Since Ran is often so busy and that Chen, due to the attack leaving her incontinent, cannot go to the bathroom, we often take turns changing her diaper and it was originally my turn but, due to the fact that I was almost blind, I tricked Tenshie into doing it. As I had tricked her, I felt awful, wondering if my waning vision was really that awful that I cannot even do a simple task. Slowly, my vision has been weakening, growing more blurry and dim by the passing day. After Tenshi changed her diaper, I did apologize to Chen for shunting my responsibilities to her, to which she responded, "It's okay, I could tell you couldn't do it." At least, Chen was sympathetic.
I feel pain in my chest where my heart is. My heart is breaking. I yearn to tell someone that I cannot see but I do not wish to be pushed aside and I want to be of some use but my vision hinders me.
"YOU CAN SUCK MY ASS!"