{The cranberries-what's on my mind}
Baby I would do anything for you
Nobody's ever treated me quite like you do
I've wasted too much time
I've wasted too much time
And I'm gonna tell you what's on my mind
Yea yea
Emma came out, wearing her black little skirt again and white tank top. He didn't even hear her come out but she noticed him. He sat on his bed, back turned to her and focused hard on his arm
The arm Rick had shot before he shot himself during the struggle.
Emma looked away painfully.
Sean was unwrapping the old bandage off his arm and struggled a bit with holding it up until one gentle hand held his bicep for him.
His head turned and his eyes locked onto Emma's.
She had crawled on the bed and sat on the pillows, as he sat on the edge with his feet on the ground. She looked away from him, but put her hand out.
He was confused, but just for a second until he followed her gaze at the new bandage. He picked it up and glanced hard at it, before slowly giving it to her.
She began to wrap it around his arm. He watched her eyes not leave his arm once, didn't even notice him staring so obviously at her. Was it freaking her out?
She stitched the wrap to a metal part that kept it together and finally looked up at him, dropping her hands from his arm and he slowly let it go down, still staring at her.
Emma looked oddly around. She shouldn't be on this bed. This was Ellie's bed. She hadn't even been in this apartment before, Tracker was still with Sean when they were together.
Emma then noticed his hand and looked back up at him, laughing slightly.
He jumped, and she eyed him, noticing him staring but forgot about it as her index finger tapped the top of his hand.
"and what happened here?" she asked.
He looked down at his hand from his shower the other night, just a bit of swelling on knuckles and a bit of bruising, "A wall." he smirked.
He looked back at her to frown, seeing her looking so blankly at him, "You're such a mess." she declared.
He raised an eyebrow, smiling slightly, "You shouldn't talk."
She looked away, and he thought she was mad, but a slow smile crept out. He wished he could stop himself, but it was like his body didn't listen to him.. neither did his heart so so be it.
He turned his body more around to her and crawled onto the bed, and over her, catching her lips into his and passionately kissing her. Shockingly, she let him. He was careful not to crush her, she was so tiny under him. She even wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him deeper and he groaned. She was such a good kisser.
He wasn't awful either.
They tore apart, Emma jumped a bit and shoving Sean away from her once again and he frowned deeply. Why was she so hot and cold?
Granted, he guessed he did hurt her bad before.
Her phone was by his side and she leaned over to grab it for him to glance at the screen and see who it was.
He grabbed her wrist from getting it and swipped it up himself, "He has your number?"
"Plenty of guys do." Emma taunted, putting her hand out for him to give it back to her. Jay was calling.
Sean angrily, pressed end.
She gasped and snickered, "Nice." she said sarcastically.
"Wanna see nice?" Sean taunted back, raising an eyebrow and through with the games. His anger boiled up in him and he thought of Jay as he snapped her phone in half.
"SEAN!" she yelled.
Sean rolled his eyes, yea, maybe a bit too dramatic but hey.
She got up, madly, "That's it, I'm leaving." she spat but he grabbed her back on the bed and under him and lifted her chin to look him in the eye.
"If you wannascrew around so badly," his breath went unsteady, "Then you can.." he drifted.
Emma looked at him, puzzled, until she felt his other hand slowly smoothing up her thigh and she was on cloud 9 already.
"..With me." he finished, swallowing nervously but taking the chance and they stared almost wide eyed at another.
Why couldn't Emma say no?
She grabbed the back of his head and he leaned down, crashing his lips to hers and she kissed him passionately back.
At least this guy made her feel kinda good.
She moaned, feeling his hand shakingly moving up between her thighs more and she opened her eyes, kind of confused when he couldn't move it anymore
Hasn't he... has he not? ..you know.
"Have you-" her voice cracked a bit, staring up at him.
He shook his head no slowly, and Emma couldn't believe it. Sean was a virgin? Her, not so shocking...but him.. I mean, she was just stunned
"Do you want to.." she couldn't believe she was saying it either, and her heart was racing.
She just, needed him right now. She'd rather it be him then any mistake of a guy at the ravine, or even school, all those boys sucked too. She was so scared about how lost she'd been that soon she would of even given it to Jay and that'd just be the biggest mistake but she didn't find herself being 'found' soon so why not give it to Sean while she could and while she felt found for the moment.
They could do it, get it over with, it could still be 'beautiful' even if messy and then they could go on like it never happened, right ? They were good at pretending things between them never happened.
Plus she wanted him to bad now. They way he looked at her with those bright blue eyes and she couldn't say she wasn't getting anything out of this, I guess it'd be sweet revenge also to take his virginity as well. She was shocked Sean's new girl friend hadn't rushed to grab it, she wondered if she even knew either. Was Ellie a virgin too then?
She snapped out of it when he nodded, quite sternly and she tried not to blush. Course he wanted to,he was a guy right?
"I need you to promise though," he says, face cringing
Emma looked at him questionably as his hands shaked when he cupped her face.
"No more Jay. No more ravine."
Emma looked away and muttered, "Can't promise that."
He angered and hurt all over, "They don't treat you right. They won't."
She shut him up with a kiss, and he sighed in sadness but than in happiness when she clung to him. Her hands shook too, but she knew this part at least, and she slowly undid his jeans.
He shut his eyes tighter, swearing this was a dream and he pulled away to nuzzel her neck and sigh heavily, "Em," he felt it now, her hands taking out his member and he twitched already in her hands, her grip on it.
Oh god.
Emma tried not to shake so hard. Mayb she wasn't ready, but when she saw how good Sean was feeling as he groaned and she began to stroke, she began to like the way she made him feel.
He was panting soon, jerking a little and his forehead down against hers as he let his hands roam hungerily up her shirt and under bra, groping her breasts.
My had they grown up..
Emma gasped in sharply, shutting her eyes and moaned and she opened her eyes, looking up at him and seeing how hungrily he looked down at her.
He suddenly grabbed her hand off him and tore the rest of his jeans down. He kept his eyes on her as she nervously sat up, putting her hair behind her ears but knew what this was leading to. She slowly pulled up her top and his eyes softened, gazing at her hard toned stomach and lacey red bra that held together two perfectly fist full breasts. He throbbed so hard it hurt and Emma saw it as he leaned back over her, and her eyes widened a bit. He was big, she knew now it was going to hurt.
"Sean." She said a bit afraid and tensed all over.
Sean stopped completely, not wanting to scare her nor do anything she didn't want to and looked at her worriedly.
She bit her lower lip a bit and avoided his eyes, but this was the first time His Emma was showing herself, clear as day and he then happily and softly kissed her.
He pulled away when she was breathless and whispered against her lips, "I'll be gentle." his nose pressed gently on hers, eyes both closed until she nodded and he then took off his shirt, he leaned back down to grin at her slight smile and blush to his abs and arms.. always a looker.
His breath went ragged when she leaned up on her elbows, undoing her bra and he stopped her from pulling it off just yet. He swallowed hard, locking eyes with her. Fuck she was so beautiful. How the hell did they get here?
He finally threw it to the side and stared down at her like he was in heaven. They were perfect. Emma flushed a bit and rolled her eyes a bit playfully, "Can we get passed this awkward moment?" she teased a bit, smiling a bit.
His smirk grew to a grin as he leaned down and kissed her neck, "But they're so.." he kissed down her chest and her chest began to rise up and down from her nervous breathing, "Pretty.." he kissed right onto her nipple and Emma whimpered a bit. Oddly, that felt good. She moaned when he took it fully into his mouth, sucking a bit
She felt herself getting a little wet too, in her panties, that Sean was now peeling down with his fingers, down her smooth thighs. He pulled away to toss that to the side too, her cute little hot pink panties.
They were really doing this.
He stared at her in all her glory.
"Sean, stop." she whined a bit, sick of the staring, and pleadingly put her hands on his hard bare stomach, running her fingers down his abs.
He blinked and snapped out of it, going harder as her fingers trailed down and down. She yelped a little but giggled when he suddenly rolled over and chose to have her ontop, and held her hips. She had such lady curves, if they were any more hour glass shaped, he'd go wild.
Her hair tossed to one side, and he caressed it, admiring the blonde. He brushed her bangs to the side for second to get a better view of those dark hazel eyes.
She bit her lip now, she'd never... done this, "I don't know..what to do." she whispered.
She was answered when she felt his hand position himself between her legs and she gave a scared gasp, not ready to take him inside yet, not with his size. She wanted to tell him she hadn't seen one that big yet, but it'd probably just boost his ego.
But then Emma moaned when she felt him not enter her just yet, but infact, his fingers slipped into her folds and she whimpered, her nails on his chest, digging into him.
He stared up possesively at her, and felt her wetness and he groaned himself to then slowly slip the finger inside her.
Emma panted, never having let anyone do this to her before. She had guessed Sean had at least done this since so good at it, his fingers had talent but then she yelped a bit when he entered two fingers. One, was tight enough
He cringed a little for her, admitting softly as he leaned up and kissed her head but still slipped his fingers in and out of her, "It's gonna hurt, Em."
She nodded,understandingly that and her knees began to tremble a bit. She knew this part, she was going to come soon, wasn't she?
"Sean!" she begged.
"Are you sure?" he asked, and then pulled away and caught her in his arms as she panted and swallowed hard fluttering her eyes open.
He smiled slyly and she tried to glare but she was still seeing stars and laughed a little softly. His heart pounded.
She then locked eyes with him again, and nodded, ready for it and he unsteadily breathed but nodded, just as wanting.
He was already hard as a rock right between her thighs. He knew this was going to hurt and he wanted it to pass as quick as it could. He took hold of her hips and saw her already shutting her eyes and fearing it, so he took a deep breath, and thrusted himself into her fully and she screamed at the sudden seering pain. She was limp, trying to hold herself on him and her teeth clenched, shaking in his arms.
"Shh, you're okay." he whispered to her, carressing her hair again and moved slowly out.
She whimpered and cried a little.
"You're okay." he promised and grit his own teeth. fuck she was so tight, clenching around his cock. He was so scared he'd come right there and not be able to show her it could feel good so tried his all to bare it.
Her body arched back, her hands starting to pull away from his when he grabbed her, knowing she was trying to stop the pain but he held her to him to get use to it and she panted and whimpered until she finally relaxed a bit, getting use to it.
She'd never insist to ANYONE to have a big 'guy' your first FREAKIN time.
Finally she fell forward, her face buried in his chest, tears dripping onto him. She was relaxing though, and he felt her easing to it and even pushing her hips up a little to push back down slowly to get use to it. He groaned, but tried to focus on her, holding her tight and she shut her eyes tight, doing it one more time til a moan escaped her mouth. As painful as it was, his cock was hitting the best spots inside of her.
"Are you okay" he whispered.
She nodded and finally looked up and he pushed her hair behind her little ears as her tears had finally gone away, "It hurt. Bad."
"I know. But it won't hurt again." Sean promised. He tried to hold in his groan, feeling himself inside her slip more in but she saw it and smiled a bit weakly but moved her hips again and he groaned louder and couldn't help himself . He took hold of her hips, and she sat up a bit more, looking back at his hands guiding her hips back and forth, up and down, slowly.
Sean swore he must of been dreaming, watching Emma Nelson, his dream girl ironically, naked, on top of him, rocking back and forth. He was going to come any minute. She could still look so innocent, even doing this, even after what they've been fighting about all weekend.
She started to quiever over him, telling him she was close too and he leaned up on his elbows, pushing one of her breasts back into his mouth and she wrapped her arms around his neck, loving the feel when he did that and even cried out when he playfully bit it then lifted his head and pulled her head down to kiss him.
Her hand ran down his arms, passing the bullet wound, the bullet wound he had because of her and it made her rock a bit faster.
"Em" he pulled away, grabbing her hips , "slow." he warned, knowing her too well and made sure she understood this wasn't fucking..this was making love.
She painfully looked back into his eyes, but also lovingly and he couldn't hold it much longer and began to thrust back inside her, and her gasps turned to cries, and her cries into pleas and he finally came hard, dropping his face between her neck and her shoulders, shouting her name and throwing his head back as she began to bow over him and shake, and hair stuck a little to her hot and red cheeks. She came, and shuddered down on him, feeling something shooting into her that only added to the pleasure.
"Ohh EM. .fuck." sighed Sean, jerking into her once more and she contracted around him until he fell back, panting heavily and she collapsed on top of him too, head on his chest. She couldn't breath, couldn't think, just wanted to hang onto this feeling.
His hands soothed slowly up and down her bare back, her chest against his and he wanted to hold her beautiful body forever.
He couldn't believe they just did that. He knew it was his first time, but he didn't think he'd feel this way with anyone but Emma.
"You okay?" he repeated.
Emma opened her eyes, she had almost passed out right there and joked lightly, "I am now." she was greatful he kept making sure though.
See ? No regrets...just a bit of pain between her thighs. Kay, a lot of pain.
Emma reminded herself of who else lived here. Ellie. She'd never felt bad for hooking up with Jay before, and even he had a girlfriend and it wasn't like she was more closer to Ellie than Alex or any means but this was Sean.
He had a girlfriend.
"I should go." she went to get up but was grabbed back down against him and then the look Sean gave her said it all.
He didn't want her to go, he actually looked horrified but the thought of it and her mouth hung a bit but she melted back into his arms.
"Just tonight." he said.
She nodded bluntly against his chest, shocked herself they went through with this. Normal Emma would be flipping out by now, but..she wasn't that Emma anymore was she?
She sadly burried herself in him, knowing tomorrow, he'd be Ellie's again . . and she'd be twistingly Jays. He painfully thought about that too, and both of them thought the other didn't want them as much as other did, and it was breaking them apart.
Love
Love
Love
You can't feel me, no
Like I feel you
I can't steal you, no
Like you stole me
And I want you in my life
And I need you in my life
La la la la
La la la la
La la la la
La la la la
{Pretty reckless-you}