Short chapter tonight. Hope its okay?

Look I was going was going was going to tell you." Tilly shook her head she didn't believe she would.

"Would you Jen….. & what year then? Or would you of left without me knowing." Tilly waiting to hear what Jen had to say.

"Tilly I would never have left without telling you. That just mean." Jen answered. With getting tut from Tilly.

"I need to get out of here. I'm going crazy living here. I need a fresh start."

"Yeah & I thought we were. Obviously you don't want us. Where are you planning to go?"

"Liam is moving to Manchester and I've asked him if I can follow. A new start and everything. New career.

"You're so selfish. Did you love me at all? You never really wanted us to work did you? When things get tough, what do you do run away?"

"I do want us Tilly. I just think we need some time apart. Are you sure you want to be with me or is just out of guilt?"

"How dare you say that? Looking at Jen up & down. Hurt by what she had said. You know what we have is real. Yes you have made some really bad choices and hurt me so many times but I love you. Fuck what everyone else thinks." Getting off the bed moving closer to Jen.

Jen looks into Tilly eyes. She is right what she is saying why she should she care but her head is telling her different. "This is such a massive step moving in together you leaving Hollyoaks. What happens when you go to uni?

Yeah, what does that matter me going to uni?" asked Tilly trying to find out what Jen was getting at.

"Look I know we would be ok once we left and we wouldn't have to worry about a thing but once you start uni. Your life begins you meeting new people you learn more about yourself. Who you are as person. What you want in life. What happens if….I'm not in plans? I can't bear it.

"And you took it beyond yourself to make the decision for me? Shouted back getting angry.

Jen I can have my own mind & despite all this I still want you." Taking a deep breath.

Jen let out a massive breath as she had been holding it in.

"but…" Tilly replied. "I don't think I can do this anymore. Your right maybe we should go on a break because I can't be the only one who fighting for us. I think we should go on a break or even slit up. I don't know but you should go to Manchester sort yourself out." Tilly walking away from Jen. Leaving Jen gobsmacked, she had really done it this time, she had finally pushed Tilly too far. What did she expect her to take it and say that's great news.

It had been over an hour since both of them argued. Tilly went straight home after the argument. She was still angry at her. With emotions still running high she didn't want to speak her. After an hour she had calmed down bit.

On the other hand Jen was trying to come to terms with that she blew her chances with Tilly now. She wanted to find her but gave up as she had been trying to contact Tilly with but getting no reply. Even sending texts to her. She tried one last time to her.

Hey

I know you're really mad at me & I get it. Probably never want to speak to me again.

Please speak to me. Send me a text if you want to talk.

Jen xxx

She heard nothing from what so ever. Jen was moping around the flat which didn't go unnoticed by Ste who was helping pack up her last bits and pieces.

"You know you have yourself to blame for this" said Ste who was filled on the information when he came home.

"I know but what am I supposed to do. She won't talk to me."

"Can you blame her? You didn't tell her you were leaving and she found out herself. Think how she must feel. One minute you're leaving here together, the next you're leaving her behind."

"You know why I'm doing it"

Yeah, because Tillys dad didn't approve. Plus what happens when she goes to uni and we drift apart."

And do you always do what people say. Jen Tilly's dad never going to approve of you. It's his daughter c'mon & if Tilly knew that was the reason. Well…. Let's just say it's a silly reason. You need to give more credit to Tilly she would not leave you. Even if she did isn't that her decision. You're missing the big picture she want to be with you. She loves you." Smiled Jen.

"I need to find her. I don't want to go without her. I just hope she feel the same as I" grabbing hold of her keys letting herself out the door.