A/N: So, I might rewrite the earlier chapters in the future when I have time. For now, I want to finish this story for everyone who has stuck by it for years. I don't have a lot of time now with classes and such, but I will try to write in my free time. I hope you enjoy this story, and remember that you are all awesome. I want to thank you all for the amazing reviews I got for the A/N chapter I posted. It means so much to me as a writer to see you care enough to respond. I will try to write longer chapters for this now because of that (my goal is at least 1000, words per chapter). So without further ado, here's chapter 6.

Bella's POV:

I was in the hospital for a day before my father decided to come visit me in the hospital. It took that day for my father to get over his shock of seeing his daughter try to commit suicide, seeing the ex-boyfriend come sprinting down the stairs to help her, and seeing Alice for the first time in six months.

Charlie's visit wasn't that pleasant. He spent most of the time yelling at me how irresponsible and stupid I was for doing that. I could understand why he was screaming at me, and I agreed with what he said. I could see the pain in his eyes; I could see his fear. I felt guilty for putting him through that.

"Dad," I said when he took a break to breathe. "I'm so sorry. I was so stupid for trying to do that. I don't want to die, Dad. I didn't do it because of that. I did it out of compulsion. Everything came back to me at that moment, and it was… it was too much, Dad. I couldn't deal with it. I wasn't thinking clearly, obviously. I'm so sorry."

Charlie took a deep breath. "I would say it's okay, Bells, but it really is not. You are grounded, and I will be keeping a close eye on you from now on. Do you understand that?"

I nodded. "I understand…." I looked down at the floor. "Dad, I really am sorry."

Charlie walked over and put his arms around me. "I know kid. It's just… damn it, Bells. I can't lose you, not again." He looked at me with agony in his eyes. "I can't Bella. You don't know how close I was to losing it when…" he trailed off, his eyes distant and haunted.

I hugged him the best I could. "I'm sorry. I won't ever do anything like that again."

"I know you won't, sweetheart. I have a right to worry over you though." He smiled at me, but it didn't touch his eyes.

I nodded. "Dad… please don't blame the Cullens. It's not their fault." Charlie looked at me disbelieving. "It really isn't, Dad." I decided I needed to lie to make it better. "It wasn't even Edward's fault. They all decided to leave, but Edward didn't want to. He said he still loved me, but he didn't want to keep up a long distance relationship because he believed it would only make matters worse. He told me when he left that he didn't love me so I had a hope of moving on and being happy. He didn't realize that the opposite would happen. It was just as hard for him as it was for me. Please, Dad, don't be angry with him."

He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. "I still don't like the boy." He gave me a hard look. "I know he meant well, but that was not the way to go about it. The boy should have just been truthful with you."

I shook my head. "I forgave him, so, please, do the same. Can you do that for me?"

He groaned. "I'll try," he said doubtfully. He hugged me tighter. "Get better soon, Bells."

I smiled. "You have to get to work, don't you?"

He smiled apologetically. "I can call in if you really want me to stay…"

"Oh, no," I quickly said, "I don't want you to change your schedule because of me. Besides, I want to make up some lost time with Alice…"

He nodded and kissed my head. "You're sure easy to live with, Bells." He sighed. "I should probably be going." He looked at me sternly. "I will be back later tonight."

"I thought you would," I teased.

He grinned and walked out the door. Five seconds didn't even pass before Edward was back at my side.

"That went better than I expected…" he mused.

"Didn't expect my dad to like you?" I joked.

"Oh, he's far from like him," he grimaced, "but he's not planning on hunting me down and shooting me like he was planning to earlier."

I rolled my eyes. Yeah, that sounded just like my dad.

"So, when can I get out of here?" I questioned. I really hated being in the hospital. I should get a frequent visitor card or a hospital bed with my name carved into it.

"A couple days, a week at most," Edward replied, his voice going dark.

I looked at his face and say anger and disapproval engraved in it.

I groaned. "Please don't tell me you are still angry at me, too."

He glared at the space above my head. "How can I not be upset?" he demanded. "I arrive here to stop you from killing yourself, and you try to do it anyway."

I groaned and threw my head back. "Stop making it sound like I'm some insignificant child who needs constant protection from the world as well as myself. It's maddening."

He stared at me. "But that's just it, Bella. I have to protect you."

I glared at him. "No you don't. Normal people go throughout their lives in danger, and they live for the most part. They don't have a boyfriend who's only concern is to not let the girlfriend get a broken bone or, God forbid, a bruise. I might be fragile compared to you, but I'm not completely helpless."

I could see his jaw clench. "Most people don't have a boyfriend who is a vampire. They also don't have that said boyfriend who struggles to not kill her for either her blood or her fragility. You don't know how much it tortures me to know I could be the death of you."

I stared at him. "Than take the only solution there is," I whispered.

"Which is," he asked though he probably knew my answer.

"Change me. Keep me. If you truly love me, you'd want me by your side forever."

"That's not a solution, Bella," he growled. "It's a tragedy."

"How?" I demanded. "I love you. Leaving didn't keep me safe. There's no other option, Edward. I want you forever; why do you deny me it?"

"You don't know the consequences of the choice you're making," he insisted.

"I think I do," I argued. "I've seen it, Edward. You can't believe I am actually so stupid and ignorant that I would not observe it. I know that there is thirst. I know that I will lose my family and friends. I know that I will have a hard time controlling myself for a while, but I also know that I can learn to deal with it like you all did. And no matter what I give, you will always be worth it, Edward. There is not always a compromise."

He sighed. "I won't change you, Bella. I can't do that to you," he whispered, pain leaking into his voice.

"I will die someday, you do realize that, right?"

"I will follow soon behind you," he said calmly.

"That's…" I searched for the right word, "sick." Yeah that summed it up. "Do you realize what Carlisle and Alice will do if they find out."

Edward was about to speak when we heard a dry voice speak from the doorway. "Do you?"

A/N: Again, I want to thank everyone for sticking with this story. I'm sorry if it isn't the best, content wise, but I'm having a hard time getting back into this story after about a year. I think it will get better in a few chapters, so please bear with me until then. :) I hope you all have a great day. Happy reading.

~JerinAnn