino told us about a plan to go to a club tomorrow evening. All of them agreed so I though why the hell not – I haven't been to such a place for a very long time. I felt like on vacation already with this much fun I was having practically daily. We exchanged some hugs and I closed the door behind them.
I turned around and frowned at the mess we've left. Food, wrapping paper, empty bottles, glasses everywhere. Just as I was contemplating whether I should tidy that up or leave it for future-Temari, I heard a knock and figured one of them left a phone or something, but as I opened a door I saw Shikamaru. His expression changed from friendly to surprised to amused, as he became aware of my drunk glare and a stupid smile on my lips. Somewhere deep inside I knew this might not be good, but that though was quickly silenced as I opened the door to let him in. He passed me, I noticed he was jogging - his shirt was wet and droplets of sweat glistened on his forehead. For some reason I found that extremely sexy.
- I wanted to tell you that my friends are planning to go to the club tomorrow but I figure you already know that? – He asked, glancing around my living room, full of pink straws and female perfume in the air.
- Mhmm. – I hemmed, crashing into sofa heavily. I felt dizzy.
He came closer and picked up some bottles lying in the ground, putting them into a plastic bag, while I felt my eyes getting heavy and I knew I'll fall asleep in seconds.
Next thing I knew I was being carried towards my bed. I opened my eyes to see him looking down at me softly. Those eyes pushed some buttons inside me and I felt simply helpless, holding onto this strange feeling in my belly. I knew he might as well decide to take my overly-discussed virginity right now and I wouldn't move a finger to stop that. Instead he laid me on the bed gently and walked away. I was drifting back to sleep again when I felt my pants being torn down from my legs. I started laughing surprised, but didn't fight it. Next he pulled my blouse over my head and I was lying on the bed in only my lingerie, drunk and chuckling. I knew something's not right here but I was simply too drowsy to think about it. I turned away to lie on my stomach, trying to hide my almost-naked body, but he took my hand and sat me up, trying to put my nightwear on me. What did I think would happen? I started laughing again, feeling really stupid. He came back (when did he even left?) with two glasses of water. He put one on my nightstand and forced me to drink the other. I remember him kissing my forehead before pulling bed covers on top of me.