I'm dedicating this chapter to lilangel1 who suggested this idea :) hope you like it!

Maisie arrived at the ED to meet her dad after catching the bus like Zoe had ordered. She went straight to reception hoping that his shift had already finished. "Hi Noel" She said as he was the only person standing there.

"Oh hello Maisie" He replied

"Have you seen my dad?" She asked, looking round to see if she could see him herself.

"He's just in resus at the moment but you can sit and wait here for him if you like" Noel suggested

"Yeah okay" Maisie agreed, she hated waiting in his office, it was always so quiet and boring. She went around to Noel's side of the reception desk and took a seat on the desk table.

"what you doing here then?" Noel asked. She never usually came in alone without either Nick or Zoe with her.

"Well dads taking me out" She told him.

Noel saw Nick walking out of resus at this moment "Ooh talking of the devil" He said glancing over to Nick who was heading towards them.

"Should I be worried Noel?" Nick chuckled as he overhead him.

"Not at all Mr J, just having a chat with young Maisie here" Noel said.

"Alright sweetheart" Nick said as he noticed Maisie sat with Noel. Zoe had rang to tell him that she was getting the bus so he expected her to already be waiting for him.

"Yeah have you finished?" She eagerly asked, getting bored of the ED already.

"Yep" Nick nodded "I'll just go and get my coat" He told her before they headed off.

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"Where are we?" Maisie asked as they parked up at what looked like a park.

Nick smiled as many memories came back to him "Your mum used to love it here" He said

"Really?" Maisie asked. She was quite shocked that her dad at brought her here, although they occasionally still talked about Yvonne, it was never really a major subject and deep down Maisie wished he would talk to her more about her mother. She was glad he had brought her here.

"Come on then" Nick said encouraging Maisie to get out of the car with him.

"Isn't this just a park?" Maisie asked, a bit disappointed when she saw that there was nothing here except a few people walking.

"There's something I'd like to show you" Nick said walking in the direction of the public path as Maisie followed.

They finally arrived at a bench which had a small white blossom tree beside it "Here we are" Nick told her, taking a seat on the bench, so Maisie also took a seat on the bench beside him.

"It's a bench dad?" She asked a little confused as to why he had brought her to a bench.

"Not just any bench" Nick said, turning around and pointing to the silver plaque which was on the bench "Your mums" he said as he noticed Maisie reading it.

"Mums?" she asked in surprise. She never knew that her mum had a memorial bench.

Nick nodded "Your grandma had it placed here along with the tree in her memory" He said looking up at the tree which stretched above them.

"I never knew" She said, looking at her dad.

"I used to bring you here all of the time when you were younger" He smiled.

"Really?" Maisie smiled and Nick nodded back in response.

"Why haven't you shown me before?" Maisie asked a little disappointed that she was only just discovering her mums memorial now.

"I never knew how much you missed her" Nick admitted feeling a little disheartened that he never knew how his daughter was feeling. "You're old enough now to know everything about her" He continued "and this is a good place for you to come and feel close to your mum whenever you want" He told her.

"It's beautiful" Maisie said taking in the surrounding scenery. And it was, it was a very relaxing environment "I'm sorry I never spoke to you about how I felt before" She apologised.

"Come here" Nick said wrapping an arm around her and pulling her close to his chest into a cuddle "You've got nothing to be sorry about I should have spoken to you" He apologised in return.

"Dad" Maisie whispered "How did she die?"

Nick swallowed, feeling a lump forming his throat. This was the question that he had always dreaded but she was old enough to know and she deserved to know "Your mum was in very bad place Maisie" He began, unsure of how to word it. He dealt with this situation everyday at work but when it was his own daughter asking it became more difficult.

Maisie looked up at him, tears forming in her eyes. She was a bright girl and knew perfectly well what he was trying to say "She killed herself didn't she?" She asked as a single tear rolled down her cheek.

Nick nodded, the tears in his eyes mirroring Maisie's as he saw the sadness on his daughters face, "Yeah" he quietly responded in almost a whisper.

"Was it my fault?" She asked fearing the worse.

Nick couldn't believe she would even think this, his heart ached as she asked him this question "No don't you ever, ever think that Maisie, your mum loved you and Oliver very much"

Maisie nodded as Nick began wiping the tears from her face.

"You are just like her" He told her, kissing the top of her head as he held her close

"Really?" Maisie asked

"Spitting image" Nick replied and she was, everything about her reminded Nick of Yvonne and in a way he was glad that her memory was living on. "It's OK to miss her" Nick assured her "and if you ever want to feel close to her you can just come here and visit her" He told her, hoping that she would feel better knowing that she always had a place to go and feel close to her mother.

"Thanks" Maisie smiled as her tears stopped "I'm glad you showed me this dad"

"me too princess" He said kissing the top of her head again

"Shall we go home now?" She asked as she was starting to feel cold

"Yeah" Nick agreed taking hold of his little girls hand as they headed back to the car.