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And a special thanx to frostedglaze, it was fanscinating reading your reviews from the chapters you thanx for liking my writing and the story even if it's not the kind you really read. And I have to tell you that I agree too with the fact tha Bella shouldn't always forgive Edward in every story but I planned and started this one years ago when I was still a teen, and lot has changed since then, but now I couldn't change completely the story that I had already started! And let's be honest it's an Edward/Bella story so of course they would have figured it out somehow! And Edward has made great efford to help Bella and let him into her life again so cut him some slack! I hope you like this chapter more and stick with the story till the end!

Chapter 29

BPOV

I woke up in a very comfortable and warm bed. I didn't open my eyes immediately but stayed there savoring the moment. I replayed in my head every moment of last night and couldn't help but smile delighted.

I looked up at Edward, who was still fast asleep. I was placed securely into his tight arms with my head resting on his broad shoulder. He hadn't left me the whole night.

From the glass wall of his room I could see that a new thick layer of snow had fallen through the night and everything was now white and peaceful. That peace easily resembled my own soul too. Finally after so many days of confusion and frustration I felt complete and fully satisfied. And how could I not be?

I stood up reluctantly without waking Edward up and put on one of his big, fuzzy hoodies. I left him there sleeping and went downstairs to make some coffee and breakfast. I wanted to take care of him. He had taken a good care of me last night after all.

It was better than what I had ever imagined. I could still feel his touch, his lips, and the sensation of him inside me. Everything was so perfect, it felt so natural.

BIP BIP BIP … the sound of the coffee machine took me out of my daydreaming. I purred freshly made coffee into the mugs and headed back upstairs. Edward hadn't moved an inch from where I'd left him and I decided it was time for me to wake him up.

I placed the mugs to his nightstand and climbed back to bed. I started placing light kisses to his cheeks and then his soft lips while I made my way down to nuzzle his neck. He started moaning and stirring on the bed but didn't open his eyes.

I continued my way down to his chest and toned abs but he still pretended to be asleep. I went up and whispered to his ear, "I know you're awake." And with that he opened his eyes and I found myself underneath him without realizing it. He had caught me off guard and now I was the one being tortured.

"Of course I am, but I like what you're doing." He said with a husky voice.

"Yes I can tell." I told him feeling his manhood growing in my touch. "Do you like breakfast in bed Mr. Cullen?"I said pulling the bedding away to give me better access to his lower body.

"If it's you I'm having for breakfast, then I love it." he answered hovering above me looking so hot, with his bed hair and that predator glint into his eyes.

"It is me or the pancakes…take your pick." I teased him, hoping that he would indeed choose me.

"Well it is a tough decision but I think I'll have a taste of you first, Miss Swan." and he did put his words into actions by biting one of my nipples teasingly through the fabric of my hoodie. That shot waves of pleasure to my whole body and felt the wetness between my thighs growing. How could he have such an effect on me? I wanted him then and there, no I needed him badly.

Quickly I got rid of my sweater and we were both once again naked on his bed. He made his way to my breasts kissing and nipping them softly something that made me ask for more arching my back up to him. My hands traveled all the way up to his strong shoulders and ended at his soft hair.

With that Edward continued his way down licking my navel and reaching my wet spot. I hadn't much time to think about what was he about to do, when I felt his tongue there and lost myself to an ocean of sensations. Before I could catch my breath and my heartbeat return to normal I felt him easing himself inside of me.

The feeling was so unique, so exquisite. I never wanted this to end.

I put my legs around his waist and with a quick movement I flipped us over and I was on top of him. Edward was looking at me with awe and surprise but he recovered soon, enjoying the view.

He cupped my ass roughly, and brought his body up to meet mine. I moaned loudly in the feeling of that. We soon found a quick rhythm and our moans filled the room. It didn't take me long to feel the tension building up before I fell over the edge.

"Oh Bella what d' you do to me?" Edward followed and I vaguely heard him through my bliss.

We laid there for a while trying to catch our breaths. Was it possible that I wanted more? I had an insatiable need for him that wouldn't be easily satisfied but I restrained myself and that sexual need at least for the time being.

"As much as I want to stay in this bed with you all day, I think we should get something to eat." Edward told me right on time, like he could read my thoughts.

"Yeah, I know the feeling, but I should probably call Renee too. I don't want her to get suspicious." It took us a while more to finally get up from this bed. Edward made his way to the shower while I headed downstairs to call my mum and made us some breakfast, too.

By the time Edward was out of the shower and fully dressed I had the pancakes ready.

"Mm that was delicious, thank you. What would I do without you Bells?" Edward said, after having wolfed down ten pancakes soaked in maple syrup.

"Probably order take out…or starve to death." I teased him knowing fully well that he was more than capable of taking care of himself. At least he could eat his homemade pizza for the rest three days.

"Ha, ha how funny Bells." He said taking a sip of his coffee and looking at me above the rim of his mug.

I got up and put the dishes to the dishwasher. All the time I was working I could fell his eyes following me, his gaze creating a burning sensation in me, which I tried to avoid. When I was finished I went and seat myself in the bench across him drinking my coffee.

Edward was looking at me with a strange look on his face. One minute ago he was amused but now lines of thought and worry had formed on his forehead.

"A penny for your thoughts?" I asked lightly not wanting to press this.

"Huh? Yeah sorry I was a bit preoccupied." He said looking out of the window avoiding eye contact.

"You can talk to me if you want." I said hesitantly, trying to understand how we got from joking to worrying.

"What did I do to deserve you Bella?" he asked me with a pained expression crossing his face.

"What do you mean?" how smart Bella! Well done. In truth I kind of suspected what did he mean by that but I was too taken aback by his question so I gave the only stupid answer I could find.

"I think we both know what I mean Bells. When it comes to you I had been more than a… um" he was looking for the right word here but since we touched that subject I wasn't going easy on him.

"An asshole. Yes Edward you've been countless times a jerk to me." I said jumping off the bench and going to sit next to him.

"Yeah that's the right way to put it, I know. And you have no idea how awful I feel about it. I was… no let me talk about it, I need it." he told me when I opened my mouth ready to interrupt him. I just nodded to let him go on.

"I don't know when or how things got that bad with me. I still remember the time that I wasn't that bad. The worst thing of all is that six months ago, I didn't believe that my behavior was wrong or bad. I thought that I had every right to think and act like I did." He paused looking back at those years, which unfortunately were fresh into my memory too. "Pathetic huh?" he wandered out loud with a bitter laugh.

"You made a lot of wrong choices Edward. You were just a teenager, who was influenced by the wrong people. I can see that now. If you have asked me a couple of months ago I would have given you a totally different answer. But now, after having made lot of bad choices myself, I can look at things with different eyes."

"Bella you can't compare your behavior and actions with mine. I was a lot worse. You of all people have seen my bad side, not once but many times in the past."

"Exactly, it is in the past. And I can see how different you are now. Although I don't believe you were ever really that bad. I think it was much more like a façade. The bad boy, jog, womanizer Edward was a lot more than that."

"How can you believe that? I was happy back then, I liked it that way, I wasn't aware of how bad I made some people feel. I actually made fun of you then! I treated you like shit and I don't deserve your forgiveness. I ruined your early years of adolescence and if we hadn't gone things would have been way worse and you know it. I dread this thought really." He mattered and hid his face to his hands.

"Alright yes I've gone through a lot because of you, I can admit that you made my life miserable many times in the past and I had my doubts letting you in again. But I learned to be strong from that, I learned to believe in myself and get out of my shell. Sure I would have preferred it to be different but I cannot turn back time. You prove to me and to yourself that you are not that person anymore and that's what really matters to me." I told him reassuringly although I knew that he had to forgive himself too.

"You know what my turning point was? First it was Esme. We were still in California and one day she gave me one look that made me froze. It wasn't disgust I saw into her eyes, she was my mum after all she wouldn't be disgusted by her own son, but it was disappointment. And even if I didn't give it much thought then, it hurt a lot to know that out of all people I've disappointed my own mother. And then it got worse.

When we came back and I saw you and Jake and the scornful looks you both gave me. It wasn't only my mum but it was you, too. It was like slapping me in the face. I was back here and I sure remained the golden boy for anyone else but the two most important people of all…my best friends and the only people that knew me forever, apart from my siblings of course."

"I know that Alice tried to reason with you once…" I begun hesitantly because I knew what had happened.

"Yeah and I told her to go to hell and mind her own business. What a nice brother." Nice I wasn't helping at all here, reminding him about all the awful things he'd said.

"Come on don't tell me you wouldn't take a bullet for her anytime! I know you'd even kill for Alice." I said throwing my hands to the air indignantly.

"Back then? I' m not so sure. We are talking about the most selfish and arrogant person on the earth."

"Oh you're driving me crazy Mr. Pessimist. You even helped me when I broke my hand at school and you wouldn't help Alice?! That's ridiculous Edward and you know it! You are just trying to look at things from the bad side here!" I was referring to the incident that James had told me about and to be honest I had completely forgotten too.

"What? Oh! I remember that, I kicked Tyler's ass for hitting you." He admitted looking finally amused.

"See? You were just a confused, horny and crazy teenager at that time. We have both changed and grown up. I mean. Look at me I was moping all over Adrian when he left, and I was too blind about the fact that a bunch of people was trying to help me get over it. I was shutting everyone out like a selfish, ungrateful bitch. But you are all still talking to me, although you shouldn't." I explained winking at him playfully.

"It's not the same Bells, you were going through a rough time. I have no excuse." He told me taking my hands in his and looking me sincerely in the eyes.

"Look Edward, I've already told you that I've left those things to the past. We are both grownups and more mature now, so let's just focus on the future and our choices now. Don't get stuck to the past mistakes, the only thing you'll achieve is to feel even worse. You have all the time ahead of you to make your wrongs right and just keep in mind what you did so you won't repeat the same mistakes again." I told him honestly. In truth I believed that it was a good sign that he finally felt that way.

All the remorse and guilt showed that he had indeed realized how much of a jerk he used to be and how much he'd changed since he came back.

"You're right. I just feel so bad and it will take time to just let it go." He gave me a small reassuring smile before he could add, "Soo what about us?"

"Seriously? Shouldn't I be the crazy pushy girlfriend here?" I said smacking him playfully on the shoulder.

"Girlfriend?" he asked smiling widely at me.

"Hold your horses buddy, it was just an expression. But I didn't say that we couldn't be together. I just believe that we should take it slow, live and enjoy every moment without all the boyfriend girlfriend drama." I knew I wasn't that kind of person; it was perfectly clear from my last relationship.

"So no relationship status?!" he asked confused.

"No. It's not that I don't want to be with you because I already am, but I don't think we need to define that further. We know what we have, we feel it. So just leave it the way it is…if this is alright with you too." I added hoping that it would be alright with him.

"Yeah, more than fine actually. I want what you want." He said bringing me closer to him and kissing my passionately.

"So now that we cleared this out, what do you wanna do? We have the whole day…well almost." I added looking at the clock on the wall. It was nearly lunchtime and we had just eaten breakfast.

"Mmm I have something in mind." He responded and I finally saw the playful glimpse return to his eyes.

"Ugh, Edward that's really huge!"

"I know baby, but there's not much left I promise."

"Alright, just let me take a break please."

"Come on Bells, its killing me."

"Ugh, fine hand it over, you grouchy." I told him taking the heavy box from his hands and taking it upstairs.

Edward had come with the idea of Christmas decorating and we were now carrying all the heavy boxes from the basement. And they weren't just two or even three of them but fifteen huge, heavy boxes full with every kind of ornament. Who could need all those Christmas toys? Apparently Esme was a big fun of decorating and our idea wasn't so brilliant after all. We would probably need three days to do the whole house just on our own.

"We'll never finish this!" I exclaimed the moment I saw their Christmas tree. It was literally touching the ceiling!

"Yeah, I didn't remember it was that big! How on earth does mum cope with this?" he wandered still looking at the gigantic tree in the middle of the living room.

"She'll probably need a ladder to reach the top branches." I estimated looking at the size of it.

"Yeah, imagine what you will need. A crane will do, right?" he joked.

"Ha, ha very funny Eddie." I told him using the nickname that always disliked.

"Stop calling me that, you little dwarf, and come over to help me with the lights."

Two hours later and we hadn't made any significant progress. The lights were a mess hanging messy on the tree branches and the living room was like a battle field.

"It's hopeless." I exclaimed throwing y hands up n the air in disappointment.

"Oh God, if mum returns to this chaos, she'll probably kill me, mummify me and put me on top of the tree instead of the star." He said plopping down to the nearest armchair, still looking at the mess desperately.

"It must be really uncomfortable, having the tree top shoved into your ass." I told him as a matter of factly. He looked at me dumbfounded and we both cracked up with uncontrollable laughter.

It took us a while to calm down and find our breath, when I told him, "I know how can we get this going and to ready before Esme comes home." He looked at me with curiosity but I just stood up and went to find my cell.

Half an hour later Jake was standing in the front porch along with the best Christmas planner, Emma.

"That was your brilliant idea? A seven year old?" Edward asked me with disbelief.

"Don't underestimate me, Cullen." Emma said in a bossy tone and made her way to the living room, leaving us all mouth hanging.

"This kid is scaring me." Jake said wiggling his head.

"Yeah, tell me about it. Let's go help her, before she kicks our pretty asses." I told them both and walked to the next room, where Emma had already begun organizing the boxes and the ornaments. When she reached the tree she let out an indignant exclamation, seeing our futile attempts to put the lights around it and the hideous messy result.

"What have you too done to this beauty? Good thing that I am here to save you both. Jake and Edward come over here and took off this mess. I want you to disentangle them and put it nicely all the way round the tree." She ordered them pointing at the lights with her little finger. Of course they did as she said. Then she turned to me and pointed at the three boxes on the corner. "And you will help me with the rest of the house."

I rolled my eyes at her and scooped up the boxes. As I was heading to the dining room next door I heard her adding, "And you two, please try not to choke yourselves with the light cables." God this kid was becoming a spitting image of Ian day by day!

The rest of the week passed in the same pattern. The Cullens arrived home the next day to find it finely decorated, thanks to my little monster. Esme was beyond happy to see that Edward and I had made peace and actually do something together. Alice of course hadn't stop smiling brightly since they came back.

She and Jasper had a great weekend together and she was planning a girls night to fill us in with all the dirty details.

As for me and Edward… well let's just say that we couldn't get our hands off of each other. The return of his family had made it a bit tricky for us to find some alone time but we had managed it somehow.

We had explored every quiet and isolated part of the city and the forest to be exact. It's not exactly that we kept it a secret from our friends but we didn't want to be out in the open so soon. We needed some time of our own.

Today had been an unusual sunny day in Forks something that made the snow glistering white and frozen around the city. Edward had come to pick me up after school and it was a nice chance to take Shakespeare out for a walk.

When we reached a quiet place on the verge of the woods I took his leash off and let him play free for a while. We stayed out talking and taking long walks around town until it was completely dark. He walked me home, where he'd parked his car earlier.

"I'll see you tomorrow then." He said pulling me closer to him.

"Yeah sure, but sometime I have to see Alice, too. I'm afraid she's going to kidnap me if I say no to her once more." I told him rolling my eyes.

"Yeah, Alice can be persistent." Whispered and kissed my temple and then nose.

"Believe me I know." It was all I could say before my lips were covered by his.

After we kissed goodbye for several minutes, Edward was gone and I headed inside. I led Shakespeare free, while I was hanging my coat on the cloth hanger beside the door.

I turned to enter the living room when I bumped into someone. I looked up and froze…

"Hey sis, do you have something to tell me about?" he asked with a devilish smirk and a very ominous Ian like eyebrow raise.

Ugh oh!

I wonder how is Bella going to explain this to Ian! ;)

As I've already told you this story is reaching its end fast but there are still a few things that must be done! Let me know what you think of this chapter and the next is comming up soon!

Until next time!

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