"Looking glass
Take the past
Shut your eyes
You realize"

-Yeah Yeah Yeahs "Heads Will Roll"

Rosalie's POV

It all started off as a normal day. I woke up to my alarm at eight in the morning. It was the first day of my junior year at Forks High. Nothing excited me more than the first day of school. Jumping out of bed in excitement I skipped to the bathroom. Looking in the mirror and smiling at the pair of blue eyes staring back at me, I took out my facial wash and washed my face. I took off my clothes as I started the shower. I was a very confident girl when it came to my looks. I had to work really hard to get to where I am now. My peers believe I'm naturally pretty, but my close friends know about the many years of struggling with acne and my weight.

I stepped into the shower after examining myself in the mirror. The water felt good on my slightly cold skin. I washed my body and hair before turning the shower off. I brushed my teeth and used mouthwash. Finally I dressed in a black and white striped maxi skirt and a black lacy crop top with black heeled booties. Beautiful.

I decided to only wear concealer, a little blush, and some mascara. I didn't need that much makeup. I felt free not having to worry about it. I air dried my hair and then I curled it. Afterwards I sprayed perfume on my chest, wrists, and on my neck. I heard Emmett pull up in his Jeep outside my house. With one last look in the mirror, I grabbed my stuff and headed outside.

Emmett McCarty is my one true love. We've been dating since I was fourteen and he was fifteen. He's all I've ever wanted in a man. I don't know how I ever got to be so lucky. Life won't be the same when he goes to college next fall.

Emmett smiled when he saw me step out of the house. I raced to Emmett and jumped in his arms. He caught me and spun me around a few times. Giggling I kissed his lips. I will never get tired of this I thought to myself. Emmett pulled away and stared into my eyes for a few seconds. "I love you," he whispered.

Those three words caused my heart to melt. "I love you too."

His smile increased as he opened the car door for me. "Ladies first."

I flirtatiously winked as I got in. "Ooh, someone wants to get laid tonight."

"Why wait?" Emmett asked. He wiggled his eyebrows as he put his seatbelt on. "You look too damn sinful today."

"Horny bastard," I teased. Emmett and I may fight a lot, but one thing is for sure; we are completely irrevocably in love with each other.

Emmett reached over and took my hand in his. "So new school year. You excited?"

"Of course. How about you? Senior year. Last year of high school."

"Don't remind me," he groaned. "I'm psyched to be a senior, but I'm worried about my future. This school year isn't going to be as much fun as I hoped for. There's applying to colleges, my ACT retake in three weeks, AP classes, figuring out what I want to do with my life." His voice trailed off for a while before he continued. "And leaving you. That's going to be the hardest part."

My heart swelled in adoration for this man beside me. "Honey, you'll do great. We'll only be apart for a year. I'll be joining you before you know it."

"You don't know that."

"Emmett, wherever you go, I go. I don't want anything other than you."

"What about your future?"

"You are my future," I argued. Emmett didn't like it when I said things like this. He was far more concerned about my future than he was of his, and vice versa for me.

"Rosie, you have dreams, I know you do. You want to be a writer. You're good at it. I'm probably going to go to the first school that accepts me. I don't know what I want to do, so that's okay. You? You know exactly what you want to do. You have every option in the world. You're smart, beautiful, clever, and you know how to go after the things you want. You need to go to the best place for you, not because I'm there."

I sighed slowly while thinking his words over. He was right. I can't always give up my dreams for the one I love. But… "What if in the process of finding my dreams I lose you?"

Emmett laughed humorously and glanced at me. "Babe, honestly, you'll probably move on next year while I'm gone. It's not like you don't have other options. I still don't know why you love me."

"Because you're you," I said as we came to a stop light. I leaned over and kissed his cheek, making him blush slightly. "Is big and bad Emmett McCarty blushing?"

Emmett timidly smiled and tried to hide his blush. "Shut up," he teased.

"There's no one I would rather spend the rest of my life with," I said, effectively ending the argument. We sat in comfortable silence for the rest of the ride to school. I was about to get out of the car when Emmett stopped me.

"No matter what I love you. You know that, right?" Emmett said, all joking in his eyes were gone. The seriousness in his voice scared me. Nervous sweat began to build on his forehead. Something in his eyes was completely unsettling. He looked scared.

"I know."

Suddenly a smile replaced his seriousness. "Good." With one last passionate kiss we got out of the car. I spotted Bella and the rest of our friends on the other side of the parking lot. Even though I love Emmett and I'm comfortable with my own skin, I was secretly jealous of Bella. Bella and I have been best friends since birth, and we've always been exact opposites. Bella has always been able to speak her mind and be herself. She was always strong and independent. I on the other hand am the opposite of those things. I feel like I have to put on a show for the people around me. I never speak my mind, I'm not strong, and I'm completely dependent on Bella and Emmett.

My greatest fear is that one day I won't be good enough for Bella or Emmett. I'm not good enough for my parents, so how could I possibly be good enough for my friends? It's only a matter of time before Bella and Emmett decide they don't need me. I can feel it in my bones. That day is coming. I wish I was Bella so I could be prepared for that day. That day will be the death of me.

"Ready to see what this year holds?" I asked, putting on my mask of excitement. Alice squealed excitedly and grabbed my hand. She began animatedly chattering about her outfit and the new school year. I didn't pay much attention to what she was saying. I only added the necessary nods and agreed at the right times. It didn't bother Alice much because she never missed a beat. I swear that girl must be on crack.

I got my schedule and absentmindedly listened to my friends talk about their schedules. My mind was preoccupied with what Emmett and I talked about in the car today. I couldn't help but feel something unsettling in my stomach begin to rise. Our argument about college was nothing new. But him pulling me aside and telling me no matter what he loved me, that was something new. Emmett never looked so unsure about my feelings for him before. Ever since I met him, I've always been clear about my feelings for him. I hope nothing is wrong I said to myself. I looked at Emmett and saw he was staring at me. "Cramps," I lied. Well, kind of. He nodded his head, but didn't look convinced. He let it go however and walked me to my first block class. He gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and smile and then he was gone. All morning I sat in my classes worrying about Emmett. I hoped everything would be okay by lunch.

I was wrong.

The lunch bell rang and I practically ran to the cafeteria. As soon as I saw Emmett, my heart soared and I practically floated to our table in the back. But when I got to him, he wasn't smiling. All light in his face was gone. I noticed that some of his guy friends were sitting with him, and they all looked like they were ready to watch a fight. Little did I know, that is exactly what they were there for.

"We need to talk," he said. I nodded my head and sat down next to him. He sighed, and his next words will forever haunt me. "I don't want to do this anymore, Rose. I don't want you, I don't want this relationship, I don't want this commitment, I'm done."

My world stopped and began spinning all at the same time. My breathing increased. I could feel the panic rising and falling in my throat. "What? But this morning…this morning you said you loved me?"

Regret flashed across Emmett's face and then disappeared. If I didn't know him like the back of my own hand, I wouldn't have seen that look of regret. "I never said I loved you."

"Yes you did!" my voice began to rise. This isn't real! My mind screamed at me.

A sickening laugh escaped Emmett's mouth. "God, you're pathetic. If I ever told you I loved you, it was probably so I could fuck you." While my heart broke, Emmett's friends laughed in glee. They found this hilarious. Emmett looked at them and awkwardly chuckled along.

"Shut the fuck up!" I yelled at them. This only made them laugh harder. I turned to Emmett with pleading eyes. "Emmett, you do love me. How can you lie like this? Just this morning we were perfect."

"You made my life hell. You're like a dark storm cloud hovering above me. I don't want you anymore." Just as he said this, Edward and Alice joined us. Jasper and Bella were nowhere to be found. I knew Edward and Alice would never get involved, but I needed Bella. I knew she wouldn't get involved either, but at least she would get rid of Emmett's friends.

"Emmett, please," I began to cry. "Don't leave me. I can make things better. I can make you happy again. Whatever you want, I'll do it. Please, just don't leave me. You're all I have."

Pain flashed across his face. "There's nothing you can do. I want someone else."

"Who?" I cried out hysterically. "I can guarantee you she could never love you the way I do. She could never understand you the way I do. She could never be as patient with you as I am."

"You? Patient? Understanding? Just listen to yourself Rosalie. You're pathetic. Quit the hysterics. I'm not going to fall for you trying to manipulate me into dating you again."

"I'm not trying to manipulate you!" I yelled. By now the entire cafeteria was watching us. I didn't care. "All I want is my loving boyfriend back. I want to be with you and marry you and spend the rest of my life with you."

"Christ, it's just a high school relationship. I was never going to marry you." Emmett and his laughing friends started to get up and walk away. I quickly grabbed on to Emmett's backpack and held him back. His face was completely stone cold, but his eyes told a different story. His eyes were sad and apologetic. He didn't mean a word he said. He tried pulling away from my grasp. Then I did the one thing I never thought I would ever do. I got on my knees and begged. "Please don't leave me. Please. I want to go back to how we were this morning. Remember when you told me no matter what you would love me? Remember last night when you came over and we watched movies and cuddled all day? Do you remember that? Do you remember how happy we were? How could you say you don't love me after everything we've been through? Please, I'll do whatever it takes."

His friends started making jokes about me being on my knees, but I paid them no attention. There was no one else in this room who mattered more than Emmett. He looked down at me in disgust and started to walk away. I grabbed his hand, and I felt him hold my hand back. I felt his fingers wrap around mine and give them a squeeze. But as soon as his friends looked at our hands, Emmett was gone. He pulled away and walked out of the room, leaving me on the floor sobbing and weeping the hardest I've ever cried before in my life.

I felt a hand on my shoulder, and I looked up, hoping it was Emmett. Instead it was Alice. Her and Edward stood up from the table to help pick me off the ground. They gave everyone watching death glares. Half of the people looked on in amusement, the other half pity. I looked around and saw Emmett reappear. He walked over to the lunch counter and grabbed a bag of chips. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Edward walk away from me and go back to the table. Emmett and I made eye contact. His eyes were full of resentment, apologies, and hurt. I knew in that moment he never meant a word he said to me today. Suddenly our eye contact was broken when Edward dumped an entire carton of milk on Emmett's head. The entire cafeteria laughed as both boys glared at each other. Edward was about to say something when Emmett hurried out of the cafeteria. Edward turned back to me and gave me a sheepish smile. I didn't care. My heart was too broken to care.

Alice picked me up and practically carried me to the bathroom. Alice was completely silent the entire time. I could hear another girl in the bathroom crying. I didn't want to disturb her or compare whose day sucks more, so I quickly walked in, grabbed some paper towels, and walked out. I stood with my back pressed against the wall and slowly sank down to the floor. I put my head in between my knees and cried. Alice held me while I cried and whispered comforting things in my ear.

I felt a hand nudge my shoulder. I looked up and through blurred, teary vision saw Jasper and Edward standing awkwardly above me. Both boys offered me soft Kleenex to dry my tears. I managed a smile and thanked them. "Where's Bella?" Alice asked.

I saw Jasper cringe at the mention of Bella. I feel really guilty about this, but at the time I didn't care. I didn't care that him and Bella were having problems. At least Jasper would never humiliate Bella in public. "She's around here somewhere," Edward said. I love Edward. He's one of the nicest guys in the entire world. I wish Bella would give him a chance. Bella and Jasper are great together, but they don't make any sense. Jasper loves to share his feelings while Bella barely admits she has a pulse. Bella and Edward make perfect sense. Edward doesn't push and he's always there to lend a shy, silent shoulder, something Bella desperately needs.

The bell rang, and all three of my friends had to help me up. Alice made sure my makeup was perfect before I walked out of the corner we were in. All three gave me a hug before we walked in our separate directions. God, I love my friends.

I didn't see Emmett for the rest of the day. He made sure to avoid me. Every time he saw me, he would turn in the other direction. His friends liked to laugh and point at me as I walked by. I will never understand how people can be so mean. At the end of the day, Emmett pealed out of the parking lot so fast he left a cloud of dust behind. Alice offered me a ride before I could look in her general direction. I silently got into Edward's car before I burst into tears. The entire ride to Edward and Alice's house was completely silent aside from my sobbing.

I could tell something was bothering Bella when we finally got to Alice's house. I really wanted to care, I really did, but I couldn't. There was no part of my heart left to care. Alice ordered pizza, and Bella offered to sit downstairs to wait for it. I think she just wanted an excuse to get away from me. I wasn't good enough for Emmett, and I was now becoming not good enough for Bella. I told Alice this and she quickly denied this.

"No, Bella's just upset. Jasper broke up with her too at lunch. That's why she wasn't there. Bella really does care, I just think she wants to talk about her break up too."

I breathed a sigh of relief. "Oh. That makes sense. I feel a little better now. Well, not entirely."

Alice forced a small smile. "I'm sure Emmett will apologize tomorrow. I know he was rough on you, but he's never mad at you for too long."

"Alice," I said slowly. "He's not going to apologize. If this was just another break up, he wouldn't have done it in public, and he wouldn't have been that cruel. This was for real. I think his friends put him up to it. Did you see the way they were laughing at watching us? They knew this was going to happen."

Alice was at a loss for words. That's a first. "Either way. That wasn't right what they did. You didn't deserve that."

"No one does," I paused. "That was really sweet of Edward and Jasper. Edward and his milk and Jasper with the Kleenex. Thanks for being there for me."

"No problem," Alice smiled. "Where else would we be?"

"With Bella?"

"Bella would never let any of us in. That's why Jasper broke up with her."

It was silent for a while. "One of these days she's going to break," I said softly.

"Maybe," Alice pondered. "But this is Bella, and Bella doesn't break."