Hi guys! I'm so sorry it took me so long to update! Thank you so much for your wishes I had a great time on vacations but I was so sad when I came back home! It's still really warm here! :( It was a really busy month and I couldn't find the right time to start with the chapter but here it is!

I hope you'll really enjoy it!

Chapter 19

BPOV

It was late the night before my birthday and I was sitting alone in my room thinking about the day I'd spent with Edward. It was a really weird feeling, how miserable I'd been only a few hours ago and how calm and almost happy I was now.

There was something bothering me though.

I soon realised that it was the fact that Edward was the one who made me feel that way. He was the one who came here today and forced me out of my misery.

Edward, the big moron who had ruined my early years in junior high completely. But on the other hand today that Edward had nothing to do with the old Edward. I was struggling to find the reasons that made him act like that but deep inside me I was grateful that he'd done what he did.

As the hours were passing by I was becoming more and more depressed though. It was like Edward's happy effects on me were fading away and were being replaced by other more sad feelings.

Adrian had called two hours ago to hear my news of the day and asked me about my plans for tomorrow. But there were no plans at all. No party, no cake, no friends, nothing. Mum and of course Alice had spend the last week trying to persuade me and change my mind about that damned party but I was strict, I didn't want a party and in fact I didn't want, if possible, any mention to my birthday at all.

I needed something to help me relax a bit so I decided that a warm bath was a good idea. Once the bathtub was filled with warm water and covered with bubbles I stripped off my clothes and sunk in letting the water soothe my tense muscles.

I missed him a lot. Only a week had passed and it was hard enough to make me dread the next few months away from him. Before I realise it a single tear had escaped my eyes and was running down my cheek. I quickly washed it away with my hand. No more tears, at least for today.

When the water had turned cold I got out of the tub and wrapped a fuzzy warm towel around my shivering body. I put on a pair of old comfortable sweats and a long sleeved shirt, blew my hair dry and tied them in a sloppy ban on the top of my head.

As I was about to put my earphones on and burrow my self under the covers my cell started ringing. I looked at the screen and saw Adrian's name on it!

"Adrian? What's wrong?" I answered the phone and that was the first thing to ask seeing we'd only talked a few hours ago.

"Nothing's wrong babe I just wanted to be the first to wish you happy birthday!" I could hear the smile in his voice. He was trying his best to make everything perfect for me.

I looked at my watch and saw that it was just one past midnight. Of course he was waiting to call me before anyone else like he would have done if he was here.

"Oh I thought…" I paused for a moment trying to collect my thoughts and hold back the sobs that were trying to escape my throat, "thank you." I managed to say after a while.

"Honey, are you all right? Did I wake you?" he asked concerned.

"No! I mean yes I'm fine, don't worry. I was just scared that something bad happened." I could even hear how weak my voice sounded.

"Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you I just wanted you to know that I think of you all the time and that I miss you, a lot." He told me apologetically.

"I know. I miss you too. I wish you were here." I was crying now and I wasn't going to hold the tears back. I let them flow freely.

"I wish I was there too. I love you Bella you know that right?" he said he loved me again.

I tried to say it back but I couldn't, I almost choked and the words couldn't leave my lips. Why? What was wrong with me? I loved him right? So why couldn't I say that to him? Maybe I was afraid of love.

Or maybe I had a problem in expressing myself so easily.

"Yeah, I know. Thank you for calling I feel better now that I heard your voice." Liar. I was feeling way more depressed now but I had no intention on telling him that.

"Goodnight baby. Happy birthday." He told me before we hang up.

I dragged the covers up to my head and cried myself to sleep with his voice still ringing in my ears.

I woke up the next morning by the sound of my cell. I tried to avoid it not wanting to talk to anyone but that fucking thing could stop ringing. Curt Cobain was screaming into my ears and only then I realised it was Ian who was calling me.

I hesitated for a moment not sure if I wanted to talk but then I decided that maybe Ian could make my day.

"'Morning Ian." I said sounding really grumpy.

"Good morning sunshine! Happy birthday! My beautiful little sister is coming off age today! How are you feeling?" asked me a really cheerful Ian. God this man was like having a huge energy factory stationed inside his body.

"Awful." I answered and I heard him snorting.

"Come on got up and get downstairs to eat a dozen of pancakes that I'm sure mum had prepared for you already." Mum always makes me pancakes and buys donuts for my birthday because she knows they're my favourite.

But today I'm not feeling like eating anything, my stomach it's clenched and the only thing I wanna do is to sleep for the rest of the day.

"Yeah I know but-

"No buts Bells! You cannot stay in bed all day! You don't wanna make a big fuss over your birthday fine but you cannot avoid it completely! Mum and dad are trying to make you happy so try not to spoil that for them!" he cut me off. I hated when he was reasonable and right now he was right about the fact that I was making them sad by being sad my self.

"Fine! But I can't promise anything. I will make an effort to seem happy or at least not too unhappy but on the first mention of a birthday cake I'm up here again!"

"Alrighty." I contently heard him saying.

After I changed into a pair of jeans and a sweater I went upstairs to find my whole family gathered for breakfast.

"Happy birthday!" my mum screamed and came to hug me the moment I entered the room.

"My little girl is not my little girl anymore." My dad said kissing the top of my head.

"Come on dad I'm turning eighteen not eighty!" I said and took my sit on the table.

Ian was right about the pancakes. There were plenty of them as well as a variety of colourful glazed donuts. After I'd eaten four of them I realized I was feeling way better due to the consume of chocolate I believe.

"Mum can we go to the Hales now? I want to play with Katie." Emma asked mum when we all had finished our breakfast.

"Um I don't know honey it's your sister's birthday, I think we should stay with her today. Maybe we can ask Rhea to bring her by so you could play here." I heard mum telling her.

Kate was Rose's little sister and Rhea was their mother. Emma and Kate were really close to age so they had become inseparable from the moment they'd met. "Nooo, we want to play with her knew dollhouse and we can't bring it here because it's huge!" complained Emma.

"Mum it's fine you can go, I told you I don't want a fuss over my birthday okay? It's only about a couple of hours anyway. I'll be fine." I tried to persuade her. It was the perfect solution for me. They would be gone for a few hours so I would be able to crawl back to my bed again.

"But your dad has to go to work for some hours and I don't want you to be alone on your birthday sweetheart." I could she the worry in her eyes.

"Mum I have to finish a project about Romeo and Juliet for my Lit class so I will be busy for the next couple of hours. It won't make any difference to me if you're home or not." I told her reassuringly and that seemed to calm her down a little.

"Alright Emma go upstairs to get dressed I'll take you to the Hales but we won't stay long, is that clear?" mum told her while she was cleaning the table.

"Crystal!" she said and hurried to her room to get ready.

"Let me help you, I'll wash the dishes and you go get ready." I offered because I wanted something to keep myself busy and not able to think.

"No honey it's-

"It's just an ordinary Sunday, mum remember what I told you, I don't want any special treatment for today, alright?" I cut her off grabbing the plates and heading to the sink.

"Well, alright then." She compromised and kissed my cheek before she left the room.

When I finished washing the dishes I headed to my room only to find Emma fully dressed sitting on the top of the stairs.

"Why are you sitting here?" I asked her confused.

"I was waiting for you. You're not mad we're leaving, are you?" she asked really concerned.

"No of course I'm not. You go and have fun with Kate, I'll see you when you're back and I have the chance to finish my homework while you will be out." I told her and stroked her pink cheeks.

"I made this for you. Happy birthday." She told me shyly and reached behind her back to reveal a piece of paper and gave it to me.

I looked at it and a real smile formed in my lips. It was a drawing she had made for me. The picture showed our family with me in the middle holding her one hand and Ian holding her other and mum and dad on the other side of the picture looking at us. On the top of the picture with bright pink letters was written 'Happy Birthday Sissy".

I hated that nickname but I only allowed her to call me that when she was really young and couldn't say the word sister correctly.

"Thank you sweety it's really beautiful. I'll put it on my wall!" I said closing her in a tight hug and kissing her nose.

"Really?" she asked her blue eyes wide open and her whole face glowing.

"Sure! I love it!"

By that time mum was ready so they had to go. I went to my room and sat on my bed looking around trying to find something to do that will keep my hands and my mind away from my thoughts. But I couldn't find anything. As I was about to turn my laptop on and surf on the internet, my mum appeared at my door.

"Hey I thought you left."

"Yeah Emma's already at the car but I almost forgot to give you this. It came early with the post." She told me and gave me a small parcel.

"Oh thanks mum." She blew me a kiss and left closing the door behind her.

I looked at the address and I saw that it was from Adrian. He'd sent me a present. With shaking hands I tore the paper apart and emptied its content on my bed.

There was a note and a turquoise jewelry box with a white ribbon. Maybe I'm not an expert in jewelry but I'm a woman and capable of recognizing a Tiffany box when I see it. I couldn't believe he spent so much money on my gift, I couldn't accept that.

The only person who could buy me ridiculously expensive things without me ripping her head off was Alice. And that was not because she was from a wealthy family but because she was stubborn as hell and I couldn't stop her for doing whatever she wanted. So I had come to terms with that over the years.

I opened the box and saw a beautiful pendant necklace resting inside it. It was a golden disc charm with the letter 'B' carved on it, hanging from a thin golden chain. It was really delicate and it was shinning as I held it close to my eyes to examine it better.

I sat up from my bed and went straight to my mirror and tried it on. The gold pendant was cold and was glowing while it rested on the pale skin of my neck. I traced my fingers over it looking my reflection on the mirror.

I noticed the note that was still lying untouched on my bed. Hesitantly I unfolded it and read the lines written by Adrian's known handwriting.

Happy Birthday!

Baby, I hope my present has made it on time. The moment I saw it I instantly thought of you. You can wear it and have me always with you. I hope you like it…

I miss you,

Adrian

I've read the note over ten times until my vision turned blurry by the heavy tears that'd overflown my eyes. I closed the warm now pendant into my fist and curled up in a ball under my covers letting the tears escape my eyes forgetting the promise I'd made to myself earlier.

EPOV

Alice was magnificent went it came to organizing. She had everything under control and in perfect order. She hadn't stop talking and planning and making phone calls since the moment I'd announced my plans to her yesterday afternoon.

It wasn't even midday yet and the party was set up perfectly!

The guests were invited.

The decorations ready waiting to be put in place.

The food was arranged to be on time for the party and Alice was putting the last details on the cake.

I knew all too well that Bella had strictly demanded not to give her any special attention today and pretend it was just an ordinary day and not her birthday. That was perfectly fine with my plan because it's supposed to be a surprise party.

"Whoa Alice you made that?" I asked as I entered the kitchen and saw a huge birthday cake lying on the table.

"Yeah, with a little help from mum. Do you like it? Or do you think it's too much?" she asked really anxious. My sister the perfectionist.

"No it's perfect!" I reassured her right away.

"Yay!" she squealed jumping up and down still holding the decorating cone full of chocolate frosting on her hand. I let her calm down first before I asked my next and more serious question.

"Do you have any idea how are we going to put all these stuff into her house unnoticed? I mean it's her house she cannot be staying all day at her room. She'll come out eventually and we'll be caught red handed! Please tell me you've already thought about it!" I almost pleaded with her.

"Well, of course I have Edward! Her mum is on her way here to get the food and I will lure Bella out of the house if that's necessary so the rest of you can set everything in place. When you're done you're gonna text me and I'll bring her back home so we can get the party started! You don't need to thank me I know I'm genius, exept that I don't think we'll have to get in so much trouble because she won't be leaving her room any time soon." She blurred out while adorning the cake with more frosting.

"Why are you saying that? It'll take us at least two hours to put in place all these, it's impossible for her not to notice that!" I said as a matter of factly.

"Because that's what she'd been doing all the time this past week with one exception yesterday and I am really positive that especially today she's gonna lock herself up there waiting for the day to pass. No get off the way so I can finish with the cake and get ready so we could go!" she said and motioned me out of the kitchen.

"Alice hurry up we have to go!" I yelled to my sister one more time. She went to her room to get ready as soon as Renee had left with the food for the party one hour ago. Sometimes it was really hard for me to understand women.

"I'm right here for the love of God stop shouting! We are right on time. Did you get the present?" she asked grabbing the box with the cake and putting it carefully on the back seat of my car.

"Yeah yours is already in the trunk, are we ready go now?" I asked her impatiently.

"Sure lets go, and please stop fidgeting it was your idea anyways." She told me eyeing me carefully.

"I just want everything to be perfect, alright?" I told her trying to play it cool and confident.

"I guess…" she trailed off raising an eyebrow.

"What do you mean my present is in the trunk? What about yours? Didn't you buy her anything? You such a pig!" she said with exaggeration her eyes wide and filled with horror.

"Relax Alice I didn't say such a thing. I'm just gonna give it to her tomorrow." I had planned everything in my head and I was praying to God or to anyone who was listening from up there that I had made the right choice. I had already found the ideal one for her but I wasn't giving it to her until tomorrow.

"Why's that?" she asked really curious.

"I'll tell you later." I told her and added quickly before she could complain. "Come on we're here."

Thankfully we'd reached Bella's house and we had to do everything properly according to the plan so that Bella wouldn't notice our presence, so Alice had no other chance but to drop the subject.

We'd parked the car a block away so we wouldn't be seen from Bella's window, slipped in the back yard carrying the boxes with Alice's tones of decoration stuff and knocked on the back door three times.

"Is that you kids?" we heard Charlie whispering from the other side of the door.

"Yes Charlie, open up." Alice answered.

Charlie opened the door and let us into the kitchen. The house was really silent.

"Oh you guys came, good right on time." A smiley Renee hurried into the kitchen talking quietly so we couldn't be heard from upstairs.

"Where's Bella? Should I go upstairs and drag her out?" Alice asked while heading to the door.

"No, I think we can probably skip that part…I'm afraid it's not necessary." Renee said avoiding eye contact with Charlie. They both looked really sad.

"Why? What's wrong with Bella?" I asked her worried although I was afraid of the answer I would get.

"Is everything al right?" Alice asked too.

"Yeah, I mean no. Look it's just like any other day. Or at least it is she came down for breakfast this morning she looked better, happier and I thought it was because of the day or because she started healing but I was wrong." Renee trailed off looking down to her feet. Bella looked happier this morning huh? But what happened afterwards?

"Renee what's wrong now?" Charlie asked in an urgent tone.

"I don't know. When I was supposed to drive Emma to the Hales, she'd told me that she had to finish an English project but she seemed fine. Then, when I returned here and hide the food away I went to her room to see her and get her some lunch but she didn't open the door.

She's locked up there since the moment I left home this morning right after I- oh my God that's it!" Renee exclaimed bringing her hand up to cover her mouth.

"Right after what, Renee? What happened this morning?" asked Charlie urgently.

"Adrian's present came this morning by the post! I'd forgotten to give it to her when she came down and I took it to her right before I leave!" she explained everything.

"Oh shit! It now makes more sense! If I could struggle that fucker…" swore Charlie under his breath! Whoa it was the first time I saw Charlie losing control!

"Charlie! Language!" Renee chastised him really shocked.

"Yeah, yeah I'm going to check the baseball scores on TV… that bastard…" he left the room still cursing silently. Renee was still looking at him like she couldn't believe in her own ears and Alice was fighting the urge to burst into laughter.

"Oh and the project was just an excuse, she's already hand it in." I said remarkably.

"Yeah I figured." Renee said, sadness covering her voice.

"Don't worry we can cheer her up! We always do." Alice reassured her and went to give her a tight hug.

"But how can we be sure that she won't come down while we're placing the decorations and everything?" I asked curious because I didn't want anything to spoil the surprise. I wanted everything tonight to be done perfectly, especially for her.

"She won't. She's been up there for the last five hours or so. She only opened her door once, after I almost brought it down, to tell me something about to much homework and then closed it right on my face… her face was all tearstained again."

"Well let's get down to business then! We have to do that for her!" Alice tried to lighten the mood.

"Okay then." I said grabbing all the stuff and walking into the living room.

Everything was ready and in place by seven o' clock. Alice's unstoppable when it comes to decoration and party stuff. Only the dinner table had remained in place which was now fully covered with the enormous birthday cake Alice had made and the rest of the food.

Renee had insisted on cooking the food for her daughter's birthday party, something I could fully understand, but we couldn't risk it in case Bella deciding to leave her room. In addition mum was more than willing to do it.

We had hardly finished with the preparations when Alice's cell rang. Angela and Ben along with Rosalie and her little sister, who had come to play with Emma I suppose, were outside waiting for us to let them in. They couldn't just ring the doorbell- it was a surprise party after all. We all remained in silence until Alice's cell rang again and she went to open the door revealing a really smiley Jake.

Finally my parents arrived so we were all ready for the surprise. They had come to wish Bella happy birthday and then were going to leave with Renee and Charlie to have dinner in Port Angeles all together and giving us some alone time to have our party.

It wasn't actually a party, I think it resembled more of a gathering of close friends but who am I to judge that? It was what Bella preferred so I was more than okay with it.

"So we're all here! Edward can you please lit up the candles and dimmed the lights? Good! I'm luring her downstairs." Said Alice all cheerful and winking at us before she dials Bella's number.

After a long pause Alice's face transformed into a heartbroken mask and she started shouting at the phone "Bells something terrible happened, where are you, please come here! I need you!" fake sobs were shaking her body while she was saying these things. She continued with the show leaving no time for Bella to answer or to even adjust what was Alice saying to her until she let out a terrible scream and hang up the phone.

She had barely turned around facing us, a triumphant smiling plastered on her face while bowing, when we heard Bella's door open and then her running down the corridor.

She hurried down the stairs to come to an abrupt halt at the sight of all of us standing in the middle of her living room. Needless to say she was stunned.

"Happy Birthday!" we said cheerfully all in unison.

"What's going on here?" she demanded when she came round from the initial shock.

"Surprise!" it was Alice's happy voice that answered her. Bella focused on her and I could tell that it was only then she realised what had just happened.

"I cannot believe that… I… ARGH!" she said stumping her food down like a five year old and she run back up to her room slamming her door with so much force I thought the house quaked.

No one talked or moved for a few seconds as we all tried to grasp the meaning of these. Someone turned the lights on and Rose blew the candles out so they wouldn't melt completely.

I looked at my parents who seemed not to understand what had just happened and then met Renee's eyes. She was silently telling me to go upstairs and try to reason with Bella.

Yeah I could do that but why me? Was I the right person to do that? Was Bella going to hear me out or was I going to piss her even more? I guess there was only one way to find out.

"Excuse me for a moment…" I trailed off as I was climbing up the stairs two at a time.

I stopped outside her door trying to catch my breath. My heart was beating so fast and my hands were sweaty.

She was definitely going to kick my ass but I had to do it. I was the one who came up with that fucking idea even though I knew she'd desperately wanted to be alone that day.

It was mine responsibility to fix this.

I closed my eyes tight and knocked her door.

I didn't get any answer.

I knocked again more persistently this time.

No answer.

I knocked again.

And again.

"Go away." She yelled finally.

And I knocked again.

Kept knocking….

"I said go away!" she opened the door abruptly screaming right to my face scaring me shitless.

It took me several seconds to steady my heart rate back to normal. That gave her the opportunity to realize who was banging at her door all these time. She seemed a little surprised when see saw me. I guess she wasn't expecting me.

"Truce!" I said raising my hands up in surrender before she could speak.

"What do you want Edward?" she asked in an angry tone.

"Can I come in?" I asked politely not wanting to piss her off more.

She looked at me suspiciously raising one eyebrow but she finally moved aside and let me in.

I walked in and noticed her I-pod and an open book lying on her unmade bed. It was obvious that she'd spent most of her day lying there.

"What do you want?" she asked again crossing her arms over her chest.

"Do you know how silly and childish this behaviour is? Grow up a little Bella."

"Am I speaking another language? What is that you don't get exactly? I repeatedly said to all of you that I didn't want a fucking party! Is that so difficult for you to understand?" she yelled at me really angrily.

"I only wanted to spend my birthday quietly here, it's the only thing I asked for but as it seems no one respected my wish! And you call me a child!" she said quickly without taking a single breath her face had turning bright red.

"We only tried to cheer you up! The only thing we wanted was to see you happy again that's why we organized that party! We did what we did only for you Bella! Only to see you smile again! Screw me I know you don't care about how I feel seeing you like that but think about Alice or the rest of your friends! You don't care about them?Fine!

Then think about Renee and Charlie. Do you know how upset and depressed you made them feel by the way you behave all the time? They are so concerned about you but you are so absorbed by your own self that you haven't even thought about them! It is just a party with your closest friends and family how terrible could that be huh?" I had begun and no one could stop me now. Finally I was telling her openly what I had been holding back all these days.

"How dare you speak to me like that? Who do you think you are? You know nothing! You're implying that I'm selfish and I only care about myself or I don't know what else but tell me Edward when was the last time you cared about someone apart from yourself huh? When was the last time you did something for someone else?Oh right I forgot, you never do anything about others! You care for no one and for nothing! Who are you to judge ME Edward Cullen?" she hadn't screamed these words to me, she had just said them with such bitterness and hatred that hurt me a lot more than if she had screamed or yelled at me or hit me.

I tried my best for her, I had really changed for her. I'd done everything for her.

"You're right, I have no right to judge you like you have no right to judge me, but you are wrong too. You say- you know what? Leave it… stay here, drawn to your misery, you can cry your heart out if you like. I'll go downstairs and put an end to this whole party thing right away but please do me a favour, don't be mad with anyone but me because it was my idea. I was the one who planned this… because I... I care for no one."

And with that I turned around without even looking at her, opened the door and walked out of her room. More than anything I wanted to be as far from her as possible. She'd already made her choice and there was no place for me here anymore.

So that's all folks! It was about time for Bella to be told off for her childish behaviour! Do you think she was harsh with Edward? Or does she needs tme?

Let me know what you think! I'll try to update soon maybe you'll have the next chapter before the end of the week! Until then... Review ;)

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