AN: This is my first Fanfic so hope you enjoy. I forgot to mention that this is not beta-ed so if there are any problems please tell me.
Sorry for not updating as fast as I usually do. I have been busy with college and my friend is trying to help beta my story. So the chapter will be edited at random intervals, so I am sorry for the disorder.
Gravitation and its characters are not mine but belong to Maki Murakami. . KL Records, Illusionary Escape, Denzel, and Daniel are mine.
Summary: Shuichi finally reaches his breaking point and leaves the country to start anew. He gets a new name, new band, and changes everything about himself. When he finally returns to Japan with his new friends, will he return to his old life or keep his new one?
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Ch 8: Park Tears
Two weeks passes by since Yuki read the article on Alex's past. Trying to get into the Illusionary Escape inner circle was hard but Yuki wasn't planning to give up. Every attempt was either blocked by a band member or Alex just avoids and ignores him. There is more to the secrecy between the members than publicly shown. The members are a family to one another and would do everything they could to protect each other.
One day Yuki manages to catch up with Alex after his last rehearsal before the first performance. The band members surround Alex and block Yuki from getting any closer.
"What do you need, Mr. Yuki?"
"I just want to get to know Alex. I know I seem like an obsessed fan after him. I was just touched after I stumbled upon an article about his past. It is similar to my past but he seems stronger than I was. I wanted to know how he persevered and maintained his sanity all this time."
Alex listens to the small conversation between Yuki and Denzel. He remembers when he was Shuichi and how he learned about Yuki's past and how it haunts him. When he first heard the story, he wanted to do everything to help him recover or at least live normally with the pain. It burns his heart and chest at remembering his own past.
"Denzel, thank you! Everyone thanks for protecting me. You have been there for me through thick and thin. I will deal with Mr. Yuki. Mr. Yuki meet me tomorrow at the park you first met Shuichi. I know about it from the media and exploring town. Would that location will be fine, or does it bring back memories?"
The band couldn't believe that Alex just accepts and plans to meet his last tormentor. Braden grabs his hand and Alex has a small smile and nods.
"Thank you for letting me talk to you, Mr. Grant. The park is full of memories but if that is where you wish to go, I will accept."
Yuki nods and walks away with plans to learn everything he can about Alex. Alex notices that Yuki wasn't completely listening to his statement or he hasn't absorbed the facts. No one but those who personally knew Shuichi would know about the park. Alex shakes his head sadly and walks with the band to rest.
Tomorrow afternoon
Yuki is waiting at the bench that Shuichi always sat on. He remembers finding him here multiple times when he was thinking and needed fresh air. It hurt him to remember that pain he caused such a kind and gentle spirit. All Shuichi did was care and love him. Yuki pushed him away till it was too late. He looks up to the sky hoping that Shuichi is watching from the heavens. Shuichi was always an angel to those who knew him.
Alex walks to the bench and sees Yuki looking up. Yuki was in deep thought and so Alex just quietly sits beside him. Ten minutes pass by before Yuki notices him guest.
"Oh, sorry Grant, I didn't see you there."
"May I ask what you were thinking so hard about?"
"I was remembering my lover. I feel bad for what I put him through and hope that he is at peace wherever he is."
"That is sweet of you. Now what did you want from me? You have been trying to get my attention for weeks now and it can be annoying."
"I was telling the truth yesterday. I want to know how you stayed so strong even with such a painful past."
"All I did was trust those that have earned my trust and look forward to the future. I try not to dwell on the past too much. All it will do is cause pain and heartbreak. I need to heal and not wallow in my own misery. As bad as my life may have been, there are people who have it worst. I try to be as optimistic as I can. I do have my limits though. I need to keep my friends close. They are all I have. They are my family. Without them I would have lost my way and became a heartless guy."
"You may me feel worst about my own actions about my past."
"How?"
"I pushed those who cared about me away and you are right. It did cause me pain and heartbreak. I would have kept my heart as cold as ice but I met Shuichi. He would crack and melt the ice. I tried to deny his warmth and pushed him till I couldn't push him anymore. He left me the night he died. I never got the chance to apologize and tell him the truth about my feelings. He meant so much and I caused another death. I, just I…"
Yuki broke down and cried after revealing the truth about his feeling. It lifted a weight and it pained him that he couldn't say it to the person he felt love for. The one that showed him that love, family, and friends will be there as long as you let it in. Pushing it away will just be more painful moments to occur. He learned too late and it caused him the best love and chance at true happiness.
Alex was shocked at what he discovered and the fact that Yuki was crying. A piece of his heart was yearning to hug him and tell him it will be alright. The Shuichi part of him was trying to come out and apologize for leaving. The Alex part just watched and pats his back to help him calm down.
"I am sure that Shuichi would be happy to know how you feel. I have a feeling he would want you to take what you learned and try again at love. You shouldn't let one love stop you from finding another. He would want you to move on."
Alex shows a small smile trying to comfort him to the best of his ability without his old mask of personality trying to come out.
"Thank you for sharing your strength. I hope I can confide in you more. Don't worry about me trying to take you from your lover though. You two seem happy and compatible together. Can I talk to you again soon?"
"I will think about it. Just don't stalk me and my band again. I am a busy guy and I am sure you have deadlines for your job too. Try not to dwell on your past mistakes either. Learn and move on."
Yuki nods and leaves. Alex watches as he finally lets go of the pain he caused Yuki. Yuki can admit than he was wrong but willing to try again. Alex smiles as small tears drizzle down his face as the full impact of Yuki's words settle in. Yuki loved him! The end of one chapter of his love life. Alex decides that if by the end of his visit in Japan he can convince all of his old friends to move on in life and stop thinking about Shuichi he would tell them the truth before going back to America.
Hiro is next on his mental list. Hiro was the second person to notice his resemblance to his old life, so he will be the next to convince to stop getting stuck on the past. It will be hard since Hiro was the longest friend he had, but this needs to be done.
AN: Yuki has taken the next step in moving forward in life, but will it be the last time Yuki and Alex talk heart to heart? What will happen when He knows the truth about Alex? How will Alex convince Hiro to stop bother him and let Shuichi's memory be full of happiness instead of tainting it with sadness? When Alex reveals the truth, how will his old friends deal with the knowledge? How long does Alex have to get his mission to get the Japanese people to move past Shuichi till he returns to America with his band? Does Yuki have a chance with Alex at at? Till next time…
P.S.: I wanted to thank the following people for taking the time to read and comment, since my last chapter. Even if it was just critique my writing or say how much you love my story. I appreciate the support from my story followers/favorites as well.
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