Sorry for it being so short, but it's all I could manage. I hope you like it. To me it seems quite busy in this chapter. But, hey-ho... I do like the chapter myself, though.
DISCLAIMER: *voice of consuela* Noo is' not mine. Is' Mr Isayama's.
"Eren…"
I didn't reply, well not verbally anyway. My body replied by shaking with sobs against the door, causing it to rattle on it's hinges slightly. I realised that, quite recently, I haven't been talking much. To be honest, I'm surprised I made it this far.
"Eren, please let me in." Levi asked, slightly knocking on the door.
I made a groan and didn't move. This caused Levi to start rapping louder on the door.
After a while, I heard footsteps. The sound of the steps progressively got louder, until the owner of the pair of feet was in front of the door, beside Levi.
During Levi's constant knocks, I could hear Hanji trying to talk to him into sense. Out of concentration of trying to hear the conversation, my tears seemed to stop.
"Levi, stop. What is going on?" Hanji sounded full of concern, I don't know for who though, I just hope it wasn't for me.
"That brat fucking locked himself in here."
Hanji must have grabbed hold of his hand; there was no more knocking. "Levi, listen, I don't know what Eren has told you... But, he likes you, he really does. After what I have heard, from Eren, of the things that happened between you, I'm surprised that something like this hasn't happened sooner. He is really fragile at the moment. I mean, haven't you seen his arms Levi? He tried to fucking kill himself. He had to be hospitalised, Levi. You could probably empathise, after the stunt you pulled too... Actually,thinking back, you were both hospitalised at the same time, you know." I heard Levi gasp.
Oh, shit! So he was the one Hanji was talking about, I-I really… r-really, would never have guessed.
"Eren is all I have left, if you dare continue fucking him around and hurting him like this, I don't know what I would do. But, it won't be nice, I can assure you of that."
With that I heard one of them softly pad away, which I guessed was Hanji. I heard a thud on the door and a sliding sound. Someone was sat outside of the door. "Eren… I'm sorry." It was Levi.
My body started to move on its own. I slipped away from the door and unlocked it, slowly opening it. My mind was blank and I was completely unaware of what I was doing. As I expected, Levi was seated with his back to the door. He turned around. Teal meeting grey. His eyes were red and puffy, quite unlike him. I never thought he would be a person to cry. Levi stood up and walked into the bathroom, closing the door behind him, but not locking it. "I'm sorry."
I started to laugh, a crazed laugh, one that you would associate with a mad man. Levi looked me dead in the eyes while I laughed at him. "You think an apology can cut it? ARE YOU FOR FUCKING REAL?!"
Stop, I don't mean this.
Levi stepped forward, his hand outstretched me.
"Don't fucking touch me!" I screamed swatting his hand out of the way.
Please, touch me, comfort me.
He looked quite hurt at my action. But what did I care? That's right, I didn't not after what he has fucking done. "You're a fucking monster, Levi. I LOVED YOU!"
Stop. Levi, I still love you!
"You just took my heart and ripped it up. When I first saw you, I thought you were the one. As I got to talk to you, I saw under your cold exterior. I saw you, I loved you. But, when you pulled that little stunt. When you STOLE my first kiss, you rejected me, you turned me away."
You didn't steal it. I'm happy you took it. I don't mean it.
"DO YOU EVEN REALISE HOW HEART-BROKEN I FELT?! Then my sister died and you laughed at me. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU!" I picked up a bottle of shampoo, which happened to be full, and threw it at Levi. It hit him in the cheek as I scream "I FUCKING HATE YOU!"
NO! Levi! I'm sorry! It's all wrong. I don't hate you, I love you!
Levi froze and clutched his face. I bolted past him, opening the door and just running. I heard the sound of Levi dropping to the floor. He didn't cry, he didn't scream.
I ran outside, ignoring the calls from Hanji, Petra and Erwin as they chased after me, calling my name. I ran into the forest and didn't stop, I didn't look back.
I ran for as long as I could, it felt like forever. My feet started to sloppily stumble around and they caught on a raised root. I fell, face first into the thick, green undergrowth. I didn't bother getting up. I just crawled to the nearest tree and put my back against it. I put my head into my hands… What have I done? I started to scream and cry. Even after all that has happened I still want him. I hate how things have escalated so quickly. I hate how much my life has change, for the worst.
The sun started to set in the background. A warm glow of orange is spread out amongst gold, red and green leaves. I tried to block out my thoughts and just think of the beautiful spectacle to behold in front of me.
As I let my mind go blank, fatigue, from crying so much, took a hold of me. I curled myself into a ball and fell asleep in the last warming rays of the autumn glow.
Mum…
Mikasa…
Hanji…
Levi…
My mind wandered into a dream, strangely enough, was of Levi. It was of him searching through a forest, at night. He looked like he had been crying, with red puffy eyes and tear stained tracks on his cheeks. He was calling my name, trying to search for me in the darkness. It confused me, I wasn't lost, was I? I tried to shout for him, but no sound came out. So, I started to make my way towards him He continued to search around, the moonlight guiding him. He stopped by a tree, which I stood behind. Levi reached his hand out and stroked something in front of the tree, which I couldn't see. He seemed to start crying again, muttering some words I didn't quite catch, he looked panicked and scared. Hanji caught up with Levi and crouched beside him. She looked what he was looking at and reached out for it, a look of despair on her face. I saw Levi standing up and pick up whatever was by the tree. Before I had a chance to see what it was, everything went black.
I blinked into life, and was met with complete darkness. I felt a shifting movement next me. I turned over to see Levi facing me. He was asleep. His face looked so peaceful, I found myself not being able to draw my eyes away. Whilst staring intently at Levi's sleeping face, my mind wandered elsewhere. I was a bit confused of how I ended up here. I remember getting into an argument with Levi, screaming, throwing a bottle at him and running away. My breath hitches and I rolled over, letting the tears roll out silently. Why do I mess everything up?
I put my hand over my mouth to muffle my cries. Violent sobs wracked my body, shaking the bed slightly. "Levi… Oh God." I let out wispy whispers, my tears coming down harder. "I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean it… Levi, I-I… I still love you… forgive me." I wasn't talking to anyone. I was more justifying myself, with myself.
"Hey, Eren..." I heard a whisper behind me.
I froze. I thought I just heard Levi. No, I couldn't be him
"Eren." A whisper behind me repeated.
Oh, shit. It was Levi.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. I didn't move. "Eren, is that how you really feel?" Levi asked in a soft tone.
I gave him the cold shoulder, which caused me to be turned around. I was facing Levi, but not looking at him. "Look at me." He deadpanned. I was surprised he could see me not looking, since it was so dark. Unless, he just guessed, which probably wasn't that hard. "Did you mean it?" he asked, again.
"What do you care?" I spat back, my tone hushed and not as sure as it could have been.
Levi caressed my cheek, I didn't pull away. He placed his other hand on my other cheek. He leaned forward and closed the gap between us, placing a soft kiss on my lips. It wasn't forced are lustful in any way. It was patient and willing. Blinded by my own affection towards him, I pressed a little bit of force into the kiss.
We broke away shortly after, teal meeting grey as we stared deeply at each other. "Eren, I love you."
I gasped, my hand going to stroke the back of Levi's, which was still caressing my face. "I love you, Levi."
"I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry for everything. From the moment I saw you, I-I…" tears started to roll down Levi's face. "I'm so sorry, I thought you were going to die, you were so cold... I-I didn't know you… I didn't know. I-I cut you off because I didn't want to get you involved in this."
The string of confessions leaving Levi's lips didn't seem to make sense, but I ignored it and linked our fingers, and guided his hands from my face. "So, Levi… Do you want to give this a try? Will you go out with me?"
He nodded and broke into tears. I pulled Levi into another soft kiss.
Hey there guys! Hoped you like it! I am really loving your comments so far, they really make me smile.
donotinquire: I hope you enjoy the Ereri in this. It will get better, don't worry. Also, I will try my best to balance the two things.
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