"What took you so damn long?" breathed Jay hotly in Emma's ear.
Emma just wanted him to just shut up, and do what they had begun to do since last week. Alex had no clue, and she wanted it to stay that way. Honestly, she should of never even told Sean but the word Revenge, was sounding so nice in her head.
She felt him smirk against her neck as he kissed it, "Weren't with another guy, were ya?"
Would if be horrible if she was? Not like he kept to one girl.. which Emma didn't mind. Her and Jays.. 'friends with benefits' was just fine with her. Everyone looked at her all day since the shooting like she was glass, even Sean. Jay was the only one who kept using her, no shame. She liked it. Was that so bad?
"Maybe I just didn't care to make you wait." Emma taunted and he lifted his head to look down at her from laying on top.
He chuckled, carressing her blonde hair behind her ear and she looked away, hating when he did stuff like that.
Just get to the dirty deeds already..
"You're somethin, Greenpeace. You know that?" he taunted, and she shut him up with a kiss. He was a little stunned, but gladly took it, parting her mouth and shoving his tongue against hers. He smirked pulling away, letting his hand move up her shirt.
He got harder around Emma than he did with any other girl, even his girlfriend, maybe it was the fact she pretended to be so innocent before and now was getting frisky in the sheets with him, bad of all evil, Jay Hogart.
She'd gotten hot too, he couldn't deny, and her little hands could really do the trick and have him coming in seconds. For being so virgin Mary, she was good at it, especially when she used her mouth. He knew that mouth of hers could do more than just bicker at him.
He hungrily began to un do her jeans, knowing that wasn't the every night deal but he wanted to give her a little something back too for all she's given him.
"Don't." Emma snapped, pushing him slightly off and he sat up, giving her an insane look.
Why didn't she ever want anything back from him? Did she like feeling used or something? Most girls- fuck, lets face it..she's not most girls.
"Fine." he laid back over her, unzipping his pants, "Lets get to it then." his eyes twinkled and chuckled when she pushed him off but only so he'd lay on his back and he groaned a bit when she laid over him. The fact she was 15 should also stop him, since him being 17, but the girl could get so hot and frisky. The other big reason he should stop, was because this was the girl his best friend (even he knew) wasn't over. . but he played a good game at pretending to be with Ellie. So, so be it, Jay and Emma could have their own game of it too.
He used her hair to help move her up and down his shaft and he groaned, "Fuckkk, Greenpeace." his forehead began to sweat a little and his hips were even trying to meet up with her mouth.
"Oooooo fu-"
"FUCK!" yelled Ellie, sitting on the couch and spilling her black nail polish.
Ashley giggled next to her, "It's fine, just put alcohol in it, comes right out." she promised.
"Sean's gonna kill me." the redhead said, cringing and got up to go grab the napkins from the kitchen.
Ashley looked around, noticing Sean not there and he wasn't there the other day she was over, "How is he...anyways?" she slowly asked.
Ellie blinked and turned back to Ash, and looked down. Sean's been having late night walks, after school walks, and just random walks as much as he could. He barely wanted to be alone with anybody. Ashley frowned, seeing what she did and shook her head.
"Forget I asked."
Ellie came back, and sat at the couch, whipping up the mess to then stop and sadly look down, "He won't ever talk to anyone, you know? About it."
"I thought you wanted to move on from it?" Ashley asked.
"I do.. "sighed Ellie, rolling her eyes and painfully looked at the brunette, "Can I tell you something? Something you swear you'll never tell anyone."
Ashley laughed lightly and nodded, "Ofcourse, El."
Ellie looked down again and shrugged, "I hate that everybody won't shut up about Sean being a hero. I mean, yea he was, he's amazing like that.." she looked up in love land as she thought about Sean, "but it's the fact that the person he was a hero to, that bugs me."
"My brother?" Ashley asked, knowing Toby was with Sean during what happened and couldn't help but give Ellie a look that that was harsh
"No!" exclaimed Ellie and scoffed, "no.. it's.." she stared off, and passed Ashley a obvious look.
Ashley reminded herself the other person was Emma, the Emma, the girl Sean dated for years before Ellie, his first love.
"Oh," she passed Ellie a slight eye roll, "Emma."
Ellie looked up, guilty like, "He is not her hero. He's mine. Get it?" she asked, hoping someone understood that.
Ashley nodded, "I get it, but do you see her trying to put her claim back on him?" Ashley asked her, "Oh Sean trying to get her back?" she shook her head no to make Ellie feel better.
Ellie thought about it and honestly replied, "No. But I feel like it's there either way, her claim on him? That she has no right to have.."
Ashley paused and wondered how that could be then bit her lip. She changed the subject, "Don't you think Sean would of saved anybody that was next to him during that shooting?"
"It just had to be her." growled Ellie, leaning back on the couch and crossing her arms. And she wasn't so sure about that, she was sure though that he would of stupidly walked toward Rick if Emma hadn't of.
It was silent again but Ellie leaned her head back against the couch and just used the silence to think.
She finally spoke again, "I wasn't threatened of her before, I knew their history but the two stood so far away from another that I just wasn't threatened. He'd never talk about her, and they lived separate lives and I was good with that. It let me and Sean be alone and happy together, then all this went down and he jumps infront of a bullet for her? Was he even thinking of me at all?"
"Are you thinking now that the reason they stayed away from another-"
"Was because they weren't over another?" Ellie finished and looked at Ashley were tears in her eyes now.
Exactly what she was thinking, she also wasn't in Degrassi nor knew Sean when he was with Emma; so was he ever happy with her too? More Happy?
Ashley looked down painfully, not wanting to agree with Ellie. Sean may of loved her like Ellie said he told her before, but he clearly had some closure issues with Emma. She insisted that that's all it was.
"Maybe they just didn't get their closure, El." Ashley explains, "You gotta let him figure it out, I know it's tough, but he's in a bad place now."
"I understand." nodded Ellie, "And I will.. cause I know, I know it's gotta be me he picks in the end." she tried to bare a smile and pointed around her apartment, "I mean, whose he live with? Whose he come home to?"
Ashley smiled and nodded back, and the two got back to their girls night and painting their nails. Ashley snuck a glance back at the love struck Ellie and couldn't help but maybe fear for her. Jumping infront of a bullet for some ex, wasn't something a regular guy who was over the girl, would do...
But she insisted Ellie was right, Sean may just be confused. Time would tell.
The front door open and both girls' eyes widened to another and tried to sit up, and pretend they weren't just talking about him.
He dragged himself inside, not even a hello. Ellie gave Ashley a 'see?' kind of look and Ashley spoke up, "hey Sean."
He even jumped a little, turning from the sink he was about to lean on and blinked, looking between her and Ellie.
"Hey." Ellie said softer and he tried to blink and snap out of it
"He-" he stopped himself and pushed his feet over to her to go kiss her hello and did it quickly, "Hey."
Ashley smiled to Ellie, giving her back the 'see' look. Ellie and Sean were gonna be just fine! Just fine.
"You're drenched." Ellie said, laughing nervously, "Where've you been? Out in the rain?"
"I.." he looked for the best excuse, "Walked home from school, had to talk to Raditch."
"Always a good conversation with you two." Ellie teased him.
He weakly smiled and glanced at his room, "I need a nap." he admitted.
Ashley felt for him, she really did, Toby was a wreck too still but Sean was slightly more scary and something right now, really looked like it was eating up at him.
"We can give you some space for the weekend!" Ashley insisted, getting up, "We can go to my house?" she suggested.
Ellie made a quick pout but Ashley scolded her, reminding her Sean needed his space if Ellie wanted to stay in this perfect relationship
"yeah!" Ellie insisted, standing up and walked around the couch, "Go get some rest," she leaned up kissing him, "You need it. But text me!"
She noticed he didn't kiss her back.
He smiled rather appreciate like though and nodded, watching her gather her leather coat and run into their bedroom for a few other things. She came out, and followed Ashley to the door.
"Love you." she tossed over her shoulder and closed the door.
He shut his eyes, cringing a little and dragged his feet to his room. He decided to take a shower first, and he whipped his hoody off and swung it on his floor. He stepped into his bathroom, peeling his wet shirt off too then jeans.
The water from the shower head poured down on his head and his strong shoulders. He shut his eyes, letting it wash over him but flashes of memories were hitting him hard so he opened his eyes and stared at the 'hot and cold' handle of his shower.
He listened to the water draining on him and falling around the tub.
Then, even as it still poured, he stopped hearing it. Everything went quiet. His eyes started empty like at the handle.
She was probably with him right now.
Sean's fist met up with the ugly wall of his shower, he shot it back and hit it again as if it didn't take a beating from the locker earlier on.
He gritted his teeth, water shaking off him each time he sent a punch at the wall until he stopped, throwing himself back from it and grabbed the shower bar to support him as he panted and shut his eyes tight.
His chest was caving in, and he really thought he was going to cry. Then he noticed, it was just his heart, his heart felt it..was ..having a panic attack or something.
He got out, whipping a towel around his waist and let himself lean on his sink to breath and try to calm down.
He shut his eyes softly..
"Double cheese pizza, me, you." Sean teased Emma during computers class and she giggled beside him, rolling her eyes as he smirked when he could see her blush showing.
Sean opened his eyes wildly, and turned on the sink, splashing cold water in his face.