I promise everything will be explained with time. Hope you all enjoy!
3 months later….
Quinn stared absentmindedly at the small ticking clock that was perched next to a small flowerpot on top of a large oak desk. Her arms were folded across her chest, legs crossed. The light from the nearby window streaked out across the room giving everything a glow. Silence continued in the large office that was lined with books. With a weary sigh the blonde's back finally settled back against the chair, trying to get comfortable. Behind the desk was Janelle Tambrey. The brown haired doctor with green eyes and flawless skin examined the blonde with no judgment. Her hair was tied back loosely which matched great with her small glasses and white blouse she was wearing. It made her look like one of those hot doctors you see on TV.
"It happened again last night." Quinn finally spoke with a detached tone.
"The dream?" Dr. Tambrey asked with a gentle tone.
Quinn nodded as she finally directed her eyes back to the woman. casually licked her lips and quickly wrote something down on her notepad.
"Was there anything new or different about it?" she asked.
"No. It was the same. I was running down a narrow road in the middle of nowhere. It's completely dark. So dark I can't see where I'm going. Then I hear this screaming coming from somewhere off the road. I follow the screams and find this white house completely lit up with fire. I try to get into the house but there's just too much smoke and flames. I knew that the house was about to collapse pretty soon. So I make my way to a window and in the room I spot a little girl. She was crying in a corner and she looked so scared. When she finally sees me her eyes perk up with hope, pleading for me to save her and not leave her. In the pit of my stomach I know there's nothing I could do for her. Before I knew what was happening I started running back towards the road just as the whole house crumbled to the ground. Then there's no more screaming just the distant sounds of the crackling flames."
"How did you feel about leaving the girl?"
"I….. didn't want to leave her in there. I didn't. But there was nothing that I could do." Quinn responded.
"You're avoiding the question." Tambrey replied.
Quinn sighed as her eyes shifted down to her hands. "I feel guilty, sad, heartbroken, and….. angry. So fucking angry."
"Why do you feel angry?"
"I was angry at myself for not doing anything to save her. I just stood there watching her burn up in flames. Not only did I just stand there but I left her there again."
"Do you think it would've made a difference if you had saved her?" Tambrey pressed with a soft voice.
Quinn tucked her bottom lip into her mouth as she thought about it. Flashes of the little girl's face came to mind. She could see the warm wet tears drizzling down her face. Then she could see the flames surrounding the girl. A deep hearting pang shuddered in her chest.
"Yes." Quinn replied softly.
"Why?"
"Because I would've saved her. I would've finally done something right for once." The blonde replied firmly.
"But you ran away instead. Back to the dark road correct?" The doctor asked.
Quinn nodded with her head.
"Why did you feel like you had to run away from it?"
"I was scared and I just couldn't stand to see what would happen next. If I didn't see it then a part of me wouldn't have to deal with the feelings that the ending would bring. I didn't want to become overwhelmed by my feelings. I didn't and still don't want to feel at all. So I took the easy way out and escaped. And I never looked back."
The doctor scribbled down on her notepad with a mild look on her face. Quinn couldn't read her expression or figure out what she was thinking. No emotion was written on the young woman's face as her eyes focused on the paper. After a few minutes those green eyes flicked back up to the blonde haired girl.
"How's your father been doing?" Tambrey asked.
Quinn pinched her lips into a tight thin line as she averted her eyes over to her left. She dug her fingernails into the sides of her arms. A heavy weight seemed to be placed on her shoulders. "Last I heard he was doing well. His rehab program seems to be going along pretty well. He's about less than a month into the treatment." Quinn replied.
"So you still haven't personally talked with him yet?"
"No I haven't. A part of me feels like I don't want to get my hopes up too high. I'm just afraid that I'll be disappointed in him again. It would feel like all of my expectations of him will be a shattered piece of the man that I used to know. And I feel….. like somewhere in the back of my mind once he sees me he'll turn right back around and do it all over again. But then there's the really small part of me that really wants to see my old dad back again."
"Do you blame yourself for your father's drug use?"
Quinn didn't respond. Instead she simply shrugged her shoulders and casted a gaze down at her crossed arms. The doctor paused and scribbled something else down. The blonde watched the doctor from the corner of her eyes with a close precision.
"How does your mother feel about all of this? How is she doing?"
"I haven't spoken with her since that night. It's been about 3 months since I last saw her." Quinn answered roughly. "Nor do I plan on ever talking with her again. If I never have to see her face again I could live a happy life."
Dr. Tambrey looked at Quinn with an observing manner. It was at that moment the doctor decided to change the subject. She could tell how uncomfortable the blonde still was about her parents. With a little more time she knew the girl would open up eventually. But now was not the time.
"How's your job going? Are you still working at the Download?" The doctor asked with interest.
Quinn's eyes met with the doctor's as she nodded. "Yes I am. And nothing really has changed it's the same. It's going pretty good. I can't complain. It's a good place to get my homework done when it's slow."
"And how is the infamous Mandy doing? And how are the boys?"
A small smile lit up Quinn's face at the mention of the red headed girl and at the mention of her other friends. Her eyes shifted back over to the doctor. At this time the blonde seemed to relax a little more with this subject. Her arms slowly untucked themselves from around herself.
"She's good, still driving me insane but good. Her parents just recently bought her a car so she's like herself but 10times worse. As for the boys they are still uhh… well themselves."
The doctor chuckled softly. "I can only imagine."
Quinn nodded with a small smile.
"How's the new school been treating you? Anything new?"
"No nothing really new has been happening. And to be honest I really love it. When I walk down the halls it's like I don't even exist. It's like all this pressure has been lifted off my shoulders. I can finally be myself. No drama, no cheerleading, no people staring at me all the time. It feels amazing. It's like a new me. As for my classes everything is good. When I transferred over here I was still put up at the top of the class. I'm still taking those photography and art classes right now."
"Do you miss cheerleading?" the doctor asked as she stretched out into her chair.
"Sometimes, but not really. The workouts were a little harsh and our coach was a little insane….. scratch that. She was insane. But we were winners. All the hard work made us better and pushed us to our limits. I guess that's the part that I miss the most."
"What about Glee? Do you miss it too?"
Quinn's face fell immediately into a frown. She licked her lips and glanced back down to the ground. "I'd rather not talk about that."
More scribbled notes were being written on paper. The blonde tried to block out the scratching of the paper against pen. She hated that noise. Not only did it make her frustrated but it drove her insane. What the hell is she writing on that damn paper?
"And how is lil Duke and Cooper doing?"
A wide smile broke out across the blonde's face. Her hazel eyes brightened with warmth and joy. Her hand ran through her hair as a small chuckled laugh escaped from her throat. The doctor knew now that she had the blonde's attention.
"My uncle is doing great. He just recently opened up his 3rd restaurant. He's never been happier. That's literally all he talks about at home. And I've never been more proud for him. Last night he took the three of us out for dinner. Duke on the other hand has started to become a little pain in the ass." Quinn laughed at the last part.
"What's he done this time?" the doctor asked with a bright smile.
"You know for an 8 year old he can be incredibly smart and clever. The other day I was working on my homework in the living room. A few minutes later he barges in and demands that I socialize with him. Of course I was busy so I told him that I couldn't. He pouted at me with that face thing he does and then took off. Well later on that night he snuck into my room and stole homework. Needless to say the following morning I was freaking out. What I didn't know was that he had somehow managed to staple my homework to my ceiling in the room. How he did it, I have no clue. You know even at his age I'm still surprised of the things he can come up with." Quinn responded with a bright smile.
"Those boys will drive you insane. But I'm glad that you're with them. You definitely seem a lot happier. After 2 months of being here with me I can see a difference."
"I am a lot happier. And I haven't felt this good in a long time. Everything feels so new and different. I finally have people who actually care about me. I mean Cooper and Duke check on me almost every hour if I'm in my room. We have family dinners where the three of us sit and actually eat at the table and talk about our days every night. We go on picnics together on Sundays and Thursday nights are chili nights. Cooper doesn't really go to church so it's kind of relieving to know that he doesn't pressure me into going to church or anything that my parents do. Everything with them is so…. Normal. I haven't had normal in a very long time. There's no screaming, no yelling and no pressure. Both of the boys have supported me in whatever I wanted to do. They really do care about me and so do I. I love them. We've all become a family. And as for Mandy that girl literally calls and texts me every day. She…. Makes me feel like I'm a human being. I've never met anyone like her and it feels good to know that she's got my back and I've got hers. I can trust her. And Donnie and Jimmy, well they're like the brother's I've never had."
"Does that mean you're not going back to Lima?"
The smile quickly fell off the blonde's face. Her body stiffened and her gaze hardened. The doctor noted the swift change in the blonde's movements. Quinn lowered her eyes to the ground while her fingers dug into the arm rest of the chair.
"I don't ever want to go back to that place. Everything there….. it's all a part of the past that I'm trying to move on from. I hated it. I was never happy. And all the mistakes I've made are everywhere down there. There are people I've hurt, punished, pushed, betrayed, lied, and cheated on. I've hurt so many people and- I- I can't go back there."
"I understand completely, Quinn. I do. But you can't keep running away from your past. We all have made mistakes. It's what we do with those mistakes from our past that shapes what we do in the future. In order for you to truly move on you need to learn to seek penance for the people you've hurt and forgiveness for yourself. You can't keep blaming and hiding the way you feel. Feelings are a part of human nature. Can you honestly tell me that nothing is missing from your past life?"
Quinn frowned and let out a low sigh. Of course there was something missing. But what? Her life right now was perfect. She had everything she'd ever wanted. Friends, a parent figure who cared for her, a life, a job, no pressure, and she was finally getting the help she needed. What else could she possibly need? Then as if on cue a ghost like voice popped into her head.
"You are the epitome of loneliness. Out of all of your failed relationships you never even bothered to try. You've never let anyone get close to you. And for that you're going to be alone. Yeah, you may be the most popular girl in the school, and head cheerleader but I've had something that you've never had. And that's love. At least I know how to love somebody and have that love returned."
An ache began to circulate throughout her body as she nodded to the doctor. The words coated her memory like an unsettling blanket that you just couldn't get rid of. At that moment the doctor took the time to pull out a large hand held mirror and placed it on her desk. When Quinn didn't respond she handed the blonde the mirror. As part of their sessions Quinn had to recite a certain number of things that she liked and loved about herself. The blonde hated this part at the start of their sessions but as time went on her own words slowly started to sink in. She almost believed what she was telling herself. Almost. She knew with more time she would believe them with all her heart.
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Quinn slowly pulled up into the large driveway of the large 4 bedroom house. With a deep sigh she grabbed her school bag and headed inside the house. Instantly she was met with a loud joyful scream as a force slammed into her legs.
"QUINN! You're home! I've missed you terribly." The young boy spoke with excitement as his hands wrapped around her legs.
A smile lit up Quinn's face at the small dark haired boy. He looked like the exact replica of his father except he was the miniature version. The young boy's green eyes sparkled with happiness as Quinn bent down and threw him into a tight hug. "I've missed you too Duke."
Just then a tall man with messy brown hair and a strong jaw line peeked his head out from the kitchen. The man, in his late 20's, smiled widely revealing his pearly white teeth. Immediately he walked over to them. He was wearing a black v neck shirt that accentuated his built tone along with a pair of plaid pajama bottoms. His dark green eyes brightened as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder and pressed a light kiss to the top of her head.
"Finally, the Quinn has returned to us. As you can see we've been waiting for you." Her uncle replied with a goofy manner.
Quinn laughed as her uncle released his grip from her.
"I always see Tambrey on Wednesday's." She pointed out.
"So? What's your point? She's cutting into our time. Besides today we hardly get to see you because now you have to go to work." Cooper stated with a light chuckle.
"You do know that I saw you guys this morning for breakfast right? That was only like 10 hours ago."
"That's a long time." Duke butted in.
"And we won't get to see you for another 6 hours. Why must you torture us like this?" Cooper pouted with a sad frowny face.
"We are only humble boys with fragile hearts." Duke added in.
Quinn knew what they were doing. They were trying to make her call into work again. This was how they worked. One would make her feel guilty for leaving them and the other would jump in and attack at the left. It was a double team effort. The blonde could only laugh as she headed up the stairs.
"You guys are insane. And no I can't take off work again. Cindy almost chopped my head off for calling in last time." Quinn called out.
"But we love you!" Cooper and Duke called out together.
"I love yall too!" she sighed under her breath. "I really do."
Her room was lit up by the sun's natural rays pouring in from the opened window. On her sky blue walls were photographs and drawings that she had done herself. Pictures of her new friends were scattered around the walls with stupid looks on their faces. By her desk were several large sketchpads with different colors of charcoal. On her desk were several old school types of camera's she had bought from an antique store. Everything in the room screamed Quinn, even to the simplest things as her lamps. The blonde walked into her closet and dug around for her black v neck shirt emblazoned with a decked out front with 'The Download'. The Download was the local bookstore/ cybercafé. It's a place where people could go in and enjoy a book while sipping a cup of hot coffee. Or they could surf the internet by checking out a computer. It's the place to be if you've got time to kill. Quinn had been working there for a little over 2 months and she enjoyed her job. It was a quiet and peaceful place to work at.
Quinn finally found the shirt tossed into the corner of her closet. Without a moment's notice she tore off the shirt she was wearing and tossed it to the ground. Then she threw on the black shirt, covering up her red lace bra. She easily spotted her dark skinny jeans and put them on.
A loud bell rang out throughout the house. With a sheepish smile Quinn hobbled back into her bedroom to look at the clock in her room. Mandy was 30 minutes early. After throwing on some comfortable shoes she quickly shuffled downstairs. At that moment Cooper was answering the door with a goofy grin on his face. There stood a 5 '8' dark red haired girl with beautiful blue eyes wearing a shirt exactly like Quinn's. The girl walked into the house with a bright pearly smile. There wasn't a doubt in Quinn's mind that this girl was hot. Hands down she was a fucking Roman goddess. The blonde herself may not be into girls but she could definitely see what the commotion was about Mandy.
"Wow! You're early. Now this I believe is a first!" Cooper commented as he shut the door with a playful manner.
"We'll I've got Donnie and Jimmy with me. We're all car pooling today. They were insistent that I get them early. I guess they figure that I always run late or whatever. So with that sad reality in mind I had to forgo on my hair today. Which is why…. I look like Amy Winehouse today." She sighed with a roll of her eyes.
"Please, you're hair always looks amazing no matter what you do with it. You could wear a freaking shower cap to the movies and you'd still look gorgeous." Quinn joined in at that moment.
Blue eyes shifted and turned towards the blonde. "Well I'm not the only one that could pull off the shower cap look. I mean you have looked at yourself in the mirror right? Were both total hotties." she replied with a smirk. Both Quinn and the red headed girl nodded their heads with agreement. The two exchanged a silly look before both of them began randomly laughing. Cooper stared between the girls with utter confusion. His lips pulled out into a pout.
"I should totally take a picture of this moment. I mean you being here early is a miracle." Cooper stated as he pulled out his phone.
"I so have been here early." Mandy stated.
"Really name a time?" He asked with a knowing grin.
Mandy rolled her eyes and threw a hand to her hip. Her pink lips pinched into a thin line as she ran her free hand through her hair. "You don't need to know when." She replied. Quinn laughed even harder as Cooper snapped a picture of Mandy staring at the camera with a pointed look.
"Where are the boys at?" Quinn asked with an amused smile.
"I left them in the back seat with the windows down." Mandy stated with a devilish grin.
"See how cruel you women can be?" Cooper sighed with a loud tsk at the end. Again Mandy and Quinn chuckled at her uncle's antics.
"We should get going." Quinn nodded with finality.
Cooper wrapped both girls in a hug. "Stay safe. No texting or drinking while you're driving. No boys for you Quinn and no girls for you Mandy. With that being said no sex. No drugs-
"No rock n roll." Mandy threw in.
"No… I'm okay with rock n roll." Cooper smiled.
"Well were glad we can do something right." Mandy remarked.
Quinn rolled her eyes and dragged the girl away towards the door. Cooper stared after the girls with a warm smile.
"Don't worry Coop! I've totally got her back. She will be safe!" Mandy called back.
"That makes me feel soo much better." He replied sarcastically.
The Download: Local cybercafé and bookstore
Rays of the sun's late afternoon streamed into the large window of the 'Download.' The strong smell of warm steaming coffee swiftly circulated throughout the place. Small sounds of clicks could be heard from the café as people typed onto the rows of computers. Towards the back of the store was where the book section was. A few more people were relaxing in nearby chairs and silently reading books. Everyone seemed to be in their own world here. In the center of the entire store was the café bar. Quinn and Mandy were behind the counter in deep conversation. "It's the same thing!" Mandy replied with a soft chuckle as the red head wiped down the counter.
"It's not the same thing." Quinn replied pointedly.
"And why is it any different?" Mandy asked, giving the blonde a sheepish grin.
Quinn rolled her eyes and strummed her fingers across the counter with impatience. "Well for starters there's one piece of equipment that's missing."
Mandy busted out into laughter drawing a few glances towards the two girls. Quinn pinched her lips together to keep the rising bubble of laughter from escaping. The other girl finally licked her lips and ran a hand through her hair.
"Oh dear Quinn. You've got soo much to learn. So much! But look all I'm saying is that a dick in the bedroom is not necessary. I do perfectly fine without one. And I don't hear any other girls complaining when I'm with them either." Mandy replied with a wink.
"Don't you think it's a little weird though?" Quinn asked with curiosity.
"What? Having sex with other girls? Or being a lesbian?" Mandy asked as her eyes averted to the rows of muffins inside the casings.
"The sex part" Quinn responded.
"I don't really think about it. You know it just feels kinda natural." The red headed shrugged.
Just then two boys immerged to the counter with wide grins. A tall blonde headed boy with a slim frame sighed as he slumped over the counter by the girls. His hazel eyes scanned between the two girls. The other shorter dark haired guy with large broad muscular shoulders took a seat in front of Quinn. His brown eyes gazed over at Quinn then shifted down to the counter.
"What are you two girls talking about?" Donnie, the blonde headed guy, asked with intrigue.
Mandy eyed the boys with a large smirk breaking out across her face. Blue eyes flickered over from Quinn then to Donnie. "Quinn wants to know how girls have sex without a penis."
"Ohhhh I see." Donnie nodded. "You must be telling her how awful the sex must be without the power of the penis."
Quinn and the boys started laughing hysterically. Mandy glared at the boys as she casually threw the towel she cleaned with on her shoulder. The dark headed boy licked his lips as he pointed to Mandy. "He's right. Without dick the world can't go on."
"Like you even have a dick Jimmy. You are the biggest fucking pussy I know." Mandy replied in a low tone.
"Hey don't hate on my boy. Just because he doesn't fuck every girl he meets doesn't make him a pussy. He's just one of those- sensitive types." Donnie replied as he began chuckling softly.
"It does too make him a pussy." Mandy retorted.
"Fine if Jimmy's a pussy so is Quinn. She hasn't fucked anyone here. So that must make her a pussy." Donnie stated.
"Hey fuck off. I'm not a fucking pussy." Quinn threw out.
"She is not a pussy." Mandy stated with an edgy tone.
"See…" Donnie reiterated. "So Jimmy no longer is a pussy. Are we all agreed?"
The other three nodded their heads with agreement.
"Just to let everyone know, I don't think you're a pussy Quinn." Jimmy replied with a gentle smile.
Quinn gave Jimmy a small smile as the two made eye contact. Hazel eyes drifted away but Jimmy's dark eyes never left her. A small burp escaped from Donnie as he blew it in Mandy's face. A bitter scowl crossed Mandy's face. "This is why I don't do dick." she pointed out.
"She can't take the real scent of a man." Donnie joked.
"I don't see a man." Quinn jumped in.
"oooooohhhhh!" Jimmy laughed as he high fived the girl. Mandy nodded with agreement as her booty bumped Quinn. Donnie shook his head as a light blush filtered onto his pale cheeks.
"I'll give ya that one Fabray. Just because I don't really know what to say to that." He responded.
"So what are we all doing Saturday night?" Jimmy asked as his eyes flickered over to Quinn lingering on her for a little longer than usual before shifting back to the group.
"Wanna know what song has been stuck in my fucking head? That damn song uhh, shit what's it called." Mandy interrupted swiftly. Her pink lips pinched into a thin line as her brows knitted together.
"How does it go?" Donnie asked.
"Okay, everyone just ignore my question."Jimmy blurted out with a long sigh.
Quinn glanced over at the dark haired boy with understanding. A slight flush tainted the shorter boy's cheeks. Mandy's face lit up as she thought about it. "It's like….. I hate the world today…. You're so good to me I know that I can't change. Blah blah blah, I'm a bitch, I'm a lover…"
Immediately the blonde headed guy perked up. "Ohh that song by Meredith Brooks- It's called Bitch." Donnie stated at having answered the question first.
Then Jimmy jumped in with a light voice. "I'm a child, I'm a mother, I'm a sinner , I'm a saint"
Quinn laughed as Mandy jumped back into it with him. "I do not feel ashamed, I'm your hell, I'm your dream, I'm nothing in between, You know you wouldn't want it any other way"
Donnie started clapping as he joined in on the song. "Just when you think, you got me figured out, The season's already changing, I think it's cool, you do what you do, And don't try to save me"
The three of them sang the chorus over again. At that moment Quinn eyed them all with adoring eyes as she shook her head. All around them people were eyeing them like they were crazy. Another round of laughter brought tears to her eyes. Her friends didn't give a fuck and that's what she loved about them. Then the brown pair of eyes belonging to Jimmy met hers. She could see the warmth and care that formed behind his eyes. She knew that he had feelings for her. She could see it in his eyes, in his smile, and in his laugh. But the truth of the matter was that she didn't feel the same way. No doubt that he was very attractive but there was no…. chemistry. For now at least she could pretend she didn't see the way he looked at her. For now she could avoid the situation with him. Eventually she would have to deal with him but not today. The loud singing from her friends brought her back to reality as their voices rang out with pure energy. Mandy nudged Quinn in the stomach. With a bashful smile Quinn finally joined in.
"I'm a Bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way"
Mandy threw an arm around Quinn. Everything in that moment was perfection itself. Once they finished the song the four of them laughed until tears streaked down their faces.
"Hey you bitches need to get your asses back to work. I'm not paying you to sit around and reenact a scene from high school musical. Get moving." Cindy, the manger, replied with a stiff voice as she strolled by them. The four of them eyed each other before breaking out into a fit of more laughter.
Time: 1:37am
Quinn slowly rolled to a stop as she pulled up to the curb of a house. She shut the car off, hands tightening on the steering wheel, and eyes staring straight ahead. She didn't dare look at the house to her right. Every inch of her body was frozen in spot. In the pit of her lower stomach a low burning sensation licked at her insides. The knocking in her chest was slowly starting to pound harder. All her nerves were on high alert. The bottom of her lip trembled like a scared cat trapped in the corner. Taking in a hasty breath she slowly turned her head towards the house. On the large stoned in mailbox read the family name. 'Berry.' A large lump formed in the back of her throat, making it rub harshly with the lack of moisture. She quickly closed her eyes to try and steady her heavy breathing. After a few calming breaths she opened her eyes back up. Immediately her body began freaking out again, those breathing techniques didn't do shit for her. Quinn's body began to feel numb as she quietly clambered out of her car. Her weak legs carefully stumbled up the long walkway.
You can do this Fabray. Come on you can do this.
Within seconds she made it to the front door. From where she stood it looked like it was a lot bigger and menacing than from her car. Her stomach squeezed tighter until she couldn't breathe. Her wide, fearful eyes stared at the door waiting for it to open up by itself. But she knew that was not logical. Fear consumed her with a delicious hunger. Large shivers marched down her arms with a vengeance. Her walls were crumbling down till there was nothing but her fragile self. She stood there feeling vulnerable, weak and naked to her core. In all her entire life she had never been more scared than this moment. After a few minutes her body began trembling. Her heart was pounding desperately beneath her chest. The blonde balled her fist and was about to aim it for the door. Then a sharp pain sliced into her stomach. It felt like barbed wire was twisting and turning inside of her intestines. Her hands flew to her mouth. Quinn quickly ran away from the door like a speeding canon. When she reached the end of her vehicle she bent over and threw up on the side of the road. After her stomach had been cleared she walked back to her car and got back in. She silently cursed herself for coming back here again, each time ending in the same way. The only difference about tonight was that she had made it to the door.
Frustration filled the blonde's head as she slammed her fists into the steering wheel. All the blood in her body ran to her face as anger rolled over. Small streaks of tears leaked out from the sides of her face as a growl escaped from her throat. "FUCK!" she shouted loudly into her car. Her eyes flickered back to the house then back at the front of the road. Slowly her body began to tire out as she finally slumped her head into the steering wheel. She bit her lower lip and ran a shaky hand through her hair. Lifting her head up Quinn continued staring at the house with the longing and the desire for the forgiveness of Rachel Berry.
Next week…. I'll try again.
After staring at the haunting house she turned her car back on and drove away from the house and into the deserted road. Words from Tambrey's session today regurgitated to the front of her head as she drove past the other darkened houses.
'You are an incredibly beautiful, smart, sophisticated, and talented young woman. You really are Quinn. And I know that you are starting to see that for yourself. I can see that you are starting to slowly let people into your life. With that you are also starting to find the real you. There's only one obstacle in the way and that's you. I know you've made mistakes Quinn. We all have. But what's done is done, and you can't change it. All you can do is learn from your experience. Forgiveness is the key to all of this in order for you to finally let go'
'I don't deserve forgiveness.'
'You're wrong. Everybody deserves a second chance. Including you.'
'No they don't'
'How do you expect someone to forgive you when you can't forgive yourself? The fact of the matter is that you're fear is the basis of your world. You let it control every aspect in and around your life. You're not scared of them not forgiving you; you're scared because they will. You need to learn to conquer your fears because if you don't then I'm afraid that it will control your life. A life filled with fear is no life at all.'
Quinn quickly shook her head as she let out a loud frustrated sigh. Once she felt the anger drain from herself she eyed the road with defeat. "Time to get back to Columbus." She sighed as she drove into the darkness of the night.
Deep… I know. You mad bro? Let me know if you like it or hate it. (But you better not hate it)