Once more, I do not own Divergent, Veronica Roth does!
I'm unable to comprehend what's happened within the last few moments. We were in a snowball fight, then suddenly the next thing I knew, Four was lying above me and kissing me. The words of my fathers echo through my head,
"No boyfriends, Beatrice." Well, within one semester that's gone to shambles.
"So you like me?" I pant, trying to even out my breaths.
"No, Tris," he grins, " I kissed you because I hate you, no obviously I like you. " he stands up, brushing the snow off of him. I don't move, I'm still unable to, "Don't look so shocked will you?" he laughs while offering his hand up to me. Gladly I take it, trying my best to be dainty and ladylike while standing up from a large pile of snow," You know Tris, it would be good if you said something, anything really?" he says, trying to act casual, yet he struggles to convey this tone through the slight panic I can hear. Shit, Tris, say something, anything? You heard him well enough, say you like him back, say words!
"You like me," I smile, "You, Four, the guy who's broken many a girls heart, despite the fact, you've never been in an relationship, like me. You the captain of all the sports teams, gets the best grades in your year, like me?" It's a lot to take in, I can't understand why someone like him would ever be attracted to someone like myself.
"Tris, I'm not all those things, you exaggerate too much," blood starts to rush to his cheeks as he begins to blush," but yes, Tris, I like you. Why is it so hard to get into your head? You're a smart enough girl?"
"Well, Four, You're a year older than me, a guy like you would never want a girl like me? I'm sure I've talked about this before with you. I look like a twelve year old." he takes a step closer to me, putting his hand on my waist, steadying us both as he leans in. His forehead touches mine, I can feel his breaths heating up my skin,
"Tris, you are beautiful, smart and incredibly funny, stop doubting yourself. Please. " once more he presses his lips to my own, his touch is comforting and for a brief moment, I stop doubting myself.
After buying as much junk food as we could possibly afford, we walk back to school hand-in-hand. As much as I like Four, I can't help but not want Uriah to know about us being 'together'. I need to talk to him, maybe he'll understand.
"Four, can I ask a question. You see, Uriah told me things about you, things like you broke many girls hearts, things like I should stay away from you for my own good." My voice is trembling, it's not that hard a thing to say, it's not such a bad thing either. Yet I'm nervous incase he reacts badly.
"Tris, where are you going with this? You're worrying me," he also seems to be nervous, I can understand why, he might think that I don't want to be with him. I mean, I haven't even said I return the feelings, I've only kissed him back, I've only held his hand.
"It's just, Four, I like you, " make it clear you have feelings, state you really want to be with him, " I really like you, I just want to keep this secret, you know, us. I don't want Uri, and Chris, and everyone really, panicking about me getting hurt by you, I just think that we should keep this secret for a while, you know until we're ready." he replies with nothing. I stand there, still holding his hand, hoping for a response.
"Uri's worried about you? Why? He's known me for years and-"
"-That's why he's worried, he knows you, you're his brother's best friend, he's seen how the girls get when you say you're not interested. It's just-"
"-But, Tris, I'm interested you. He should just get over-"
"-Four, leave it, we won't tell anyone yet, we'll just keep us secret, we can still sit close, hug, you can put your arm around me, however, only we'll know for now. Please, can we keep it this way?" I plead. Please say yes, it will make things that bit more easy.
"Okay, sure, Tris. We'll keep it secret. For now. " He lets go of my hand, yet remains close, "I'm just keeping it secret!" he laughs.
"Yes, but no one's on this road, we can walk like this 'till we get back to school, you idiot," I laugh and grab his hand once more, he pulls me close and kisses the top of my head.
"Keep it subtle, " I smirk, "remember, we're a secret, let's not let it slip," he drops my hand and opens his door. Zeke and Uri sit there playing some new video game I've not seen before.
"What took you two so long?" Uri sneers. Can he sense this? Can he tell that we've been 'busy'. I panic, I don't know what to say, I need Four to speak, please, say something, anything, please.
"Tris decided it would be a good idea to fall over in town, she made a big deal about it," he jokes, okay I need to play along. Act like I did this, protest, joke.
"Well, you know, you kinda pushed me down, " I respond. He looks offended, he's great at this whole acting thing isn't he?
"I did nothing of the such! You fell down and you know it, " he pushes me down on the bed and glances at my eyes like he's about to kiss me. This need to end, I literally told him a few minutes ago, we need to be secret. Fortunately, he also senses this, quickly he's pulling away, clearing his throat.
"Admit it you pushed me," I tease.
"It was funny," he laughs, sitting down next to me. I want to kiss him, I want to close this space between us. I wish we could, but we're secret and it's better for us both if we keep it secret.
Thank you for reading! I've been trying to write this chapter for a few days, but I've had a horrible English mock exam which has gotten in the way! I'm sorry guys!
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