Soo first and foremost HAPPY NEW YEAR! And yes I am alive and I'm back!You don't blieve in your eyes? Yeah you have every right to be! I haven't updated since...forever but I am here to stay! This is a new chapter and there are more to come, because I am finishing this story! I have been on a writers block for a long time now and what else can I say..life happened! But I haven't forgotten about Edward and Bella so here we are!

If you don't remember what have happened since chapter 25 read it again, and for you who have been reading it since the beginnig there are a lot of improved old chapters that have been re-posted correctly.

Okay end of my speech here we go with the new chapter!

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.

Chapter 26

EPOV

I was driving fast around Forks with no purpose at all. From the moment I'd left her house I'd done nothing but diving. Fast and recklessly. It was the only thing that could get me going and preventing me for losing my mind. I was in dire need of a drink but Iknew perfectly well that I wouldn't find anything like that in Forks in the middle of the night. Even a beer or..ten would do. The moment I was about to drive back home and stole some of dads expensive liquor, I remembered of some bottles of boose I had stored at the trunk. We had thrown a party at Jakes last week and he had given me some spare bottles at the end.

I'd spent the next couple of hours drinking and listening to my music alone in my car. For some wired reason, that I don't even know, I had ended up at my schools parking lot.

The loud music was filling my ears and I was singing along, actually screaming out of tune. I was seeking for some release, any kind of it. I was trying to numb that stinging felling in my heart. I was a bit aware of the fact that I was becoming drunker and drunker by the time that passed, but I couldn't care less. If that would help me not to feel damn the rest.

Maybe it was a moment later or an hour but I heard someone knocking on my window. I was really dizzy and it took me some time to realise that Victoria was standing outside my car. Her flaming hair was dancing at the cold wind around her with snowflakes making a great contrast in them. I nodded to her to come from the other side and opened the passenger door for her.

She came in rubbing her cold hands together trying to get some warmth. She was dressed formal with a long coat and leather boots and I could clearly see a red dress showing under the opening of her coat. I occurred t me that it had been Thanksgiving today and everyone was in a festive mood. After what had happened with Bella I was totally out of time and space. I had to admit thought, that I had a great time until Adrian had appeared out of nowhere spoiling everything.

"What's wrong handsome?" said Victoria half serious half jokingly. She had a strange gleam in her eyes, indicating that she wasn't totally sober herself.

"Long story Vick.." I said taking a sip of the bottle I was holding not in the mood for talking.

"I have time. Will you share?" responded in a light tone pointing at the bottle in my hands.

"Sure… there's another one in the glove compartment. Help yourself." I heard myself saying. I was casual around Vick. We had been hanging out together a lot back then. We were a gang all together especially when she became James girlfriend. I remembered that she used to be funny and easy to be with but we had lost contact lately.

"Thanks, I really need this right now." She said and I noticed a bitter and sad tone in her voice.

"What's wrong Vick?" Maybe I was selfish but not that much. If there was something wrong maybe I could help.

"You know…it's always the same thing…James." She murmured looking down at her hands. I should have figured already. She and James have been together for the last three years or so. But you couldn't say they were in a healthy relationship. I couldn't remember a single moth that they hadn't broken up or a week without a fight. I guess passion was their thing. Who was I to judge?

"Oh! So what's it this time?" I asked hesitantly to make her talk and feel better.

She took a big sip of her rum and a deep breath after that to calm down before she said, "we'd planned to spend Thanksgiving together at my place. We were all gathered, everything was ready and he cancelled at the last minute. He said that some old family friends had come unexpectedly for the holidays and he was needed there." She paused to drink some more.

"Is that it?" I asked hesitantly not to piss her off. Okay they had planned to spend the holidays together but I couldn't understand why she was making such a big fuss out of it.

"Nah… he promised to come by my place later but as time was passing and he was nowhere to be seen, I decided to go by his place instead… I greeted his parents and went straight to his room and then I- her voice cracked and sobs escaped her lips.

I was so drunk and sad but still in that state I felt sorry for her. Actually I could sympathise with her. I took her hand in mine and soothed her.

"And then I opened the door and saw them. He was lying on his bed and a really young blonde was on top of him!" she was crying hysterically by now. I kind of dint know what to do or what to say to her. I wasn't in the state to comfort anyone.

"They were fully dressed, but that doesn't change the fact that they were about to hook up. We were both so shocked that we couldn't move at all, but I recovered fist, bunged the door and ran out of the house." He added and more tears escaped her eyes.

"Oh come here" I told her reassuringly and hugged her, with her head resting on my shoulder. It was the most I could do, honestly.

My mind was still so full of Bella and all that happened two hours ago. I was feeling angry, disappointed and hurt at the same time. It was all so confusing and the boose wasn't helping at all, clouding my mind. I turned the music louder and left my mind free.

The part that hurt me the most was that after all the things I did for her, she chose him over me. Again! It wasn't the same situation like back then but still. I wanted her to be happy and I did everything to make her happy. I put her over everything else, over own self. And he comes to hurt her again, to insult in a way that made me wanna break his nose or better, his neck. And what did she do? She chose to stay and try reason with him and throw me out! I couldn't stand that. It hurt so much I couldn't go through all this again.

Victoria had stopped crying but we were still lying there, with her in my arms. I wanted to close my mind, switch my feelings off for a while. When I used to be a jerk and cared only for myself it was so easy not to feel a thing. Maybe I could be that person again for one time, for one single night. I could numb the pain.

I turned my head to face Vicky. She looked up at me and her eyes were glistering with remaining tears. They were a really pretty deep blue, but they couldn't compare to my favorite chocolate brown colour. Edward focus! Stop thinking! Stop feeling!

I caressed her cheek to wipe the tears away and all of a sudden I was kissing her fiercely. Her hands were pulling at my hair as she straddled me. I threw the back of my sit back so she was lying on top of me. Her coat was off and so was my shirt. Her lips were fierce in mine and my hands were roaming up and down her body. Quickly I got rid of her dress and attacked her breasts through the thin fabric of her bra. She moaned loudly and my hands went lower to her tight ass.

She was fiddling with my belt unable to unbuckle it but I was too engrossed on sucking her lower lip. I opened my eyes to look into her brown ones and I was startled to realize that were two green ones looking back at me. Green?

Even through my drunken phase I was positive that Bella's eyes were brown like dark sweet chocolate. So how on earth had they ended up being green like the spring grass? Something wasn't right.

Suddenly I sat up causing Victoria to bump her head on the ceiling and scream.

"Hey what the hell?" she exclaimed annoyed. I gave her every right to be but I couldn't keep up with that. I didn't want this, I was better than this. Even have been rejected by Bella once again I wasn't going to be my old bad self.

I've made great progress the last three month to knock them all down in an impulse.

"Sorry Vick I can't do this." I muttered putting her to the sit next to me and buttoning up my shirt again.

I couldn't look at her, I felt like shit. I knew I was being an ashhole by treating her like this but it would be worse if I fucked her just to sober my pain and dumping her the morning after. She was my friend and the ex of my ex best friend. Oh boy how shitty was that!

"Oh god…what are we doing?" she said lying back at the passenger sit and pulling at her hair. She seemed to realize what have we been doing and judging from her expression she didn't find it a good idea too.

"Bullshit. Let's just forget about it okay? There's a lot of shit going on in my mind right now and I lost it for a moment. Sorry." I apologized reaching for a half empty bottle of scotch.

"Hey it's okay, we were both needed a distraction. What's going on Ed? I can help…" she trailed off implicating that she was here for me if I wanted her to be. I didn't know if was the booze running through our veins that made us more sensitive and more "human" but I felt the need to open up to her. To let her know what was torturing me all those months. She had told me everything about James anyway.

An hour and a bottle of vodka later I had finished the Edward and Bella chronicle and Vick was stunned to say the least.

"Oh boy that's a shittier situation than mine…" it was all she said.

"Yeah tell me about it." I muttered more to myself and focused on the snow outside the window. The wheather was getting worse and worse by any minute that passed and we should probably been going unless we wanted to get stuck there.

It was like she could read my mind because her next words resembled my thoughts. "We better get going the snow is getting thicker on the ground." We were far too reasonable for drunken teenagers. The challenge here was to drive us safely home.

Her place was on the other side of town and mine was only a ten minutes drive from here. There was no possibility of taking her home tonight. We were both sleeping at my place.

BPOV

Slowly I opened my eyes that hurt for some reason. Why? The sun that purred through my open drapes made me close them again and pull the covers up so I could burry myself underneath.

Something was off this morning but I couldn't put my finger on it. After a while I put the covers down and looked up at my nightstand. There was lying the Tiffany necklace Adrian had given me for my birthday.

Adrian.

Thanksgiving.

Edward.

All memories from last night came rushing in and I was stunned to realize that Adrian was gone and I felt…free. I sat up and rampaged through my feelings trying to understand where I was standing.

I had barely cried last night after Adrian had left. All that had happened felt, how can I say it, natural! Like it was a closure I had been seeking for a while now.

I had gone to sleep rather shocked and a little numb, but today I could see clearly. I was afraid of the pain to come but I doubt there was a chance of me turning into a living corpse once more.

There was a strange feeling flowing through my body, it was like being able to breathe freely again. Shocked I realized that it was relief that filled me.

I went straight to the bathroom and took a long refreshing shower. After I put on warm clothes I put a warm mug of coffee and settled myself on the kitchen island. Maybe I was feeling relived and relaxed but there was something huge bothering me. I could stop thinking about the way I treated Edward last night. The look of hurt in his face the moment I asked him to leave was glued to my mind.

Quickly I put the mug to the sink and grubbed my coat and car keys. I drove slowly and very carefully due to the thick snow that had fallen through the night and I literally counted the minutes until I finally reached the Cullen's mansion.

A really smiley and happy Esme opened the door and informed me that Edward was still asleep up to his room. I headed straight to the kitchen and purred a big mug of steaming coffee. I had made a stop to the nearest bakery to pick up Edwards favorite cupcakes as a peace offering.

Determined I walked up the stairs and straight to Ed's room. I didn't bother knocking since he was fast asleep and not even a tank entering his room could make him wake up.

But as I was about to touch the door knob, the door burst open and a wild haired Victoria appeared. I was petrified. We were both shocked standing there looking at each other. And then it hit me.

She was all naked but a single black T-shirt covering her upper body. Edwards black T-shirt.

Hm.. naughty Edward. At least Bella came to her senses...or not? Show me some love and review and Bella forgives Edward or else...she's begging Adrian to come back!

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