It has been a little while since Ran went into a cataleptic fit and, when she finally came out of it, she ate but was sick with nausea, prompting her to vomit. Along with that, according to Huzi, she has quite the loathing of being touched, retaliating with violence if it is someone so much as lightly brushes her. Of course, both were signs of her trauma and no one comes out of that too receptive to that. Yukari most certainly didn't, rather, she prefered limited if she wasn't to have none. Aside from wanting to cradle Reimu or Chen, she, behaving almost as if she were an autistic child, would stiffen and push someone way if they did vice versa, rarely if ever accepting it without feeling obligated or trying to imagine something else. However, besides the mental trauma she's suffered, it also came from the fact that she had weakened vision and startled fairly easily. Nevertheless, it did take some time in an asylum for her to receive some sort of help for it, however, as for Ducks, she doesn't have that luxury. Poor Winston! He loves her but knows he cannot touch her, lest he receives some injuries.
However, we all love her but none of us can touch her without eliciting some sort of violent reaction. The little children, even the Marisa and her offspring keep a distance. If she wasn't lashing out, then she was sitting alone, not doing anything or staring off into emptiness, or or scrubbing herself to the point of irritation and bleeding, muttering, "Dirty, dirty, dirty, slutty, whore, disgusting, worthless, unfaithful, weak..." Every time I would hear her, my heart would shatter and I would die a little, wishing I could comfort her. As time went by, I had noticed she seemed to have put on a little weight. Actually, she had gained much weight that it was hard to tell if she wasn't pregnant. Of course, she might have been but, at the same, she might not be, however, she did put on so much weight from eating and she seemed to be going through a self-destructive phase, as she smoked and drank along with eating. Her moods would swing and she would have bouts of lunacy and spaciness. Still, Winston loved her and told me she thinks she is still as beautiful as when they first met. To me, romance is quite a complicated mystery but this particular romance is exceptional. He still loves her and will never part her company.
Curiously, she hasn't attempted suicide, like she had tried to before, but we knew not to leave her alone with the children, as she was slowly slipping more and more into insanity. It seemed there was almost no way she could recover and we mourned that but, at the same time, we wanted to help her, empathized with her, and wanted her back, not, as Mokou dear put it, a raging fat bitch. Of course, I don't much care for the change in her but it's not the first time I've seen someone turn this way, especially if they already have preexisting mental problems, like Ran does.
It seems, on the other hand, that Mokou has grown rather tired of her behaviour and got her attention by yelling, "BITCH!" in her direction. That naturally had the effect of her turning around slowly and walking over, asking, "What did you call me?" Mokou blinked and said, "I said 'Bitch', bitch."
"Take it back." Ran said, her eye twitching. Winston tried to intervene but was told to be quiet.
"Um okay, no, I won't take it back, 'cause you're a raging kitsune bitch."
"..."
"Yeah, praise me, go ahead, after all, you're a bitch."
"You're trying my patience..."
"Am I gonna get hit? Okay, hit me! It won't change the fact that you're a bitch who's started to take her problems out on everyone else. Yeah, you've gone through hell, we all have, and Yukari, also known as Tosca has gone through what you've gone through, over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over, and, yet, she didn't turn into anything like you, BITCH! Now, before you think of sayin' anything, shut the hell up, mmkay. It's not the fact that you don't like to be touched, that of which almost caused you to be a small child through the wall, or the trauma you went through, which had to have been brutal, trust me, I know, it's the fact that you have other underlying problems that you've tried to shove away and would have done so if the box that is the deepest recesses of your being wasn't already full. Yeah, I can understand that you can and have to heal but that doesn't give you a reason be bitchy and damn near negligent. No, your fiancé, who I should note is extremely nice, doesn't want that from you and doesn't even bring it up but Chen wants her mom back and says she wants her to love her again. Not cool, as she's given up on life. Hell, you almost put a small child, Reimu, through a wall because she grabbed onto you, somethin' that she does when she wants to be held. Lemme axe ya' a questions, what the hell is ya' problem? The problem is with you is that you have never at all bothered to to talk about your problems to those who care and when they do show ya' some interests, you are quick to say, "Oh, it's fine." or push them away, much like you're doing now. So lemme axe ya a questions, why the hell is it you're a bitch?!"
Ran naturally had nothing to say and was genuinely shocked, while Mokou dear seemed satisfied, having said what she thought needed to say. However, even though she was satisfied, I could see the faint hint of tears in her eyes. She turned around walked away, leaving Ran to stand where she was. We were all shocked and didn't have any clue on what to say or whether or not to comfort Ran. There were about two hours of silence, aside from hearing the water run. However, we didn't think to notice the water running, until we heard Yukari scream, "CHEEEEN!" We hurried to her, with due reason to expect the worse. Chen had attempted suicide by drowning herself. We've managed to revive her but we couldn't really tell if she's suffered significant brain damage from that, rather, it seemed, she couldn't talk. She blinked her empty wide eyes and didn't seem to be there. She was catatonic and was to the edge.
The next day, it was hard to believe she hadn't died, thank goodness. She never gave any sort of motives for it but it was clear she had given up on life. Tears had fallen from my eyes and I wish I had seen it coming. It seemed Reimu never gotten over that, the poor thing. She's seen it, watching as Chen had gone limp under the water and as the bathtub flooded, and was powerless to do anything. That is a memory that will stick with her, forever, and I can only imagine what sort of trauma it will deal to her. The most frightening thing about that was was the fact that she remained silent throughout the entire thing.
And, she couldn't make sense of it...
"Mother-in law?"
"Yes?"
"Shall we mourn together and comfort each other?"
"Yes, dutiful son-in law, we shall."