Here it is! The next chapter! Sorry for the late update! Enjoy!

Chapter 13

BPOV

Ian entered the kitchen while I was sitting at the table, holding my throbbing head which was killing me since the moment I opened my eyes this morning. I didn't want to get out of bed but soon I realized that as long as I was laying there my mind was free to travel on yesterday night events. So I reluctantly got up and had a cold shower before coming downstairs.

The second cup off coffee was almost over but that had made no difference to my exhausted body and 'drunk' mind. How much caffeine should I give to my body to return to its normal functions? Maybe I've lost count on how many drinks I had after all, there was no way I had this hangover with two beers and a couple of shots. Or they weren't 'a couple'? They should've been a lot more! I was definitely not my self last night. I was completely off the track! Damn! Damn who actually? That's all my fault…it was just me and tequila. After this splitting headache, I'll think it twice to have a single sip of a drink next time. I've learned my lesson.

Ian put a mug for himself and joined me at the table. His hair was too messy and he was quite pale with dark shadows that matched mine. The truth is I had no clue about where he went after he disappeared from the party, or what time he came home, but it must have been before six when Charlie had returned from his night shift.

"Headache?" he asked me after a while. All I did was to nod since it was much easier than talking. In every attempt I made to talk, the words were hummering my brain! No more tequila for the next ten years, at least.

"That makes to of us, then." no one said anything else, we were both sitting in silence holding our heads. The fact that he wasn't in the mood for teasing me, specially after the party-including my almost public make out section with Adrian- made me realize that he was in a much worse condition than me. For now I was grateful for the hangover which was keeping his head busy, leaving me in peace.

"Where's the rest of the family? It's a Sunday morning, it's impossible for this house to be that quiet." He told me dragging me out of my thoughts.

"Renee took Emma to the playground and Charlie had a night shift so he's upstairs sleeping." It was his turn to nod. His question reminded me of one more person that was supposed to be living here these days, and whom I'd only seen for a couple of minutes yesterday!

"Hey, where's Jasper?" he opened his mouth but as he was about to answer, a very happy, smiley Jasper entered the room.

"I'm right here! Goodmorning!" his face was glowing! There was only a hint of black circles under his eyes but nothing else betrayed the few hours he had only slept. How on earth was he jumping up and down-not literally- while we were like living corpses? Jaz loved girls and parties as much as Ian did and that was one of the reasons they'd became such close friends through the years. He bent down, kissed my cheek and went to the coffee machine! A kiss? Seriously?

"Oh hot coffee! Lovely!" he didn't notice me looking at him, mouth gapping, Ian reflecting my awestruck expression.

"Dude, seriously how much weed did you smoke last night?" Ian asked. What the-? Did he just say weed? I looked carefully at his amused expression… no he was just kidding. The truth is that Jaz looked like he'd been high all night. He just rolled his eyes, the smile never leaving his face.

"Come on, I'm not high, at least not because of that kind of drugs! But I can admit that I found the best drug in the world, a very special one, last night. I became addicted to it since the very first moment. I totally recommend you to find yours, bro." he winked at Ian, walked to the door opened it and left!

Not a moment had passed and the door opened again and his head reappeared. "Do not wait for me, I'll probably won't make it to lunch." Said and disappeared again, leaving us there, looking at the closed door wondering what the on earth was wrong with Jasper. My brain couldn't proceed well right now, so I just shrugged my shoulders and concentrated on my problems instead.

"Anyway, I'm gonna take a couple of painkillers and then call Alice." I put my mug on the sink and went upstairs to my room, put a CD with relaxing music playing and dialed Alice's number. Surprisingly she didn't pick it up. That was really weird of Alice the only person I knew, who was holding her cell 24/7 no matter what. Maybe she was still sleeping.

I sat at the edge of my bed listening to the relaxing tune of the music and letting my mind free to wander at last night events. Not that I remembered everything since I started drinking. I didn't have lost my consciousness of course but some parts of the party were blurry in my mind.

I tried hard not to think about that ridiculous scene between Adrian and Edward. I had no intention of taking part into their game. There were some things that were more important than boys' whims.

First of all, what the heck was trying Adrian to tell me while we were driving to the Cullens. Was he thinking of leaving? That can't be true… his house is here, his parents have their jobs here, all his friends are here…I am here. He couldn't leave me, could he? No… I knew quite well that he wouldn't hurt me like that.

When Edward treated me like I was no one, like I was invisible or a person who wasn't worthy enough to spend his time talking to, his friend whose existence had forgotten about, I was a mess. He didn't bother to give me a better excuse or to make it easier for me, 'cause he didn't care. I know he still doesn't.

The worst part of it was that Alice had left with him. I didn't have my best friend, my sister to comfort me when I most needed her. In addition, I was trying to do it easier for her, so I was keeping my grief to myself. She was calling every day, I knew I hadn't fooled her with my awful acting skills, though. She was doing her best to cheer me up although I should have been the one on her side.

My sweet Alice. I had Ian at least, and I was thankful for that, he is the only person who could make me truly laugh, but still it wasn't the same.

I kept all the depression and suffering in me, and it took me almost a year to get over it, no matter the promises I'd given to Alice and Ian, no matter how hard I tried. There was one more person I could have trusted, but I didn't. Not completely at least. Jacob. My honest, always happy friend, my Jake.

It was him who helped me with Edward at first place and he was the first person I talked to about my feelings for Edward. Maybe I'd never talked to him straight about the conversation I had with Edward hours before they left or how much pain he'd caused me, but I knew he'd already known about it. He was there for me and even without talking I was feeling better, I was drawing power from him. Whenever I was with Jake I felt more relaxed and if not healed I was at peace.

The reason I never talked to him was that I am a very unselfish person and I had no intention on burden him with my problems, my personal pain. The truth is I hate moping around even if it's not about a whim of mine and it's a real problem I'm facing.

During all this time I made a couple of relationships just to pass my time and forget him. It is true all the boys I was with they liked me a lot, and that was the real reason I'd chosen to be with them. I didn't even paying to much attention to them 'cause I wasn't even interested in them and now I barely remember their names. I was in dire need of attention though, I wanted them to love me and to worship me. But unfortunately they weren't them that I wanted to be worshiped from.

There's a time in our lives that we have to put our own pain and sufferings aside and be on the side those who need us more that we do. That time came when I was ready to talk about my pain to him, Jacob. Jake's life changed in a night. Everything came upside down in his life and then it was the time that he needed me more.

It was when I came back from the state I had fallen in and realized that there are things in this life with great value. Only because of the loss of these things we should suffer or be sad. Any other small insignificant thing doesn't matter. And I was a person who was moping around about a fact like that, so worthless and insignificant. Life's so small to be wasted like that.

Jake's a person who'll maybe fall but has the strength to rise up again. I learned a lot from him, he helped even without knowing it, he showed me the right way to face my problems and keep going.

And that's what I did. I followed his example and found myself again. Or maybe I found a better version of my self. After this year and a half I changed a lot. I'd become stronger, determined and ready to face everything. I was still me but a better me at the same time.

Then it was when life brought me Adrian. When I'd changed and ready to accept another man in my life and be honest and right to him. For the first time in my life I was sure I was doing the right thing for me being with Adrian. The time for me to be happy and loved had finally come.

Because of that, the fact that Adrian cared for me and looked after me when I was still fragile, I don't want to lose him. And that was the reason Edward drove me mad when he demanded to leave him. He was insane if he thought even for a second that I'll leave the man who took care of me to be with the man that had destroyed me in the first place!

That is what I call madness. For an exhausted and almost drunk person I was thinking quite rationally. But all this thinking combined with the exhaustion led me to a heavy sleep without even realising it.

One moment I was sitting on my bed and the other a dark, wet and wild forest was all around me. I was alone and all I was able to see was a thick wall of tall ancient trees filled with moss and ivy. I looked up and the trees were closing like a ceiling above my head, keeping the moonlight out of my natural cage.

The fact that caught my attention was that I could see clearly even without the moonlight. Where that light was coming from? I turned to my right and there he was! Adrian was standing in the begging of a path leading through the forest and out of my prison. How hadn't I notice him immedeiately?

Something was strange about him though. Something in his expression caught my attention. He was sad…really sad. I could tell that his eyes were wet. I wanted to go there to hug him and hold him tight, to lead him out of this scary forest and comfort him.

He raised his hand like he wanted to touch me like he was waiting for me to take it and run together away. "Bella" his voice was just a whisper but was carrying so much emotion and sadness in it that hurt me. I did a step forward to his direction. Only a few more steps and I'll be near him, holding him in my arms. And I did one more step and then another but something really strange was happening.

With every step I made, Adrian was becoming more and more distant! It was like a strong force was taking him away from me, he was disappearing deep into the forest where I could no more see him. I hadn't realized it but I was running, running to his direction but the path was becoming longer and longer. I couldn't see neither Adrian nor anything else than the trees around me.

I was putting all my efforts to run as fast as I could but I was going nowhere. It seemed like the scenery around me was the same all the time. When it was hard for me to breath I stopped and fell to my knees there in the middle of the path with the huge forest surrounding me. My heart was beating fast and my chest was killing me. I took several deep breaths and when I calmed down I looked around me.

In truth wasn't expecting to see anything different but deep inside me wishing that I'll look up and see him there and be able to reach him this time. There was a change in the scenery indeed, but Adrian was nowhere to be seen. The forest wasn't as dark as it had been a minute ago and I could tell that the sun was high up in the sky shining brightly. Birds were singing and the weather had changed, too. The cold and the chill the dark forest was making me feel were now gone. It was a nice warm day in Forks. In Forks? Miracles could happen I guess. I stand up and took a few steps in the completely new, welcoming forest.

Only then I realized that the place was familiar. I had come here countless times in the past. As I child I was playing hide and seek with the Cullens and Jake in this part of the forest. This place had always been one of my favorites, especially when I was younger. My feet like from their owns were taking me to the right direction. I could now see the turn in the path and there it was, the old massive tree, in his trunk we had curved our names so many years ago, marking this place as ours. I had forgotten its existence completely. I hadn't come in this place for so many years… why I was here now?

Impatience and excitement filled me. I knew where I was! I've reached the tree and I was ready to take that turn in the path and really soon I would be in a familiar place surrounded by people I knew and loved. I wouldn't be alone and scared in that dark forest anymore. Behind that turn I was a hundred percent sure that the Cullens house was located. Relieved and with a huge smile plastered on my face I turned right, leaving the loneliness and darkness behind me.

Only that there was no house anywhere around! In the place, where the house should have been, there was only one person. The vegetation wasn't so thick in that spot and the sunlight was falling upon that person, making him literally glow. He seemed like he was a source of light all by himself. I was standing there mesmerized looking at his beauty. In the meantime he'd turned around to face me and his gaze locked to mine, the most beautiful bright smile forming to his lips. He was looking like a greek God. My feet grew roots on the ground, holding me there, not that I had o intention on going anywhere. My eyes and my whole self were given to him. All of me was given to Edward.

Abruptly I sat up, in a sitting position on my bed. It took me several moment to adjust in reality. My heart was beating like crazy and I was soaking with sweat. Someone was knocking on my door, that must've been what had waken me up, saving me at the same time from that horrible dream. With heavy steps I went to the door and opened it while I was making my tangled hair a sloppy ponytail.

"At last. I thought you've run out of the window or something." Ian was back on his old self but his expression turned into worried when he saw my face. I felt and I definitely looked like crap. "What happened to you? Are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm fine, just a bad dream." I was still wandering what that dream might had meant. Was it bad, or it was just me worrying to much about everything?

He was eyeing me carefully but he didn't say anything. "Anyway, mum says food's ready, was your face and come downstairs."

"Sure. Be right there." I closed the door and went to check my phone. I had no calls or text messages. I kind of expecting Alice to have called me back or at least Adrian to see what I was doing. My mind was on him all the time during lunch and I barely toughed my food. Along with Adrian this weird dream was torturing my tired mind as well.

When I was young I remember Billy always giving an interpretation to our dreams. We were sitting with Jake on their little living room and Billy was asking about our dreams. They were childish, silly dreams but he was pretending to be serious and explaining them to us. I'm sure he was just teasing us because he was giving us hilarious interpretations, only to make us laugh.

I remember clearly a rainy afternoon when Edward and Alice were with us. Carlisle had brought them by to play with us at the beach. But we had all ended up at the Black's living room because of the bad weather. Billy was in a good mood and made us hot chocolate. It is quite difficult to keep four, seven years old full of energy kids inside the house, so he found the way to entertain us by asking about our dreams. He was listening to our dreams pretending to be utterly focused on them. He was never saying anything bad or scary of course it was just a game.

We were having a lot of fun especially when Edward told Billy about a dream he had where a scary vampire with red glowing eyes was chasing him in the forest. Suddenly he became Superman with the pants outside of his clothes and all, and kicked the vampires butt! We were all hanging from Billy's lips to hear the meaning of this fascinating dream. Billy took a very concentrated expression and after a while said "I think you should stop eating too much food before you go to bed, its messing up with your imagination." We were all crying from laughter and Edward was red from head to toes! Poor Edward. What a great years they were. Too bad all these had changed.I really missed that carefree time of my life.

"Bella are you still with us?" I heard Renee saying and I focused on reality again she was waving her hand in front of my eyes trying to snap me out of my world. I realized I had been daydreaming for a long time and everyone had finished lunch.

"Sorry, yeah I was just thinking about something." They were nice memories and I had almost forgotten about them. The truth is that I believed in the interpretation of the dreams. Maybe Billy was making fun of us back then but I knew that Quileutes had their own real meanings for dreams. What was mine trying to show me?

The rest of my day went through like that. Nothing special happened apart from that weird conversation I had with Alice. I had called Adrian too because I wanted to see him, I didn't want to stay home thinking about the dream, but he couldn't make it. Unfortunately he was still recovering from his hangover and he had to do a really important history project.

After that I called Alice several times till she picked it up! Fortunately she answered the phone before I was worried enough to call the Cullens.

"Alice thank God! You know I was trying to talk to you all day?"

"Oh I'm sorry Bella is everything okay? Did anything happen?" she sounded worried.

"No it's not that. Everything it's fine. Where were you? You can't have been sleeping till now, right?"

"No I hadn't been sleeping silly, I'm sorry I didn't answer your calls, but I was studying all day and I'd left my phone in my room." What the hell? She couldn't have found a stupider excuse! Alice was already perfectly prepared for every lesson we were having. And if that was the case she goes nowhere without her cell, she has it with her even when she's studying.

"You were studying…yeah right." Who was she trying to fool?

"Yeah, I mean, I had to do a serious studying at history…" she paused for a minute… "So about the party! Tell me did you have fun?" she was all cheerful again, bubbling about the party the guests, the clothes… typical Alice. She thought I will forget about the studying part if she change the subject. No way. Something was going on here and she was hiding it for me, but I was going to find out really soon.

"It was great Alice, don't worry everything was perfect as always. But that's not what I waned to talk to you about. I was thinking about going to Port Angeles tomorrow after school… do some window shopping, talk about the party and have dinner there? You and me. I want some quiet girly time with you." I knew her so damn well. Alice couldn't resist to that. I was smiling alone in my room.

"Er… yeah sure, but we can tell Rose and Angela to join us! It would be great right?" she was definitely trying to avoid spending some alone time with me. I'll play her game then.

"Sure great! But you're coming to sleep over! We'll have a great time Alice I promise! I got to go now see you tomorrow." I hang up before she was able to find another excuse.

I went for a shower thinking about tomorrow with a smile on my face.

That was it! Sorry for the clifhanger guys but I think it was a good time to see Bella's part of the story after Edward left! Next time I promise the chapter will be about Edward! Review and I will be nice to him ;)