He let out a sigh as if it was a normal conversation and took a pose near Gale, looking him in the eyes.

"What?"

Finnick smirked and licked his lips, sighing again and glacing toward Gale once more, "You heard me darling, whore," he whispered softer and looked toward me, "but it isn't my choice... You.. Wouldn't understand."

Gale noticed the eye movement toward me and then flustered; spoke again harshly, "So you're friends with Capitol whores now? Katniss what about your real friends?"

I got offended by his cold comment, whatever happen while we were seperated turned him bitter, so I snapped back in an instinct,

"It isn't like that Gale! He is nice you know, I chose him my choice he is-"

"By Choice?" the crowd of people were uncomfotable with our fighting but no one stopped it, "What are you? His pet? Or Capitol Whore yourself?" I wanted to say something back but my mouth was on mute and my eyes watered.

Finnick took this as a sign to protect me and sheltered my body from his view, he stood in front of Gale in a protective manner, "It's not like we have a choice, we put up with this shit to see you. She put up with this shit to see you. We put up with it to keep on living. It's not our choice to do this but it is out choice to live-"

A voice in the back mutters that the Katniss Everdeen and Finnick Odair are actually lovers...

"Finn... Stop..." A small, mouse like voice called out in the background... Annie. He stopped. His eyes were full of tears and walked away to her without putting up a fight. Gale only watched and was stunned. he looked back at me, as did my family. The cat is out of the bag. You could hear Finnick mutter to himself, "there's a diffrence... There's a diffrence.."

The voices against our love echoed again and then I heard Finnick yell, "We can hear you! I love her and she loves me! Stop trying to say otherwise... please." The voices subsided as if they were in agreement.

Snow coughed, "Order please." And then I smiled and acted as if it were going to be ok.

"Yes, of course." The crowd went back into talking and being alive and I walked toward my family who were whispering with Gale, as soon as I got there the whispers stopped and they stared a bit, 'What... I am the same Katniss..."

Gale refused to talk, I couldn't read him. He was either angry or just hurt. My mother was silent with Prim but Peeta was quivering and looked me in the eyes, "You love me?" he said, while quickly glancing at Finnick in the distance.

"Y-yes.." He shut his eyes to my response.

"Don't lie to me Katniss... If I am going to die, I want to die knowing the truth."

"It's complicated... I-Love you." Gale responded to my words with a raise of the eyebrows, he questioned it.

I pulled Peeta and Gale outside of the hall to try and talk in privacy this time...

"Yes, I work for the Capitol but it was the only way I was able to stay alive-"

Peeta mumbled, "Stay alive? You're not being killed?"

"N-No... I-"

"Make it out like a goddamn bandit," Gale announced, "Smart, leaving your loved ones in the dirt to get killed. Fuck that Katniss," he stormed away, "Fuck that."

I sighed, "I didn't know you or anyone was alive... I- lost hope of finding you guys again. Finnick and I...Are broken and I will always love you but I can't let him just go. He understands how it feels everyday to cry in the shower and be cut and bruised and be fixed to look nice only to be torn down again... He is the only truth I have left..."

Peeta's eyes became hollow and empty, "I was torn... And bruised... Made to look like I was understood.. Like I had someone there that would always love me... You were all I had left... And you gave up hope on me... Katniss it is ok but I just want you to know... Without you, I will not be making it out Alive this year. I am sorry, this is goodbye." He gave a slight sigh and then smiled, "I will always love you Katniss Everdeen. Please, do not cry for me. I love you but please keep on living- for me."

I started to cry and nod my head, this is not the goodbye I wanted. Knowing there is nothing I can do to save him hurts and knowing my love for him can't save him... I have to move forward... And let go... "I love you too." He smiled and hugged me, held me close and kissed me quietly for a few moments in time.

"Make the moments last," he half smiled in tears. I just kissed him back like how we did in the Games, expect this time I know there is no one out there to save our own skin. I promised him I would keep on living and I will.

We entered back in the hall, holding hands. Like stones, it was solid and felt unchanging but we both knew it would be over soon. I kissed his cheek and moved forward in time. It has been a few hours, people are starting to leave the hall now and I sit near my family to just talk. There were waitresses around with fancy glass drinks so I take five and sip each, the alcohol is intoxicatingly comforting.

"So what's your plan for the Games?"

"I am saving Prim," mother says.

"I give up," Peeta mumbles softly and it hurt.

"I... can try..." Prim mumbles, "But I am not hurting anyone."

Suddenly, I feel a graze on my neck and see Finnick's smiling face is back in my sight, "Love, it is time to go we have... Business." I kiss them all goodbye for a little bit and drink the remaining drinks I have with me as fast as I can before I go.

I hear a comment behind me, "So you drink now too Katniss? What happen Katnip? What did the Capitol do to you? You're just as bad as Haymitch..."

I take another sip of my last drink and slur out, "You would never understand-"

"Fuck this Katniss,"

"I did this for yo-"

"Stop..." Annie whispered... "You're being rude Gale... Let them go, they mean well." She smiled and I hugged her goodbye, before Finn kissed her. We walked out of the hall toward the elevator in silence.

"You love me right?"

"i love you, Katniss." said Finnick. He held me close in his arms and I believed him. My tainted, hurt, betrayed, and hopeless skin believed him.

"thank you," i whispered, "for not leaving."

His lips were soft as he kissed me and I felt safe again. The elevator rang and we exited hand in hand.

"I need my rope.." he sighs.

I am Katniss Everdeen.

A Capitol Whore.

I love Finnick.

I lost my family.

I lost Peeta.

I lost Gale.

But I will always have Finnick

And that comforts me.

Finnick's POV

I am Finnick Odair.

A Capitol Slave.

I lost my family.

I lost my Annie.

But atleast I have Katniss...