What's done is done.
What would of happened if Kurt never stopped talking to Chandler? What would of happened if Kurt cheated on Blaine not Blaine cheating on Kurt?
And how does Sebastian fit into all of this?
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Previously on What's Done Is Done:
"You can get comfortable. I think we're going to be here a while." Sebastian mumbled fear sinking in slowly.
Blaine took of his shoes and decided to sit cross-legged against the arm of the lounge whilst Sebastian took a sit in almost the same position on the opposite side of the couch.
"So, where do you want to start?" Blaine asked once he realised Sebastian was comfortable.
"I don't know, honestly." Sebastian started.
"Well you wanted to talk, so we will just wait until your ready." Blaine replied pulling a cushion into his lap.
"I'm sorry about everything Blaine. I didn't think being in the same class as you was going to be as hard as it is. So I ran and transferred which means I've screwed any chance we've had at passing this year." Sebastian started softly not meeting Blaine's eyes.
"Seb, I don't think you should be apologising to me about anything. It was my fault you wanted to transfer in the first place." Blaine replied putting his chin in his hands and leaning on the pillow sitting in his lap. "It's just when you said you'd wait until I was ready and than you go and flirt with the teacher, it was like I was pushed to the back of your mind, like Kurt all over again."
"B, it wasn't like that at all. I'm not Kurt, Blaine. It's just - as much as you don't want to talk about him. I think I need to start at the start and that means we need to talk about Adrien." Sebastian suggested.
"No."
"Blaine we need to. Please you need to understand everything about me and he is… no was a big part of who I've become today. So we need to talk about him."
"Fine but can you answer one question honestly about him first?" Blaine questioned.
"Sure, anything." Sebastian said pretty sure he was going to regret adding anything on to the end of that sentence.
Blaine looked at Sebastian, wondering which question he should ask him first. Was he still in love with the professor? Was Adrien the reason Sebastian refused to go back to Paris? Does he feel anything romantic for the teacher at all? Why should it matter if he does Blaine he thought to himself? You don't want anything except friendship from him it shouldn't matter what he feels anymore.
Sebastian saw the clocks in Blaine's head turning. He knew the question Blaine was going to ask and he knew his answer.
"Do you still have feelings for Adrien?" Blaine spoke clearly trying to hold back any animosity that may have been there.
"Honestly?" Sebastian queried
"Yes, Sebastian honestly."
"No."
"What?" Blaine asked shocked thinking he had miss heard Sebastian's answer.
"No, Blaine. I do not have any feelings left for Adrien. I might have had some 3 years ago, but it's been 5 years Blaine. Nothing is the same now. My feelings for him have changed."
"Ok." Blaine whispered.
"That's all you have to say about it? Ok."
"I don't know what else to say. I don't know what I would of said if you had said yes you're still in love with him."
"Whoa! Wait a second. I haven't been in love with Adrien since he left me in the middle of Paris over 5 years ago."
"You met him in Paris?"
"Yes. I'll start at the beginning." Sebastian closed his eyes as his mind took over memories he tried really hard to keep pushed to the back of his mind.
" I met, Adrien when I was 15. At the time he thought I was 21 because of my height I was able to pull it off. He was 23. We both attended external music classes. My mother thought my love of music might distract me from the mess of her affair. She'd been cheating on my father for 3 years before he found out. He filed for divorce and I was a mess." Sebastian said his eyes falling open memories shining through so Blaine could see them.
"Music was my outlet. I was too talented for the younger classes with people my own age so I was put in Adrien's class. He was absolutely gorgeous, his perfect, beach, blonde hair falling into place, his eyes a bright greenish blue. You would think he just stepped out of a model magazine. He had my attention the moment he said hello.
"This was his first teaching job since finishing his degree the previous year. He introduced the class to himself in the most unusual way. He explained his whole life in a short few sentences. "Hello class I will be your new professor for the remainder of the year. Few things, my name is Adrien and I would prefer to be called Adrien not professor, all I want you to do in this class and celebrate music. This is why we are all here after all. Music is my life. Everything inside screams music. Listening to people play music is like an art trying to determine which key they are playing and trying to develop a reason as to why they chose that key instead of a higher or maybe a more remorseful key. By the end of this class you will all learn every aspect of music and how to interpret it. One more note to make about me before I begin this class, I'm 100% gay. If any of you have a problem with that there is the door. No problems? Good lets begin."
"He told the whole class he was gay?" Blaine asked interrupting Sebastian's daydream.
"Yeah. He figured if he was honest the rest of the class would be too." Sebastian said taking Blaine's hand in his own.
"Oh. Continue." Blaine said concentrating on Sebastian and not the movement of Sebastian's fingers running over his knuckles.
"The classes were great. There were 10 people in the class. Two of which, myself and another guy named Julian were the only ones who really paid attention to what Adrien had to say about music. We were also the only other two gay students in the class. I was Adrien's favourite, we did everything together, go to the subway to listen to buskers, try to figure out why they were there. Some were there for fun, some because they needed money. Julian didn't understand the need to associate himself with trash as he called them. So he rarely came.
"One day when we did go to the subway he followed. By this time Adrien and I had started a relationship. It felt so natural to just hold his hand in public. To lean against him as we listened to the music being played by people who just wanted to share their talents. Adrien leaned down to kiss me when Julian pulled him out of my grasp. Adrien glared at Julian in shock. Not actually believing he had been caught with a student.
"You'll lose your teacher licence Adrien." Julian argued with him.
"It's none of your business Julian. We are both old enough to make decisions for ourselves." Adrien argued back grabbing a hold of my hand. "You're just jealous it's not you Julian."
"My parents, were out that night and I knew than he was the one I wanted to give my everything to so I did. I gave up everything to him, my virginity and my love.
"I love you Adrien." I whispered whilst still locked in his embrace.
"You're my everything Sebastian, my one and only, I love you so much." Adrien whispered back.
He gave it all back to me except of course his virginity. At the time nothing mattered. We were together and we always would be in my 15-year-old mind.
"I turns out Julian was jealous. He dug up everything he could on me, my age, my name, how influencual my family was in Paris and everywhere else, by the time I'd realised what he was doing he was tearing my world apart.
"He's 15, Adrien. 15 years old! Does Michel know?" I heard Julian shout at Adrien. I knew than my life was over. I didn't know who Michel was and I had know intention of finding out so I ran. I ran to where I knew Adrien lived. I stood in the driveway waiting for his car to arrive. I heard voices inside and all my worries about not being the only person in his life
"Adrien." I remember whispering to him.
"Sebastian." He whispered back.
"I'm sorry. I should have told you."
"Go home Sebastian. You shouldn't be here." He said walking past me to open the front door.
"Daddy!" I heard from the front door. "Hey Hun." I heard someone say from the doorway. "Who's this?" the stranger asked before picking up the little girl who was trying to grasp Adrien.
"Just one of my students. Just give me a minute ok Michel." Adrien said before kissing him on the cheek and grabbing me by the hand and walking down the driveway. It was only than that I noticed he had a wedding band on his finger.
"Sebastian, what are you doing here?" Adrien said anger evident in his voice.
"I had to see you, but apparently you don't need me at all. You're married and you have a child." Sebastian yelled.
"You're 15 Sebastian! Why didn't you tell me?"
"What difference would it of made Adrien?"
"It's illegal Sebastian. I can lose my teaching licence, I can lose my job, and I could lose my daughter."
"You didn't even tell me you were married Adrien. You told me you loved me. I gave up everything for you. You had my heart in your hands and right now you've just stomped on it."
"You're 15 Sebastian you don't even know what love is!" Adrien continued to yell. "I can't believe you. You're just a child. Go home."
"You said you loved me Adrien. You can't just walk away from that." I whispered as tears fell down my face.
"I'm married Sebastian. I love my husband and my family. I'm sorry, but you will get over it. You're too young to understand anyway. Go home Sebastian."
"Why him? Why not me?" I cried.
My question was met with silence
"I won't forget you Adrien. I'll always love you and I won't get over you. You have every bit of my heart and soul, you always will." I said softly as Adrien turned to walk away.
"Goodbye Sebastian." Adrien said as he walked back inside.
"I quit music. I never sang again. I never played an instrument. I Screwed every guy I could and it was working until several years later, by this time I was in Paris on vacation from my first year at Dalton, so I was almost 18 at the time, I had just met you and you were my new addiction that I couldn't get out of my head. I never even thought of music again until I met you, I saw Adrien and his daughter at the park I had been frequently visiting on a Saturday, he had been waiting for me. Julian told him where I'd be. He hadn't changed at all. He didn't look any older than the day I first met him. I sat at the same bench with my book open, hoping he would just walk on by but luck was never on my side when it came to him.
"Sebastian." I heard him whisper.
"Professor." I answered trying to keep the memories deep inside.
"I left Michel, Sebastian." He mumbled.
"Good for you." I wasn't letting him know how much he had hurt me.
"I want you back, Sebastian." He said. "I regret walking away from you every day Sebastian. Please come back to me."
"Sorry Professor. I've moved on. Someone my own age peeked interest in me whilst I was in America. Actually after tomorrow this is the last time I'll be in Paris." I said with as much confidence as I could knowing that as soon as he said something more I would fall at his feet.
"Sebastian, please, come back to me where you belong?" he begged.
"I'm in love with someone else Adrien. I've moved on like you wanted. Now I think it's time you do the same." I said, trying to keep my emotions in check.
"He will never have you like I had you Sebastian." Adrien said.
"Maybe not Adrien but at least I'll always have him. Goodbye Adrien." I said as I got up from the seat and leaving not looking back."
"After that day, I never saw Adrien again. Julian told me Adrien left France. Sebastian finished looking into Blaine's eyes, unshed tears gathered in Sebastian's eyes.
"I'm sorry Sebastian." Blaine whispered before leaning forward and brushing the tears from Sebastian's eyes.
"It's in the past, B. He's in the past." Sebastian said grabbing a hold of Blaine's hands.
"He told me I'd never have you like he had you. That you'll never want me like you wanted him and that you'll only ever be half there." Blaine whispered.
"Adrien's a big part of my past Blaine but if we were to ever start something together… you would have all of me Blaine, all of me. You brought me back from one of the worst times in my life just by singing. We weren't together than and we're not together now and you still became a more important part of my life than he was. You saved me after him Blaine." Sebastian replied leaning in slightly trying to catch Blaine's lips.
Blaine pulled away whispering, "I'm not over Kurt, Sebastian."
"Ok." Sebastian said as he pulled back leaning on the arm of the chair. "Why did you avoid me than?"
"I wasn't avoiding you. I was… I was jealous ok Sebastian. Jealous. Jealous of how easily you can flirt with a teacher and get away with it. I was jealous of how you and Adrien spoke to each other with ease. I was jealous of Adrien because apart of what he said is true. He will always have a part of you that I won't." Blaine answered growing frustrated.
"If you're not over Kurt, it shouldn't matter who I flirt with and you shouldn't be jealous Blaine."
"I know that Seb but I can't help it. I'm sorry I avoided you. I promise next time I will just talk to you instead ok?" Blaine asked.
"Ok. I'm sorry I never told you about Adrien. Friends?" Sebastian smiled.
"Friends." Blaine nodded.
"We have a problem." Sebastian commented his eyebrows frowning.
"What?" Blaine asked confused.
"We have to perform tomorrow and you don't know the song. We're going to be stuck in that class again next year if we don't pull this off."
"Sebastian we need to pull this off. I can't retake a class. I'll lose my Double Major." Blaine said panicking.
"Relax. All you have to do is learn the lyrics and we will be fine. We already know we have chemistry. It's just the words we need to convey. Ok. Breathe. Let's practice." Sebastian said before standing and grabbing Blaine's hands leading to the foyer where the grand piano sat.
Because it's Sunday and it's my day off work you get an extra chapter
Now we know all about Adrien and Sebastian. Since that chapter was so long we won't see the performance until the next chapter.
Be ready!