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Chapter 28
"Good morning Morgans." Diane was in the waiting room when the trio walked in.
"Good morning Diane." Elizabeth said responding for everyone.
"How was the rest of yesterday?" Diane asked escorting the family into her office.
"Great, we went to the science museum, Ben joined us." Elizabeth sat on the couch and Cameron crawled up so that he was between her and Jason. "He did good." Crowds of other children weren't as frightening. "Last night Jason joined us for bath time."
"Very nice." Diane said smiling. "How about you two go grab some coffee and let Cameron and I have a talk?"
"Okay." Elizabeth gave her son a kiss.
"We'll be back buddy." Jason said rubbing his back.
Cameron watched them leave with worried eyes before turning back to Diane.
"So, this was an exciting week for you." Diane made sure to use child appropriate language with Cameron, but she never talked down to the little boy. He was actually very intelligent and when he didn't understand something would speak up and ask for clarification. "You got some new grandparents."
"I really like Maimeo." Cameron said smiling. He really liked Dr. Diane but sometimes she asked questions he didn't want to answer. Mommy said it was the doctor's job to help him figure things in his brain out. Confusing and scary things.
"Is that Monica?" Diane hadn't ever heard that word before. From where she had been standing she couldn't hear Ben talking.
Cameron nodded.
"What do you call Alan?" Diane asked her patient.
"Daideo." Cameron told her. Mommy had told him Jason's parent's names. "I like Nana too. She's soft." Poppa he was still figuring out.
"Lila is a wonderful woman and you are very lucky to have a family who loves you." Diane very much respected the Quartermaine matriarch. "Does Daideo scare you?"
"Some, but Ben said he gives good piggyback rides. I've never had one of those from anyone but mommy. Maybe Jason will give me one?" Cameron asked the doctor.
"I bet he gives good piggyback rides." Diane would pay to see that.
"You got a new ring." Cameron pointed to Diane's finger.
"I did. My boyfriend Francis gave it to me." She explained.
"I saw him. At the barbershop where Jason took me to get my haircut." As far as Cameron was concerned there was only one Francis she could mean. Since there was only one Francis he knew. "Mommy came too. I liked that because Ben gets his hair cut with his dad."
"That's wonderful." Diane said smiling. "Have you spent any more time with Ben's dad?" She knew he had a playdate coming up where Johnny would be home.
"Some." Cameron said slowly. "I think he's okay. Ben likes him, and his green eyes are nice." Cameron spent a lot of time watching people's eyes. Mean daddy's eyes got darker before he would hit him.
"They are. I think your Uncle Johnny would like to be your friend." Diane explained.
"He's my uncle?" Cameron said surprised. "I never had an uncle before." That was pretty cool.
"Yes, and Ben's mom is your aunt. She's Jason's sister, that's why Ben is your cousin." Lots of new connections were being made. "You have a lot more people to love you."
"Do you think Jason loves me?" Cameron asked in a small voice. He also dropped his head.
Diane gave the little boy a moment to see if his posture was going to change. She already knew that Cameron loved Jason. That he was hoping the older man would love him too. "I think he does." Diane said softly. "Would that make you happy?" Working with children could be tricky, as they were easily influenced. Diane had to be careful not to plant ideas in Cameron's head. On this topic she could speak confidently. Just looking at Jason you could see his love for the small child.
"I want Jason to love me." Cameron said in an even softer voice. "I was bad." His voice wobbled and the tears came. "I wet like a baby, and now maybe Jason doesn't want me anymore."
"Oh Cameron." He just tore her heart to shreds when he got like this. She knew exactly what he was talking about because Jason told her. "That's not true. Did Jason yell?"
"No." Cameron said shaking his head.
"Did he hit you?" Diane asked gently.
"No." Cameron said shaking his head again. His small chest was hitching as he tried to stop the tears. Big boys didn't cry. "It was an accident I didn't mean it."
"Jason knows that." Diane was willing to bet that the mob boss had actually said those words. "You were scared."
"I don't want him to be mad and take my ring away. Then I'd have to go. I don't want to have to go. Mean daddy said bad boys got sent away." Cameron said crying harder.
This was a new revelation. Lucky had done a lot of damage and if Cameron was sharing more he was feeling safe. "Cameron, can I call Jason and ask him to come back?" They needed him. Occasionally she needed to ask Elizabeth to step in.
"I don't want him to see me crying." Cameron said slowly.
"We talked about how crying is completely natural, do you remember?" Diane often had to circle back to things they already talked about. "How everyone cries even grownups."
"Mommy cries some times." Cameron told Diane.
"Me too. Even Jason." Diane was guessing.
"Really?" Cameron said eyes widening.
"Really." Diane had never seen Jason cry, but she was guessing he had the capacity to do so. His eyes had not been damaged in his accident. "So will you let him come back?"
"Mommy too?" Cameron wanted them both here.
"Yes, your mom too." Diane assured him.
"Okay." Cameron said wiping his face.
"Good." Diane never called without Cameron's permission. Sometimes it was very hard to get. She walked over to the door and opened it to see if they were still in the waiting room.
When they walked back out Jason looked down at his wife. "Should we wait here?" Last week they met with his parents. This week he made sure the older couple wouldn't come down. He didn't want Cameron to feel crowded.
"I usually do. I pretend to read the magazines, when I'm really just worrying about Cameron." Elizabeth admitted.
"We can worry together then. Leaving him in there was hard." Jason told her looking back at the door. "Diane is really good at her job."
"You looked her up?" Elizabeth guessed.
"She is my son's doctor, of course I looked her up. Is he going to see Maggie Smith any time soon? She's Ben's doctor." Jason asked as they sat.
"He saw her when we first got here. Maggie recommended Diane." Elizabeth said patting Jason's leg. "I need to make an appointment."
"I thought Cameron had automatic appointments." Jason said confused.
"For me." Elizabeth said quietly. "It's time." She said letting out a deep sigh when Jason took her hand in his.
"Want me to walk you over?" It wasn't even fifty feet.
"Yeah." Elizabeth appreciated the support.
"Whenever you are ready." Jason told her.
"Now." Elizabeth said standing. Jason just followed her to the receptionist's desk. "Hi Evelyn, I'd like to make an appointment."
"Okay." Evelyn said pulling up Diane's schedule. "For you?" The older woman asked. It was clear that the Liz had some issues of her own. Evelyn had been doing this a long time and she respected the young mother for getting her son some help, and now getting herself help as well.
"Yes." Elizabeth liked Evelyn, she was always kind to them. "Diane is probably pretty booked."
"Well let me have a look." Evelyn had already been told to find a spot for Liz when she was ready. "When are you off next week?"
"Tuesday and Wednesday." Elizabeth answered.
"We have this time on Tuesday, if that works." Evelyn knew that Liz didn't need the same regular time slot like her son. "One hour."
"Okay." Elizabeth said taking the card and squeezing Jason's hand at the same time.
"We will see you then. Mr. Morgan if you and Cameron will be waiting we have toys that we keep in the closet." Evelyn informed Jason.
"Thanks." He said nodding. He was certainly not going to let Elizabeth do this alone. "Let's have a seat. Do you want some water?" He asked pointing to the cooler.
"No. I feel okay." She did. Just knowing that she was going to deal with all the emotions she had been keeping locked down was making her feel light.
The door opened and Diane peeked out. "Would you come in?" Elizabeth immediately stood and hurried over. Jason just waited on the chair wanting to come, but figuring Elizabeth should handle this alone. "You too Jason." Both women were in the doorway.
"Okay." Jason said rising and joining them. "What happened?" They were still in the doorway.
"Cameron is upset about yesterday morning." Diane explained in a quiet voice. "He is afraid you are going to send him away. He told me that his mean daddy said bad boys get sent away."
"Oh my god." Elizabeth said closing her eyes for a moment as she damned Lucky to hell. "What should we do?"
"Actually I am hoping Jason will help." Diane looked over at the mob boss who was intensely focused on the small child on the couch.
"What should I do?" Jason was ready to help.
"A hug is a good place to start." Diane felt Jason wouldn't need much guidance. "He wants you there as well." She told Elizabeth. All three adults moved to the couch. "Your mom and Jason are here."
Cameron didn't look up as both his parents sat on either side of him. His breath was still hitching and his shoulders shaking as he fought against the tears. Elizabeth rubbed his back knowing that if Cameron was going to talk at all he needed to calm some first. No one was prepared for the small boy to turn and crawl into Jason's lap.
Immediately Jason's arms came around his son and just held him tight. "It's okay buddy, me and mommy are right here."
"I don't want to go away. Please don't make me go away." Cameron begged clutching Jason's shirt tightly in his fist. "I won't be bad anymore."
"Shh." Jason said trying to stay in control. This poor child had suffered so much. In the months of unsupervised visits and then the three weeks he'd been forced away from his mother. "I'm not going to make you go away. I would miss you too much. I love you Cameron." Jason said rocking the small child and rubbing his back. "Me and your mommy both love you so much." Stretching out his arm Jason silently urged Liz closer. When she slid across the couch he held her too. "It's okay." He murmured quietly as Cameron settled some.
Diane got them all some water and the office was quiet for a bit as Jason just let his calm presence seep into his son. "Cameron are you ready for me to talk to you?"
The little boy nodded against Jason's chest.
"Look up." Jason wanted them face to face. "You had an accident because you were scared. Your mommy wasn't where you expected her to be. We are all still getting used to one another so you didn't think to look in my room. I know the last time you woke up and mommy wasn't there you were with your mean dad." Jason felt Cameron shudder under his hand. "I know that scared you. I'm not angry and you weren't being bad."
"I was crying." Cameron looked down, but then looked up again. "Big boys don't cry."
"Yes they do." Jason gently corrected. "Everyone cries. Even me." Jason promised. "I cried when Ben was born and last year Poppa got sick and was in the hospital. I was scared and cried then too."
"You were scared?" Cameron asked unable to believe it. "But you're big."
"Doesn't mean I don't get scared." Jason said smiling. "Just at different things then you."
"Like what?" Cameron wanted to know.
"I was scared you weren't ever going to want to talk to me. Or that you and your mommy might leave one day." Jason confessed.
"We have rings." Cameron pointed out. "We can't leave."
Jason wasn't about to attempt to explain divorce. "Sometimes when you get scared it doesn't make sense to other people. Sometimes when you talk about it the fear goes away."
"You really love me?" Cameron circled back to what really mattered.
"I do, yes. That's why I gave you my name. That's why you are Cameron Morgan." Jason told the little boy. "You're my son, and I love you very much."
"Can I call you dad?" Cameron was being brave.
Jason wasn't sure which one of them was trembling harder. "I would love that." He said smiling wide.
"It's okay?" Cameron turned to his mom.
"It's okay. "Elizabeth was crying too. There wasn't a word to express how wonderful this moment was. They would have rough patches but this was a major breakthrough. Cameron was talking to Jason.
"Are you working today?" Diane looked at Elizabeth who nodded. "I'd like to try something." She waited until both parents nodded. "Cameron?"
"Yes Dr. Diane." He was still on Jason's lap, but he was also holding his mother's hand.
"How would you like to spend the day with Jason? Just the two of you while mommy is at work." She could be completely ruining Jason's day, but she wanted to keep the momentum from this session going. She didn't want to give Cameron a chance to pull back into his shell.
"Could I?" Cameron asked looking up. That never even occurred to him.
"I need to go to my office for a little bit, but you could come with me." Jason's office was huge, they could swing buy the penthouse and get a few toys for the little boy to play with. "After that we can do whatever you want."
"Is that okay?" Cameron asked his mother. "Will you be sad if we do fun stuff while you are at work?" He didn't want his mother left out.
"I tell you what. If you and Jason get to do fun stuff together today, just the two of you. Then next week Jason and I will get to do something by ourselves while you stay with the new babysitter we got you." Hopefully the younger woman would be a hit tonight. "Does that sound fair?"
"Okay." Cameron said excited.
"You and mommy can do something without me if you guys want." He was sure he could find something to do. Jason offered.
"Cameron and I do stuff by ourselves all the time." Elizabeth countered and she saw Diane nod in agreement. This was the time to cement Jason's place in both their lives. There would probably be more times that it was just her and Cameron because of Jason's work schedule. "So you and Jason today and me and Jason next week."
Cameron smiled and nodded.
So did Elizabeth. Just like that she got herself a date night. Looking up at Jason she dropped him a wink. In his blue eyes she saw that he got what she had done. When his eyes darkened just a bit she knew that he approved.
"Great. I think the guys should get started on their men's day." Diane said smiling. Adult time for Liz and Jason was just as important as daddy son time. Maybe in time they could include Johnny and Ben on these men days. Cameron needed all the positive male role models that he could get.
"We will see you next week." Elizabeth said feeling really good.
"Wanna walk mommy to the elevator?" Jason asked Cameron.
"Okay. Can I have a piggy back ride?" The little boy asked shyly.
"Sure." Jason was glad he wasn't wearing his jacket. He had driven everyone over and left it in the car. "Hop on."
"Bye Dr. Diane." Cameron waved grinning wide.
At the elevator Elizabeth got kisses from both her guys and promised to let Kyle drive her home before stepping inside the box. She was already wondering what she and Jason would do on their night out. A date sounded just fantastic.
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