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" I just don't understand how this is possible!"

" I don't either! This is unbelievable!"

" I think I'm going numb…what do we do?"

" I guess we wait for him to wake up. "

I toss in my bed. I can hear Zeke and Matthew talking nearby. I can't seem to get up. I have waking dreams for an unknown amount of time. I keep going back to two places. I'm sitting with Beatrice, kissing her, telling her I love her. Then it's cold and dark. I'm lying next to her dead body, screaming for her to wake up. The next few hours are a blur.

" He needs to eat something. We need him at full strength."

I hear Zeke's heavy steps as he walks towards me.

" Four!" He says, gently shaking my arm, " Four! Are you awake man?"

" Are you alive?" Matthew adds.

" Yes", I answer, my arm hung over my eyes, " and I'm not sure."

I have an overwhelming pressure in my chest and my head in just pounding. I feel weak and dizzy and nauseous. I pull myself up and sit forward, putting my hands in my lap. I stare at them. They are numb. I squeezed them so tightly into fists that there are fingernail marks in my palms that are turning to bruises. I feel something welled up inside of me and I let it free. A cracked sob emanates from my core. I lift my hands to my face and let my sobs fall into them. I think back to when I found out my mother had been alive after thinking she was dead all those years. I cried, but it was the sobs of the child inside of me realizing my mother had left me behind. It's weak of me to get this emotional now, but this is different, this is something I cannot fight. Even in her absence, Beatrice is changing the rules.

" She's alive…" I look to them.

There is a glimmer of hope behind their eyes, but it fades. I know exactly what they are thinking. We have no idea where she is. She could be on the other side of the known world for all we know. I try to sturdy myself enough to sit on the edge of the bed. Zeke hands me a large glass of water.

" Keep your fluids up." He says with an air of demand in his voice, " You passed out pretty hard there for a while! Eat too!"

He shoves a haphazardly made sandwich in my lap. He smiles because and I can tell this is probably the first food he's prepared on his own in a while. It takes me a little while but I grasp a hold of reality as firmly as I can.

" So.." I start, " what can you tell me?"

Matthew sits next to me and pulls out the sheets of paper.

" When you printed this, what was the other file? You printed two items from that computer! What was the other logged as?"

I place my hand to my brow and try to think. " I don't know. I don't remember even paying attention to that!" I tell him, "There was a guard and some lab technicians floating around. I didn't look hard enough. I just printed and got out of there!"

I feel ashamed.

" Don't worry about it." He tells me, putting his hand on my shoulder. " It's not important. What was IN the file is though! Names!"

I look to Zeke and then to Matthew.

" Names?" Zeke asks.

" Yeah Names. Not full ones, but first initials and a last name. Enough to help at least." He flips through the paperwork. " I didn't know what to think of it until I came across a name I knew. A scientist name Abe Fitter, A. Fitter. I know it's him because whenever I see the name I laugh because I think it sounds stupid."

A smile cracks on his otherwise straight mouth.

" And look. " he points down, " there's their salaries. You'd think to go after the higher paid people, but no. You want someone underpaid because they are most likely doing all the work. And this guy Abe, is getting the shit end of the stick, which means he probably spends long hours at this place. He is getting paid such a small amount it's sad really. Which means he's probably low leveled and easily broken."

"He comes into the city every few weeks for meetings." Matthew continues.

The cracked smile grows on his face, causing Zeke and myself to look at his wide-eyed.

" I could schedule one for tomorrow, if you want?" He teeth are bared and he looks a little nuts.

I look back and my hands, rubbing my palms together. I can almost remember what it felt like to hold her hand in mine. The peace and solace it gave me.

" Make it happen."

" Go to work tomorrow." He tells me, " Dig up his file and bring it with you."

" Bring it where? " I ask

" I don't know", Matthew says with a raised eyebrow, " Any ideas where you can shake someone down?"

Zeke stands up a little straighter, " I got a place!"

" Yeah? Where's that?" I ask with my mouth open into a smile.

Zeke smiles back at me so big and proud. I see some of Uriah in him when he does that. A trait, if I remember correctly, he gets from their mother.

Writers's Note:

I'd like to take a minute to bring something up. I got a review today and i'd like to talk about it. I hope this person doesn't mind me using the review for a moment, i'm not calling them on anything, i would just like to explain in case any of you feel the same way.

"We can be mended we mend each other" there is no trace of Four all brave and calculated This is Tobias who struggles to breathe an ex control room worker struggling with computers my only suggestion is staying true to who he is but yay Trissy is alive...

First of all i'd like to say i was happy when i read this because it means my story is making people think. Alrighty….so i completely see where this viewer is coming from. There is only one person who could bring Tobias to his knees, shake his world, and that was Marcus. Or so Tobias thought. He never dreamed that Tris would be able to break him down that much, although not in the same way. The strong Tobias we saw was a cover, because as we know ( and what he revealed to Tris) he was broken under it all. Tobias sees Tris' passing like any other Dauntless does, as a brave one. But over time, he breaks down. He no longer has to use his Dauntless exterior. And as far as him going through the second person in his life to come " back to life"…when his mother reemerged he doesn't have the same reaction. He even says that he realized she had left him behind and what that did to him. She left of her own free accord. Tris on the other hand, although she didn't actually died, she had given her life for all of them. All of this is what stirs Tobias into the mental anguish he feels.

and as i said to the reviewer….Be patient. Dauntless Tobias will return.

as far as the "struggling with computer" idea. He isn't struggling. He's used to the computer systems they have within Chicago. The technology they were given. What they have at the bureau is going to be different. Think of it as a Mac owner trying to use a Dell.

thanks for reading!