Chapter 4

I do not own Black Butler, aka Kuroshitsuji.

Sebastian's silence through the whole day was unnerving, to say the least. The only time he spoke after giving me the schedule was to tell me what today's lunch was.

Of course I automatically thought the worst.

He's figured it out! He knows it's him! I'm dead! As soon as he rejects me, I'll order him to take my soul. I can't live with the fact that he'll taunt me and tease me for my emotions once he knows.

"Young master? It's time for you to retire" his voice snapped me from my thoughts.

"Very well" I replied coolly. I followed him down the hall to my room, waiting for him to say something... Anything.

I wait patiently, and by the time he's finished buttoning up my nightshirt I've figured out that he won't say anything. My eyepatch was placed on my bedside table. I sat on my bed and covered myself up, waiting for him to leave.

"Young master?"

"Yes?" I said, though I admit his voice startled me.

"I believe I have found out who you love" he said, not even looking at me. He was looking at the goddamn floor! But I couldn't blame him. As soon as he said that, I averted my gaze to the ceiling.

"Very well. Who is it?"

He hesitated for a moment.

"Before I say who I believe it is, may I ask a question?"

"Is it another hint?" I asked, still not looking.

"No, my lord" he replied, and I could just hear his smirk.

"Very well" I agreed. The more time until he says that he knows it's him, the better.

"Why do you love this person?"

My eyes snapped over to look at him. I could feel my cheeks heat up. He still wasn't looking at me.

"Why..." I repeated the word.

Why do I love Sebastian?

"I love them... Because..." I thought hard.

"I first fell in love with their body. Superficial, but that is not where it ends. After I fell for their physical appearance, I began to notice how much this person does for me. I began to fall for the caring nature they had for me, though I knew it was only because they wanted..." I paused. I was keeping this general, so I skipped over the part with my soul.

"And though they are older- Much, much older than me, their face is young. Beautiful" I hesitated. I... I wanted to describe my love. Tell Sebastian how he looks through my eyes. I began again, dropping the gender-neutral facade.

"His hair his black as the darkest night, his skin like porcelain, and his eyes, his ruby red eyes could hold me captive for hours" I was now the one looking at the ground, and I could feel Sebastian's eyes staring at me intensely. I continued still.

"And even though he'll never want me for anything other than my soul... I have fallen. Fallen down a deep, dark hole into the very pits of hell, and I'll never be able to get out... But I don't want to. I simply can't imagine waking up one morning and seeing him as no more than my butler, in fact that very thought terrifies me. I don't mind that he'll take my soul, that he'll be the one to kill me in the end, because as long as he is the last thing I see, I will be content"

I could feel my face burning intensely with the blush that had only seemed to intensify.

"My lord..."

Mwahaha! The evil writer has given a cliffhanger! I shall- *gets hit with a rock* HEY! You'll see what happens in the next chapter! Geez!