[[From episode 6: It's A Wonderful Rae, Part 2]]
It clicked. It all made sense now.
"I'm actually mad."
Everything made sense to Finn. He knew there was more to Rae, something she was hiding. The time she'd spent in the hospital was now made clear to everybody, and certain habits of Rae's that Finn had noticed just made so much sense.
And it was okay. Of course it was okay. It was refreshing to hear someone speak the truth so calmly, so openly. It was refreshing to see Rae come alive as she confessed to the weight that had been holding her down for so long. And she looked better for it; she seemed pleased with herself, relieved.
Rae was the bravest person Finn had ever known, because he could never be so honest or unafraid.
"...any man that I've ever come in contact with, in any way, really... but, well, some more than others."
Their gazes met and everything clicked again. They hadn't exchanged words since the morning after the rave, and even then it had been tense. Finn had caught Rae kissing Archie, just when he was about to approach her himself. Then things had happened with Chloe, and those things shouldn't have happened. It had all been in the heat of the moment. But he couldn't get out of it, and he felt bad, and Chloe was great, and Rae didn't seem as interested as he was... so they were together, but for a brief time, because he just couldn't lead her on like that. They were friends now, and that was it.
Now, a chance to fix things with Rae seemed hopeful.
After her speech, he left, needed air. Told Archie he was getting food.
He walked for a while and tried to think things through. Was Rae interested? Did she feel the same way? It seemed likely now, or perhaps he was just being overly positive. Either way, it only felt right to tell her soon. But what should he say? He was never good with words. Never had been. Maybe he would be one day.
All the thinking built up his appetite, and since he told Archie he was going to the chippy, it seemed like the perfect place to go. There, he could do more thinking and feed his appetite. But as he approached the shop, he spotted a very familiar figure standing by the window, looking lost, defeated.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
It was all he could say when Rae was looking at him.
Why didn't you tell me about the hospital? Why didn't you tell me how you felt about me?
"I wanna tell you something."
Finn was no good with words, no good with speaking. So, with his heart beating hard against his chest, and in a moment of bravery, he stepped forward, pulled Rae to him, and began to trace what he wanted to say on the smooth of her back.
The closeness felt right, and the words he wrote even more so.
He was afraid, but he let it go in that one moment. Just as Rae had done through her speech in front of all of those people. Finn had done something, not quite as brave, but brave nonetheless. He admitted his feelings.
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"So, what now?"