Here's the next chapter guys! Another late update! I know I'm sorry but this is a really big chapter and I want to make up to you for the delay!
Chapter 14
APOV
I spotted him since the moment he set his foot on the house. His piercing green eyes were making their way all around the place and the dancing crowd but they didn't seem to find any interest in it. I was standing at the top of the staircase having a great view of the party.
So far everything had been perfect and now with him here the night made it to the top ten. He didn't see me at first giving me the chance to stare at him for as long as I liked without being noticed. His hair were brown I think but I couldn't be absolutely sure and they were messy with some cute locks falling to his face. He was tall and lean but not skinny and I could definitely see the strong muscles of his arms and back through his shirt. He was standing straight, confident and he was looking like a lion!
I had a strange feeling that I knew him from somewhere. He was older that me that's for sure but his face looked familiar. He wasn't from Forks I would have known him from somewhere in such a small town. And what if he had moved here while we were in California? That's a pretty good option. But I had definitely seen these eyes before… they were unforgettable…where had I met him before? When?
Then he turned his head and talked to someone who had just arrived. That someone was no other than Ian! So that meant only one thing, that this beautiful stranger was a friend of Ian's probably from college and that Emmett would known him too.
Then again when I looked into his face that strange feeling that I knew him from somewhere came back to me. I hadn't much time to think about it because at exactly that moment he turned his head and looked straight into my eyes!
Shit! He'd caught me starring! I made an effort to look indifferent but I completely failed because his eyes had brought the butterflies in my stomach.
His experienced eyes didn't miss my reaction and he just smiled, a smile that made my heart skip a beat, and winked at me! Before I had time to recover he disappeared with Ian into the crowd and I stayed there rooted to my spot unable to make my feet move.
I sat down at the top of the stairs trying to calm myself down. It was the first time a guy made me feel like this. The weirdest part was that I knew nothing about him, I didn't even know his name, I'd never spoken to him. How is my heart so sure that he is the one? Why is this happening?
I don't know how long I'd been sitting there because I was completely lost in my thoughts about this guy. He was here in my house, in my party, why was I such a big coward?
I didn't even notice Rosalie when she came and dragged me in the bathroom yelling about something. We'd been sitting there for a while with Rosalie talking but the truth is I wasn't paying any attention to what she was saying. I hadn't listened to a single word she said…and she'd said a lot. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Those eyes-ouch!
"Hey! What's wrong with you Rose? Did you just pinch me? What are you like five?" she'd noticed that I was spaced out but that was not a nice way to snap me out of it! It hurt!
"Really? What's wrong with me? A good question is what's the matter with you? Have you even heard what I've been telling you? " she wasn't mad but confused. She was trying to understand why I was acting so strange the last fifteen minutes or so. Yeah, what'd happened to me?
That was indeed, a good question.
"I'm sorry Rose I was just thinking about some stuff about the party, really it's nothing." nice Alice you couldn't have found a more ridiculous excuse! She raised one eyebrow to me but fortunately she didn't say anything.
"Okay, tell me again I'm all ears. What happened? Did you say something about Emmett?"
"Yeah I did. That jerk you have for a brother came while I was dancing with Angela and hugged me from behind! He dragged me away and pinned me against the wall, Alice! God what a barbarian! I swear I tried to remain calm and not beat the hell out of him but he crossed the line when he squeezed my ass! Can you believe it? He was kissing my neck and his hands were on my ass! For the love of God I'm not a slut and he is your brother!" she was furious. My jaw was on my hands!
"What happened next?" I couldn't believe it! Emmett and Rose? As in my friend Rose?
"Sorry Alice, but I'm the one to blame for his black eye." She had a guilty look on her face. That was Rose, she wasn't known for her patience.
It was hard for me to believe it but on the other hand it was so hilarious that I burst into a loud laughter that I couldn't stop! Damn I missed the whole scene! My brother Emmett who looked like a baby grizzly bear being brought down by Rose!
"And then? What happened after that?"
"He was lucky. When I was ready to kick his balls Ian came to the rescue! He dragged him away from me and they disappeared into the living room. God they were out of their fucking minds! Wait! Are you still laughing? Do you think this is funny? Seriously?" Oops! She was pissed again!
"I'm sorry Rose but what am I supposed to say? He was drunk and you definitely smoke tonight! That dress does miracles with your butt." It was true she looked really sexy with that tight red dress. Maybe it was too short but she had great legs anyway.
"You think?" she asked smiling.
"Absolutely!"
"Do you think I look like a slut?"
"No, of course not! Listen, I believe Emmett was so wasted that he didn't even realize who you were." She seemed to relax a bit but something else crossed my mind. "Wait, did you just say that Ian came to find him? Was he alone?"
"No I think Jasper was with him, but he looked sober in comparison with the two of them. Why? Does that make any difference to you?"
"Jasper?" Oh my God! I realized why he looked so familiar! Crap!
"Yeah, Bella's cousin. He used to live here remember?"
"Oh yeah right, I know." Of course I did. He moved to Seattle many years ago when he was still a child, but now he'd turned into a beautiful man. Focus Alice!
"Come on lets go downstairs I have a party to host!" and we that we left the bathroom and returned to party. Actually the party wasn't so wild anymore and lot of people had already left. Were was Bella? I hadn't seen her for a while.
"R have you seen Bella?"
"Not for a while. The last time I checked she was quite busy sucking Adrian's face. Not something I'd like to see again." She said sarcastically.
Right on time my eye caught the tall figure of Adrian heading to the door along with Bella and Jake. They were in a big hurry and they didn't even say goodnight! That was strange!
"Alice I think I got to go, too. Angela and Ben will give me a ride home. Thanks for everything Al the party was great." She hugged me tight and promised to call tomorrow for the gossip part.
"Goodnight. Thank you for coming guys." I stayed a lot near the door thanking and talking to my guests. I'm Alice Cullen I had to be a perfect host. When the last one left I was so exhausted I could barely move but I had to do some of the clean up after the party.
The living room and the kitchen looked like a bomb had exploded in there. I did the easy part picking up and throwing the plastic cups and the leftovers away, leaving the hard work for tomorrow. After that the place looked tones better than it did before and it didn't take me too long to do it.
At last, I headed upstairs ready to fall asleep within seconds but damn I wasn't that lucky! I was outside of Edward's room when I heard screams and noises from in there. What on-?
"Edward?" I called him and knocked the door but no one seemed to hear because of all that noise. I knocked again but the battle didn't stop so I just opened the door and entered the room.
What I saw the moment I went into the room, I will never forget. Irina was yelling and crying and at the same time throwing everything she could found to Edward! He was running around trying to avoid the flying objects but he was so drunk he could barely stand!
"Hey! What's going on in here? STOP! For God's shake stop, you'll hurt him!" I grabbed her hand and stop her for throwing him a heavy dictionary straight to the head. Edward relaxed and tried to sit on the bed but tripped and fell to the floor instead, but he remained there making no attempt to stand up again.
Irina was sobbing silently and I realized she was half naked! I couldn't found her clothes in that mess so I grabbed an old T-shirt and put it on her.
"Come on now stop crying everything's okay." I tried to calm her down but she was so upset and drunk at the same time. I took her downstairs and called a cub for her. She had almost passed out by the time the taxi came and I gave to the driver the directions to her house. I hoped that she made it to her house safely.
I was so tired I could hardly move. I went straight to my room not even checking up on Edward. He would be fast asleep by now. It was really unusual for me not to wear one of my silk nightgowns but I do it when I prefer to be comfortable. And tonight was one of these nights. I put on a huge black T-shirt which once belonged to Emmett.
I climbed to my bed and fall asleep the second my head touched the pillow.
I was standing in front of my huge mirror in my bedroom, marveling my reflection. I was wearing a dress that I've never seen in my life but it was obviously made especially for me. It was tailormade and fitted my body perfectly. It was in the colour of blood and looked like an aristocratic night gown that belonged in a different era. Definitely what I'd been wearing if I'd be living back in the 19th century.
It was sleeveless and had a v-neck adorned with delicate frills. It was hugging nicely my upper body and there was a bow in my waste, making it look even smaller. From the waste down the skirt was light and breezy reaching down the floor. The whole dress was made from the finest exquisite fabric and softest tulle. It slipped like water between my fingers. Sheer, light and unique.
I had no idea why I was standing there, wearing this beautiful dress but it had to be a good reason for it. Suddenly I heard the door open and then close and footsteps moving around living room. I wasn't alone, someone had just entered the house. Unwillingly I took my eyes off of my image in the mirror and exited my room.
"Edward? Is that you?" I called but I received no answer. "Hello? Is anybody here?" I'd reached the top of the stairs by then and peeked down at the living room.
What I saw took my breath away. It was him. Jasper. He was standing at the middle of the living room near Edward's piano, facing me. When he saw me, a breathtaking smile lit his face. The black suit he was wearing was making him look like a god to me.
I started my way down feeling the dress floating around me making me look like I was flying. I knew there was a really good reason I was wearing that dress particularly. Instantly he was there at the bottom of the staircase, offering me his hand. I willingly took it and a warm feeling spread all over my body. He put one hand on my lower back pulling me closer to him.
I looked into his eyes and I saw only admiration and love there. He lowered his head and I closed my eyes knowing he was going to kiss me. I was ready for the kiss, my whole body longing for it when- the doorbell rang! What? That was my dream and I had to be kissed and loved without anyone to interrupt!
Jasper had a disappointed and at the same time confused expression on his face.
"Are you waiting for someone?" he asked still holding me close to him.
"No, but- I was cut off again by the bell. The world around me started to fade away and so did Jasper! What was happening? I hadn't much time to think about it when that damn bell rang again. I blinked a couple of times and when I opened my eyes again. I was lying on my bed wide awake.
Unfortunately it was just a dream. I sat up trying to remember the details of the dream but I was too tired and my brain was still asleep.
DING DONG!
Hell! I opened the door and walked out my eyes were hearting because of the sunlight that was coming through the windows. Sunlight? A sunny day in Forks? Maybe I was still dreaming.
DING DONG!
No, I wasn't! And I had a persistent jerk on my front door. "I'm coming!" I screamed and hurried down the stairs noticing at the same time that I'd been the only one woken up by the bell.
I unlocked and opened the door only to find a smiley Jasper standing there! I blinked a couple of times pushing my brain to wake up.
"Goodmorning!" he told me and then it hit me! That wasn't a dream, he was there flesh and blood! Oh my God I was wearing a buggy t-shirt, my hair was a tangled mess and I had black circles under my eyes! Shit! And before he could say another word I closed the door to his face!
"Shit!" I said out loud this time and run to the mirror we had in the hall. I tried to tame my hair but it was hopeless.
"Alice? It's me Jasper. Are you okay? I'm sorry if I scared you. Could you open the door please?" I heard him saying behind the closed door. God he must be thinking I'm crazy. I had no other choice but to open the door and face him with messy hair or not. I opened it and hesitantly peered outside. He was still there looking confused and concerned. But he was more handsome than I remembered him to be.
"Hi… um good morning. Come on in. I suppose you came to see Emmett but he's sleeping and I'm afraid he won't be up for at least three hours." I was rambling. Great Alice.
"No, no I didn't come to see Emmett. I came to see you. We didn't have the chance to talk yesterday and I was hoping we could spend some time together today, if you don't have other plans of course. I really want to know you better Alice."
I was listening to him stunned by what he was saying. Had he just said that he wants to spend the day with me? To know me better? That is definitely a dream and I'm going to wake up soon. That cannot be happening! I realized he was waiting for my response so I closed my mouth that'd been hanging all this time and answered.
"Oh, sure, I mean I don't have other plans. I mean… yeah I would love to." I managed to say and gave him one of my charming smiles.
"Perfect. I'll wait for you to get ready so we can go." He said and sat down on the couch, the smile never leaving his face.
"I'll be ready in ten minutes! No do that a half an hour!" I ran to the stairs but I had one more question. "Oh Jasper where are we going?" I had to know so I could dress properly.
"Hmm, I prefer that to be a surprise. But it would be better if you didn't wear high heels." He winked and gave me a mischievous smile which made my heart stop. How on earth he knew me so well?
"I love surprises! I'll be right back! Don't go anywhere!" I squealed and disappeared into the second floor.
I had a quick shower and wore my hair down leaving them fall over my shoulders in heavy locks. I put refreshing face cream and some make up on achieving a beautiful natural look. He'd let the destination to be a secret so I chose to wear my favorite pair of jeans. Jeans are always a safe choice. I added a white T-shirt with a Juicy couture logo on it and a gray blazer on top. It was a sunny day but we live in Forks where the weather changes within minutes. Of course I did as he said and I left the high heels aside, wearing my comfortable pair of oxford shoes. I was ready!
I took one last look at the mirror and exited the room. I'd also written a note to Emmett telling him to clean up the rest of the house as soon as he'd be up and before our parents are back. They'd gone to Seattle for the weekend to spend some alone time together and leave us the house for the party. I really appreciated that, they were great parents.
He was sitting on the same spot and he sat up the right moment he saw me. He came toward me and took my hand in his. His hand was warm and soft and sent an electric wave though my body.
"You're beautiful" he told me and my knees felt so weak. I had a quick deja vous when he looked me in the eyes but this Jasper, the real one made no move to kiss me. He just took me by the hand and move to the door.
"Come on, let's go princess."
When we stepped out, I was expecting Jasper to lead me to his car, but instead of that I came to an abrupt halt when I saw a huge bike or motorbike or whatever they call it. NO! Mary Alice Cullen will NEVER ride in that thing. No, never, jamais, there was absolutely no way-
"So Alice, are you ready to go?" Jasper asked me. I turned my head to tell him that he was nuts to believe that I would go anywhere with that bike but when I looked into that beautiful eyes of his, I couldn't even speak. I was lost in their green…so deep so mesmerizing. So I just nodded. Wait a minute; did I just agree to ride a bike? OH MY GOD Alice what is wrong with you? What were you thinking? A bike Alice, really? As I was deeply in my thoughts, we made our way to our mode of transportation, if you can call it that.
"Hey Alice before I forgot. Here take this" Jasper said and gave a hamlet. You have got to be kidding me! Oh, that's it! I can't take that anymore!
"Err…Jasper can you look at me for a second. .Not. Going to wear that in my head, no-no way. That thing will ruin my hair. I know I agreed to ride that bike, but a hamlet no-I can't take that. There is no way." as I finished my speech, I realize that he was laughing. I couldn't believe him. He was making me sit on a bite and wear that awful heavy thing on my head and now he was laughing at me. Yeah, thanks a lot. I glared at him and I was ready to get back in the house. His laughter stopped immediately and grasped my arm stopping me from going inside.
"Oh don't be like this Alice. It's just that you are really cute when you are upset. I didn't make fun of you. So are we cool?" he was pleading me with his eyes, his beautiful, deep eyes.
"Okay." That was the only thing I could say at that moment.
He smiled at me, took my hand gently in his and looked me deeply in my eyes before he spoke again. That's the moment I completely lost it.
"Alright, first of all it's a motorcycle and more specifically it is a Harley Davidson v-rod and secondly you need the hamlet because I don't want anything happening to your beautiful head. So could you please put that on? For me, please?"
For the love of God, how much can a person take in a day? Was he completely unaware about the effect he had on me? When he was looking me like that with his magnificent eyes and his gorgeous smile… And now he had to say those things to me too? And there was I standing in front of that dangerous, huge motor-something, starring at him with my mouth wide open.
"Sooo are you ready to go Alice?" he asked me again and I just nodded. What's happening to me? Did I lose my voice? I was a person who could never stop talking.
Jasper helped me wear the hamlet and climbed up to the bike. I wrapped my arms around his waste and suddenly I changed my mind about this creepy motorcycle! He brought the engine to life and pulled over to the road. I really enjoyed the ride, because I was so close to his warm body and I felt so safe with him. I didn't give a damn about my hair or my clothes anymore. It was just him and I, just the two of us. His presence made me lose my mind completely that I didn't even realized that we'd stopped until he started chuckling.
"Alice, you can let go now. We're here." That's when I realized that I was still holding him tight. I could feel the heat spreading on my face. Good way to go Alice. I unwrapped my arms and he helped me to the ground.
"I'm sorry." I muttered because I was so embarrassed.
"It's okay. I don't mind having you so close." He teased me but his eyes were shining when he was looking at me. I could tell that was a good sign.
I just smiled and looked down to my feet. He put his finger under my chin and brought my head up so I was facing him again.
"So what do you think?" he asked me.
That's when I looked around for the first time and I couldn't believe in my eyes. We were in the most beautiful place I have ever seen.
We had stopped on the side of a huge lake surrounded by tall mountains covered with green forests. The lake seemed endless and at some point it was disappearing in the horizon. The sun was reflecting on the lakes surface making it glow. It was amazing. It was such a romantic place, perfect for our little date, if you could call it that. I took my eyes away from the scenery and starred back at him. He was smiling waiting for my response.
"Where are we?"
"In the Crescent Lake. Do you like it? I used to come here once in a while and I thought you might like it here. It's so peaceful."
"You're right! I love it here." Indeed. I wasn't lying even though I was fond of big cities. Maybe Jasper had a way of making me see things differently.
Jasper had brought with him a small picnic basket and a blanket. We made our way down to the wooden pier near the water. Jasper placed the blanket down and knelt so that he could open it. In the basket, there were pancakes, sandwiches, croissants, cake, scones, orange juice and of course coffee. Jasper noticed me starring at the food in front of me.
"I…thought…err…you know…we could have breakfast…here. If is that okay with you?"
It was the first time that I saw him so nervous and a little bit ashamed I think.
"Shit! That was a bad idea! I don't know what I was thinking. I am so sorry Alice, it's okay, if you don't like it I mean. We can go somewhere else. Anything you want."
He must have misunderstood my silence and thought I didn't like it. I stopped him from getting up.
"No, Jasper, wait! I don't wanna go anywhere else. I really like it here. Actually I love it. I really, really love it. Thank you for bringing me here and for preparing all these."
When he heard that he immediately looked relieved and gave one of his breathtaking smiles.
"Really?" he asked and his expression was priceless. He had the face of a child in a Christmas day, when his parents told him that he finally could open his presents or what Bella would said, like me in a shopping spree. I couldn't help but to giggle with that cute face.
"Really, now can we please sit down and eat. I am starving" I said with a huge smile on my face. That was true I hadn't eaten a bit since yesterday early in the evening. I was too stressed about the party.
"At your services Miss. Shall we start?" he offered me his arm with the most perfect and cute smile and helped me sit down.
Everything was spectacular. We sat there and spoke about everything. It was so easy to talk with him, so natural. He was the sweetest and most caring guy I had ever met.
All the time that we were there, he made sure that I was comfortable, that I ate enough and I was no logger hungry. He even gave me his jacket when the weather changed and clouds covered the sun for a while. Of course it was huge and I had to pick up the sleeves so I could use my hands but it was so warm and I was lost in his scent.
"So, are you thinking about college? What are your plans after leaving high school?" he suddenly asked me.
"No, not really, I don't know about college yet. I don't really know what I am capable of, you know…everyone has a dream and tries to follow it no matter what. Some people want to become doctors like my dad saving lives and others have an artist hidden inside of them. I know you can understand, you had a dream and you went after it, like Ian or like my brother. I just haven't found the right thing for me." Even I could hear the disappointment in my voice.
I saw his hand moving and then stroking my cheek then tucked one lock behind my ear.
"Don't worry when the time comes you'll know. If you want we can find out together. I can help you with your choice." He was so kind and caring. I felt the butterflies in my stomach and a huge smile spread on my face.
"Really? Would you do that for – and I was cut off by my cell that was buzzing in my bag.
I didn't need to look to know who was calling me. It was Bella. She'd been calling all day, but I couldn't talk to her right now. Not because I was outside, on a sort of a date, but because of who my date was. It was difficult and strange for me to tell Bella that I was having picnic in a beautiful lake with her cousin.
So I did the same thing I did the other ten times she called. I didn't answer the phone and this time I turned off. I felt so guilty for doing that, but I had no choice. It's better talk to her about that in person.
When I lifted my eyes from my phone, I saw Jasper looked at me curiously.
"Is everything okay?" he asked with his voice full of concern.
"Yeah, sure everything is fine." I said and looked down on my hands. Unexpectedly, he took my face in his hands and looked deeply in my eyes. It was like that he could look past them and see in my soul. When I looked in his I felt the same thing and made my heart beat faster and faster.
"Whatever makes these beautiful, bright eyes lose their shine and this gorgeous, happy face sad, it is definitely not fine." I couldn't believe in my own ears. I couldn't speak or move. I was just standing there and looking at him. He started to lean his face closer and then I felt his lips pressed gently against mine. It was just a little brush on my lips, soft like a breeze.
The kiss was so perfect. I was feeling like I was flying up in the sky. I thought that my heart would burst in my chest. I wrapped my arms around his neck and felt his moving to my lower back. Abruptly, the kiss became more passionate, more urgent and his lips were harder against mine, I felt his tongue licking my bottom lip and I opened my mouth to give him access.
Then he laid me down on the blanket and I locked my angles around his waste and my hands went to his hair. The time had stopped the moment his lips met mine. I don't know for how long we were kissing and to be honest I didn't even care. The only thing that mattered was his lips and his hands making their way up to my tights. My entirely body was on fire.
His lips left mine and I was gasping for air. He started placing gentle kisses down on my neck and collarbone. We didn't move for while and then he spoke on my neck.
"I think we got carried away." He said and I could hear the pleasure in his voice.
"Only a little." I know we had, but I didn't give a damn, because the feeling of him so close to me was incredible. The warmth of his body hovering over mine.
"I'm sorry. It's supposed to be more gently and sweet but- I cut him off.
"No, it's perfect the way it it. I wouldn't have it no other way." I said and turned my head so I could look at him.
"So I didn't screw this up, because I want our first date to be perfect. Actually I want all our dates to be perfect. You deserve this, and more." The green of his eyes was full of sincerity and affection.
"And it was. I promised you did just fine." I could feel his breath in my face, we were so close and all I wanted was to kiss him again.
"It's getting late I think we should get going." He looked up to the sky and I did the same. He was right it was pretty late and my parents would be home soon.
"Yeah, you're right, I think it's gonna rain soon." But I couldn't move and neither could he. No one wanted for this to end but unfortunately we had to. All good things come to an end.
"Mmm…yeah sure but I have other things in mind." He had a mischievous smile on his face as he leaned and kissed me again. For a strange reason I was feeling so happy and secure in his arms, and it was the fist time in my life that someone made me feel that way. I definitely had no intention to move.
After we stopped kissing, he helped me back on my feet, we gathered our things and we made our way to the motorcycle. Before I had the chance to climb up, he stopped me and made me look at him.
"Could you please tell me what made you so upset earlier." He asked with his voice full of concern.
"It was nothing, don't worry about it." I told him and look away for his eyes I hated lies but what else could I do?
"Please tell me. You know when you're in a relationship, you should share with your boyfriend anything that troubles you.
"Err…what?" no absolutely not, I must have heard wrong.
"Your boyfriend…I mean… of course… if you want, too." Was he asking me if I wanted to be in a relationship with him? If I wanted him to be my boyfriend? Wasn't that obvious?
"I want to. Of course I want you!" I said immediately. He laughed and then he kissed my lips softly.
"It's just that I don't know how to tell Bella about us."
"Bella? Why is that a problem?" he looked confused.
"Because she is your cousin and that might be really awkward and I'm afraid of her reaction when she found out and she is my best friend and I don't- he cut me off thankfully because I was nervous and I was rambling non stop again,
"Yeah, sweetheart, take a break and breathe okay? I;m sure Bella will be fine with that because she loves you and she wants you to be happy. And to make you feel better you have to tell Bella but I have to tell Emmett if you know what I mean." Oh crap, Emmett I had totally forgotten about him. Jasper saw my expression and pulled me for a hug.
"Hey, it's okay, everything is gonna be fine and besides I have Ian on my side." He said laughing. I looked at him and smiled, he was right and I've been overreacting.
"Okay, let's take you back home."
EPOV
I took several deep breaths and tried to calm myself down and at the same time moved a couple of steps away from Jake. I had lost control but in the mention of Bella being happy with that bloody bastard and not with me I saw red!
When I woke up this morning it was impossible for me to remember anything after that unforgettable moment in the kitchen. My memory had stopped the moment a really shocked Bella left the room.
That memory loss was probably caused by the alcohol consume. But the moment he said Bella's name something clicked inside my head and all the moments of last night came back rushing through my mind.
Jake was still angry, his face furious but he kept sanding there in silent waiting for me to explain myself. Not an easy task if you ask me.
Probably that would be my one and only chance and I wasn't going to lose it.
"First of all, I didn't sleep with her." I mumbled, and sat down on the edge of my bed running my hands through my disheveled hair.
"Yeah, sure. Now I believe you." he sneered folding his arms to his chest defensively.
"It's true, I didn't have sex with Irina." Now I had my memory back and I was sure as hell that something like that never happened.
"So what are you trying to tell me? That she came up in here, stripped off her underwear and left untouched? I didn't have you for a gentleman Edward." He said sarcastically. That was true, if it was a couple of weeks ago while I was still in LA and a beautiful girl had done something like that I would have never let her go. But now the situation was different, the only girl that had a place in my mind is Bella.
"I didn't say that! Listen, when you left, no I have to explain that from the beginning.
When Bella arrived, before the party started, I saw her and she was the most beautiful girl I've ever laid eyes on. She looked like a dream. For the first time I felt that weird thing in my stomach, these stupid butterflies, I was sweating and my feet were trembling. For the first time in my life I was nervous in front of a girl. We talked casually, almost normally for a couple of minutes. We managed to have a simple conversation like friends… and that's when he came.
That bastard was playing with her hair, touching her neck exposing the marks she had there. The marks he'd done to her and God knows what else he'd done with her. He was showing her around like she was one of her soccer trophies!
I know that I've done countless mistakes and that I don't deserve her but seeing them together I can't stand it, it hurts too much. I have never experienced something like that Jake, it's all knew to me. And there was only one way to destruct myself for the rest of the night. I started drinking only to numb the pain.
At the beginning I had only had a couple of beers and some shots and I was still quit sober. That lasted until I walked in on them, making out in a deserted corner in the living room. He had her pinned on the wall and she had rapped one leg around his waste. His fucking hands were all over her body and she was moaning. I couldn't stand it, it tore me apart.
Since that moment I hadn't realized how much I needed her. I don't want anyone touching her, she's so innocent so fragile, my little Bella. So after that I reached for something stronger than a simple beer and I discovered a bottle of vodka. It wasn't long after when Irina came and threw herself on me. My mind was still on Bella but there was only one way to forget her.
In addition I was a bit drunk and tipsy by that time so I didn't give it much thought. I grabbed her by the hand and we went to party in the kitchen. The voice of reason in my head kept repeating me that making out with a random girl wasn't the answer to my problems but I shut her out thinking about Adrian and Bella in the other room.
I was in dire need of a good destruction so I kept drinking and kissing Irina. The next part you know it well. It was when you and Bella entered the kitchen. I was caught red handed, like a kid with the hand in the cookie jar. I felt so embarrassed, like a completely moron I was. Her face was a mask of shock and disgust. I was looking straight in her eyes unable to speak and then she abruptly turned around and disappeared.
Thinking about it now I believe it's a good thing I hadn't had the chance to talk to her last night given the fact that I was really drunk and upset. I'm sure I had said things to her that I would have regret today. It would have been the alcohol talking and not me. I wanted me to be sober and absolutely myself when I have the chance to talk to her, if she comes anywhere near me again."
Jake was still there, his anger had faded away giving his place to suspicion. He had every right not to believe me yet.
"I still don't get it though. How on earth didn't you have sex with her? We saw you there ready to fuck her in the kitchen Edward! You were out of your fucking mind! Fortunately we left after that but how am I supposed to know that you're telling me the truth?" he was still holding the damn bra between his fingers. If I was wearing his shoes I wouldn't believe me either.
"I know but let me finish first and then you can judge me all you want. When I saw Bella leaving, again, I instantly knew that I was making a huge mistake…well…again!
This wasn't the right way, I was making the wrong choice one more time! Damn it was making it more difficult for me to win her trust and friendship back. Things I lost so many years ago.
Without saying a word I took my wasted ass upstairs and came into my room leaving her lying on the counter. Not a very nice thing to do but believe me I don't give a damn about her, she can hate me as much as she wants.
The thing is that she misunderstood me and took that as an invitation to continue our party up in here! I had already laid down on my bed when she came in here and started a strip-tease!
Fortunately she had only taken her bra off when I stopped her. She gone crazy because of the rejection and she started yelling and throwing things at me!
Irina was completely drunk and out of her mind. Thank God Alice burst through the door and calmed her down. I wasn't as drunk as she was but I wasn't sober either. I could barely find my feet so I assume that I just passed out on the floor where you found me."
I felt relieved after explaining all these to Jake. It's his choice now if he'd believe me or not. It didn't quite matter as long as a weight had lifted of my chest. I looked up at him and saw that he'd sat on my desk chair across from me, his hands though his hair and his elbows on his knees. He looked really tired.
"Oh boy." That was the only thing he could say.
"You know you've fucked things up, right?"
"Absolutely. I just wanted you to know the truth." One the one hand replaying all these on my mind made me fell desperate but on the other hand I felt numb. I had told the truth to someone and I knew I couldn't turn back time.
"The only thing that matters to me now is to find a way to win her trust and her friendship back. I know it's hard-or even impossible- but I'll have to do my best."I felt defeated, brought down by my one self. It was me and only me who have made the wrong choices, I was the only one responsible for that mess.
"Did you say her trust and friendship? You lost me now dude." he looked confused. "Last time I checked you wanted her to be your girlfriend or your sex partner or I don't know what else, but now you want her to be just your friend?"
"Jake I've learned my lesson. If I can't have her in any other way- and by no means as my sex partner I've never said that - I'll be satisfied to have her in my life as my friend. I won't lose her again Jake.I'll fight with everything I have to earn her trust back.
There's one I think I completely understood last night and it kills me to know that she hates me. It hurts so much. It's causing me so much pain to think about all the things I said or done to her back then or even a week ago."
I trailed off and realized my eyes were wet. I was on the verge of tears! I had almost forgotten about this feeling, the last time I'd cried must had been ten years or so ago. Lately I had been so selfish that I it was me that made others cry. And especially Bella.
"You really have feelings for her, aren't you?" he said and the surprise was written all over his face. I just nodded.
"I can see that she has a great effect on you… she changed you in a way or another. That girl can work miracles."
"Yeah, sure she does. She changed me from a heartless moron to a person with feelings." I laughed humorlessly.
"It's a good thing you recognize your mistakes, it's a start. There's nothing you can do to turn back time but you can make a new start. It's the least you can do. Be a better person for you and for her."
"Since when you'd become so wise huh?" I was feeling much better now, good enough to tease him. At least he was not mad at me anymore.
"You're not the only one who's been hurt by love." He murmured bitterly.
"Oh fuck, I know hat tone. Who is it?"
"Never mind forget I said that."
"No Jake you helped me and now I wanna help you. I said I'd become a better person and that I'll be there for my friends. And I consider you as my friend Jake." that was true I wanted to be friends with him again.
"Thanks man but I prefer not to talk about it. Maybe another time." He looked really sad and hurt. We were at the same side after all. Women can drive you crazy that's for sure.
His mouth turned up in a smile.
"What about coming with me down to La Push? You can stay a couple of days if you want. You can start that transformation by changing your gang. Come meet with the wolves." He wined at me.
Did he just say the wolves? What the hell? Wait a minute, I'd made a promise to my self not to judge people by their appearance, bank accounts or gangs. That's how I ended up like this.
Jake's right, I hadn't been always a jerk. I'd had turned into a total asshole after I started hanging out with that jerks from my soccer team. The time had come for me to realize a lot of essential things.
I had to admit that only Adrian was different. He was a better person that I was. That's the reason why Bella had chosen him over me. And she'd made the right choice. Adrian deserved her more than I did.
I felt the corners of my mouth turned up into a smile and I knew deep inside that for the first time in my life I was doing the right thing.
"Fine, I'm in."
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