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Chapter 7
BPOV
He led me to the parking lot that was quiet since it was lunch time and everyone was on the caffeteria. I was really confused. What was so important that couldn't wait and most importantly made him wanna talk to me!
"Okay shoot. What is it?" I was not as friendly as he expected me to be, I can tell. I was tired of his games and wanted to tell me whatever he wanted to and get it over with. I was hungry and cold out there, and most of all I wanted to find Adrian.
"I am back Bella! You can stop pretending now! Stop hiding your true feelings for me! You don't have to be with someone you don't really like only to make me jealous-
"Hey!Stop! What are you talking about? Are you insane? I am with whom I like to be and I am not hiding anything!" I was struggling not to punch him in his pretty face right now!More than shocked and irritated I was confuse to say the least. He was gone for almost four years and now he returns and wants me to break up with my boyfriend and be with him? That was what he was trying to tell me?I waited patiently to let him speak..maybe he had just a very bad sense of humor.
"Oh come on now Bells, I know you. You never got over me, I am your first love and you know it, you can admitted to yourself now that I'm back!" he was smiling proudly like he had made the biggest revelation! The thing that made me watching red was that he believed every word he said ! He couldn't believe that I was over him and happy with someone else, especially when that someone was his best friend.
"Edward, I will say it only once and I want to you to listen to me carefully alright? I. AM. NOT. IN. LOVE. WITH. YOU. ANYMORE! If you don't remember our last conversation let me refresh your memory. I confessed you my love and you turn me down humiliating me, saying that you're just not into me! That I wasn't the right girl for you and some other bullshits! Do you remember now?" I was screaming, I knew I couldn't keep my self control!
"Bells listen I-
"No YOU listen Edward!I was just a little girl having a very big crush on her best friend!And I had found the courage to actually tell you the truth when I knew all to well that you didn't feel the same way!And what did you do?You came crashed all my innocent dreams and hopes and disapeared for years!When was the last time you actually cared about me? I had a hard time when you left and I made a great effort to get over you and leave my past behind! I am with Adrian now you like it or not!I am happy with him!And stop calling me Bells!It's just Bella for you!" I stopped trying to gain some of my self-control. I took deep calming breath and continued.
"Look, I am not saying that I don't want to be your friend… we grew up together after all. But, please try to behave yourself. I am in love with HIM and the sooner you realize it, the better." I didn't spare a look at him as I turned around and headed back to the building.
I entered the cafeteria, spotted the table where Alice, Adrian and the rest of my friends were sitting and walked straight to them needing to be near people were really my friends. I sat near Adrian as always and he hugged me around the shoulders. Inside me an inner battle had started. What the hell had just happened? Edward had implied, actually had demand to break up with my boyfriend and be with him. Three years ago that would be the best day of my life. Today I was more upset and confused than ever before. And I was angry as hell.
"Bella! I am talking to you! Are you listening?" I shook my head and came back to reality. Alice was trying to catch my attention but I was lost in space for a couple of minutes.
"Sorry Alice I spaced out for a minute. You were saying..?"
"I was asking what do you want to do tonight. We have to celebrate!" she was all excited and ready to throw a party for no reason at all. The last thing I wanted now was a girl's night out or even worse a mini party!
"Er… Alice to be honest it's a school night and I have a huge homework to do for English. Maybe we plan something for the weekend okay?" in my words her smile faded. I hated to make Alice sad but right now I needed time and space to clear my head and not being around Edward, something that would make the situation even worse.
"What's wrong beautiful? Did something happen? You were fine a couple of hours ago." concern crossed Adrian's face.
I forced a sweet smile on my face and pretended that nothing had happened. "Don't worry everything's fine I am just little baffled."
While I was lost in my thoughts Edward came and sat to our table. Nice, their first day here and it seemed to be endless! On the one hand I was delighted that I had Alice here but on the other hand Edward was getting on my nerves already. I wished he had stayed behind passed out in a beach bar or something.
"So, Adie what do you say if we have a quick drive to Port Angeles and hang out a little this evening? Just the two of us, we'll grab a beer and catch up!Forks's just a dead town… I really miss LA." I heard Edward saying and I rolled my eyes to Alice. How could he be so shallow?
"Er…you know Edward I was thinking about staying with Bella tonight, hang out, do some homework or something. I want to spend some time with her alone. Maybe another night." he said hesitantly. I didn't see that coming!I had just refused Alice her girly night to spend sometime alone..
"No, you can go if you want! I am really tired and I was thinking about finishing that english project and going straight to bed,I have this splitting headache that's killing me." I had been improved on telling lies the last looked at me worried and I knew he was thinking on staying with me, and I proved right.
"Do you feel sick? Do you want me to stay with you?" No, no, no the last thing I wanted was that!
"No baby you can go! Have some fun, I will just take a painkiller and get some rest!I didn't get much sleep last night that's all." I gave him a bright smile and saw him instantly relaxing. I played my role perfectly!
"Okay then I'm in!" I heard him saying to Edward. Then I realized that Edward was giving me sidelong glances. His eyes were smiling. Damn, he thought that he had made me upset. And damn me, he was right!
After lunch I walked to spanish class with Alice. We had this class together,too. She sat on the empty seat beside me all cheerful!
"Adrian likes you a lot you know. I can see it on his face. He looks at you and his face lits up. I'm jealous I want one like him." She said laughing. I knew she was joking about the last part but the rest she'd said didn't help me at all. Unfortunately she was into a girls talk, and she'd chosen the only subject that I was trying so desperately to avoid.I knew she was right about Adrian too and I was happy to hear that coming from her but I was more than confused nad upset to talk about it right now.
"Yeah, I know. I like him a lot. Come on Alice, you'll find your prince charming soon. You're gorgeous you just have to find the one, the perfect match for you." I was playing it cool but I wasn't.
"You like him? Is that alla? No butterfiels on the stomach? No foot trembling?What's going on? Is everything alright?" why she had to know me so damn well?
"No! I mean yes! Everything is just fine! So tell me now, have you seen anyone interesting around here? No one who catches your fancy?" I teased her making an effort to change the subject. She gave me a suspicious glance but she dropped it.
"Nope, no one who'll worth it." She made a silly sad face and we both laughed only to realize that everyone was looking at us! Hell we were in class! Thank God, Mr. Banner turned a blind eye to us! We remained in silence for the rest of the time, but I have to say that I was in a better mood. Alice always cheers me up one way or another.
Adrian was waiting for me outside the class, and unfortunately Edward was with him. I had to get used to it. We headed to Adrian's car and he opened the door for me.
"Bella I'll see you tomorrow." Alice came and hugged me. "I'll call you later." She whispered to my ear when Adrian wasn't listening. I looked at her questionably but she winked and went to Edward's car.
As Adrian was driving me home, he was holding my hand but he didn't said much. I felt comfortable in that silence since that headache wasn't a complete lie after all. He stopped outside my house but he didn't let go of my hand. He came closer and looked me in the eyes.
"What's wrong baby? Did I do something wrong? You've been acting strange today. You know you can tell me anything." Oh God, why he had to be so sweet? But what was wrong with me really? I should've been happy that my boyfriend cared for me, not to be bothered byt his interest!
"It's just that stupid headache, don't worry, really. Go out with your friend, have fun! I am going to be fine, I promise." I smiled and leaned forward to meet his lips. It felt nice to kiss him but there was still something that bothered me. I got out of the car and entered the house, to find Emma in front of the television.
I loved my little sister but right now I wasn't in the mood on playing games with her. I went upstairs to the bathroom; filled the bathtub with hot steaming water and sank in. I closed m eyes and Edward's face appeared to my mind. Fuck! If I kept up that way I would lose it. It's time to do some serious thinking and make some decisions.I stepped out of the bathtub, dried my hair and wore my comfortable sweater and a pair of yoga pants.
Everyone was home by now. Renee was preparing dinner and Charlie was playing with Emma in the living room. I knew I had to pass this test if I wanted them to leave me alone for the rest of the night, so I put on my happy face and went to help Renee.
"You're really happy, huh? Now that Cullens are back. I knew they were coming yesterday but Alice told me she wanted to be a surprise." Told me a smiley Charlie. "I love to see you smile, kid."
To be honest I was foecing a smile on my face while I'd been setting the table.
Fortunately, Emma was talking only about her day and her friends and her school during the dinner and I happily let her to be the centre of attention so the Cullens subject was over. After dinner I said really convincing, may I say, that I had a lot of homework to do and I would spend the night studying.
Once in my room, I had to face my problems.
We have and say:
Firstly, Edward's back and he wants to be with me after all these years.
Secondly, I have a relationship with his best friend, who really likes me and takes care of me.
Thirdly, I don't know what's happening in my head. Do I still love Edward?
I had to admit that I felt a bit satisfied; I can say triumphantly, I was now Edward's big crush. He turned me down three years ago and now he likes me a lot enough to ask me broke up with my boyfriend. I remembered his face and his expression this morning though. He behaved like I belonged to him because I had a crush on him years ago.A stupid childish crush when we were on our early teens for crying out loud!
It was like he had me for granted! God, he was so full of himself! He liked me, yes I could see that, but he couldn't believe that I was over him! Who the hell does he thinks he is? Surely not the love of my life anymore! I saw red now! How could I, even for a moment, think that maybe we could have a chance together?
I had Adrian who loves and cares for me and am I thinking that way? Wake up Bella, open your eyes! Edward's a spoiled jerk who thinks he can have everything he wants!And when he has problems on getting it he becomes more stubborn than a mule! No I won't be his next toy!I would be twice as stubborn and this time I had the upper hand!
Maybe I am not deeply in love with Adrian but I really like him, I feel nice when I'm with him. He's kind and caring and he knows me well. There's no chance I broke up with him only because Edward all of a sudden remembered my existence. If I can't avoid Edward at all I am going to just ignore him. I don't want him not even as my friend any more at least not until he change this attitude and become the sweet funny guy I used to know.
When he stops being a total arrogant jert maybe he earns my friendship again.
Go Girl!Don't let him shake you!Soo someone has to teach our darling Edward a lesson..and who will be better than our Bella?!Pleaseeeee Review! I wanna know what do you think! xx
