You are my Heaven Chapter 2: The Heart Wants What it Wants, an once upon a time fanfic

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EMMA POV

(What the heart wants)
(What the heart wants)
(What the heart wants)

Tomorrow is my wedding day, it should be the happiest day of my life right? Then why does my heart ache so much? Why does my heart ache for none other than Regina Mills. Regina Mills the most infuriating and stubborn woman I know, the woman who broke my heart, devastated me, pushed me back into the arms of Killian. Why can't I stop thinking of this woman, oh right because she has my heart, well not literally but she is the one who holds my heart. My heart aches as I think back to the 3 months of pure bliss and ecstasy that I had with her. Those three months were the best, most exciting, and love filled months of my life, never have I ever felt more complete and more at home, and then as quickly as it began it was over. I was shattered I felt as though my whole world had collapsed around me and I couldn't breathe, I couldn't feel anything but pain and agony, a pain that I never felt before in my life. Why does this damn woman still invade my thoughts, my dreams, my everything. She told me to move on she told me to go back to Killian, she pushed me back to him, I did what she asked I went back to him, I tried to move on because I wanted her to be happy. I would do anything and everything for her, so I did what she asked, even though every ounce of my being ached for her, for her touch, her soft kisses, her body flush against mine, her hands roaming my body, fingers deep inside of me kissing me everywhere. That is all I wanted and all I could think about when I was with Killian, I pretended it was Regina, it's always Regina and no matter what it always will be. But she doesn't want me, she doesn't love me. I can't help but have my mind wander back to the last night we were together 9 months ago, the night she broke it off, the night she should have just ripped my heart out and crushed it, the night I wish she really had done it so I didn't have to feel that pain, the pain I still feel today.

Flashback:

You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive

It was late when I strolled up the walk way of 108 Mifflin Street and I could see the light on in her bedroom, I smile knowing she is waiting for me, like she has every night for the last 3 months. Who would have thought that going to the library that night would lead to us being together. The last 3 months have been pure ecstasy for me, never in my life have I ever felt more complete, more love and finally felt home. Being with Regina made me feel like I was home, a place I have spent my whole life looking for and I finally found it with none other than Regina Mills. I smile as tonight was the night I was going to tell her how much I love her, tell her how much she means to me, and how much I want to shout it off the roof tops for all to hear that I Emma Swan love Regina Mills. I want to tell her that tonight I officially ended it with Killian and told my mother about us, which surprisingly went better than I had ever imagined it would go. My mom told me that if I wanted Regina and I loved her that I needed to show her, that she deserved better then what I have been giving her, she deserved all of me and not sharing me with Killian. We both deserved more than just a few hours at night we deserved it all and I owed it to her and myself to give us our happy ending. I knew she was right, I knew that there was no reason to continue to sneak around, no reason to be in hiding, I love her and I want everyone to know. I want to take her out, hold her hand, kiss her hello and goodbye, I want it all and I can't continue leading Killian on when my heart belongs to Regina. I smile while I make my way up to the door and think back to the conversation I just had with Killian at the bed and breakfast.

Killian: Emma love what are you doing here? You just couldn't stay away could you.

I feel him grab me pulling me close, but I pushed him away and looked at him. I know that look it's the look he has been giving me for months, the look of lust and desire, I know what he wants it is what he has wanted for months, what I couldn't give him. I couldn't give him what he wanted because all I could think of was Regina.

Emma: Killian…I…uh….we need to talk.

Killian: what's the matter love? Is it Henry? Your parents? What has Regina done now?

Hearing her name I can't help but smile softly what has she done now? Nothing but make me fall head over heels in love with her, that's all. I can't look at him while I do this, I don't want to hurt him, I mean he came back for me, he traded his ship for me, he followed me all over realms, but I just can't help my heart wants what it wants and it wants Regina.

Emma: No Killian Henry and my parents are fine.

Killian: Then what's going on love?

Emma: Killian I can't

Killian: Can't what love?

Emma: Please don't call me that, please I'm so sorry but this, us, we can't. I'm sorry I just can't

I look up at him finally and see the confusion and pain on his face.

Killian: I don't understand. I thought things were going

Emma: It's not you Killian, you have been great. I just I just can't do this.

Killian: Why Emma? Is this because of Neal? I thought you were moving past him?

Emma: No Killian it's not because of Neal, I just I'm not in love with you

Killian: So you're in love with someone else.

I couldn't say anything, I wasn't going to deny it but I wasn't going to admit it either.

Emma: I'm sorry Killian I truly am sorry.

Before he has the chance to say anything else, I turn and walk away. Once outside I run, I run as fast as I can to Regina's. My heart is racing a mile a minute, pounding so hard I feel like it is going to explode. I need to see her now, I need to tell her now.

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants

My thoughts are interrupted when the door opens and there in front of me stands the most beautiful and amazing woman I have ever seen.

Regina: I thought I felt you here. What is taking you so damn long to come in.

Emma: I…..Sorry Regina I was just thinking.

Before I know it she is pulling me into the house and her lips are on mine. Softly she presses herself against me, her tongue begging for access, finally our tongues collide together, swirling round and round neither fighting for dominance like we usually do. We just let our bodies do what comes naturally, let our tongues dance together. I wrap my arms tighter around her, kicking the door shut with my foot. While she starts to walk backwards, ensuring our lips never part, our tongues continue dancing with one another as we clumsily make our way to the bedroom. Once in the bedroom, I break the kiss both of us panting and gasping for air, everytime we kiss it feels like this, everytime we kiss I feel like my chest is going to explode due to the lack of oxygen. I can't help but giggle slightly that we do this to ourselves, all because we don't want to lose contact, it's like we need each other more than we need oxygen. I go to open my mouth to say something but her lips are on mine again. I know she doesn't want to talk right now she just wants to feel me, she wants to make us whole again. Fuck it I have all night I will tell her later. I pull my lips from hers smiling at the groan I get from doing so, I look deeply into her eyes and see everything I have always wanted. I untie the robe she is wearing and almost instantly cum right there seeing she is completely naked underneath, her toned abs and tanned body is on show for me. My hands instantly go to her waist pulling her close to me. I trail soft kisses along her neck up to her ear and back down her neck, kissing, licking, and biting ever so softly, I feel her body tremble slightly with every kiss, lick and bite while my hands explore her body, all her curves, every inch of her body is engrained in my mind, I know all the spots that make her go weak in the knees.

Regina: You Miss Swan have far too much clothing on

I laugh ever so slightly as I feel her hands frantically trying to undress me, both of us wanting and needing to have the skin on skin contact. It takes her seconds to have me completely naked and I feel her pull me into her kissing me passionately. My heart swells and body begins to tingle like it never has before at the contact. Tonight is different than any of the other nights we have been together, tonight is filled with more passion and desire than ever before. Tonight I was going to make love to Regina, not just have sex tonight we were going to become one and tonight we weren't going to fight for dominance. I wrap my arms around her and guide her slowly to the bed before I know it somehow I end up on the bed first with her hovering over top of me smiling down at me. Her lips find their target as she captures mine with hers kissing me softly and tenderly while her one hand slides down my body. I moan loudly letting her know how badly I am needing her know, how badly I want her to touch me, claim me as hers. My hips buck up and I feel her core against mine, she knows what I need and begins to move slowly against me our clits making contact with each slow thrust. My body trembles and I hear her moan at the contact, her mouth is doing wonders on my neck, I feel her lightly sucking and kissing all over my neck and it almost brings me to my breaking point, she knows exactly how to get me off, she knows how to bring me to the edge just by kissing and sucking on my neck. Our hands continue their exploration of each other while we continue to rock against each other. Finally I roll us so we are lying on our sides staring into each other eyes.

Emma: Together Gina

You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lighting me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second's like torture
Hell over trip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby, baby, no I can't escape

She just nods as both our hands roam down the other and slowly we enter each other while holding on tightly to each other. Our hands continue to thrust in and out bringing us both to the breaking point. It feels like hours as we continue to pleasure each other, our bodies responding to each thrust, the exploration of tongues and hands. I feel her tighten around my fingers knowing that she is almost there, and just before we both release I capture her lips against mine and we exploded together for the first time, a light glow illuminates from us. I pull back and look at her surprised by the glow, surprised by the intensity of the love making we just did.

Regina: Our magic it has binded

Emma: Gina I

I feel her stiffen and pull back from me. My heart starts to beat faster I know she is panicking, I try to grasp a hold of her hand. But she was too quick, she grabs her robe and throws it on her.

Regina: Emma you have to go

Emma: No Regina no….we need to talk about this, we need to talk about so many things. What was that glow?

Regina: No Emma we can't this can't be.

Emma: Our magic binded together Gina that has to mean

Regina: No Emma it doesn't mean that. You have to go. We can't do this anymore, we can't be together anymore

Emma: No Gina you don't mean that. You can't do this. I know your scared hell I am terrified but I know what this means, I know you felt it just now. Tonight was

Regina: NO STOP EMMA JUST STOP….. We should never have started this

Emma: WHAT? NO you don't mean that Gina, we are supposed to find a happy ending. Our happy ending is together

Regina: NO I am not meant to have a happy ending the author of the book said so. You Emma are the saviour, the product of true love. You deserve a happy ending not me, now go to your pirate he will give you your happy ending. This was all going to end eventually any ways, we could never go public about us and we both deserve more than a secret fling. Now Miss Swan if you would please excuse yourself and leave my house.

I run toward her grabbing her arms pulling her towards me kissing her giving her everything I got, but this time she doesn't kiss back, this time she pushes me away.

Regina: Stop making a fool of yourself Miss Swan I am done with you. This thing is over it was all a mistake. Now leave before I make you leave.

I stand there staring at her in complete and utter disbelieve, my heart was aching it felt like it was being crushed. In that moment I wanted to scream at her to rip my heart our and actually crush it, because this was more painful. All I could do was stare at her and fight back the tears that were starting to burn in my eyes. This wasn't how it was supposed to be, we were supposed to have a happy ending. I told my mom about us, I left Killian because she is my heaven she is my everything and now she is looking at me with nothing but disgust.

Emma: Tell me you don't love me. Tell me you don't love me and I will leave.

I stare at her waiting for her to respond, hoping that she will tell me she does love me. Hoping that she won't do this, hoping that what just happened only scared her that she didn't mean anything she had just said. I have a super power and I know when people are lying and I sure in the hell know when Regina is lying.

Regina: I don't love you Miss Swan, this was simply just about sex, scratching an itch and now I am done. You have gotten attached and this cannot continue. Didn't anyone ever tell you love is weakness.

I am dumbfounded and in that moment I couldn't breathe she wasn't lying and if she was she was doing a really good job at it and I couldn't believe this was happening. I quickly grabbed my clothes needing to get out of there before I couldn't hold the tears back anymore. Grabbing my stuff I ran out the door as soon as it shut behind me the tears came pouring down my face.

Emma: I love you Gina

This is a modern fairy tale
No happy endings
No wind in our sails
But I can't imagine a life without
Breathless moments
Breaking me down, down, down, down

PRESENT DAY

I am sitting on my couch and feel the tears burning my eyes and before I realize what's happening I am crying, crying for the love I lost, crying for the fool I was to believe that she would love me. Crying because no matter what I am still in love with her and marrying someone else because she doesn't want me. Tonight was going to be a long night, it already has with my mom staying here tonight and Ruby, Belle and Granny being here tonight celebrating my last night as a free woman, but I held it together until they left and my mom went to bed. Finally I allow the tears to fall and allow myself one last cry before I say my vows tomorrow. Tomorrow I vow to let go of Regina forever, I have accepted she will always have my heart but I have to let her have it and move on, it's been 9 months and she barely even looks at me and when she does it is with disgust, our conversations are short and abrupt like they once had been. My thoughts are interrupted again when I hear a knock at the door. Who the hell would be here at this time of night, I open the door and almost gasp at who is standing there.

Emma: R...R...Regina what are you...

Before I can finish my sentence I feel Regina grab me by the waist pulling me close and crashing her lips against mine. I know I should push her away, slap her, yell at her but god her lips feel amazing, it feels amazing having her pushed against me. I can taste the apple cider on her as she continues to intensify the kiss, her tongue looking for permission and I slowly allow her tongue to meet mine. Oh god how I have missed this, 9 months since I last felt Regina's mouth on mine, 9 months since I last had her in my arms, and then it hits me 9 months ago she broke my fucking heart, 9 months ago she told me she didn't love me, 9 months ago my whole world came crashing down. Finally my head catches up and I push her away. I am getting married tomorrow she is too late, this is too late. What the hell.

Emma: Regina what the hell

Regina: Emma I'm sorry. Please just let me come in and explain.

The heart wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants
It wants what it wants

I stand there looking at the love of my life, my true love, my heaven, my everything staring at me with a look of confusion, anger, resentment, and fear on her face.

Regina: Please I just I just

I stand there staring at her, she looks broken against my better judgement I open the door to let her in. Knowing I should slam the door in her face and move on because I am getting married tomorrow. But my heart can't do it.

Emma: Come in

The heart wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants

Song: The Heart wants what it wants by Selena Gomez

What will Regina say and what will Emma do?