What happened those couple of days ago is something I will never forget and Ran felt considerably worse. Granted, we didn't like "Bitch Ran" any more than Mokou did but I feel she was a tad harsh. However, Mokou was right in that Chen only wanted her mom back and had given up on life when she felt she wasn't going to have her back. I horrible for her and Reimu both, more because she attempted suicide right in front of her and I can only imagine what sort of mental scarring that had given her. If her memory could be erased of it then that would be mercy. I wish, to a certain degree, that Chen at least gave her reasons for it. Of course, if asked, then she may not have given any reasons, but it wouldn't matter anyhow as she seems to have lost her ability to speak, having been underwater for a certain period of time. I cannot even imagine what could have been going through Reimu's mind as she watched Chen attempt suicide but what I do know is that will stick with her forever.
Nevertheless, Ran feels an immense sadness, heartache, confusion, and guilt, as well as self-blame, because of what had happened. Today, I witnessed her crying and it was really her, not Bitch Ran, her, and I had listened to each and every one of her thoughts. As I witnessed her crying, I knew none of us were so above it all and we were not so different. The times could turn us all into a Bitch Ran or make us do things we didn't wish to. The times even forced my sister and I to a live of crime, that of which was futile. We were addicts, I'll admit that entirely, and I could only wish we had decided to go clean long before then. The times made victims of us all but it really does a number on innocent children, Chen and Reimu, especially, driving the former to suicide and the latter to become brainwashed. Children shouldn't be thinking of suicide and are supposed to be happy but, at the same time, the times don't care and will break everyone and anyone that happens to live in unfortunate circumstances. Hell, the times even turned one of the sweetest gentlest people cruel, twice, and she is now left a wreck. At least, she didn't become as bad Kanako, as Kanako beat on Sanae and that, as I can see, probably contributed to her death but the telling thing between them is that Ran could atone, whereas Kanako couldn't.
Of course, forgiveness of another doesn't come so easily to the self. Ran is one of those that suffer because of self-blame and lack of forgiveness for herself. Our hearts are all shattered by what has happened, the pain of which we all shared, especially amongst Ren and Yukari. Ren clearly he knows won't allow him to get near her, so he doesn't attempt to for fear it will do more damage than what is already there or that she'll think he's forcing her, but Yukari most certainly he gives comfort to, as per what would be Ran's wishes and is very well accepted by her. He is truly a dutiful son-in law, as far as I can see, though in my opinion, I think he is too damn nice.
As for Chen and Reimu, Reimu never seemed to want to separate from Chen's side, reacting violently if she was to be. Chen, however, remained fairly apathetic and very much depressed. Her only thoughts I could hear were, "Dammit!" and, "Why?!" It made sense, considering she was wondering why it was she wasn't allowed to die and was angry that she wasn't. After listening to her thoughts for a few minutes, a new one came and it was, "I'm sorry..." My heart shattered. If she could speak, then she would have but she couldn't. She is fully aware, capable of recovery, and yet she suffered silently.
"Flandre, little sister, what is that you hold?"