REGINA'S POV

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one

After leaving Emma's I wipe away my tears and start my walk home. I could still smell her on me, I could still feel her lips on mine, my whole body feels Emma, everything is Emma. My heart is officially broken I royally fucked this up, my damn mothers thoughts in my head love is weakness, no it's not weakness, love hurts. That's the difference it isn't that it's weakness it just hurts when you open your heart to someone and let them have it and they don't give it back to you. I walk into my living room and my mind flashes to Emma, we had sex here on the floor in front of the fireplace.

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

FLASHBACK

It was our 1 month anniversary as Emma wanted to call it, 1 month we had been together, sneaking around every night. I am finally glad that Emma has learned to transport herself using magic, this way no one knows what we are doing or that she is even here. I could tell Emma was happy about this so called Anniversary so I wanted to make it special for her, for us because well I love seeing her smile and hearing her laugh. God dammit I am falling for that damn sheriff and I am quite conflicted about it really. Love is weakness and I shouldn't allow myself to fall in love with her, but there is just something about that sheriff that I can't help but feel so many things for her. I haven't felt this way since Daniel and I never imagined that I ever would again, especially not with Emma Swan. I carefully place the blanket and some pillows down on the floor by the fire, I remember Emma saying she had always wanted to have a picnic and make love to someone in front of a fire, so tonight that is exactly what was going to happen. Walking back into the kitchen I grab some wine and glasses, some sandwiches, and don't forget the strawberries and whip cream for dessert, although just the sheriff alone would be enough for dessert. Quickly I run upstairs to change, I have just enough time before she poofs herself into my house. I grab the black and red teddy I bought specifically for Emma and specifically for tonight. I quickly change and check over my hair and make-up tonight was going to be perfect. I smile as I make my way downstairs and lie myself down on the blanket waiting for her.

Within minutes a puff of white smoke appears in my living room and I see her standing before me, her jaw drops as do the roses she is carrying in her hands upon seeing me. I lay their smirking at her as I know this was not what she was expecting, she continues to stand their oogling me.

Regina: Well Miss Swan are you going to stand there all night oogling me like a teenage boy or are you going to come and join me.

Emma: R….Right uhm no I…..

I love it when she is speechless and caught off guard, she gets all flustered and her cheeks turn red and she stumbles over her words.

Regina: Just get down here Emma

I smile as she finally approaches me, grabbing her by her jacket I pull her down on top of me, capturing her lips in one of the most passionate and sweet kisses we have ever shared, my hands intertwining in her hair. This kiss, this moment was perfect and I felt my heart start racing a mile a minute.

Regina: Happy anniversary my saviour

Emma: Happy anniversary my queen. What is all this?

Regina: This is a picnic in front of a fire

Emma: You remembered?

Regina: Of course I remembered I remember everything you tell me

I look up at her feeling her fingers caressing my face, my one hand resting on her lower back holding her as tight against me as I can. I see the tears well up in her eyes and can't help but think how beautiful and how fragile she looked in this moment, it's like no one has ever thought to do something like this for her before.

Emma: No one has ever

I pull her face closer to mine and capture her lips against mine, pressing lightly while my hands roam up and down her back. I graze my tongue along her lips waiting for the access I am needing, once she parts her lips my tongue swirls around hers. I roll her over and sit myself up my center pressed against hers, looking down at her I see the desire and need in her eyes for me and my breathe catches when I realize that she wants me. I pull her up sliding her jacket off her body and frantically start unbuttoning the damn blouse she decided to wear tonight, cursing her slightly between frantic kisses for making it take longer to strip her down. Once the buttons were undone and the shirt was discarded my mouth moves to feather light kisses down her neck while working on the clasp of her bra. Oh god how I wanted to free her breasts. Once they were exposed I lay her back down so I can continue my seduction of her. My tongue instantly swirls around her one nipple while massaging the other and alternating back and forth between the two. I feel her body trembling and responding to every touch. Sliding down her body my mouth leaves kisses all the way down to her belly button while I quickly work to release her pants sliding her underwear off with them, she whimpers when my mouth and hands slide up her thighs, her breathing becoming more ragged. Finally my tongue finds it's target, sliding slowly up her wet slit, tasting her juices, I feel myself getting wet as soon as I tasted her. My tongue continues it's light assault of her core and every so often plunging into her then sucking up her juices. My goal to make her cum by just using my tongue, her hands are wrapped in my hair and her body reacting to my every move, hips bucking, breathing becoming more and more rapid.

Emma: Oh babe oh god…so close

One more swirl and one more suck and I feel her release, hear her screaming my name as she cums all over my face. I don't stop until I feel her body relax before kissing my way up her body, pushing myself tightly against her capturing her lips in mine once again.

Emma: You have way too much on Madame Mayor

She pushes me up so I have returned to my previous position my legs straddling her sides. Her hands slide up my thighs and capture the hem of the teddy.

Emma: I love this, my favourite colours on you.

Regina: I know that is why…

Before I can finish my sentence the silk lacy teddy was lifted over my head, my body exposed to her. My nipples harden instantly from the cool air and her hands start their work on my breasts. God this woman's hands were like magic, she didn't have to do much and I could feel my orgasm building. She quickly sits up capturing a nipple in her teeth lightly biting while her hands roam up and down my back as she continues to assault my nipples switching back and forth between them. God I need her now but I have learnt not to rush the sheriff or she takes even longer giving me my release, this is the one time she has power over me and the one time I give it to her.

Regina: OH Emma god baby

She quickly flips me over, I can feel she is needing me and she can't wait much longer. Her hands roam to the top of my panties before slipping a finger along the top elastic teasing me just enough before she slides them down my legs. She doesn't waste any time before I feel her kiss my clit, sucking and swirling her tongue along it, my body instantly reacts my hips bucking up wanting more, needing more. She takes her tongue and slides it up and down my wet slit slowly sucking and licking while her fingers rub my clit in a slow circular motion one she knows drives me crazy and eventually brings me to my peak. Finally I explode and she masterly licks up every drop before sliding up my body while I am still screaming her name and my hands are clutched the blanket beneath us. She captures my lips in hers before she smiles down at me.

Emma: God I love you

Hearing those words made my heart race, we have never said those words before. I could see the sincerity in her eyes, she meant it. I could see the panic start to flush over her face as she realized what she said and that I wasn't saying anything back.

Regina: I love you Emma

I pulled her lips to mine again, and wrapping her in my arms pulling a blanket over us. Wine and food forgotten as I just hold her in my arms and for the first time in a month I did the one thing I never expected to do.

Regina: Stay tonight

Emma: Forever

That night we fell asleep in front of the fire wrapped in up in eachothers arms, for the first night since we started this, Emma stayed the night.

I can do it

I can do it

I can do it

PRESENT DAY

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

Looking at the fireplace I could feel the anger and the pain of losing Emma building inside me, I grabbed the vase beside me and threw it at the fireplace hearing it break and smash to pieces on the floor, I grab the next thing I can find and before I know it I have destroyed my living room, before collapsing to the ground crying in agony, my heart hurts so much. Oh god, how the hell did this happen? It should be me marrying Emma tomorrow not some damn pirate. I'm not sure how long I lay on the floor screaming out and crying in the most amount of pain I have ever experienced in my life, before arms are wrapping around me.

Regina: What the hell? Ch….Ch….Charming? Oh god what…..

Before I can finish my sentence, I feel his arms wrap tighter around me.

Charming: Shhhh Regina, I'm here to check on you

Regina: Why?

Charming: Because you love my daughter and my daughter loves you. You're both hurting and if anyone knows what it feels like to have your heart broken by the one you love it's me.

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything

I don't know if I should push him away as this is fucking Prince Charming or allow the comfort of someone caring enough to check on me. Wait did he say she loves me? He must be delusional she doesn't love me anymore. Wait how the hell did he know?

Regina: How?

Charming: Snow is with Emma she heard what happened and called me to check on you.

Regina: Why?

Charming: Because no matter are history, no matter the past, no one deserves to go through this by themselves. Let me help you Regina.

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

I finally cave and lean into the embrace and let myself cry. This isn't like me to let someone see me this way, but I just can't take it anymore. I continue to cry until I can't cry anymore in the comfort of Charming's arms. After what seemed like an eternity, I pull back and wipe my tears, nodding at him.

Regina: Thank you

Charming: So what do you say I help you tidy up here.

Regina: I…sure

After we finish cleaning up my living room, we head into the kitchen and grab a glass of cider.

Charming: So Regina are you really going to give up?

Regina: What?

Charming: Are you really going to just give up? Walk away from Emma? Let her marry Killian?

Regina: She doesn't love me anymore

Charming: If you honestly believe that then maybe you don't deserve her

Regina: Excuse me?

Charming: If you honestly believe she doesn't love you anymore then you don't deserve her.

Regina: She told me tonight she doesn't love me anymore, that it was too late.

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I feel the tears begin to form in my eyes again but no way I will allow myself to break again.

Charming: Kind of like how you told her you didn't love her?

Regina: I….Well….I

Charming: Exactly my point. The Regina I know would never just give up that easy would she?

Regina: I….I…..damn you really are Prince Charming.

Charming: Well goodnight Regina, I should head home, I might have a busy day cancelling wedding plans tomorrow.

I am stunned, totally stunned as I see him smile at me grabbing his jacket, turning to leave.

Regina: Wait why? Why are you doing this?

Charming: Because I love my daughter very much and I want her happy with her true love, and as much as I like Killian I don't think he is it. To be honest I have never seen her as happy as she was those 3 months she was with you, I have also never seen my daughter break the way she did when you ended it either. Emma deserves a happy ending, she brought back my happy ending, she deserves one as do you. Good night Regina.

I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
'Til I've had enough

For the third time tonight since he came here I am left speechless. Could he be right? Did Emma lie to me tonight? Could she love me? I know what I need to do.

'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

ok so don't hate me lol. I can't just dive in with what Emma is going to do. There needs to be more angst before we get there...lol but trust me we will get there. I also want to show glimpses into their history :)