7 A/N: READ ME READ ME NOW BEFORE YOU DECIDE TO SPAM ME! It'll be a long chapter Me: the following chapter will reveal very much so make sure you pay attention to it, it may also contain some strong scenes, I will place stars before those scene to warn you and stars again to signal they are over. After this chapter you'll understand _'s dream and Ciel's inside voice, also after this chapter Ciel won't be the same cruel Ciel from the anime an manga since this will surely change him, Oh yeah a lot of crazy stuff will happen so just prepare yourself, without any further waste of time enjoy the chapter. Sebastian: You'll be able to understand why I asked my master to sleep Ciel: I AM LOSING MY PATIENCE START THE DAMN CHAPTER! Me: yeah yeah wanna be Ciel: -_- Sebastian: she's right I'm sorry master but she is All 3: REMEMBER TO COMMENT! Ciel's POV I walked through the gardens calmly, breathing in the scent of the flowers all around me, the best scent was the one of the Sakura tree she had. "Ciel!" I was tackled from behind and fell to the ground. I flipped over and stared at (e/c) eyes, they sparkled in the sunlight. She giggled and slid off spreading her dress on te grass. We were in the midth- 19th century. "Ciel I have to tell you something" "What is it?" "Well I'll be going on a trip, my father has to deal with some business in Mexico something about a revolution" (sorry if I'm wrong in this stuff but I don't do history well) "I see" "Why don't you come with us!" "I wouldn't want to be a pest in your family" "Of course not! Pleeaaaasssssee!" "Alright I'll inform Sebastian" "Shieru?" "Hmm?" "Pro-promise me we'll always be friends *teary eyed* please..." "Of course" "Shieru... *tackles him in a hug* thankyou!" "Gak! S-Stop I do not accept affection!" "Sorry but after everything that's happened I feel like I'm alone" "You aren't" " *smiles kindly* I know *hooks arms with him* you're the best" Ciel demons don't feel this! She is such an unfortunate soul. So vulnerable and pitiful. To think I was a human! How awful. Poor humans just can't deal with it or some are so stupid they please themselves using others. Like they used this poor soul. If her family hadn't rescued we she'd be the walking dead, so close to being raped. Her screams as they beat her was their entertainment. How disgusting. *time skip* The whole time in Mexico was very exquisite and unique, women dressed differently and there were places I wouldn't imagine existed! Men had fun in a similar way as in England but went to places I would prefer not to mention. It's stunning to me and Sebastian how much laugh an smiles I've had lately, I'll admit I'm enjoying my time here, and the tea is surely something new an delicious. Although whenever I am out walking with _ I feel like we are being watched. The other day someone tried sneering into her 'Hacienda' which I suppose is something like mansion in Spanish? We caught the person sneaking in very close to _ and my room. I do hope nothing happens. *time skip to when they go back home* I have spend much time with _ at her mansion or at mine. I'm afraid to say that... Even though I loved Elizabeth, I have received stronger feeling for _. It is fairly strange to me. In fact the other day I got furious that a boy tried getting close to her! When we got back to her gardens I in rage screamed at her to never look at another man that isn't me... Her response made my face turn red, I could feel it, her response made my stomach tighten, and was stuck in my head till night! Her response was... "There is no other man that I would want to look at besides you" We were currently walking in my gardens, our arms hooked they were together like if meant to be, we laughed and told jokes. I felt her head lean against my shoulder making my insides feel warm. It pained me to know I would have to leave her some day. Me being a demon would mean I'd have to leave her so she wouldn't find out. My heart ached at that thought. "M'lady!" Her clumsy maid Fon came running to the gardens. "What is it Fon?" "Oh no no m'lady―" "I told you we are friends,no need to call me that" "M'lady― umm _ it seems there is a horrible man in this city that has been attacking young women, many have disappeared from close by! The most that have been found were raped,and beaten, oh how I would hate anything to happen to you so we must hire a personal body guard to be with you at all times, we never know when he might attack!" 'Not with me around' I thought. No way in hell would I let anyone get close to my dear _. Nobody will hurt her. "Hey _ how would you like me to―" "No" "Eh?" "I want to defend myself! I'll try learning weapons" "Well that isn't lady like" "I don't care!" "Alright but you'll fail" *5 minutes later* No way! She just shot the arrow into the middle! Who knew she's be good with a bow and arrow. I heard a squeal and turned to see her jumping up and down clapping her delicate hands, her hair waving in the wind and her dress bouncing, her eyes shining. "Ciel Ciel I made it hehehe! I made it and you didn't!" She laughed as I smiled gently "Yes I can see that you did" "Hehe!" "Oh stop" "And you said I would fail *smirk*" "Hmph! Whatever" *3 days later* _ has gotten her personal body guard now, and we don't have as much fun as before but we still love to be together. To my surprise its now very normal for us to take eachother's arms, we don't have a second thought about it anymore. We were currently under the Sakura tree all the way in the far end of the garden so we wouldn't be disturbed. "Ciel..." "Yes?" "Do you love me" she said turning to me while my face burned. "Yes of course, do you" "Ciel you're my best friend I love you very much" "Oh..." "But Ciel..." "What is it" she took me hand "I-I've been loving you more than a friend, I want to be with you, I want you to hold me close" my face was probably looking like red wine right now "_... I-I...,it seemed strange to me at first, to have such feelings...but for you... I want to hold you close, I love the feeling of our hands fitting together perfectly." She smiled and her eyes shined like pearls. Before I knew it, I was slowly leaning forward while she stared into my eyes and I stared at hers. Our lips softly collided, they didn't move in sync, just them touching was enough to paralyze us both, even as a demon I could feel the love between us, I felt like a ray of sunlight shone around us as we kissed. Something I thought was impossible... _ had made real, she proved the impossible,...that a demon. No a person who even before being a demon had no feeling, no heart, that a person like me could love. "Shieru" "*chuckles* you're talking like someone else I know" "Sorry, shtupid accent!" "It's okay" "Shieru?" "What is it now *smiles*" "Does this mean we're a couple" I froze. I forgot about that. "Whatever you want" "You're my boyfriend then" "Alright" I smiled as I leaned in for another sweet and love filled kiss. *1 month later* _ and I walked through the gardens smiling. Our relationship was wonderful right now and I couldn't ask for better. Her dress glided gracefully around her, I loved everything about her. Although honestly her dress brought back some pretty bothersome memories. . I shuddered. Madam Red sure love bothering me. "Ciel how much do you love me" "More than the world, I love you more then and as much as the strength I have over the world" "Say it" "_ I love you and always will, my worst fear and pain is to think I'll have to leave you" "Ciel... I'm scared" she said almost a whisper "No no don't be scared, you have me, but why are you scared?" I said as I put my arms around her. "I'm scared that I might be kidnapped..." "You won't, I'll protect you and if it does happen know that I'll still love you and get you back no matter what happens" I kissed her head, an breathed in the wonderful scent of her hair, no matter what, I will love her forever. *2 days later* Today me as _ are going out on a stroll through the forest. I am truly excited because I will give her a promise ring today. . I want to show her I lie her with all my heart. Nothing will stop me from that. As I smiled at the thought if her reaction she came down the steps of her stairs, she looked truly stunning in the dress I gifted her. . "How do I look" "You look as beautiful as ever, you look like you're from another century, a princess" she blushed as I said that and vowed to kiss her hand. We walked through the forest hand in hand. I anxiously waited for her to see some flowers so that I could get out the ring. As if on que she exclaimed she saw some flowers. I told her to go ahead since it was only 5 feet away. As she ran I turned my back to hero get out the ring. "Ciel hurry are you coming!" "Yes please wait!" I got out the ring and hurried away. "CIEL!" "_!" "Shieru! Hurry!" "I'm coming ! just wait for―" "AHHHHH!" "NO!" I panicked as I geared her screams and ran all over searching, when I finally found her she was in hands of a man and had a knife at her throat. "Leave her now!" "Says a kid, goodbye" He threw a knife at my arm, as I yelped in pain he ran with her, he ran with the love if my life, after hearing all the screams her body guard appeared, I yelled at him to go after her, he did but after calling Sebastian to help me! Her family was devastated with all of this her poor mother Miria Cried and cried, I tried consoling her as much as I could I really did, for I understood her sufferment. I concentrated hard to get into _'s mind when I did... I was frightened an scarred. ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ***************************************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** *********************************************************************************************************************************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** She was in a bed tied up an wheeping, her arms ached, I was in her mind I could feel her pain, she cried and screamed for help but nobody came. Finally that man who took her walked in chuckling. He screamed for help. "Shhh don't scream princess" the man said with a smirk He went over to her bed and stroked her cheek. She whimpered and he chuckled. "Stop pleasehave mercy" "no I saw you in your trip, and ever since I laid eyes on you I knew you were the one. "No stop!" "Shh you know my dear... I have been waiting so long for someone like you" he began to take off his pants and shirt. "For so long I've been searching and now I have found you" He laid over her and began to kiss her forcefully, his hands pressing on her breast, she plead or him to stop but he only got more forceful, he unzipped her dress his hands were all over her body, kissed her neck, it was disgusting the way kissed at her neck. She screamed and screamed but it only got worse. He straddled on her waist, her eyes wouldn't stop streaming tears, her throat sore but not tired from screaming, he began thrusting It was a nightmare. No matter what he wouldn't was worst was that he moaned like if it was pleasurable for both of them. It seemed like the more she battled to free herself the better it was for him! He moaned and screams in pleasure while she only felt like wanting to die. She wanted to get away. That happened all night, he finally got tired and left, but only for 1 hour before he came back in. She kicked an screamed louder then ever What had she done to deserve this?! ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** ******************************************** Ciel screamed. How could _ be going through such horror! She had been raped! He was scarred with that image of his loved one in such conditions. Now he was screaming as much as she was. The horror The horror! This man wasn't human he was a monster! He was worse than any demon! It took Ciel all night to fully calm down. When he finally did it was morning and he ordered Sebastian to rescue _ and kill that man, he ordered to show no mercy! He must pay! *3 days later* Ciel's POV Sebastian had killed that man and I was glad, _ was back, it took her 2 days to recover and she was still in shock. To the worse... She was pregnant. I myself and everyone suggest that she get rid of the child but kind as ever to her it was out of this world. She reminded everyone that it wasn't the child's fault that this happened that it wasn't her fault either. She convinced everyone for it was true. I personally had in front of everyone had vowed to take are of _ and the child myself . I would pay for anything and take in the child as well. Everybody was certainly touched. *months later* My love for _ hasn't changed I still love her, but her love for me has. Her love for me has grown. After she was cured he knew I would always be there for her, now she loves me more than ever. She has a big round tummy now even though she is only 13. Still I enjoy resting my hand on that little round bump and enjoy it even more when I feel the child inside kick or squirm around. She says it hurts but loves it anyway. We were outside in the garden having tea, everything was peaceful, Sebastian was now always at our side and he has grown a soft spot for her as well. We laughed as she ate her cookies and drank we tea. You see I told her that she would gain more weight but she responded "it is not my fault I...uh I mean it's not my fault this kid loves sweets" and shook her belly. I helped her up but she crouched over breathing heavily then screamed. "Ciel!" "_!" "I- I'm ready *breath* the *breath* the baby *breath* It's coming!" Sebastian picked her up and ran in with me close behind. She was hurried up stairs to give birth. I was scared. It's been hours of screaming. I've been outside the door this whole time waiting. This is nerve wrecking. Finally when I thought of the worse... I heard a small baby cry. It was magical. Without waiting for anyone's approval I barged in. I saw a baby wrapped in a pink fluffy towel carried by Fon. It was crying and squirming around. _ was on the bed breathing heavily. Fon looked at me with tears of joy and handed me the child. I felt like the happiest person on earth. The child held my finger in its small grip. "Ciel... You deserve to hold her, you were there like her father" "Her?" "Indeed" I happily walked over to _ and held her hand. "_ look it's your daughter, she's beautiful, a-and so...so tiny" I said about to cry but held back. "Ciel... I-I love you" "I love you too" Her breath slowed. "_ pl-please stay here, stay alive we need to raise her together, together, be strong please, stay strong" "I'll... I'll love you f-forever... Ciel..." Her hand dropped from mine. Her body became limp. "No, No No No NO! _! Come back PLEASE! I need you!... ... Youre the only person that has made me feel this way. COME BACK DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE IN THIS WORLD!" Tears streamed down and I collapsed crying on her chest, clutching the child to my own chest. The funeral was depressing. Everyone that attended had tears in their eyes. What surprised _'s mother,Fon,and grandmother was that Ciel wasn't there yet. Where was he? Fon did understand though, he love her too much to see the funeral, he would've broke down and nobody would like that. Just as she was going to get up the doors to the church were thrown open. Everyone looked over to see Ciel running in, Sakura tree petals floated all over the room. Ciel jumped next to _'s coffin and dropped many flowers. Now creating a Flower Bed. He asked everyone to close their eyes, eventually they did. Once opened _ had a different coffin, she was in a pure crystal diamond like coffin, he had a bouquet of flowers, her hair spread out looking beutiful, she wasn't lying on a bed, her bed was fully made o flowers, her dress was beautiful Around her neck a necklace . Everyone stared in awe, the petals still falling. How did Ciel do this. Fon was amazed. Ciel finally spoke up still staring at _. "She was the only one who made me feel loved. She made my heart want her always at her side. She was unique, how I did this will stay mystery but I believed that... "An angel like her *tears in eyes* deserved to say goodbye with the best of the best "I will never forget her she was the love of my life and I know neither of you will forget her either "... *wipes eyes* Today we think we're saying goodbye to her but... She'll never leave, she will always be in our hearts" Everyone in the room was touched by Ciel's words that they were crying themselves. The funeral went on. It was truly depressing. After the funeral Ciel went to his manor and locked himself in his room. How could he move on? She was special so special he felt like committing suicide! But how? He was a demon, he'd be forced to live on knowing that the love of his life was dead because of him. "Young Master I'm sorry to interrupt but you can't stay like this forever" "Sebastian she is dead because of me" "Master... Through time you will forget about her" "No I won't she was special!" "Master if you allow me, I can make a spell to make you forget about her" "No of course not!" "Then how about a spell that will just be like you hit your head and have trouble remembering" "I'll still forget her" "No no not at all, you'll still be able to remember her whenever you wish, just like you remember Elizabeth and your parents" "You mean the way I remember them will be how I remember her" "Exactly all you have to do is concentrate, you will not forget her" "Alright then" "Yes, My Lord" Ciel still remembere her every day and would visit the baby, which was named...: just like her mother. Sadly through the years, work piled up and with Ciel's condition he had to leave little _ to grow up alone, the years passed, work came, and not to mention a few wars Ciel began to think less of her, and that's how we come to his recent flashbacks, but why does he only have then around modern _? Who knows. Maybe it's because. Every girl born in the (last name) family Was named after the late _ who died at giving birth. a/n: i know strong chapter if you think it should be changed please tell me