A/N Weeks of nothing and this is all I have... sorry y'all. Enjoy this somewhat fluff though?

Earlier that night when Gerda had left her alone in her room she had been bursting with excitement. However, as soon as she began to sneak through the halls Anna had started to feel nervous.

She decided to make a pit stop at the kitchen because it was rarely empty and she had to admit she was starving. After a few seconds of deliberation she decided that a sandwich would be the best way to cut her nerves.

Leaning over the counter she searched the drawers and fridge for ingredients, absentmindedly muttering under her breath as she bustled around the kitchen. "Okaaay, let's see… bread? Check. Meat? Checkarooo. Lettuce?... lettuce, lettuce, lettuce? WHERE THE FU- Oh here we go! Haha stupid Anna" she grinned to herself, shaking her head in amusement as she gathered more essentials and put everything together.

When she finished her snack and headed out of the kitchen she was no longer hungry but she was still incredibly nervous. On the upside, she had managed to grab a bag of chocolates on her way out. Maybe Elsa will like these. I mean who doesn't like chocolate? It's like a universal language or something. Unless Elsa doesn't like them? Oh God, what if Elsa doesn't like chocolate!? No. Calm down. Only crazy people don't like chocolate. Obviously.

Anna's train of thought was cut short as she realized she was already at Elsa's door.

Her breath was heavy as she felt nervousness settle in the pit of her stomach. She could feel it squirming inside her with every second that passed. I don't even know if she'll be here. God this is so fucking stupid, just knock already. Anna was frozen at Elsa's door, staring into aged white wood. She gulped, clenching the bag of chocolates in her fist. Just do it! Just fucking do it!

As nervous as she was Anna knew she needed to do this. Elsa was like a drug to her, she was like a prescription drug that you needed to actually seek out to get. Not like the drugs where you could just sneak in and sneak out over the counter. She was an invested addiction. There was no other feeling in the world like the feeling she got when she was with Elsa. It was powerful and good and soft and tender and she craved it. Needed it to survive, to breath, and it was sitting on the other side of the door in front of her.

Slowly exhaling, Anna took one last glance around the hall. It was empty. She took a deep breath and steeled herself, raising her palm to rest on the door's cool wood. She closed her eyes and imagined Elsa on the other side, resting her palm on the exact same spot.

Suddenly determined, Anna raised her other hand and rapped her knuckles on the barrier between them.

There was nothing at first. No sound, no movement. Anna was holding her breath. And then she felt it, a slight shift on the floorboards, a dull thud from inside the room.

"Elsa…?" She called the other girls name eagerly, practically scratching at the door to get in. She immediately cursed herself when the other girl's movement stopped at the sound of her voice. Scared her off in 0.5 seconds that's gotta be a new record.

"Elsa?" she called again more softly this time, pleading. The movement from inside the room was agonizingly slow but Anna was just glad her voice wasn't falling on deaf ears.

A sudden creak from the floorboards indicated that Elsa was almost against the door. Anna waited on bated breath for it to open but moments passed and still nothing.

On the other side of the door, Elsa was panicking. What is she doing here!? And why now? I literally just decided to avoid her at all cost, and she has the audacity to come down here and… and…? Elsa was flustered but she had to admit she was curious.

Why is Anna at my door? What does she want…? Me? Elsa thought. No! What the hell are you thinking?! Don't be ridiculous! The sudden thoughts jolted her into losing her concentration and stepping on a creaky board. A deep blush spread over her face and she cursed under her breath as the board emitted its awful sound. There was no way Anna didn't know how close she was to the door.

"Elsa… look I know you're in there. Are you going to open the door?"

Elsa wanted to. She wanted to open the door so badly. But she knew she shouldn't. Anna shouldn't even have been here. The General would never allow this. You know what happens when you let people in. You know what happens when you feel. It's a weakness. You need to conceal Elsa. She jammed her eyes shut trying to force Anna out of her head. Conceal.

Anna's voice sounded more defeated now. "If… If you don't want to open the door that's umm, that's fine I guess." She laughed bitterly under her breath "I mean I'm probably not who you expected so It's fine. Gosh, you're probably so tired anyways." Elsa could hear the disappointment in Anna's voice and it broke her heart. "Umm, anyways I guess I figured you'd need a pick me up after today so…I brought you some chocolates. I'll just… I'll leave them here I guess." Elsa almost recoiled from the door. A mixture of shock and sadness splayed across her features and she clutched her hand to her chest.

She was thinking about you? She went out of her way to come all the way down here and bring you something nice. And you won't even open the goddamn door for her!? There was an internal war going on inside her head and she could only furrow her brow anxiously and hope reason would find her a solution.

You can't. It's not your place.

But I want to.

You are NOT allowed to feel like this.

I don't care.

You have orders-

"Okay so umm… I guess I'll just leave then, cool." Anna's voice was cutting and Elsa couldn't help herself.

Fuck orders. Elsa hated herself for her selfishness. Hated how she couldn't contain herself. But she couldn't stay away from this girl even it was for her own protection. There was no valid reasoning to it, no logical explanation. She just couldn't.

So without another moment's hesitation she reached for the knob and flung the door open.

Despite her earlier statement, Anna had made no move to walk away from the door. Her feet were rooted to the ground and she had been staring blankly at the floor. Her eyes snapped up as she heard the doorknob turn.

Elsa flung the door aside, and halted awkwardly into the doorframe when she saw Anna still standing there. She had been on her way to chase after Anna, to call her name and shout that she was sorry. But here she was. Staring at her like a deer in headlights, her expression surprised and nervous. Their eyes were locked. Elsa's blue orbs were flickering across Anna's teal ones, trying desperately to gage her emotions.

Neither one of them moved, or inhaled, for what felt like ages. It was like they were both waiting for the other to break the silence- neither one of them wishing to ruin the cautious moment between them. It was perfectly suffocating.

Finally Anna spoke. "Hi" she said, relaxing her stiffened form slightly, letting out a shaky breath.

"Hi" Elsa smiled shyly; relieved that the tension had finally broken. She let herself relax as well and suddenly they were both smiling. They were staring into each other's eyes and smiling. Anna giggled and Elsa's eyes wrinkled as her smile widened. This was so right. This small insignificant moment could be nothing but right, and her heart leapt to think it so.

Anna took a second to exhale once again and calm her nerves. She chanced a look up and down the beauty before her.

Elsa's blonde hair was in its usual plait, slung casually over the side of her shoulder. She had on an oversized 'Arendelle Academy' heathered charcoal t-shirt that she had clearly been wearing for far too long. It had tiny holes in the front and sleeves and it went all the way down to the middle of her shorts. Anna could tell it had been well worn throughout the years from the way the collar had stretched out, and exposed the pale skin of Elsa's collarbones. Her academy dog tags rested just below her breasts, catching the light from the hallway ever so slightly. Elsa had kept on the running shorts she had been wearing earlier in the day. They were short and tight and Anna certainly wasn't complaining.

"I umm…" Anna had to drag her eyes off Elsa's milky smooth legs "…have chocolate?" she finished, extending the bag out in front of her chest with both hands.

Elsa watched the other girl curiously. Typically Anna was infectiously bubbly but right now she was doubtful and… scared?

"You can come in!" Elsa blurted out suddenly, catching herself and Anna by surprise. "Please" she added softly, locking eyes with the red haired girl and opening the door all the way.

Anna's lips curled into another smile and she bit her bottom lip excitedly before shuffling in to Elsa's small room.

Anna took a second to look around the room as Elsa slowly closed the door. Grey on grey on grey? This is… bleak. She felt a wave of guilt wash over her. Not only was her own bedroom easily twice the size, but it was warm, and inviting, and lived in. Elsa's room looked like a prison cell in comparison. She felt hot tears prick at the center of her eyes as she looked around the windowless enclosure. Elsa had never once complained. Anna felt guilty for never having had known, she had never thought to ask her.

Elsa came up in front of her, noticing the dreary expression on Anna's face. Her own expression dropped instantly and she felt her heart lurch as she looked at Anna's reddening eyes. "Hey?" She moved across the room stopping in front of the shorter girl and dipping her head to look in her eyes.

"What's wrong?" she asked, her voice was full of concern. It was honest, and calm, and smooth, and practically a whisper as she inched cautiously towards the other girl, wanting desperately to run her palm across Anna's soft cheek.

"I…" Anna was about to brush her off and say that it was nothing, but somehow she couldn't find it in her to lie to Elsa's face like that so she said nothing.

"Here, umm, I don't have any chairs so…" Elsa tilted her head towards the bed, moving across the room to sit.

Anna blinked back tears, sighing amusedly as she brought her hand to her eyes. Not exactly how I pictured myself ending up in her bed but I guess I'll take it.

Elsa sat at the head of her pillows crossing her legs. Anna settled down across from her bringing her jean clad knees dangerously close to Elsa's bare ones.

Elsa's brow was knitted when Anna finally looked up at her.

"Are you okay?" Elsa once again fought back the urge to cup Anna's face in her hands.

"Yeah I just never thought your room would be like this. It feels like we're holding you against your will or something" Anna laughed coldly, fiddled with the fabric of her jeans.

Elsa's eyes crinkled as she looked over at the girl beside her. "Anna…" she sighed out her name wishing she could say it over and over again just to feel it roll off her tongue.

Teal eyes looked up at her nervously.

"Your father saved my life, and put a roof over my head. I am nothing but grateful for this" she gestured around her smiling warmly at Anna. "You have nothing to feel sorry about." She reassured.

Anna sniffed "I just feel bad." She clumsily wiped her eyes with the back of her hand "I mean you should go in my room"

"I have"

Anna's eyes shot up curiously. Elsa's smile dropped and her eyes widened as she realized what she'd said.

"I mean… a long time ago." She cursed herself mentally. "I don't, like, watch you sleep or anything creepy!" she was blushing now. "I just… I used to help the staff clean" she trailed off wincing at her failed attempt to explain herself.

Anna was smiling now though so at least it had been worth it.

"Yeah suuure you don't…" Anna broke into a wide mouthed smile as she teased a flustered Elsa.

"You wish!" Elsa chucked a pillow at her playfully hitting her square in the head. Anna immediately pretended to have been struck by a bullet, howling loudly and toppling over. She clutched the pillow to her side and died a slow and painful death.

Elsa held a hand to her mouth to try and stifle her laughs but it was no use. Anna stared in disbelief as the soldier in front of her laughed like an innocent child. Elsa was beaming widely and her laughter rang out like bells.

Anna's mouth twisted into a smile and her eyes lidded as she propped herself up on an elbow and stared at Elsa. The girl was immaculate. How someone so fierce and strong could be so feminine and adorable was an endless fascination.

Elsa finally noticed Anna's dreamy gaze and dropped her hand nervously, straightening her back and ducking her head shyly.

"What?"

"Nothing. Just… you" Anna didn't know how else to put it, she nibbled on her bottom lip thoughtfully. 'You were amazing today by the way. You were like-"

"The Flash" Elsa replied in a matter of fact fashion as if answering a 'sir, yes, sir' to the drill sergeant.

"Pffft" Anna blew out a startled laugh. "Since when do you even know who the flash is?"

"Since today" Elsa admitted sheepishly. "I actually still don't really know anything about it…"

Anna laughed sitting back up and patting Elsa's leg. Her hand seemed to linger a bit too long as Elsa retracted her leg and looked away from her nervously.

"I just wish I had been there for you" Anna frowned slightly. "I wish it didn't have to be the way it was. I wish my father had let you be a normal kid"

"Instead of?"

"A boring soldier robot" Anna narrowed her eyes teasingly and gave Elsa a sassy once over.

Elsa scoffed loudly "Excuse me?"

"Ugh fine…" Anna bit her lip, she hoped she wouldn't regret this "a hot soldier robot".

If Anna's face had been red, Elsa's was even redder. She nearly choked on her own saliva.

"Like I said, your father saved my life, and put a roof over my head. I am nothing but grateful" she finally reiterated, choosing not to dwell on the hot robot comment.

Anna was quiet for a moment, mulling over the potential explosiveness of her next question. She decided she should soften Elsa up with some chocolate first. Digging in the bag she fished out a mint chocolate truffle. "Ugh these ones are so good" she greedily took a bite before offering the rest to Elsa.

In what she would normally consider a complete lapse of judgement; Elsa leaned forward towards the chocolate instead of taking it with her hands. By the time she realized what she was doing she was beyond the point of no return.

Anna couldn't contain a gasp as Elsa's lips met her fingertips. It was like a jolt of electricity coursed through her entire body and into her chest. She even felt a light flick from the other girl's tongue as she took the chocolate into her mouth.

Anna was beyond flustered. Elsa was beyond mortified.

In an attempt to keep herself from collapsing, and distract herself from the growing warmth in between her legs, Anna blurted out the first thing she could think of.

"What happened to your parents?" She immediately regretted it.

Elsa's reaction was far worse than anticipated. She immediately closed herself off, eyes glazing over and body language stiffening. She clenched her jaw and her hands tightened into fists.

"Elsa… I'm sorry… I" Anna reached out to the other girl, placing her hand cautiously over Elsa's fist. The blonde immediately retracted it and turned to Anna fearfully.

"You shouldn't be here"

"Elsa…"

"No. Anna you need to stay away from me"

"What? Elsa, no" Anna was afraid of the reaction she had caused, she felt terrible for it. Elsa looked just as frightened but Anna could see that behind her fear was anger. "You don't have to tell me. That was really stupid of me! I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked". She moved her hand forward cautiously seeking out the other girl's hand once again "but Elsa, I need you to know that I'm here for you".

"Anna" Elsa was trying to steady her voice while eyeing Anna's approaching hand with fear. "You can't get close to me you don't understand".

"So help me to"

"Just leave"

"No."

"Anna!"

"Elsa…"

"I don't want you to end up like them Anna! Don't you fucking get it?! You have no fucking clue what could happen to you, do you?! Do you think I can let that happen to anyone ever again? Huh? I'm just trying to keep you safe, okay?! I can't let it happen to you too. I can't. I can't. I can't. You need to stay away from me, Anna I can't let it happen. I don't… I can't…"

Elsa had every intention of creating distance with her outburst, but every word brought the two girls closer together. When Elsa's panicked outburst finally took a pause she was breathing heavily, and inches away from Anna.

Everything moved in slow motion. Anna's hands moved slowly to rest on top of Elsa's. Their racing pulses began to slow.

"I'm not leaving" Anna murmured. "I'm here"

Elsa finally spoke, hushed and emotionless "they were just scientists" she began. "I don't know why it happened. They just told me we needed to leave right away and packed me into the car" Elsa had hoped to avoid this but if the truth would keep Anna away then she needed to tell it.

"We stopped at a roadblock. Someone came up to the window. My parents both got out. They locked the doors and left the keys inside. They told me not to open the doors no matter what. The people at the roadblock had guns. I wish every day that they had just shot them then and there" she was gripping Anna's hand now squeezing it painfully.

"But they didn't." her voice was bitter and angry. "They wouldn't move away from my windows so they did terrible torturous things to them. And I was huddled in the backseat like a fucking coward. And there were people pounding on the windshields, trying to break the glass. And I just shut my eyes and sat there. And then eventually there was a helicopter, and gunshots, and broken glass and someone carried me away and brought me to a hospital waiting room. I don't know why." She left out the part of the story where she could hear every one of their screams and saw their mangled bodies up against the glass. She left out the part where she had completely shut down, how she was still partially shut down.

She expected Anna to run in fear, to leave with disgust, but she didn't. Anna was lost in thought for a moment trying to piece certain parts of the story together. It didn't all fit together, but now wasn't the time for suspicions. Right now her heart was breaking for Elsa, who was falling into pieces before her eyes.

"It wasn't your fault" she spoke finally, pushing her shock and terror aside, while fighting the tears that had made their way back to her cheeks.

"It was. It was. They were protecting me. Don't you get why you need to stay away from me!?" Elsa was pleading now, broken and desperate.

"No Elsa. It wasn't your fault" Anna felt suddenly strong, protective. "Being loved isn't something to be guilty about. Yes, what happened to you was one of the most terrible things I've ever heard. But just because this happened to you doesn't mean it's going to happen to everyone who loves you, Elsa" her hands moved to cup Elsa's face, and she brushed her thumb over her cheek. Elsa had the faintest freckles she had ever seen across the bridge of her nose. They had never been closer. "I know this isn't the whole story. But I know that this was hard enough and I would never ask you for more. You can't live your life keeping everyone out Elsa. I'm here for you. I'll always be here for you. You mean so much to me". She was crying now, sniffling loudly. "You mean so much."

Elsa stared into Anna's soul. She was crying for her, she was cradling her; she was melting into fragments in front of her. "I don't know if I know how anymore" she whispered it so quietly she barely heard herself speak. "I don't know if I know how to let you in, I... I don't know if I can be what you want me to be" She wanted nothing more than to close the gap between them, but she was still convinced that she would ruin Anna, that something terrible would happen and it would be her fault.

Anna solved her dilemma for her as she slowly leaned in, crying still. "I don't need you to be anyone but you. All I need is you…" she sighed, overcome with emotion. As their eyes began to flutter closed, so did the gap between their lips, between their breath, between their hearts.

A sudden pounding at the door tore them apart, as the door shook under the force of each loud knock. Elsa shot up from the bed, realizing the gravity of what had almost transpired between them.

A booming voice rang through the door "Elsa, this is Colonel Kai…" she turned to the door with an eyebrow quirked. "We need to talk."

A/N Again sorry for churning this shit out after weeks of nothing. You guys are all too cool for this fic, I can't believe there's over 1 hundred of you!

*cries for years*

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