Chapter 07
Jimmy sat on the balcony outside the room he was sharing with Gibbs and Tim. After waking from his third nightmare, he gave up on sleeping anymore worked his way out from between Tim and Gibbs. Grabbed his laptop and gone out on the balcony. He figured to let Tim and Gibbs sleep longer and that they could not miss him sitting out there. He was sure his movements woke them up but he figured once they saw he planned to go no further than the balcony they'd go back to sleep.
No sooner had he walked out on the balcony and Willow had called. After assuring her, he was fine and no he did not need rescuing. He had spent the next hour or so filling her in. Although he did admit, he left a few things out that were just embarrassing. He thought to himself grimacing as he did. Like being tossed clothes and all in the shower by Tim. He knew if he told Willow. That she would tell everyone and thank you, he did not need wet dog jokes for the rest of his life.
Once he was done though her reaction was the last he expected and he was regretting what he did tell her. However, he so wanted someone to bitch for a while before his watchers got up for the day and called him inside. Therefore, he figured they were alone so why not get a good rant or two out. However, that is not how she was taking it. Willow had gotten angry and told him he was being unreasonable, childish and selfish in his thinking that this only affected him.
Jimmy stared at her mouth hanging open as he looked at her in shock. Finally, Jimmy snapped out of it and said angrily. "What the Fuck are you insane? What… Why? I don't." He sat back in astonishment and anger and finally rubbed his face in weariness. Oh man Willow was about to go off on him he saw all the signs. He so did not need this now. He opened his mouth to tell her so.
Willow looked at her friend and brother in all but blood in amusement and said sweetly but with steel covered by lace in her tone. "Are you finished Jay? Can I explain now? Or did you call me to have someone to rant to about how the world is against you boo hoo."
Jimmy glared at her and said. "Can I stop you?"
"No. Now be a good brother and listen to me." Willow said firmly
Jimmy glared at her but nodded. Knowing better than to argue with her.
"Now I listened to all that you've told me and while I understand where you're coming from. In addition, I completely understand why you do not want to be in another pack. But Jay, well honey there's no nice way to put this."
"Spit it out Willow." Jimmy said glaring.
"You've been behaving like a spoiled brat that is determined to get his own way. No matter who gets hurt in the process and that's just not like you." Willow said and was about to continue but stopped when Jimmy stood up ranting. "What the hell? How can you say that…?"
"James Alexander Palmer sit your ass down and listen to me. Right this minute." Willow snapped out.
Jimmy ass hit the chair before he even comprehended what he was doing. He growled at her when he realized what she had done.
"Don't you dare growl at me you overgrown puppy. You need to hear this and you will. I have listened to you talk about the people you work with for years. In addition, I know you love them. No don't you dare interrupt me Mister. I know you love them Jay. This is your fear guiding you. I do not want you to miss something that can make you both happy and safe. Not to mention finally give you the mate you always wanted because of blind fear. Tell me right now if any of them has ever hurt or abused you physically or mentally. Tell me Jay and I will get you out of there today and hide you myself. They'll never find you." Willow said.
Jimmy shook his head and pouted as he said. "No they haven't."
"So why are you fighting this so hard? You told me that you feel safe with them and loved and you care about them." Willow asked trying hard to figure it out.
Jimmy picked his legs up and wrapped his arms around them. He said. "I don't want another pack Willow. I just can't. I mean yeah there nice and all. And ok yeah I admit I love them even care about them but what if…"
Willow softened her voice and said. "What if you lower you guard and let yourself love them fully only to have them hurt you?"
Jimmy nodded and said. "I won't live through it a second time Willow. I barely did the first time. You remember what I was like back then. It took me years to build the life I wanted just to lose everything."
Willow said. "So that's it. You are just giving up. You think that running will solve everything. What about staying and fighting for the life you want?"
Jimmy glared as he said. "What choice do I have? I stay they control my life. I can't live like that again Willow. I leave I get to live as I choose."
Willow snorted and said. "Yeah, as you choose Jay. Spending the rest of your life looking over your shoulder. Going from one place to another hoping to keep one-step ahead of them and Clark or who-ever else they have looking for you. Waiting until this McKay person shows up again with Clark and brings you back kicking and screaming. Is that how you want to live in constant fear that they'll find you."
Jimmy chuckled and said. "Been there done that it's not so bad at least I'll be free. Moreover, if you are going to used him as the hammer get his name right. It is McGee. Timothy McGee."
Willow smirked and said. "McGee hmm. One moment."
Jimmy went wide-eyed as he said. "Willow no. Agent remember."
Willow smirked as she typed. She went through the info she had gathers on her brothers friends bringing up everything she had on one Timothy McGee. When everything was up, she began reading liking what she saw. She grinned as she said. "Too late oh worried puppy of mine. I started researching them the moment I knew you were on their radar. A girls got to keep busy after all."
Jimmy groaned and said. "Of course you did and stop calling me a puppy. You red headed harpy."
"Nope act like one, get called one. Now just relax your friends will never know I did background checks on them. Now let me see. Agent Timothy McGee Aka Thom E. Gemcity 29, one sister. Parents divorced when he was 16. The mother Krystal McGee is a nurse and a dam good one from all I have read of her. Anyways she took back her maiden name Blake after the divorce. That is until she re-married a year later and became Krystal Grey. Timothy has always been close with his mother and still calls her and his stepfather every Sunday. Timothy is also close with his sister and has dinner with her once or twice a month. His sister Sarah McGee just graduated from University. I am impressed that is a good school. Sarah McGee has a teaching job at the same school she graduated from. Now as for his Father. John McGee a Navy Admiral the Alpha of the McGee pack and has never remarried. He has no contact with his children or ex-wife. Something that is shared on both sides in mutual agreement."
Jimmy shrugged he knew most of that.
Willow rolled her eyes and continued. "Now for Mr. Agent Timothy McGee himself. Well blessed be this boy is a rabid genius. Look at this multiple degrees and two Masters all before the age of 25 and he's on the top team of NCIS and a publish bestselling author. And oh dear this can't be right. James you have some explaining to do mister."
Jimmy raised an eyebrow and said. "Really?"
"Yes why didn't you tell me your loving sister you knew the Elf Lord. You know I've wanted to meet him for ages." Willow said glaring at him.
"That's why sister dear. You and Timothy separate can work miracles with a computer. Finding or creating goddess knows what with a few key strokes and can hack places. That I do not even want to think about let alone know about. Together I fear for the world as we know it." Jimmy said shuddering.
"Aw how sweet your protecting little Timmy and me. Hmm you might need to protect him from me if he is this cute in person. Yum! With his brain and this picture, he is the perfect package. Those puppy eyes of his are dangerous." Willow said laughing on the inside at the rage building on Jimmy's face. She thought to herself just one more little push. "Of course it only shows him from the chest up. So tell me is the rest just as good. Does he have a nice ass? The few men I have dated have had a cute butts and intense green eyes. Well does he?"
Jimmy growled as his eyes changed to green he said dryly. "Should I leave you alone to ogle my mate's picture sister dear?"
"Ah so you do care?" Willow said.
"Of course I care if you want to ogle my mate's ass you pervert." Jimmy shouted.
"Relax Jay. I am not after your mate. I am a happily married woman. But you must admit you are certainly very protective of a man you have no interest in." Willow said grinning.
"I already told you Willow. I cannot mate with him. He can order me to do anything and I'll have no choice but to do it." Jimmy said angrily.
"So talk to him explain why that scares you. Hell Jay sit down and talk to Tim and Gibbs about how orders make you feel trapped. Talk to them about how punishment scare you and why. You need to talk to them about whatever issues you are having or will possibly have. Then find a way for you and those friends of yours to deal with it not keep running. That won't solve anything." Willow said.
Jimmy frowned and said. "Tim's already swatted me Willow. On the same day he found out we were mates to. He is like any other Dom I have known. Using pain and orders to get his own way."
"Hmm now that doesn't sound like the Tim you use to tell me about when you worked together before this whole mess started and you two were friends. So why did he do it? Do not tell me he just started swatting you once he knew you were mates. From everything, you told me before he is the easiest going of the bunch. What happen?" Willow said.
Jimmy pouted as he told her about waking up next to Tim and everything else that happen. He ended it with whining. "You see no reason at all."
Willow raised an eyebrow and said. "So you were overtired, challenged him not once but several times. Let me see if I can picture this. I've been around you when your overtired Jay. Your grumpy, insolent and in less focusing on something and have had huge amounts of coffee. Just generally an unpleasant person to be around. I can assume being cornered and scared made your temper even shorter. So let's add bitchy to that to. While poor Timmy boy was trying to be patience with you and just get you to rest. I imagine by that point he was at the end of his rope and just wanted you to stop fighting him and get the rest you needed. Hell I would have swatted you to if it meant you finally slept."
Jimmy glared at her then said. "You're not one to talk dear sister. You are a right bitch when you cannot figure something out and will not sleep or eat until you do. Any poor soul that crosses your path had better duck and cover. Poor Faith has called me many of nights. Asking me to once again help cage the she-research beast. She then puts you on as we discuss your findings. She hides the books and research until you have eaten and slept. And don't call my mate Timmy boy. His name is Tim or McGee pick one."
Willow smiled at him then said. "Brat. Faith already told me you help her cage the she-research beast. However, if it works, it works. Your falling for him already aren't you."
Jimmy looked panicked as he said quickly. "No."
Willow grinned wider and said. "It's ok Jay. Talk to him work things out. It is ok to trust him, even let yourself fall in love with him. Problem is I think you are already starting to both trust and love Tim. And if I know you that scares you more than the idea of joining a pack."
Jimmy shook his head tears falling out of his eyes as he started to panic as he kept saying no louder and louder.
Willow sighed and cast a spell on herself to amplify her voice. "Timothy McGee I know you're listening get your happy ass out here."
A shocked Tim opened the door and stepped out. Gibbs a step behind him.
Willow ended the spell and said. "Ah two Agent for the price of one what a lucky girl I am. Timothy if you would be so kind as to help Jimmy."
Tim looked over at Jimmy he was mumbling no and shaking his head. Not stopping he scooped him up. Then went back into the room crawling on the bed Jimmy clinging to him. Tim laid down in the middle with Jimmy in his arms putting the blankets around them and hiding his mate from anyone else's view.
Gibbs seeing Jimmy was being taken care of. Picked the laptop up and carried it inside. Closing the door behind him and set it on the dining table where the young woman only saw him. He raised an eyebrow at her in question.
"Ah the famous Agent Gibbs. Is this were you integrate me Agent Gibbs? On the other hand, you could try flirting with me. I am after all a red head." Willow said with a smirk.
Gibbs glared at the soft laughing coming from under the blanket not sure, if it was Tim, Jimmy or both. At least Jimmy was not panicking anymore. He smirked at the woman as he said. "You're young enough to be my daughter young lady. In addition, from what I hear and see you are already taken. How far along are you?"
"Are you by chance telling me I'm fat Agent Gibbs?" Willow said darkly.
Gibbs heard Jimmy whisper to Tim. "Oh boy Gibbs pissed her off duck and cover Tim."
Gibbs chuckled as Tim's head disappeared the rest of the way under the covers. He turned back to the glaring yet smirking young red head. He had to admit he liked the young fiery red head and could see she was doing this for the cubs benefit. Therefore, he decided to lay the charm on extra thick. He said. "Of course not ma'am. If not for the beautiful glow of a beautiful pregnant woman. I wouldn't have known you were expecting at all."
"Wow Gibbs that was so full of charm and pure bull shit I could feed my roses for a year." Willow said eyes twinkling. She and Gibbs turned as loud laughter came from under the blanket.
Willow said loudly. "Jay are you laughing at you pregnant and hormonal sister."
Jim yelped and said. "Hide me Tim the hormonal she-beast has awoken. You deal with her don't make Gibbs face her alone."
Tim voice came out. "No way. Not after the two of you pissed her off. I am staying right here. Gibbs can deal with the hormonal she-beast alone. With them it's every man for himself."
Willow raised an eyebrow at Gibbs.
Gibbs smirked and nodded.
"Oh Elf Lord, if you would just come out from under there for a moment. I have a few things to speak to you about." Willow said teasingly.
"Not stupid lady." Tim said through the blankets.
"Even if I can introduce you to the Dark Rose." Willow said.
"Nope not falling for it. She is a myth. Not going to happen." Tim said through the blankets.
Gibbs raised an eyebrow and said. "Dark Rose?"
Willow smirked and said. "She's a legendary computer expert and some say hacker. She never travels but takes jobs from all over the world. No one knows her identity. Because no matter the job. Once done she disappears without a trace only taking the payment agreed on and leaving a dark rose as her signature. She also rumored to be able to hack any system and able to get into anything. We are very close and the last time we spoke, she asked me if I had ever heard about someone with the name Elf Lord. She told me he was good and with some training, he could be even better. However, if Timmy boy wants to pass the chance up. I will just tell her he is not interested. Too bad she was very interested on discussing an apprenticeship with him as well as a project that he might enjoy."
The blanket came down to show a shocked Tim. Jimmy ignored him as he held the blanket down and glared at Willow as he said. "Tim or McGee pick one Willow. Or I will tell your wife how you want to check out my mate's ass."
Willow smirked as she said. "Already did Jay you're a lucky boy. Besides Faith wouldn't mind she's probably pinch it and tell you her rating on it."
Jimmy glared harder and started to growl his voice got deeper and his eyes changed. He said. "No one will touch my Mate."
Tim snapped out of his shock and realizing what was going on grabbed him and glared at a chuckling Willow before pulling the covers back over then he said firmly. "She's teasing you Jimmy relax."
From under the covers, Jimmy growled out. "She better be. No one touches you but me."
Willow could not resist she said. "I thought you weren't claiming Timmy boy."
"Bite me Bitch." Jimmy snarled.
"Can't I bite Timmy instead he's yummy." Willow said smirking.
They heard a deep growl from under the covers. Then saw movement and then a deeper growl was heard and then a whimper followed by more movement. Then nothing.
Gibbs turned back to Willow and said. "You might want to call back later. It might take Tim a while to calm him down."
Willow looked hesitant. Maybe she had pushed Jay a little too far. She said. "He won't punish him will he? I was only teasing him. It's not Jay's fault I got him worked up. Jay really needs to talk to you two first."
They heard another growl from under the blankets followed by another deeper growl and again a whimper and then nothing.
"He'll be fine ma'am I promise you we'll take care of him. Why don't you call back… On second thought. Why don't I have Jimmy call you in the morning?" Gibbs said.
Willow had tears in her eyes but nodded and signed off.
Gibbs giving the two on the bed time to calm down a little. Taking his time as he figured out how to sign jimmy out and close the laptop. He then faced the bed and said. "Jimmy you ok now?"
Tim gravelly voice came from under the covers. "He's fine Boss."
"I can answer for myself. Let me go. You overgrown…" Jimmy snarled letting loose a stream of curse words only for them to end in another whimper that ended in a whine.
Gibbs said. "I think we'll be staying in today. I will just go check in next door. Call me when you're done Tim."
Gibbs could hear growling as he left the room. He chuckled as he walked next door. It seemed that Jimmy had got over his passive stage. He knew Tim and knew that he was up for the challenge. However, it would be interesting to watch.
Tim waited until he heard the door closed and lock. Then he whipped the blankets off and got up. Then he glared down at his mate.
Jimmy looked up defiantly and glared.
"Pack your gear and be ready to leave in ten minutes." Tim said indifferently.
"What?" Jimmy said shocked.
"You want to leave. You want no part of me or the pack. That much you have made clear. So while Gibbs is next door keeping your brother busy as he thinks I am punishing you for your disrespect and tantrum. I will drive you to the airport and buy you a one way ticket any place you want to go. One time offer Palmer." Tim said.
Jimmy blinked and said angrily. "What the fuck are you thinking McGee? Gibbs, Tony and Clark will see us leave and want to know why."
Tim picked him up by his shirt and said inches from his face. "I'm thinking that every inch of me wants to turn you over my knee and tan your insolent spoil brat ass. However, as I sat here less than an hour ago listening to you. I realized that I do not want to spend the rest of my life searching for you or stopping you from running. Nor do I want you to be afraid of me or the pack I consider family. Therefore, as much as I want you in my life Jimmy and want to take care of you and be taken care of by you. I will not force you, it would kill me slowly and I believe you as well. So grab your shit and get your ass to the car before Gibbs gut starts talking and he comes back and tans both our asses."
Tim then dropped him on the bed and went into the bathroom to calm down.
Jimmy sat on the bed shocked and something else he could not put his finger on. He got up numb as he picked up his bag and then changed his clothes. Then collected his stuff from around the room and put it back in his bags. By the time, he was finished Tim silently led him down to the car. A few minutes later, they were going down the road Tim still had not looked at or spoken a word to him.
An hour later, they were at the airport and waiting in line. Tim still had not spoken to or looked at him. Jimmy looked around and felt a panic attack coming on. He needed to be alone and regroup. Now! Before he lost it in the middle of the airport. First, he had to remember how to move. He finally was able to move and slowly stepped out of line. Ignoring Tim finally speaking to him Jimmy was too busy concentrating on keeping himself together until he was alone.
Jimmy made his way as quickly as he could to the men's room. He went into the handicap stall and locked the door. He set his bags against the wall and sunk to the floor. Letting go of his tight control, he began breathing fast his world closing in as he fought not to throw up. He tried to remember his breathing and focused on that. However, it was not working and he started seeing black dots as his vision swayed. After that, his thoughts raced as he tried to think of something to calm himself down.
Memories of Tim flashed into his mind. His smile, him laughing or the cute little frown he got when trying to solve something difficult. The way he lit up when he solved it. The mischief that filled his green eyes when he was up to something. Even the hurt and anger he had seen on his face over the last few days. Jimmy grabbed onto them with both hands. As he looked at them from his mind's eye, he calmed down and his breathing settled. Until he rested against the wall exhausted but strangely calm.
Jimmy started thinking of the last few days and seeing it from another side. He cursed when he realized Willow was right. He had been a spoiled tantrum-throwing brat. No Tim was not a saint by any means but he had been as patience as he could be. Any other wolf would have snapped and beaten the shit out of him by now. Tim only did something when he had had enough and knew what needed done just needed done and done now. Not an hour ago when Jimmy's tantrum began. Yet every time he needed him, Tim had been there. Only for Jimmy to throw it back in his face or shove him away.
Jimmy banged his head on the wall. He was an idiot. Could he walk away from Tim now? No he could not he realized. However, could he accept him fully? What about the pack?
Jimmy decided to break down his biggest fears.
Could he trust Tim with full control over him?
Well to be honest he did not know the amount of control Tim would have. However, would it matter? The last few days Tim had almost full control over his actions just by using his given name. Sure, he would fight the order but in the end, he complied no matter how hard he fought. Hell that first night as tired as he was. Tim could have told him to strip and let him fuck him raw. If he used James, he would have done it. Nevertheless, he didn't and he could have.
Jimmy started breathing hard again as that last sentence swirled in his mind. Until he had, a spare thought run through his mind. Tim would never hurt him, no matter what control he had over him. Tim loved his little mate and could never hurt him. Oh, he would punish him, get frustrated with him, fight with and for him, and argue with him when he was being stubborn but he'd never abuse him. Jimmy blush at the thought of being call anyone's little anything but he found that as he though it through it calmed him.
Jimmy breath quickened again as he thought more on the punishment part of it. Could he deal with Tim punishing him?
Forcing himself to breathe through the panic. He pushed thoughts of Tim away or tried to. Memories of that first night of Tim swatting him. The swat stung but were not bad. He was sure the swats would turn into spankings. More than likely sooner rather than later from what Tim said before they left the hotel. The only other punishment he had was when Tim pinned him down today. Even when he pinned him to calm him though, he had not really hurt him and it had helped him calm down. Both punishments were enough to get the message across to stop and calm down, and then it was over. He would have to talk to Tim about punishments that would cause him to go into a blind panic. As hard as that would be, he had to do it.
The Pack, could he join another pack? A mate was one thing but a pack.
Jimmy thought of all the members and he realized with shock that he more than missed them. He felt a hole in his heart not knowing how they were doing. For the first time last night things had felt right when he was caring for Tony. He wanted to care and love them. Mother them to death when they were sick and scold them when they got hurt or did not follow doctor's orders. He finally realized why it felt so right when Gibbs his Alpha called him cub. The pack he was fighting against joining he was already a part of. He laughed until he sobbed as he realized it.
As the pieces came together, Jimmy felt stronger. He knew things would not be perfect and he would have some explaining to do along with trust issues on both sides at first. Finally deciding he stood up and opened the stall door leaving his bags in the stall. He went and washed his face, then grabbed his bags. He found Tim sitting looking miserable on a bench.
"Tim?" Jimmy said.
Tim looked up at him and said sadly. "Gibbs figured it out. He as my Alpha ordered me to bring you back willing or not, immediately. If you want to go, you need to go now Palmer. Don't worry about it. Gibb will be angry with me but he'll understand after he punishes me for going against orders."
Jimmy frowned and said. "Give me a sec. Watch my bags will you?"
Tim nodded surprised as Jimmy dropped his bags in front of him. Tim laughed when Jimmy returned a few minutes later with the biggest cup of coffee he had ever seen and handed it to him.
Jimmy grinned and said. "Come on a pissed off Gibbs only gets worse as he simmers."
Tim nodded as they made their way back to the car. Watching Jimmy as he struggled with his bags. He had offered to help but Jimmy smiled and said no thanks. Tim frowned so now he would not accept any help from him. If he was distancing himself from them, then why wasn't he fighting going back to the hotel?
Jimmy grinned at the cute frown on Tim's face. He decided as he was getting coffee that he would start being himself and let things happen. He knew he would have to talk to Tim and Gibbs eventually. However, he figured that once they were punished. Neither Tim nor he would feel like talking. It was strange although he knew what was waiting for them when they got back to the hotel he felt calm.
Less than an hour later, they pulled up in the hotel parking lot. Gibbs, Clark and Tony waiting for them. Jimmy gulped at the glares on their faces. His bags grabbed and he and Tim hustled up to the room he had shared with Tim and Gibbs last night. As soon as they entered, Gibbs moved two chairs side by side and said sipping the coffee Tim handed him. "Timothy, James sit down. Now I want to know what the hell you two were thinking and for your backsides sakes keep it short."
Jimmy looked up at Gibbs through his eyelashes and bared his neck to the shock of everyone.
Gibbs ran a gentle hand over the subs neck to calm him and said sadly. "No Jimmy. You don't have to do that."
Jimmy squirmed as Gibbs petted his neck. However, he felt warm and relaxed as he felt his callused fingers move. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Clarks shocked eyes.
Gibbs moved his hand away from Jimmy's neck and said. "Don't make me repeat myself."
"It was me Gibbs. After you left, I manhandled Jimmy and told him I could not spend my life. Stopping him from running or searching for him. That if he were forced to stay it would slowly destroy us both. And I wouldn't do that to the both of us." Tim said.
Gibbs nodded and walked over to Tim and head slapped him hard but then patted his shoulder and said. "Next time give me a heads up. I went back to the room to get my reading glasses and you two were gone. You scared the hell out of me. So Jimmy if that was the plan what happen, my call come to fast?"
Jimmy said. "I need to talk to you and Tim alone please."
Gibbs nodded and excused Tony and Clark.
Tony left looking puzzled.
Clark looked at his brother and said with a sad smile. "I'll miss you little brother."
Jimmy nodded and gave a wobbly smile. He flinched when he brother tried to hug him. He hug him a second later and said. "We'll get there Clark just give me time ok."
Clark nodded and left.
Jimmy started shaking when Gibbs and Tim both turned to him. Before they could blink, he removed his clothes and went to his knees baring himself completely and offering his neck in submission.
Tim went to stop him and was shocked when Gibbs stopped him. He was even more shocked at what happen next.
Gibbs turned to the sub on the floor and he said softly. "Are you offering yourself in distress or pure of heart true sub?"
"I James Alexander Palmer a true submissive am pure of heart as I offer myself heart and soul to Alpha Gibbs, my mate Timothy McGee, and the Gibbs Pack." Jimmy said his eyes on the floor.
"I accepted you into the pack. Once healed Rise a member of the Gibbs pack and make your offer to your mate." Gibbs said then leaned over and nipped his neck breaking skin.
Jimmy felt the break in his skin heal and he stood blushing from head to toe, as he stood naked as the days he was born. He met Tim's eyes as he said. "I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused you my mate. I was badly damage by my former pack and am still healing years later. I ask you to be patience with me as I work my way through the re-building of myself but not be blind to my mistakes and tantrums. Can you accept this until the time we chose to bond?"
Tim blinked and said. "Yes but I have a question if I may ask. What changed? You've been livid and fighting all of us since we found you?"
Jimmy blushed harder and looked down. He said. "You did. You put up with my tantrums and attitude. Yet was still there when I needed you. When it came down to it even though you knew you would face punishment and a life alone. You were willing to let me go so being forced would not hurt either of us. When we were waiting in line, I started to have a panic attack. I went to the men's room and it got worse before it got better. Once it passed. It hit me hard that only thinking of you calmed me down. I started thinking about the last few days from a new side. I realized that I have been a royal pain in the ass and acted like a spoiled brat. Yet the only time you punished me or ordered me was if I forced your hand. You are not a saint Tim. Need I mention a certain rude wakeup call? However, you still do not deserve the way I have been the last week. After that, I realized that the pack I have been fighting not to join. I'm already a member of and realized I'm a fucking idiot."
Gibbs and Tim both said. "Language."
Jimmy nodded and said. "Sorry I'll work on that. Um I want to tell you what happen with my old pack but can't. I tend to have bad flash backs when I talk about it. If it comes up in a conversation, I will have a nightmare that night. I am not hiding it. It's just really hard to talk about."
Gibbs looked over at Tim. Who nodded in agreement knowing what he would say. Gibbs then said. "When you're ready Jimmy and not before."
Jimmy nodded and said nervously not sure how they would take this next part. "Um I know that Tim can and will punish me and the pack can as well. However, theirs things that will send me into a panic attack and a few that will bring on a flash back. Sometimes just seeing the instrument and I will collapse. I am not asking you to believe me. I haven't earned that but Clark can tell you some of them and the others I have scars from."
Tim handed Jimmy his boxers and waited until he put them on then sat down on a chair and pulled him into his lap. Happy when he sighed and snuggled into him. He looked at Gibbs who nodded then he walked out.
Jimmy jumped when the door closed. He looked nervously at Tim.
Tim pulled his chin up with his finger and said. "We trust you not to lie to us about what scares you Jimmy. You have not lied to us. Yes, you have been a brat, which we will deal with shortly, but you have not lied to us about anything. As for the pack, Gibbs has already talked to them. They are to give you swats but no more than three and with a hand only. Anything else Gibbs or I will handle. Don't worry anything you tell me not to use I will share with our Alpha. Now I need to know before we deal with this last week and this morning. Is there anything involved with a spanking that I need to know about?"
Jimmy nodded and said. "Belts terrify me. I can't even wear one. Seeing them on other people is fine and if I brush up against it I might flinch but that's it."
"Ok then we'll have to see about a paddle for more serious rules broken. Would that be ok or does that fall under the same lines." Tim said.
Jimmy said trembling. "Mom and Dad paddled Clark and I. Clark has used a paddle on me to. Not fun but I can handle it. Just not belts, canes or straps."
"You ok?" Tim asked thinking it was the topic.
Jimmy closed his eyes and told himself he promised himself to be himself and be honest. He shook his head and said. "I haven't been punished by another wolf aside from my brother in several years. Even Clark has not punished me for years. Little scared is all."
Tim rubbed his back and cuddled him. He said. "I've swatted you and pinned you down a few hours ago to calm you down. Both times, you went from shock to anger. Why would this be different?"
Jimmy shook his head and said. "That's not what happen Tim. I went from startled to fight or flight. Then that turned into frustration when I could not get away. Earlier yeah, you pinned me but you also shoved your wrist under my nose. I am not sure if that was an accident or on purpose. However, your scent calmed me down. I don't want to fight you but I'm afraid I will out of instinct and hurt you in the process."
"Will pinning you help?" Tim asked.
Jimmy paled and shook his head. Pain and being pinned. No, he would remind him of and before he knew it, he fainted.
Tim freaked out and as he held Jimmy. He grabbed his phone and called Gibbs. Before he hung up Gibbs was there.
"I left you alone for less than 5 minutes what happen?" Gibbs said taking Jimmy from him and laying him on the bed.
Before Tim could answer, Jimmy came around and looked at Tim. He said fearfully. "Use whatever you want as you spank me. Just please do not pin me. Please."
Gibbs glared at Tim and said. "You asked a person with his history if you could pin him during administrating a punishment. No wonder he fainted Tim."
Tim blushed and said. "I didn't know. He said he was afraid of hurting me. I pinned him earlier twice to calm him down. He said my wrist was under his nose so my scent calmed him. I figured I'd find a way so he could smell my scent like earlier."
Gibbs rolled his eyes and said. "But there was no pain involved earlier Tim. He will need more than a scent to hold on to. Besides, didn't he have a panic attack the other day when he woke up pinned under you and Tony? Come here Tim."
Tim slowly walk over until he was standing next to Gibbs. Not even wincing when the head slap connect. He jumped when he was pushed toward the bed. He looked confused at Gibbs. Was he being punished further?
Gibbs rolled his eyes and said. "Sit on the bed have Jimmy lay over your lap. Make sure you talk so he hears your voice. That sound ok Jimmy or do you need to change something?"
"No that should be ok. Are you staying?" Jimmy said.
Gibbs raised an eyebrow and asked. "If you want me to?"
Jimmy nodded and said. "Please Alpha. I don't want to hurt him but may not be able to help it."
"Ok Cub up you get and over Tim's lap. You boys decide how many?" Gibbs asked.
Jimmy got up and now was nervously standing next to Tim not sure to take his boxers down or not.
"We didn't get that far Boss." Tim said then gently pulled Jimmy over his lap and rubbed his back.
"Hmm well Jimmy. What do you think would be fair?" Gibbs asked.
Jimmy looked over his shoulder at him in disbelief. Did Gibbs actually expect him to give a number of swats in his own spanking? This was a no win situation. If he said to high he'd add to the number Tim was thinking of. To low and he would think he was not taking it serious enough. Playing it safe, he said. "Not sure. I guess whatever Tim thinks is fair."
Gibbs hide a grin at the safe answer and said. "Well Tim?"
Tim raised an eyebrow at Jimmy's answer but said. "I was thinking 15. Ten for the insolence and tantrums these past few days and the last five for this morning. That sound fair?"
Gibbs said. "I'd add another five for his language. However, other than that. 20 sounds fair. I usually do 25 but no more than 30. However, that is my choice. Jimmy?"
Jimmy grabbed a pillow before nodding and burying his face in it. Not wanting to be heard crying out or have, them see when and if he cried. He felt Tim start to pull down his boxers. He whimpered and started fighting him.
Tim realized Jimmy was panicking. He stopped pulling his boxers down and started rubbing Jimmy's back again. He said. "Jimmy calm down. Please don't fight me and this will be over before you know it."
Jimmy shook his head franticly. When he kept moving, he felt Tim's arm go around his waist and hold him against his body as he removed his boxers and positioned him. Nevertheless, what shocked him and he went still. Was when he felt the bed move above his head and a hand wrap around his. A second later the swats started he squeezed the hand holding his. By the time the swats stopped, he was crying. He felt himself being pulled into Tim's arms and he struggled not to let go of the hand. Next thing he knew he was laying on the bed sandwich between Gibbs and Tim and he fell asleep in Tim's arms still holding Gibbs hand.
Jimmy woke up and looked around confused. Where was he, how had he gotten here. He took stock of everything confused at first. His backside was sore. He was warm and cuddled between two warm soft things. Two warm soft things that were holding him and he realized a second later they were people. He was on something soft with blankets that where on top of all three of them and pillows. Ok he is not an idiot he knew he was on a bed. The last thing he realized he was naked.
Jimmy froze with that last thought.
Why in the hell was he NAKED and who in the hell was he in bed with? As he woke up he remembered the last few days and accepting the pack and Tim. As more memories flowed, he realized Tim and Gibbs were the people. Ok he could deal with that not happy but ok.
Hmm why was he ok with that? Better question. Why was he naked and his ass sore?
Jimmy tried to think of why. One of the people mumbled and pulled him closer. He giggled when he realized whoever it was. Must have thought he was a living teddy bear. Comfortable he sighed and closed his eyes figuring more sleep was in order. When he realized again. HELLO NAKED. Puzzled that he was not freaking out about it. Forcing the fuzziness away, he tried to figure this out.
Accepted Tim as his mate. Check.
Accepted Gibbs as his Alpha. Check.
Accepted the pack. Check.
Still not freaking out. Hmm.
What else happened and what was he missing. He had not had sex that much he knew. Because although he knew he accepted Tim. They were not ready for that or to bond. So what happen?
"You thinking to loud Jimmy. Go back to sleep." Tim mumbled.
Jimmy grinned at the sleepy man and snuggled into him.
Jimmy shook his head at his sleepy mate and then it hit him. His mate punished him. Tim had spanked him. He blushed from head to toe. He remembered fighting him and Tim wrapping an arm around his waist then Gibbs holding his hand. After the punishment was over, he had not wanted to let go of Gibbs hand and next thing he knew he was laying sandwich between them.
Jimmy smiled when he realized he was still holding Gibbs hand wrapped in Tim's arms. He gave a pleased sound when he realized they had taken care of him and comforted him. He pulled gently on Gibbs hand and put it under his face. He rubbed the side of his face against it enjoying his Alpha's scent. Then pulled Tim closer. Jimmy snuggled into the nest the other two made around him and that mixed with the combination of scents they made together. He fell asleep feeling very loved and protected.
Gibbs smiled down at the happy cub. That now back asleep was making happy yipping and growling sounds as he slept. He then met eyes with a sleepy and confused Tim. He put a finger up to his lips with his free hand with a shh motion. Then he mouthed. 'He woke up confused. But figure it out and is happy now.'
Tim nodded and smiled then went back to sleep.
Gibbs thinking more sleep was a good idea. Wrapped his free arm around both cubs and drifted off to sleep himself.