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I awaken the next morning. When I get out of bed I feel the most refreshed I have felt in a long time. I step into the shower and the hot water washes away so much pain and anguish. This leaves me feeling so new. I feel like I finally woke up again. Normally I'll wear blue jeans and just a t-shirt when I'm not at work. But today I fall back into old habits. I pull out a pair of black denim jeans. I rifle through my drawers and find a grey shirt. It had been hers. It was a bit too big for her, so she usually slept in it. Over it I pull on my black leather jacket, leaving just enough of her grey shirt showing so no one bothers me.

It takes a while but eventually I find myself standing in front of the Bureau building. I take a deep breath.

"Be Brave"

"Tobias Eaton!" I tell the guard.

Before I know it he hands me a piece of plastic with a clip. I start to walk away and attach my badge to my jacket. That easy? Could it really have been THAT EASY? I try not to over think it so I don't over work myself. I cross the main lobby and head for the elevator banks. I wait only about 10 minutes before I see Matthew come around the corner. When he sees me he stops in his tracks for a second, taking in the idea that we were really doing this, and then continues towards me.

" Good Morning Tobias." He greets me as if today is a causal day as any.

" Morning Matthew! How are things?" I ask him. We chat for a few moments before we step onto the first elevator to open, making sure it's empty. Once the doors are shut I turn to him.

"Talk to me!" I demand.

" Alright!" He hands me a small piece of paper, " This will get you onto that computer set. Now listen. This computer will record any info that is being looked at over a certain amount of time. Your best bet is to find it, print it and get the fuck out of there! Ya follow me?"

" Yeah I got you!" I say, putting the paper in my pocket. " Talk security!"

" You have three arms guards that patrol the area." He says, "Technically you are allowed on the floor, but not in that room. Once you're in that room it's up to you to stay hidden. Once you're done, head out the way you came and just stay and act as normal and every day as humanly possible."

We come to the second floor and the doors open. Matthew makes his way out of the elevator and stops.

" Be safe! Be quick! I'm done for the day so I'll wait for you downstairs. We'll head to Chicago together."

" Thanks!" I tell him. The doors shut before I can say more. I want to say more. I feel a tightness in my chest and throat. I have to relax.

Seconds later the doors open again and suddenly I'm on the third floor. When I step out I get a rush. The last time I roamed these halls were with Beatrice. My heart is racing and I start to lose my vision. Quickly I grab the wall next to me. I see someone coming and act as if I'm having a sneezing fit. It seemed to work because all they did was give me a " god bless you" and keep on their way.

I take a left, as instructed by Matthew, and slowly make my way. Before I know it I'm passing room 35C. I look at the door for a moment and turn pass it. I walk to the end of the hall and scope it out. 35C is a corner room so there are two points of entry. I see one of the famed armed guards walking down the hall heading my way. I stop for a moment and act like I have no idea where I am going.

I start spinning in circles and looking frustrated.

" Need help, Sir?" the guard asks me.

I quickly notice he's holding a bar of chocolate in his hands, trying to open it.

" Yeah I've been working up here for a while, but I'm not used it yet. Where can I get something to eat?"

" Well the cafeteria is down stairs. " He tells me, " but if you want something smaller there are vending machines down this hall back that way!" He points to an unseen area behind him.

" Alright!" I flash a smile, " Thanks man!"

I see him pass around the corner and out of site. Quickly I back track to the unexposed 35C door and I pull a small knife from my boot. I place it near the locking mechanism and slam my hand into the end. With a semi-loud POP, the door swings open. I pull myself in and shut it again behind me. I know my time is limited.

I think about my note. Computer by the back window. I spot it immediately and rush to it. Grabbing the paper from Matthew out of my back pocket I hastily press it flat. Instead of sitting in the chair I kneel next to it. I hit the space bar and the computer screen clicks on.

It asks me first for my personal code. I look around the windows to the hall and see no one. I turn to the paper.

PC: MGH000099k

I enter it quickly, still looking around me, and keep going. Next I need the sub-code.

SC: PPD93562-2236

My hands briefly slip. I'm sweating profusely and I have to reenter the code. I hear something and duck. Two women in long white coats stand outside one of the doors, I hear the handle move. I can't make out exactly what they are saying, but before I know it, they walk away together.

I have to be faster. Lastly it asks for an access code.

AC: CODEXXREM

Instantly there is a flash and the screen changes to all blue with two icons. One is an empty trash folder. And the other is a little yellow box labeled REMNANT.

Jackpot!

I come back to myself and open the folder. I don't read the two documents there. I simply click it and find the word print. I hear across the room the printer has turned and is spitting out the pages. I'm about to close it when I change my mind. I click on the second document and press print. As soon I see it send I close the computer down. Once it's off, I dart across the room. I am just about to reach the printer when I hear the door and drop myself under the nearest desk. I look around the edge and see one of the guards taking his keys out and unlocking the door. Suddenly it's dead quiet. The printer stopped. I exhale deeply as the door creaks open.

The guard walks in and turns the lights on. I squeeze myself as small as I can get against the bottom of the desk. I hear him walk through the isles of computers. He takes his time. What an asshole! He takes one final loop and walks directly passed me. I hold my breath as he passes the desk I'm under.

Five more minutes tick by as he finishes his check. Finally, he leaves. I don't hesitate. Looking to see if the coast is clear, I jump up. Grabbing the paper from the printer I bolt. I get to the door and slam it shut. It's a moment before I realize I'm running down the hall and I need to stop. I don't need to run. I walk to the end of the hall and press the elevator button.

" Hey there!" a friendly voice echoes behind me.

I turn and see that same armed guard smiling at me, " did you find something to eat?"

I forget what he's talking about and then my memory flashes back , " oh yeah! No! I remembered I'm actually meeting someone for lunch. Thanks for the help though!"

The guard carries on his merry way and I slip into the elevator. As I decent, I grip the paper in my hand. I want to cry. I'm trying not to look. Get outside, I tell myself. Get outside on the train and you can look all you want. Don't break down here. I head out the door, reaching the sun and grab my for knees. I feel like I cannot breathe.

In. Out. In. Out. I tell myself. I close my eyes. I see spots and feel like I'm on the verge of passing out. But I have to keep going.

And I'm gone. I'm running to the train platform. When I get there I see Matthew standing there waiting for me. I step up to him as soon as the train pulls up. We enter without a word. The train speeds towards Chicago and we stare out the window.

Finally we're alone in an empty rail car when Matthew speaks.

"Well at least you made it out okay!" He says over the wind, "did you get everything you need?"

I don't say anything, I just hand him everything. He takes them from me with a smile. Everything seems fine until his face changes. His eyes grow wide and his lips part. Quickly he pulls the papers towards his chest.

" WHAT?!" I yell.

He says nothing, I see tears in his eyes, although I don't know if they're real or from the whipping wind.

" MATTHEW! WHAT?!"

" When I explain this! You're gonna want to be sitting down! Can you wait a few more minutes? We will be back at your house shortly!"

I approach him but he puts his hands out, " Let me read Tobias! Please! Just let me read!"

I turn and walk to the edge of the car, grabbing my familiar handles and lean out. I open my mouth and let the wind envelope me. I breathe heavily and let it take me over. It's the worst I feared. I just know it. I start to picture the most horrible things. Then I get flashes. Holding onto the rail, I picture her. Holding her tight in my arms. She smiles at me. I come back to earth.

When the train stops I grab for Matthews shoulder. " We're going to Zeke's. I need him now!" I yell out.

" ZEKE OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!" I cry, slamming my hand into the door to his apartment.

Just as I wind up to hit it again, the door flies open.

" Why are you always in the shower?" I ask as I charge past him. His hair is soaking wet.

" I like to be clean!" He tosses at me, letting us walk by. " What's going on?" he asks, closing the door and approaching us.

I turn sharply and sit, looking at Matthew.

" Well? We're here! Go ahead!"

Matthew walks over and sits near me. " Now listen to everything I say alright. EVERYTHING!"

I nod, grabbing the arms of my chair tightly.

He takes a heavy sigh and begins.

" Alright first of all there are a lot of things on here. It doesn't help with what the program is or what it's doing. But more like a shopping list of what they have ordered over the past 3 years. They ordered a tank with water filtration pumps."

" So?" Zeke asks, " What does that mean?"

" It means", Matthew turns to him, " that they basically have a big fish tank on hand. And a really big one by the looks of these specs. Now listen. There are a lot of drugs listed on here. So, basically they're testing for everything. They are attempting everything they can. There are drugs known to the rest of the world and drugs that Erudite have created."

His eyes meet my own, " There's an IV listed on here that would keep someone hydrated."

And I stare right back at him, " Wait. Why would they keep something hydrated that's immersed in water?"

" There's more." His voice is strained. I hear it cracking and shaking as he speaks. He puts the paper down and covers his face with his hands. " I don't know how to say this. There is also a feeding tube and a breathing apparatus."

I don't look at him. I can't. My gaze is trained on Zeke, whose eyes have widened to their max. He says something but I can't hear it. I've gone deaf. My vision is blurring but I stand up. Tumbling forward I watch as Zeke comes closer, and I collapse into him. We fall to the floor and I start heaving. My walls close in around me. I feel like I'm in my fear landscape again, but this one i couldn't escape. I grab for my chest, I can't breath but I manage to cry out.

"She's alive. She's…"

Writer's note: It was really hard trying to figure out where to cut this chapter..hopefully you all agree it was a good place once you read the next chapter. Enjoy!