Mesu: Hey guys I'm sorry I haven't put up my chapters so often. it was my step dad's birthday so my who family was really busy getting the party ready for the old man.

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Today was just another great Monday. Well… it had been but for Kagome it turned sour very fast. She didn't have trouble with idiots, she didn't even get angry today. No, instead she swears she's never felt as much pain as she felt the minute HE decided to make it harder on her. Sesshomaru probably didn't mean to do what he did, most likely doesn't even know he did anything but the sharp stabbing pain in Kagome's heart tells a different story. Lets go back and recount the events of today.

It started off great, Kagome woke up, said good morning to her favourite person and hopped on to school with her little brother a smile gracing her plump lips. She spent the rest of her time waiting for the bell to ring, staring up at Sesshomaru and his girlfriend Kagura. She had hated Kagura out of jealousy but then decided she was alright, if Sesshomaru was devoted to her, then she had to be pretty cool. Sighing for the hundredth time that day, Kagome looked at the clock and let a small grin grace her lips, it was almost time for recess, she hated English it always got really boring.

"Okay class you can all pack up now " came the aged voice of their teacher. The sound of bags unzipping and paper rustling loudly was herd amongst the sea of eager teens. Everyone made a bee-line towards the door, no one wanting to be the last one out.

Lunch went by with irritating slowness, so uneventful Kagome swore she was going to rip her hair out. So when the bell went Kagome tried her best not to look excited about going to her Science class. Today they had a relief teacher and had moved to another room. Kagome sat with her friend Yuka to her right and what surprised her was that Sesshomaru had sat directly to her left. The three had spent their time chatting to each other but when it got close to their next period, Kagome groaned.

"Hey Yuka," Kagome whined "You should wag next period with me… Please." With the disapproving look she got back in return Kagome gave her puppy eyes and started begging.

"Awwwww, c'mon pleeeeeeeeaaaase?"

"I'm sorry I cant Kagome I have English next and I have an essay I have to study on. Why don't you ask Sesshomaru?" Yuka grumbled back to her.

"Ask me what." Came the deep voice of their male companion who had previously been 'zoning' out.

"Kagome wants to wag her next class but I can't go with her so I said she should ask you."

"Sure, I have English next and I didn't want to go anyway."

"Really, you'll come?"

"That's what I just said"

Their first idea was to hide out in the library but Sesshomaru's class ended up showing up. So as quietly as they could they slinked their way out and left the school grounds together and headed towards the bus stop nearby. Hanging around they just talked to each other until it was almost time to go. Standing up Sesshomaru decided to ask Kagome for a hug.

"But, but I…" Kagome didn't know what to do. A pink hue came over her cheeks as she hid her face from his view and hesitated. Should she hug him? Suddenly she felt the warmth of two strong arms covered in a black jumper, wrap themselves around her waist. Kagome's arms twitched with the instinct to wrap around his shoulders in reply. Her hesitation cost her a hug but his hug caused her pain. He pulled back before she could get her arms to move. When she looked up into his honey eyes she swore she saw a flash of emotion in them but before she could figure out what it was it was gone. 'was that hurt I saw in his eyes?' Kagome questioned her self. Tears sprang forth only just keeping at bay. She didn't think it would hurt her that much just to feel his arms wrap around her in a willing hug. But it did. They both turned around grabbed their bags and headed back towards their school. Friendly banter was exchanged between the two but when one looked at the both of them it was obvious they both had something big running through their mind.

Kagome wondered if he even knew just how much his stupid hug had hurt her. How much it made her long for him even more then she already had. She wanted to ask him that exact question but kept it to herself instead. Many times he had explained that why he teased her was because he didn't want her to forget him or forget the fact that she liked him. He had said that he wanted her to continue liking him, just in case. When she questioned 'Just incase what?' He would never say anything further then 'just because'. It gave her the sense of hope that maybe he did want her but then it made her hate him just that little bit for being that selfish for planning to keeping her by his side in the background of his love life until he broke up with his current girlfriend. The pain seemed almost unbearable and she hated when love pained her, all she wanted was to kiss him hold him do so many things with him but she couldn't all because he belonged to another and was devoted and highly in love with Kagura. She wished it was her who had his devotion and love, she wished she could give him hers in return. It seemed that now-a-days that's all she was doing, wishing for things that probably would never come to pass. Her biggest wish though that was the highest in her heart, the wish that kept her from fighting against Kagura for his affection was:

"I just wish that he's happy, no matter who he's with"