(5 months later)
APOV
Its been a rollercoaster these past few months. Christian and I had to go to the station a few more times to answer more questions, the Lincoln's were arrested and their house was searched. That was an eyes opener the police found numerous pictures, videos, so called contracts and other evidence against them. The sick fucks had been doing what they planned on doing to Christian and I for years and no one knew, the children we found and they all gave statements and mentioned that the reason they never told anyone was the fact the Lincoln's had threatened to have their parents hurt badly or killed if they spoke to anyone. With that bit of intel the police haven't let anyone other than their lawyers in to see them which I think is the best thing. Christian and I have been fine we both thought the other one would hate the other one, but now we are fine and its like it never happened we don't talk about it unless we have to. With the fact the Lincoln's we arrested at their places of work the media has been all over it but lucky with the fact Christian and I are both under age our names have been left out of the media, our parents did tell our head teachers though as they thought we might get into more fights if something was mentioned to us. Lucky though with the fact that we can tolerate our families touching and hugging us we don't get into fights at all, that's all we can take at the moment though we both know why our families can touch us is because we trust them completely and we are now finally accepting that we are loveable. Both of us didn't think we could be loved due to what our birth mothers did to us but now we have come to accept it and we spend more time with our families.
Our families have gotten closer over what happened to us and its like we are just one family and not just two close families.
Its the second week in December and I'm still trying to figure out what to get Christian for christmas, everyone else I managed to get like mom I got her a spar day, dad I got him new golf clubs, Kate a designer jacket she wanted but never had saved her money for, Grace I got her the same as my mom, Carrick I got him an old rare bottle of whiskey dad had to help me as I was under age but he was ok with it. Elliot I got him tickets to some concert he was going on about and Mia I got her a designer dress she told me she wanted. Now its just Christian and I'm not sure what to get my best friend, sighing as I walk around looking in stores to see if there is anything that jumps out at me that screams Christian Grey but nothing does. I walk past a gym and for some reason I walk inside and there right on the wall is a poster just going up its for training with an Olympic kick boxer. The trainer will give 10 sessions, I see the guy hanging the poster up and walk over to him "erm hey I was wondering how much is it for the sessions" I point to the poster, I'm not stood to close to the guy still I'm not comfortable around people I don't trust with my life. He looks at me and smiles "oh I'm not sure let me check" he puts the poster down and I notice that the trainer is the one Christian like when we watched the Olympics saying it would be great to train with him even for just an hour so I knew this is the reason I felt so drawn to come in here. The bloke comes back with someone else but I'm not looking at them still looking at the poster "are you the lady wondering about this" I hear someone say and turn to see the Olympian right in front of me I nod my head looking up at him "erm yeah my friend saw you when you won gold and I know he'd love a few personal sessions with you I want it to be his Christmas gift" he nods his head "right well the price is a little high for a teenager you sure you can afford it" I know he's not trying to be mean or anything but for some reason it pissed me off, I mean I'm a teenager yes but still "how much" I ask politely knowing I don't want to get into trouble I've been doing well I haven't got into trouble since before the summer "$15000" I nod my head and grab my purse out of my bag pulling out my black amex "card ok?" I ask and they both look at me funny "yeah sure I'll need to see some I'd as well" I'm so glad my pastport came back today I had to pick it up from the post office I pull it out and walk over to the counter with both of them. I hand over my pastport and card and wait as they look at both of them, I can see the moment the see my last name they now know I wasn't joking. I mean my dad and Carrick are the best lawyers in the city they own the best firm its called Grey-Steele I mean come on the name just rolls off your tongue. I get handed back my things and the trainer starts writing something out "what's your friends name ?" He asked "Christian Grey" he nods his head and hands me the gift certificate "ok here is the certificate get him to call me and arrange when he'd like to start the sessions I'll come to the property so we won't be disturbed" I nod my head "ok thanks" I slip it into my bag and look back at them I nod my head and turn to leave. I can hear them talking to themselves but I can't hear what they are saying.
Later that day I got home and made sure I hid everything so no one could find it. I go downstairs and find my parents in the family room watching a movie I smile at the cuddled up together so engrossed in the movie they don't know I'm watching them, that right there is what I want and I want it with Christian but I know that will never happen. Even though we both are trying to over come the first few years of our lives but I'll never be good enough for him. I go outside and sit down by the fire pit looking out at the night sky placing my head phones in my ears I listen to some songs. Closing my eyes I lean back against the chair and softly sing along with the music. I'm not sure how long I've sat here but I'm getting tired and sleeping outside in the freezing cold is not a good idea. I sigh sitting up, opening my eyes I stand and turn to go inside only to see Christian stood there just staring at me. Blushing hard knowing he must have heard me "oh sorry I didn't know anyone was listening are you ok Christian?". He shakes he head slightly "yeah I'm fine and you know you have a wonderful voice we all love listening to you singing" I blush even harder if that's possible "thanks so how come you're over so late ?" I ask walking inside as its just too cold now I go over to the counter and start to make myself a hot chocolate "oh I lost my phone last time I remember having it was here you haven't seen it have you?" I finishing making chocolate for myself and Christian knowing he likes it and shake my head "I don't think so are you sure its not in your jacket, the leather one you wore over this afternoon when I got home from shopping?" I say well I say shopping but it wasn't anything for me but I can't tell him that now can I.
He laughs slightly shaking his head "you know I forget to check the inside pocket of it and that's properly where it is" I smile shaking my head "you should be more careful this is what the second time this month you've forgotten where you left your phone" he shrugs his shoulders like its no big deal. After finishing our hot drinks Christian leaves to go home and I go to bed laying in bed I wonder if I would ever tell Christian my true feelings for him but there is one thing stopping me. I can't lose the friendship we have, since the summer we have gotten closer so I don't know what I'd do if we couldn't be friends any more. So that right there is the one reason I'm stopping myself from telling him. But I'm not sure how much longer I can keep it from him I'm just not sure what to do.