Today, was awful and here we thought we were safe. Ran had walked outside only for but a moment to get some snow for bathing water and the next thing we had known was that Ran was screaming. We hurried outside to find her, about a few yards away, covered in blood and with her clothes torn. She was unconscious but not dead. We brought her inside and I inspected her for any injuries (be noted that this isn't pleasant). I stayed quiet about it and decided to speak to Ren and Yukari in private about on the matter. Ren wanted nothing more than to be by her side and Yukari, like I did, wanted to kill the monster who did that to her. As for Ran, the shock and trauma of it all made her cataleptic. She was bedridden most of the time and seemed to be once again apathetic. My heart was broken and so was Ren's. We didn't know what she was to do or how long she was to remain like this. It was agonizing either way.
Why one earth would anyone want to do something that evil to her? It was horrible thinking about and I could not really seem to fathom any reason as to why anyone would wish to hurt her, especially in that way. I wish something a thousand fold awful on whoever did that to her because no one deserves to have that done to them, especially Ran. I couldn't go out and get revenge and getting revenge would make Ran feel even worse. Of course, what happened to her did bring back memories of what Yukari went through during our time of imprisonment. Her heart is bleeding from it and I feel it, too! Dammit! If only I could turn back the hands of time and undo what has been done, then I will have! If I didn't take revenge for what happened to Chen, then our house wouldn't have been burned down, then we wouldn't have come here, then Ran wouldn't have had that done to her. I want to make things right but I always screw up and, now, I wish I could make this right, yet, I don't know how.
In feeling all of this sadness, I sat down somewhere and cried, only to stop when I felt someone wiping away my tears. It was Yuuka, her usually curly hair disheveled and near total mess, barely bound back with a hair scarf. Things were starting to fall apart again. Doubly so, since there is a possible food shortage and some of us are too terrified to go outside, except for Yukari, Cirno, and me. However, Cirno was basically born yesterday and Yukari was much too occupied with knitting, taking care the children, or rambling, grunting, and, more often than not, screaming angrily. For someone who isn't coherent most of the time, she seemed to be coherent enough to understand what happened and she seemed to be pissed but, at the same time, deeply saddened because there is really nothing she can do about it, let alone the fact it brought back memories of what she really couldn't do, which was to protect her. Of course, that was one of her many regrets, which also plunged her into insanity.
After about a few days, I gathered a few of my things in a bundle and left to find some food.
"Kagu, Kagu, where's Kagu?!"