I couldn't hear anything but this loud primitive scream, it was the loudest thing I ever heard and it managed to grow louder as I went from there staring at my mother's bloody lifeless body to kneeling in the cold earth as I held her head in my arms. It was pure sorrow and pain like a wounded animal ringing in my ears and it wasn't for a long time after did I realize it was coming from me. And even then I couldn't stop myself from screaming as I held her tightly to my chest. I didn't care if the bastard Alphas that killed her came back for me in fact I wanted them too.
I wanted them to come back so I could kill them for what they took from me, from her. They took her life in the worst way possible and where was I? Why didn't I hear her scream out for me? Did she? Did she know that if she cried out either I won't hear her or worse that I would and come running only to be defiled like she was? Raped and left to die in my own pool of blood right next to her or could I have defended her like the hero I felt I was and save her from this fate. It's still something I think about it and it haunts me.
My screams turned to sobs as I cried into her soft brown hair now a cascade falling past her shoulders before mixing with the blood around us. It was so much blood, how could it all have been hers? Was there nothing left? The Alpha or Alphas that did it didn't return and as the sun finally rose the next morning I finally had to face the fact…my mother, the Omega that gave birth to me, protected me and loved me was gone. I kissed her forehead one last time knowing what I had to do.
We were nothing, just two Alpha-less Omegas in a land that all but had gone to hell. No one cared what happened to us but I cared what happened to her. Gingerly I picked her up in my arms and carried her towards a small laurel tree that we had past coming up to this grove and laid her gently under it as I started to dig. I'd be damned if I left her out in that grove to…rot or let the wild animals find so I dug all morning with nothing more than my bare hands. I had to take off my jacket and laid it over her as I continued well into the afternoon. I was tired but I didn't care until I made it to a point where I knew she'd be safe. By then I was caked in dirt, blood and sweat as I stepped out of the grave and carefully wiped off my hands. Slowly I removed the cross from around her neck and attached the around my own then I put her in my jacket and put her bible in her hands.
The tears fell again as I kissed her cheek, "Mom…I'm sorry but this way…" The lump in my throat grew bigger as I tried to force it down, "You'll have a little piece of me with you. So when you look down I…" I couldn't finish. No words would come out as I held her for the last time thinking of all the times over the years that she had held me and sang to me. It was a sweet melody that I knew well and as I placed her down into her grave I swear I could hear it.
"Hush my sweet child, my darling boy. I'll always be with you until I'm no more. The angels smile down at you and on me. And until we're united again you will see. That I love you as you love me.
Hush my son, I love you and there's nothing that I won't do. I will protect you until my life is through. For you are my world, you see for I love you and you love me."
The tears weld up in my eyes as I placed a small wild flower on her grave. For the first time in my life I felt completely alone in this world. She was gone, for no reason but to satisfy a monster's lust and I hated him for it. I hated every fucking Alpha it this world. They made the wars, they caused the fighting, they took away everyone that was ever precious to me and for what? What was the point in all of this? "They won't take me…." I muttered softly as I turned to walk away. To where I wasn't sure anymore, all I knew was I wanted to leave…I held tight to the cross around my neck never once daring to look back fearing that she'd be there with that sweet smile on her face and an iris in her hair ready to tell me, "Mon Ange I love you." It was an all-consuming fear and so I did something I normally never did…I started to run. I grabbed my bag before running past the blood soaked ash tree, sprinting for my life as if her ghost was at my heels. I ran until my lungs threatened to burst and my legs wanted to give out but I continued never once looking back in fear of what I might see.
Strange looking back at it that it almost felt like it wasn't me running. It wasn't something I would do, I mean sure I was an Omega but I would have stayed and fought whatever demon was after me. But then I don't think I was in my right mind, not since I left her the night before was I really thinking clearly.
My legs finally gave out as I stumbled out of the woods and right into a mud soaked field. I coughed as my lungs tried to catch up as I balled a handful of mud and grass in my hands while I trembled. And again I found myself screaming, but I don't know if I was screaming the whole time or just started as I stared down at the earth below me. This time I let it all out before feeling that someone was watching me. Slowly I looked up to see the shocked faces of five Alphas but one caught my gaze. He was a slightly older Alpha man with piercing red eyes that stared back at me in a mix of shock and disbelief. We stared at each other for what seemed like hours before the world around me suddenly went dark.