"Idiot. You are such an idiot. The biggest idiot," I kept repeating to myself over and over.

I've done several stupid things in my life that very few people even knew about. But pissing off someone who snuck into my house to basically kidnap me? Dumb.

The more I thought about everything that just happened, the more I started to panic. Before I knew it, I was starting to have problems breathing. Oh no, not now. Please not now. I couldn't sit still. I couldn't hold still. There was no way I could handle having a panic attack right now.

I grabbed my iPod, headphones, and running shoes. I threw on a pair of yoga pants and switched out my shirt for a plain purple v-neck and went down to my basement heading straight for the treadmill. Running is the quickest way for me to get out of a panic attack if it's forming. I just run out all the worry while listening to music loudly as a distraction.

I'm always screaming my lungs out, till my head starts spinning. Playing my songs is the way I cope with life….All I want is a place to call my own, to mend the hearts of everyone who feels alone. You know to keep your hopes up high and your head down low. A Day to Remember, always a favorite of mine to play when I'm feeling particularly angry. Or frustrated. Or scared out of my mind. As my winter playlist continued, I just let myself get lost in the lyrics rather than think about anything.

After a good 45 minute run, I finally made it back up to my room and shut my door for the night. I walked over to my window to double check that it was firmly shut.

Turning around, I barely resisted the urge to scream. Peter was right behind me with a hard look in his eyes while he was glaring at me. Before I had time to do anything else, he said something to me I couldn't hear because of my music and blew a powder in my face.

I was out cold.

Eventually I woke up groggy and in a lot of pain. As I opened my eyes, I realized I was on the ground with lots of small sticks poking into my back. That explains the back pain. It was very dark with barely any moonlight getting through the dense trees and foliage. At first I thought I was in the woods until I looked around me. I don't remember there being palm trees and bushes in my woods…Where's the evergreens? Is this some sick joke?

When I sat up and looked around more, I saw my captor smirking at me from a tree stump. "Welcome to Neverland."