AN: I'd like to thank everyone that has commented on the story so far and for those that are enjoying it. I want to thank you all as a whole, as you have inspired me to believe in my writing, to write more and to post more to read these lovely comments. I'd also like to thank people who have pointed out a few things…
Firstly the sophie/callie misunderstanding... The first few chapters of this story were pre-written a good few years ago. Before I even began dreaming up calzona fan fics… It's a story that I WAS just writing for me as a release at the time; which I later adapted when after reading so many awesome calzona fan fics… I decided to re-write the story, using my old one as the blue print. As it stands now I have out written myself and the new chapters are exactly that I only had the first 5 chapters of this story originally. Now I am adding to it day by day hoping you will all enjoy where I am taking it.
secondly, to anyone who has mentioned or noticed my grammar and spelling issues, I apologise. From experience I know it isn't nice to read something that has a lot of mistakes, it's not an excuse but I have dyslexia and wasn't very willing to ask for help before. I now have a Beta; my beautiful partner and biggest fan, she works very hard for and with me to get these things right. I am sorry for anyone who has found the mistakes hard to read in the past. Hopefully that will be the end of that.
Finally I'd like to personally thank and answer some on the comments made on the fic so far.
"AZgirl" Thank you for commenting and reading. I hope you like the way that Arizona reacts to everything and the continued interaction between the two. Thank you for your continued support
"sarcasticSweetLadykisses89" I can't tell you if they get back together or not, that would just ruin the reading experience, what I can tell you though is that Callie has found Arizona, what's to follow will [hopefully] be entertaining and keep you interested.
Thanks again. Hope you enjoy. C.
Arizona was stood to the spot for a good few moments and I was looking in every direction but at her. I felt I had betrayed her and my self. There was nothing I could do to take back the last five years and so many things I had practiced to say but then I saw her and all of that just went away. I want to jump over this dressing table, take her in my arms, let her know how much I have missed her and that I have regretted my decision every day for the past 5 years. I wanted her to know I couldn't be away from her another second, that I loved her and I had never stopped loving her. Then kiss her tell her to run out of the kitchen, come to my room, we would make love all night and pick up where we left off. But I don't think that that is how this is going to work out. One because I'm not sure she still cares and two, by the look on her face id say I'm a long way off a kiss and not so long away from a smack around the face.
Arizona: Hi
She said almost in a whisper… I was about to say something when I noticed that she shook her head hard, raised it then looked me dead in the eye.. It may have been 5 years but I could still recognise that face from a mile away and I wanted the world to swallow me up.
Arizona: HI?
She shouted it this time.
Arizona: FUCKING HI CALLIOPE… 5 years and all you have to say is Hi
I went to open my mouth to say something
Arizona: Oh no you don't! You don't get to say anything right now.
She started to wonder around the kitchen cleaning up the mess she had made and muttering ramblings of frustration. So I thought it best I leave and I started to slowly back out of the kitchen just to give her some time to calm down when she spotted me.
Arizona: OH NO. YOU stay right the FUCK there. You don't get to leave not again.. Not this time.
Callie: I didn't le-
Arizona: Shut right up… ohh I cant do this, with the raven hair Latina in my kitchen, quiet night, no such luck, and mark, and teddy and now calliope ohh.. And what about the job and this? This is all too much how dear she. HOW DEAR YOU… then mum and dad and home and this home and the other home and scary and hard and now calliope and calliope ahh Callie she isn't calliope anymore.. Is she, but she looks so... ahh no don't do this… STAY
She pointed her finger at me and then at the floor. I dear not say anything or move a muscle. She opened her eyes widely as though expecting a reply. All I could do was nod in reply.
She disappeared out of the kitchen for a short while and then reappeared and started to prepare some food, mostly ignoring me and then every once in a while looking over shaking her head and then getting back to what she was doing. she kept checking back at the clock sending out the food. Whenever Cristina walked in to pick up some food she looked at me with pity as though she wanted to help but I just stood and smiled lightly at her.. She left her order pad in the kitchen at one point and I wrote a message just saying "tell Owen im sorry" I put my room number so her could get in contact with me if he wished.
After 45 minutes of this a tall slim lady walked into the kitchen.
Arizona: hey you okay? I'm sorry about this.
Other Chef: Don't worry about it babe anything for you, you know that.
She said with a smile walking over to Arizona and pecking her cheek. I know I had no right to be but this made me jealous and I stood up from my leaning position clearing my throat. They both looked over to me.
Arizona: Teddy meat Calliope… Erm sorry Callie
Teddy: Oh I see. Ill get ready.
Teddy diapered and then returned a few minutes later. Dressed in fresh clean and pressed chef whites bonding into the kitchen she slapped Arizona's bum, gave her another peck on the cheek and gestured for her to leave what she was fussing over.
Arizona: I owe you one
Teddy: Don't be silly, what am I here for if not to take advantage of…
She winked at Arizona and Arizona laughed then looked at me and her mood suddenly changed. She excused herself to go and get ready and gestured that I stay put and quiet once more. As she left and a door clicked behind her Teddy looked at me.
Teddy: So you're the famous Calliope Iphigenia Torres then.
I just nodded scared as to what she might know about me.
Teddy: Don't look so scared its all good.
She said as though readying my mind.
Teddy: Well almost, mainly, except its not really good, like the relationship stuff is good, it's the rest that's a bit rocky.
Callie: I don't really know what to say.
Teddy: If she gives you the chance to don't break her again. I don't think shed survive that.
A click of a door knocked us out of the conversation we were having.
Arizona: Don't worry; she won't have that chance again. Not any time soon
I was going to come to my own defence but decided against it as she doesn't know that I fought for her, that I came back for her, that I was turned away. That it wasn't entirely my fault. I should have thought harder but what could I have done I would have made everything so hard for her.
-FLASHBACK—
I was just about to walk through the door and tell her everything when something stopped me.
A hand clasped around my arm and pulled me out of the sight of the door through the restaurant and to the back ally of the restaurant
Callie: What the fuck Alex.
Alex: You can't do this you can't stop her from going.
Callie: I'm not here to do that I'm here to go with her.
Alex: What about your family, you haven't spoke to her in 2 days she's devastated. What do you think you are doing showing up here? Its her last night here, she leaves in 2 weeks.
Callie: I know that, its now or never I have to tell her.
Alex: Tell her what.
Callie: I gave up the business the money everything. I tried to tell her the other night when she left but she never gave me a chance. I didn't speak to her because I was waiting for her to come home.
Alex: And how does that help. She's about to start an adventure with no money and no where to live in a foreign country. Do you really think she needs to know that you're broke too, she needs to concentrate and get on in this competition she needs to do and be the best she can. How can she do that if she's always worrying about you and what you gave up? You're selfish.
Callie: I'm not being selfish, this is what she wants, what we both want. This is our lives were talking about here, it's not your choice Alex its hers.
Alex: I think as her best friend I might just know what she needs right now. She needs a clear head she needs focus, she doesn't need you to up end her life and make everything confusing. In 2 weeks she leaves and in 3 she will have got onto master chef and paving the way for herself why can't you just leave her be.
Callie: Because I can't Alex she is the love of my life and I need her. I want her, I need to be in her life and have her in mine. I have just given up my entire family for her. Everything I am and was so that I can be with her wholly and truly.. Don't you dare try to stop this Alex, we both need each other. Can't you see that?
Alex: No I cant, I see someone who took her away from me for the past 3 years, I see someone who is selfish enough to make her worry about you when she's supposed to be focusing on her career right now.
Callie: You never fucking liked me Alex. Just let me see her for two minutes that's all I need, if she says no then I will leave and you will never have to see me again.
Alex: Says no to what, you? She would never say no to you but I know that this is for the best for her. She doesn't need you. There's plenty of time for romance after she gets back.
Callie: But when she wins the competition which we know she will, she will be out there for at least 5 years and I can't do that. I can't wait that long she will never forgive me.
Alex: All me, me, me again aren't you. Why don't you just see that your no good for her?
Callie: I want to fucking marry her Alex get out of my way. She is the love of my life and I deserve the chance to tell her and she deserves the chance to decide whether she wants to do this with or without me. NOT YOU.
Alex: Fine ill go in there and ill talk to her and tell her your intentions. I'm not letting you manipulate her into this.
Callie: I'm not like that Alex and you know it.
Alex: I refuse to take any chances.
Callie: Fine, but hurry up and tell her because I can guarantee when you tell her that I want to marry her she will run out here into my arms, its all we've both ever wanted.
Alex: Fine ill go but I wouldn't hold your breath.
I watch through the outside window as Alex went in and spoke to Arizona. At first she seemed happy and then her face changed, she cried and I could she that she was screaming no no no over and over hitting Alex on the chest. I broke down in a heap on the floor, I couldn't watch this. I cried for what felt like hours when I noticed all the lights go out in the kitchen, I scrapped myself of the floor and made my way home. When I got there, I tried to call her again and again, ill never understand why she didn't run into my arms. But after 6 months of calling I decided things had to change. I through myself into my own business, raising money and starting the Arizona Torres line of kitchen equipment. Hoping one day she would she that name, know that that was what I wanted for us and she would come back to me.
-END OF FLASHBACK—
I was still stood at the spot I had been commanded to stay on whilst I watched Arizona speak through a few things with Teddy. I felt awkward but I was in no place to just leave or say anything to be honest. I had just dropped back into this beautiful woman's life after being out of it for 5 years. As I was trying to distract myself form the conversation Arizona was having with teddy I started to really notice things around the kitchen. Only after a few moments did I realise that this kitchen was filled with everything from the Arizona Torres line. I dear not say anything but it brought a sly smile to my face… I was rudely awakened from my thoughts.
Arizona: What do you have to smile about Callie?
Callie: Nothing I was just…
I let out a deep sigh .
Callie: Nothing.
Arizona: Right!
She moved her gaze back to Teddy.
Arizona: Okay so that's everything set for the night then, there's only a few hours left so you shouldn't run out, if you do I'm sorry but you'll have to make your own and if you cant be arsed just take the special off.
I was surprised by this, had she shared her recipe with this Teddy person? How dear I judge? That was ours, our meal for two, mine and hers she promised she would never share that. That's a little like a knife to the heart. Again, I suppressed my feelings; I have no right to say anything. Not only have I arrived unannounced, what's to say that she hasn't moved on? That Teddy isn't her new all? She knew all about me, you talk about ex's with your current. Just because my candle never stopped burning for Arizona doesn't mean hers didn't stop burning for me.
She lent across the table and pecked Teddy on the lips. *sound of glass shattering* that's my heart, I deserve it I know but I always hoped that she hadn't moved on.
Teddy: If you need me to cover tomorrow let me know?
Arizona: We'll see how it goes.
Teddy: Love ya sweetie
Arizona: Love you too
An emotional stab to the heart, i almost cry out in pain but stop myself. Arizona walked out of the kitchen holding the door for me to follow. I've never felt as little in my life as I did in that moment, and never so heart broken since she rejected my proposal.
Callie: So erm… What... er, what are we doing now?
Arizona: You staying here?
Callie: Yes.
Arizona: Then I suggest we go to your room. Making a scene in public isn't something I want to do. Letting you into my personal space isn't an option.
Callie: Ok… whatever you want
Arizona: I'd like to go back 5 years and undo everything that happened.
Stab to my heart once more, I'm not sure if she wants to remove me from her past or to place me back into where we lived happily ever after. I cant read her like I used to, her guard is up but I cant blame her. This is harder than I expected.
Callie: I'm sorry
Arizona: I hope you have more than that up your sleeve
Me too. I think to myself as I press the button for the elevator.
Bell boy: Penthouse Miss Torres.
I smile and nod my head.
Callie: Thanks Jimmy
Arizona: Still living the high life with daddy's money?
STAB to the heart once more…
Wait… She doesn't even know?!