I turned around to see who was at the door after having a glass of water from the bathroom sink but I got overwhelmed by a wave of nausea. Crouched over the toilet bowl I could hear the door open and shut, a set of foot prints slowly made their way up the stairs. I abruptly started retching into the toilet bowl as I felt two hands hold my hair back out of the way and rub my back. I figured that this was the start of morning sickness, and that it was Jonny behind me. I ended up chucking up my guts for another half an hour. Eventually I tried to get up and after struggling from exhaustion Jonny pulled me up and helped me to the bed before putting a slice of dry toast in front of my face. My glance switched between the toast and the idiots face. "You can't be serious can you" look on his face told me that he was "Last night you stormed off without even looking back and now you are mollycoddling me. I don't need you I'm not an invalid and you made it perfectly clear that you didn't want anything to do with me last night..." I trailed off, what am I doing I want him in my life I'm only going to end up pushing him away again.
Jonny was crouched there thinking, there was a moment of silence before he began to sing "Pick apart
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind
As you do mine
Your heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense
But I'm desperate to connect
You can't live like this
You have lost
(Too much love)
To fear, doubt and distrust
(It's not enough)
You just threw away the key
To your heart
You don't get burned
('Cause nothing gets through)
It makes it easier
(Easier on you)
But that much more difficult for me
To make you see…
Love ain't fair
So there you are
My love
Your heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense
But I'm desperate to connect
And you, you can't live like this
Your heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense
But I'm desperate to connect
And you can't live like this
Love ain't safe
You won't get hurt if you stay chaste
So you can wait
But I don't wanna waste my love" I felt overwhelmed, not only is Jonnys voile beautiful the menaing of the song is so true, he went on to say "I spent all last night thinking of you. I spend every night thinking of you. I realised that my reaction was way over the top last night. You like to take things slowly and keep things to yourself. I just have to respect that and wait until you're ready to share these things with me. Until then I'm going to give you all the help you need with the pregnancy and anything else you may need help with. I'm going to start by phoning in sick on your behalf and waiting hand and foot on you." With that Jonny stood up and picked up the phone from my bedside table.
I felt so shocked and useless that I couldn't do anything but shake my head "do... don't call in... I can still go to work" I eventually managed to say. Jonny used one of my stares on me and I was deeply offended.
"Jac, look at you you've not stopped being sick for the last half an hour and you haven't eaten anything. You are hardly in a state to go to work."
"I must and I will go to work, Hanssen has requested to see me today" With that I got up and got dressed ready for what is going to be a long day.
"Are you sure about this jac?" Did I just detect a hint of concern in his voice? I wondered as Jonny followed me into the kitchen. I grabbed the house keys and walked out the house. I was going to ride my bike but my helmet seemed to have gone missing so I stood by the jocks car waiting. Once the locks had clicked I got in the car "So I'm driving you to work today then?"
With a raised eyebrow I looked him in the eye "nah, I just thought I'd test the seats before you left." Jonny began to chuckle "so I will take that as a yes then" as I was putting my seat belt on he pulled off the drive and began the journey to work.
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