Hey everyone! Well today is Christmas,wahoo! I have tons of books to read so I'm sure I will have many more ideas. Well if I don't get this posted, just know I wish for you all to have a happy safe holiday and enjoy. (:

I tried the best I could to look up at him and smile at him. I'm being paranoid and there is no need to be, I clearly just indulged too much alcohol. I don't want to waste this beautiful day being paranoid about something that is going to happen some day soon. There is no use in trying to fight it when it's going to naturally happen. I nuzzled my head into his chest as his arms wrapped around me. He's always so warm, and comforting. There's no doubt in my mind that things will happen when they are meant to.
"You know they are going to want us down stairs soon?"
I looked up at him, were they actually awake? Of course they are. I groaned as kissed him. I'm so deathly tired and no amount of caffeine will keep my eyes open today. I rolled my eyes playfully as I closed my eyes.
"No you can't go back to sleep."
"Yes I can."
"No you can't."
I groaned. It wasn't five second and Jared was up and I was over his shoulder. I quickly tried to pull the tee shirt I was wearing over the rest of my body. I could see him laughing, but I wasn't having fun.
"Put me down."
I whined, only for him to begin to dance around. I could feel myself getting alittle sick once again, but I tried to shake it off.
"You should wear my shirts more often."
"Well I won't if you don't put me down!"
"Don't be a downer."
"Jared, please. I don't want to get sick again."
"Fine, only because your sick."
He said as he stuck his tongue out and set my feet back down on the floor. I groaned as I sat back down on the bed.
"I don't want to go anywhere."
I said as I laid back while I let a deep breath out.
"Maybe you shouldn't drink so much."
"I didn't even drink that much."
"Your cried because your hair was blonde. Mel, baby, your hairs brownish."
He began to laugh as he picked a sweater out of his bag.
"So did you get any last night?"
"Well now I'm offended that you don't remember."
"Sorry bud, try harder next time."
I said as I studied the patterns on the white sealing above me. It wasn't five seconds and he was hovering over me. His breath was hot on my neck, the closeness was too much.
"Watch what you say, or I'll have to prove you wrong."
He said with a wink, which earned a giggle from me. He's too much some times. I guess people are right when they say that if you love someone you can be silly around them. I can act like myself around him and not feel uncomfortable.
I got up and got changed, making myself look some what presentable. My hair was tangled and knotted and several different places, but my head itself was throbbing. I tried to shake the pain off of my thoughts when I heard a knock on the wooden door.
"Come in."
"Hey, are you guys coming for breakfast?"
"Yes, of course."
I said as I smiled at Jared, who was looking through his phone. I know work has to be stressful, but he never seems to care; which worries me. I tried to let my mind wander onto other things as he grabbed my hand and led me down the steps. I could already hear the fire cracklings as we made our way to the rest of the group. Thankfully Sunny and Wanda both shared the same pain I did. I groaned as I sat down in the large wooden chair I pulled out. Jared was grabbing us both some food, he's a life saver. Kyle's right when he said he's a keeper. As soon as Jared sat down I turned to Kyle.
"So tell me about Jared when he was in college!"
I could hear Jared slightly choke a little on his food, but I was curious. I know Ian will never tell me anything, but now I had my chance.
"Well he went to law school."
I laughed at Kyle's some what cocky remark. I smiled alittle, thankfully so did Kyle.
"I mean he was a lot different."
Kyle said as he shrugged and began to laugh. I could see Jared look slightly uncomfortable.
"How so?"
I asked as Jared grabbed my hand underneath the table.
"Well I thought he was going to marry what's her name. But your a lot better, she was so trashy. Other than that he's still the same kid, same old jack ass."
I felt slightly upset but began to laugh. I shifted my gaze over to Jared for a split second, he was equally uncomfortable.
"You idiot, you don't tell her that."
Sunny said as she smacked Kyle on the head. I lightly laughed at his reaction to her hitting him. It wasn't long until she was quickly checking to see if he was okay, surely he was. I looked over to see Ian looking down, this would be something I would have to talk about late with Jared. The rest of the meal was quiet. I can't help but feel homesick, and slightly upset. I wish he would have told me before, but this could also just be my hormones changing. I think we all know what happens once a month, and sadly this was creeping up. The day crept on some what cheerfully and it was now time to open presents. We were all sitting in the living room, tucked under seperate blankets. I nuzzled into Jared's side, it was so peacefully. I looked up at the dim lights that hung above us, thoughts were flooding my head. I knew I couldn't escape my demons for too long. I sighed as I excused myself from Jared, tears brimming my eyes as I walked up the steps to the bathroom. I quickly shut the door and rested my back against it. Tears seemed to enjoy running down my face, the sobs wouldn't stop. I cursed at myself for being in the bathroom crying on Christmas. I quickly made my way over to the mirror, I looked so weak. I quickly grabbed some tissue and dried my eyes, it's time to get back to the real world. I shut the lights off and made my way back downstairs. I sat down beside Jared once again and watched everyone opened the gifts. I was surprised when everyone handed one to me, a blush even peeked onto my cheeks. I opened then too find some clothes, jewelry, and shoes. I thanked everyone as I rested my hand against Jared's, we would all thankfully be going to sleep early tonight.
"I'll give you your real present later."
Jared purred into my ear. I could feel a blush once again warming the apples of my cheek. The night went on peacefully and it was time for bed, we were all exhausted. We were sitting on our bed and I was about to nod off when Jared grabbed my hand.
"Hey, you have to open your present."
I quickly opened my eyes, trying to make myself be some what aware of my surroundings.
He handed my a little white envelope, my nerves began to shift suddenly. I smiled as I sat up a little more. My fingers quickly began to rip apart the white paper. I opened a card to see something some what unbelievable.
"Were going to France again?"

Oh hey, you know sorry for not updating! Love you all! I hope it was a good day. :)