Title: Pain
Author: landofthekwt
Rating: PG-13
Prompt: Pain Inusongfics Week 15
Word Count: 1118 including song lyrics in Bold
Song: Pain by Three Days Grace
Universe Canon
Warning: Spoiler for Chapter 406-408.
Summary: Mouryoumaru's insults of Kagura cause Sesshoumaru to act rashly to his own detriment. He feels compassion for the first time and rushes headlong into battle.
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Mourymoumaru's words struck something within him. Why should he care what this incarnation said about Kagura? Kagura was merely another incarnation of Naraku He had never said a word of kindness. Never loved her. Never even liked her. All he had done was go to witness her death. It had made her smile even as her body dissolve that he had come to see her at the end.
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Mouryoumaru had called Kagura's fight for her freedom worthless. All it had done in the end was to get her killed. He mocked Kagura's fight to save Kohaku. She was a fool , he told , Seesshoumaru. If only she had obtained Kohaku's shard she could have continued to live. Instead, she had betrayed both Mouryomaru and Naraku and she had died for it. All her sacrifices to reach Naraku's heart were in vain he told them. With his new armor none of their weapons could kill him. Fool. Sacrifice in vain. Her fight worthless.
You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you'll understand
Sesshoumaru found himself becoming angry. He could decide whether Kagura was a fool for himself. It was up to him to decide if her sacrifice was in vain. Mouryoumaru's words could not make her fight or her life worthless. Somehow she was important to him. Her sacrifice had value She had saved another's life at the cost of her own life. The valued of her life to Sesshoumaru was his to determine not Mouryoumaru's. Her death had struck a chord within his heart. The words of Mouryoumaru's merely caused him to be angry.
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you'll understand
The blood of ice which always kept him from losing his perspective in battle burned until the glacier that had been his heart melted. He rushed headlong into battle with the incarnation ignoring the diamond spears which threatened to skewer him. He thrust Tokujin into the diamond armor of Mourymouru. Even Inuyasha warned him that the sword would break if Sesshoumaru did not cease his attack on the heart of the beast. But it did not matter to Sesshoumaru. He was committed. His safety, his usual calm demeanor, his calculating attitude were all shoved by the wayside because of Mouryoumaru's derisive comments about Kagaura's life.
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain
The sword broke. Sesshoumaru now no means of fighting off the diamond spears which assaulted his body. The pain was unbearable, but Sesshoumauru ignored the pain and continued his assault. Mouryoumaru took advantage of Sesshoumaru's weakness to engulf him in his diamond arm. He was completely engulfed by Mouryoumaru's body. Still against all reason he fought on. Tenseiga felt his passion and reported it to Totousai. The sword would see that his feelings for Kagura had not been in vain. Sesshoumaru would not die today so long as Tenseiga could protect him from the diamond arm.
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later
Sesshoumaru's recklessness spurred Inuyasha to try to save his brother for the first time in his life. He told himself that he was doing it because his own diamond spears should not be the cause of Sessshoumaru's death. But he himself would have died from the wounds inflicted by his own sword if not for Kikyou's intervention. At the end of the battle the non-combatants wondered at what had happened. Sesshoumaru had become so angry over the mocking of Kagura that he had rushed to his own death and had not been governed by the blood of ice. His sword was smashed into pieces and could never be used again. Tenseiga had saved him .from being crushed by the diamond arm.
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
When Sesshoumaru reported what had happened to Totousai, Totousai told him that the sword had told him that it had protected him because of the compassion he felt for Kagura. Sesshoumaru denied that he felt anything for Kagura. It had angered him that Mourymoumaru had presumed to make the decision that Kagura's life was worthless. It was up to Sesshoumaru to decide if her life was worthless. He would kill anyone who demeaned her life or her sacrifices. All Totousai could was nod and offer to upgrade Tenseiga with new powers. Tenseiga was right. Sesshoumaru had showed his compassion for Kagura whether he would admit it or even acknowledge his own feelings for her. Maybe he did not even realize that he was feeling compassion.
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
In the end his new feelings for Kagura changed his life. It allowed him to feel sorrow for Rin when she died in Hell. Never again would he be the unfeeling person who did not care if anyone lived or died. He was now able to understand his father's lessons of fear of death and mercy for his enemies when his mother taught them to him. It made him realize that some things in the world were more important than power. Kagura's death was not in vain.
It changed Sesshoumaru's life. His compassion for her would something he would always treasure in his heart. Naraku had thought to kill Kagura by returning her heart. Sesshoumaru made sure that she always remained alive in his heart. So long as he retained his feelings for her she would never die and her life would not be in vain.