EMMA'S POV
Stand there like a ghost
Shaking from the rain, rain
She'll open up the door
And say, are you insane?
Say it's been a long six months
And you were too afraid to tell her what you want
And that's how it works
It's how you get the girl
And then you say
I leave my apartment and decide to walk over to my parent's house where I know Killian is and Henry, oh god Henry I haven't thought about what this would do to Henry. I feel the anxiety building as I get to their house and head in and see my dad standing there ready to greet me, instantly he pulls me into his arms and hugs me tight, I feel myself instantly relax in his arms.
Emma: Hey dad
Charming: Hey sweetheart.
Emma: Where is Killian?
Charming: Out back he is teaching Henry some sword fighting. Hey Henry is going to be fine you know. Everything will be fine.
I smile and give him a light nod. I sometimes hate how optimistic my parents are, but maybe it isn't such a bad thing being optimistic. I squeeze my dads hand before I head through the house out to the back yard. I stand and smile as I watch Killian and Henry play fighting, I'm not sure how long I am standing there before I hear Henry call out to me and his arms wrapping tightly around me.
Henry: Mom what are you doing here?
Emma: I came to talk to Killian and you, but first I need to talk to Killian.
Henry looks up at me and I know he can read me well, he knows what is going to happen, he knows why I am here and a look of sadness washes over his face. He has only ever wanted a family and he was hoping that this was finally going to be it, and now I have to break it to him that Killian and I won't be getting married.
Emma: Why don't you go inside and find grandpa.
Henry: Alright
Killian: Emma love what are you? No wait a minute it's bad luck for me to see you before the…..Wait unless we aren't.
I look at him as he first covers his eyes and then uncovers them, the realization hitting him. He sits down beside me and takes my hand in his and in that moment the tears start sliding down my cheeks. I never wanted to hurt him, I never wanted any of this. None of this was supposed to happen, it was always supposed to be me and Regina, and then well Regina went and screwed it all up and Killian was always there, he never gave up on me and now here I am giving up on him.
I want you for worse or for better
I would wait for ever and ever
Broke your heart, I'll put it back together
I would wait for ever and ever
Killian: We aren't getting married are we?
Emma: I'm sorry I am so sorry.
Killian: It's because of her isn't it?
Emma: I'm sorry I didn't want any of this
Killian: And by this you mean us?
Emma: I….I….well I
Killian: So why Emma? Why did you say yes when I asked you to marry me? Why did you plan this wedding to only call it off a few hours before?
Emma: I did want this Killian
Killian: Just not with me. You want it with her?
He was right I did want it with Regina, I've always wanted it with Regina, I just never thought that I could have it with her and now, now I know that I can.
Emma: I really hoped that we could have made it, I never intended for this to happen.
Killian: What happened? What changed?
Emma: Regina, she….she came to see me last night
Killian: What happened?
Emma: I…I am so sorry
Killian: You fucked her didn't you? She breaks your heart and it takes months for you to heal from it and she comes to you the night before our wedding and you fuck her and now you're going to throw us away, everything we have built.
Emma: It's not like that, I just, I just gave her my heart a long time ago and I never did get it back. I thought that I was over her, but I'm not over her. I can't live without her Killian, no matter how hard I have tried my heart aches for her and I can't ignore it anymore. I can't pretend to be happy and ignore what my heart is telling me.
Killian: Unbelievable, after everything I did for you. I gave up my ship for you, I followed you all over realms all because I love you. I never broke your heart and left you to feel like you meant nothing. I would have given you the world.
Emma: I know and I really wanted to be with you. I really wish it could have been different. But I can't marry you, you deserve to have someone who will love you the way you deserve, not someone who can't ever give you her heart.
Killian: What makes you think she won't break your heart again?
Emma: I don't know, but I can't just forget about her either. What if she doesn't break it again? What if for the first time in months my heart will feel whole again?
I want you for worse or for better
I would wait for ever and ever
Broke your heart, I'll put it back together
I would wait for ever and ever
I stand up and take off my ring handing it too him, fighting back the tears that I know are there. I see the pain in his eyes as he takes the ring he gave me back.
Killian: I don't want to lose you Emma
Emma: I'm sorry Killian
I lean up and kiss him softly on the lips, never once feeling the electricity I felt when my lips connected with Regina's. I sigh knowing that this was the right thing to do. I turn and head back into the house. 1 down 1 more to go. I see Henry and my dad sitting in the living room with Neal.
Emma: Hey kid I think we should get going. How about some hot cocoa at Granny's and a little talk.
Henry: Alright I will just go grab my stuff.
Emma: Thanks dad for everything.
Charming: Emma I am proud of you. I just thought you should know that, what you did isn't easy but you deserve to be happy and you deserve to follow your heart.
Emma: I just hope this wasn't a mistake.
Charming: Do you love her?
Emma: Yes
Charming: Then the only mistake would have been to ignore it
Henry: Ready mom?
Emma: Yes lets go. Bye dad
Henry: Bye grandpa, Bye Neal.
Charming: Bye Emma, Bye Henry. I think Neal and I here should go out back and check on someone.
Henry and I head out of the house and start our walk to Granny's. I'm really not sure what to say to him, and I know he is patiently waiting for me to explain why I did this.
Emma: Henry, I love you, you know that right?
Henry: Of course. I love you too
Emma: I know that you were really wanting a family, and I really am sorry about Killian but I….I…
Henry: But you love my mom
Emma: I…I…You really are a smart kid aren't you?
Henry: Of course I am. But you still didn't answer my question.
Emma: Yes I love your mom, I have always loved your mom.
Henry: Okay then but mom don't screw this one up okay?
Emma: Oh kid I really don't want to screw this one up
Henry: Good I am glad she finally came to her senses and came to see you
Emma: What?
Henry: I told her she couldn't let you marry Killian. It would have been a mistake as he isn't your true love, she is. And true love should never be apart.
Emma: You oh my god
Henry: Now I just hope you both don't screw it up so we can be a family.
Remind her how it used to be, be
Yeah, yeah
With pictures in frames, of kisses on cheeks, cheeks
Tell her how you must've lost your mind
When you left her all alone
And never told her why
And that's how it works
That's how you lost the girl
And now you say
I am shocked as I see Henry smile up at me before running into Granny's. He knew this entire time, and he never said a word. I walk into Granny's behind him and we order our hot cocoa's to go, I am thankful for Ruby and Granny not saying a word about the wedding not happening and we slowly head back home.
Emma: Mom were back
Snow: Hi sweetheart, so I cancelled everything and well you two look happy. How did it go?
Henry: Well I am going to go upstairs to my room so you can talk
Emma: Well it went better than expected. I do hate that I hurt him though.
Snow: I understand that but I think you would have hurt him worse by marrying him when you are in love with Regina.
Emma: I can't believe you're okay with me being in love with Regina
Snow: Well I may not have been overly happy about it at first but I know I have never seen you as happy as you were those 3 months you were with her. I only want you to be happy Emma, that's all I have ever wanted.
Emma: Thanks
Snow: So now what are you going to go over to Regina's and finally tell her you love her?
Emma: Actually it has been a long and emotional day, I also just ended my relationship with Killian, I don't think it is appropriate to just run over to her right away. Besides I'm still not 100% sure what to do with her yet.
I want you for worse or for better
I would wait for ever and ever
Broke your heart, I'll put it back together
I would wait for ever and ever
I watch Snow's frown, I think she was hoping that I would just run over there and confess my love to Regina and we would live happily ever after, but this isn't fairytale land this is the real world and I am still hurt by her.
And that's how it works
That's how you get the girl, girl, oh
And that's how it works
That's how you get the girl, girl
Snow: Well then why don't you take out those letters she wrote you and start reading them, don't take too long Emma, she is your true love and you both have wasted so much time by being stubborn.
Emma: The letters I almost forgot about the letters.
Snow: How about I take Henry home with me and leave you to do some reading?
Emma: Uhm sure….Hey Kid
Henry: Ya mom.
Emma: Grandma wants to know if you would like to go back to her house for the night?
Henry: Awesome let me grab my stuff.
And you-ou kno-ow
That I don't want you to go
Remind me how it used to be
Pictures in frames of kisses on cheeks
And say you want me, yeah, yeah
After saying goodbye to my son and mother, I shut the door and walk over to the drawer where I placed the letters and Regina's heart. Taking them out, I sat down on the couch pulling out the first letter.
My dearest Emma,
Tonight I broke your heart and not just yours but my own as well. Tonight I let my worries and fears cloud my judgement, and I am too damn stubborn to admit that I made the biggest mistake of my life. Tonight was the most amazing night we had ever shared together, it was the first night we officially made love and our magic binded, binding us together and making us one. Sure we had made love before, but that was the most intense love making we ever had. Tonight signified what we both wanted and what we both needed but the idea that you were my true love scared me, the last time I thought I had true love, his heart was ripped out of his chest and crushed right in front of me. I never wanted this to happen and I wish I could take it all back but I can't.
I love you
Yours Forever,
Regina
And then you say, I want you for worse or for better
I would wait for ever and ever
Broke your heart, I'll put it back together
I would wait for ever and ever
I sat there reading these words and crying, she was scared and I knew she was scared, why didn't I fight harder. I pull out the next letter and the next and the next, all confessing her love for me. I could almost feel the pain coming from the letters, the pain of losing me, the pain of seeing me with Killian, the pain and love that we lost. I pick up another letter and realize it was from the day Killian proposed to me.
My dearest Emma,
You got engaged today, I thought my heart was going to break into a million pieces, the only thought that went through my head is how that was supposed to be me. It was supposed to be us, I wanted to propose to you and even imagined how I would do it. It would be you, me, and Henry during one of our family evenings, and he would be in on it and it would have some ridiculous but funny operation name. I would surprise you with your favourite dinner, then we would watch a movie together, Henry on the floor and you and I snuggled up in our favourite blanket. I would wait for the perfect moment to slip the ring on your finger when you weren't expecting anything and ask you to marry me. You would cry and of course say yes and then when the movie was over and Henry was in bed. I would take you in my arms my new fiancé and we would make love all night long, I would make you scream out my name and it would be like music to my ears. God Emma how the hell did that damn pirate get to take away the moment I have thought about for months and months, the moment that I had planned out in my head. And he wasn't even romantic about it, you deserved romance, you deserved to be spoiled and loved. Oh please Emma I wish you wouldn't marry him.
I love you so much
Yours forever,
Regina
And that's how it works
That's how you get the girl, girl, oh
And that's how it works
That's how you get the girl, girl
She wanted to marry me? What the hell, the thought of her proposal made my heart swell, it would have been perfect, it would have been so us. I can't take it anymore, I still have several letters to read, but I have read enough I need to see her. I need her to know I didn't get married, I need her to know I want everything she has sad in these letters. I want to marry her one day, I want to make love to her every night and lay wrapped up in each others arms, I want to have a family, a future and a life with her. Dropping everything and grabbing the box with her heart I head out my door. I need to see Regina now.
REGINA'S POV
I hear a knock at the door, slowly I make my way over not even caring that I have tear stained cheeks and red puffy eyes. I lost Emma today, today she married Hook, of all people to lose her to I lost her to a damn one handed pirate. I open the door and gasp when I see who is standing in front of me.
And that's how it works
That's how you get the girl, girl, oh
And that's how it works
That's how you get the girl, girl
Emma: Gina
Regina: Em….Emma what are you?
Before I know what's happening she wraps her arms around me and presses her lips to mine. The kiss is passionate and rough, she was pouring everything into that kiss, and I am eager to return. I glide my tongue along her lips waiting for her to open, once our tongues touch I feel a spark ignite in me, pulling her closer and deepening the kiss even more, it's getting harder to breathe but I don't care right now, I have the love of my life kissing me and I never want to let go.
And that's how it works
That's how you get the girl, girl
Song: How to get the girl by Taylor Swift
Sorry for the delay been really busy withmy birthday and Christmas, Not to mention computer issues.